Wow, I haven't posted in a while have I.
Well, peeps, it's done.
Over.
I'm not happy about it, but it was necessary.
We were both miserable, and it was just bringing out the worst in both of us, which culminated in a nasty fight last night.
So it's done.
And oddly enough, I haven't cried.
And I think I might be at peace with it.
Then again... it's only been a day...
But I hope it sticks.
I'm hoping that someday we can at least be friendly, but at least I can finally realize that this had become toxic, and that it was making me a person that I don't want to be, and we need to not talk to each other for a WHILE. He may be great in some ways- but he's not great for me. At least not right now.
So...
Now it's time to re-claim my life, before the summer's over!
woohoo!!
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08/14/2007 20:39 #40544
turn over a new leaf08/07/2007 14:41 #40427
randomoCategory: random
Ok, so hodown's hello kitty story reminded me of some randomness.
Yesterday I was on the yahoo homepage, and in addition to the thai police/hello kitty story, they also had this one:
"Boy feels 'ripped off' by cougar attack"
basically this kid was attacked by a cougar, and is just pissed that it disrupted his vacation.
And another...
So there are some sick wealthy areas in my hometown.
Including this one 'estate', called Gray Craig. Growing up we knew some people that lived in the carriage house or something, but I've never been further than that and have never even seen the main house or anything. It's really fancy- 12 bedrooms and 24,000 sq ft or something like that.
In any case. Apparently Nicholas Cage just bought the place- for something like $16 million. My dad says it's been in the newspaper like every day.
Well this weekend my parents went to a party at some friends' house, which happens to be across the street, and a car carrier pulled up to unload SIX of his cars. Lamborghinis, Ferraris etc. Apparently he owns 14 houses or something, but I guess they think that since he's actually keeping some cars at this one, that he might actually be planning on spending some time there.
Not that I especially love Nicholas Cage, but I think he'd be the most famous person we've had live in town.
Yesterday I was on the yahoo homepage, and in addition to the thai police/hello kitty story, they also had this one:
"Boy feels 'ripped off' by cougar attack"
basically this kid was attacked by a cougar, and is just pissed that it disrupted his vacation.
And another...
So there are some sick wealthy areas in my hometown.
Including this one 'estate', called Gray Craig. Growing up we knew some people that lived in the carriage house or something, but I've never been further than that and have never even seen the main house or anything. It's really fancy- 12 bedrooms and 24,000 sq ft or something like that.
In any case. Apparently Nicholas Cage just bought the place- for something like $16 million. My dad says it's been in the newspaper like every day.
Well this weekend my parents went to a party at some friends' house, which happens to be across the street, and a car carrier pulled up to unload SIX of his cars. Lamborghinis, Ferraris etc. Apparently he owns 14 houses or something, but I guess they think that since he's actually keeping some cars at this one, that he might actually be planning on spending some time there.
Not that I especially love Nicholas Cage, but I think he'd be the most famous person we've had live in town.
lauren - 08/10/07 18:38
thanks for post it and the tip...left bank looks like a definite possibly, and im always more inclined when they have a website so i know what im dealing with. and no, i hadn't read that particular entry, but hello to a fellow animal lover!
thanks for post it and the tip...left bank looks like a definite possibly, and im always more inclined when they have a website so i know what im dealing with. and no, i hadn't read that particular entry, but hello to a fellow animal lover!
tinypliny - 08/09/07 21:57
and I share in leetee's kitchen envy. I bet that Cage character doesn't even cook. First the friend with the super awesome kitchen and non-existent cooking skills and now this celebrity with a totally non-deserved kitchen. *Pfffft*
and I share in leetee's kitchen envy. I bet that Cage character doesn't even cook. First the friend with the super awesome kitchen and non-existent cooking skills and now this celebrity with a totally non-deserved kitchen. *Pfffft*
leetee - 08/08/07 12:35
I have kitchen envy! Have i mentioned that i hate our kitchen lately? Well, i do.
I have kitchen envy! Have i mentioned that i hate our kitchen lately? Well, i do.
metalpeter - 08/07/07 20:04
Nicholas Cage is awesome. Not that I know him or anything but I like his acting style and that he comes off kinda odd, but that is just me.
Nicholas Cage is awesome. Not that I know him or anything but I like his acting style and that he comes off kinda odd, but that is just me.
hodown - 08/07/07 16:42
Can you blame the kid? I'd be pissed too if my vacation was ruined (actually I think this is really funny and an example of what idiots people are. He not glad to be alive, but irritated by a ruined vacation)
Can you blame the kid? I'd be pissed too if my vacation was ruined (actually I think this is really funny and an example of what idiots people are. He not glad to be alive, but irritated by a ruined vacation)
08/05/2007 11:42 #40387
what a shitty nightCategory: :(
Sigh...
I'm in yet another of those horrible "woe is me nobody loves me" moods and I hate it.
But I've also been told that it's "very unattractive" to whine about it...
So I'll spare you the details-
I'll just say that I jumped through many hoops, turned down invitations, and pissed off friends and family to get this weekend off to help my 'friend' with his charity event out of town. Not to mention it was his birthday and I was hoping to spend it with him.
And then he left without me, and wouldn't answer his phone for the rest of the day.
So I had this long-anticipated entire weekend off...
alone...
in Buffalo...
The glorious grand finale was when my friends had to escort me out of mother's at 1am in a full-blown crying jag. Blotch-faced, snot-nosed, blubbering tears. In the middle of Mother's.
LOVELY.
And the thing is, i'm not even sure what triggered it. Well I have a clue.
I fucking hate boys.
But I love them.
Or at least one of them.
And he couldn't care less.
And it hurts.
:(
I'm in yet another of those horrible "woe is me nobody loves me" moods and I hate it.
But I've also been told that it's "very unattractive" to whine about it...
So I'll spare you the details-
I'll just say that I jumped through many hoops, turned down invitations, and pissed off friends and family to get this weekend off to help my 'friend' with his charity event out of town. Not to mention it was his birthday and I was hoping to spend it with him.
And then he left without me, and wouldn't answer his phone for the rest of the day.
So I had this long-anticipated entire weekend off...
alone...
in Buffalo...
The glorious grand finale was when my friends had to escort me out of mother's at 1am in a full-blown crying jag. Blotch-faced, snot-nosed, blubbering tears. In the middle of Mother's.
LOVELY.
And the thing is, i'm not even sure what triggered it. Well I have a clue.
I fucking hate boys.
But I love them.
Or at least one of them.
And he couldn't care less.
And it hurts.
:(
chicoschica - 08/08/07 09:40
jenks -
you and me
we need to TALK
(i think we're leading parallel lives)
HONestly.....
hang in there....
jenks -
you and me
we need to TALK
(i think we're leading parallel lives)
HONestly.....
hang in there....
hodown - 08/07/07 16:44
I'm so sorry. Seriously I don't understand why dudes are not banging down your door. Youre a doctor, super cute- clearly theres something wrong with this picture!
I'm so sorry. Seriously I don't understand why dudes are not banging down your door. Youre a doctor, super cute- clearly theres something wrong with this picture!
joshua - 08/07/07 14:48
This is an obvious question but I have to ask it anyway. Did he invite you?
This is an obvious question but I have to ask it anyway. Did he invite you?
leetee - 08/06/07 10:04
Yeah, i agree with everyone else... except for the slapping you or hitting you stuff.
Why you are willing to put up with someone treating you so badly is puzzling to me. This is the time in the relationship when any guy should be trying to win you over, courting you and convincing you to be with him.
I so hope it's not because you think that's the best you can get!! Or that you don't deserve any better!
I've been there, way too many times with me being head over heels with the guy that doesn't feel the same about me. It hurts. It kills. It tortures. But staying with him only makes it worse. And whittles away your self esteem while doing it.
So? Whatcha waiting for? Dump him now or you will have a bunch of (e:strip)pers willing to do the deed for you... and i bet most of us will be a lot less nice!
Yeah, i agree with everyone else... except for the slapping you or hitting you stuff.
Why you are willing to put up with someone treating you so badly is puzzling to me. This is the time in the relationship when any guy should be trying to win you over, courting you and convincing you to be with him.
I so hope it's not because you think that's the best you can get!! Or that you don't deserve any better!
I've been there, way too many times with me being head over heels with the guy that doesn't feel the same about me. It hurts. It kills. It tortures. But staying with him only makes it worse. And whittles away your self esteem while doing it.
So? Whatcha waiting for? Dump him now or you will have a bunch of (e:strip)pers willing to do the deed for you... and i bet most of us will be a lot less nice!
jason - 08/06/07 09:17
Time to cut your losses!
Time to cut your losses!
drew - 08/06/07 07:44
I concur.
I concur.
tinypliny - 08/06/07 02:40
?? Is this the bloke of the text-dump infamy? I thought it was over for good. How could you expect any responsible behaviour from such a human-wasteland?
?? Is this the bloke of the text-dump infamy? I thought it was over for good. How could you expect any responsible behaviour from such a human-wasteland?
museumchick - 08/05/07 14:50
- hug* I'm sorry the boy was such an asshat, but I agree that you don't need to hang around guys like that.
lilho - 08/05/07 12:10
stop investing time into these losers!!!!!!!!!!! im with (e:ladycroft). you need toget this crap out of your system, and if i was there, i was personally slap you. this guy is treating you like crap, and your being disrespectful to yourself! do you really want a guy that treats you like crap??? you have a lot to offer, and if he cant appreciate it, there are plenty of other people out there who will. im about to make some banana bread with chocolate chips, and if you were here, id sit you down with a slice, and some milk, and convince you to forget about this guy, and then we'd go out and have some fun. so, do something nice for yourself today! and dont worry about it!
stop investing time into these losers!!!!!!!!!!! im with (e:ladycroft). you need toget this crap out of your system, and if i was there, i was personally slap you. this guy is treating you like crap, and your being disrespectful to yourself! do you really want a guy that treats you like crap??? you have a lot to offer, and if he cant appreciate it, there are plenty of other people out there who will. im about to make some banana bread with chocolate chips, and if you were here, id sit you down with a slice, and some milk, and convince you to forget about this guy, and then we'd go out and have some fun. so, do something nice for yourself today! and dont worry about it!
mrmike - 08/05/07 12:01
For what it's worth, I'm sorry about the situation. You're very invested and he can't seem to give a shit. That kind of thing is what gives my gender a bad name. I can only imagine that frustration. The true friends know what started it. We all want that feeling of getting excited to see somebody, your heart skipping a beat as you got closer to the door, etc.
Doesn't sound like this is meant to be and sounds more like you are torturing yourself into believing he'll suddenly change or realize just how good he has it.
Cut him loose and cut yourself some slack
For what it's worth, I'm sorry about the situation. You're very invested and he can't seem to give a shit. That kind of thing is what gives my gender a bad name. I can only imagine that frustration. The true friends know what started it. We all want that feeling of getting excited to see somebody, your heart skipping a beat as you got closer to the door, etc.
Doesn't sound like this is meant to be and sounds more like you are torturing yourself into believing he'll suddenly change or realize just how good he has it.
Cut him loose and cut yourself some slack
ladycroft - 08/05/07 11:57
if i had a board i'd smack on the head with it. he's your cocaine. cocaine is bad for you. life won't get any better until you quit it. it's not impossible, it just hurts until you feel better :)
if i had a board i'd smack on the head with it. he's your cocaine. cocaine is bad for you. life won't get any better until you quit it. it's not impossible, it just hurts until you feel better :)
08/02/2007 10:54 #40355
PSA for the veggies...So I just found this menu laying around for an all-vegetarian indian place-
Palace of Dosas, on 656 Millersport (between sheridan and eggert)
www.palaceofdosas.com
Menu sounds good... Figured I'd pass it on.
Palace of Dosas, on 656 Millersport (between sheridan and eggert)
www.palaceofdosas.com
Menu sounds good... Figured I'd pass it on.
07/28/2007 18:15 #40284
third post of the dayOk guys, any opinions?
Photobucket vs flickr vs picasa
Flickr has a nice little iphoto plugin to upload easily.
I think picasa might too, but I haven't tried it yet
And I like how in photobucket it gives all the links for embedding pix in blogs, forums, websites etc- you just click and it automatically copies it.
I don't know if the others do that.
Does anyone use these?
Pros/cons?
Thanks
Photobucket vs flickr vs picasa
Flickr has a nice little iphoto plugin to upload easily.
I think picasa might too, but I haven't tried it yet
And I like how in photobucket it gives all the links for embedding pix in blogs, forums, websites etc- you just click and it automatically copies it.
I don't know if the others do that.
Does anyone use these?
Pros/cons?
Thanks
joshua - 08/03/07 10:38
Hmm. I've always used Photobucket and have never had any complaints.... and as such I've never bothered to try any of the others.
I think I'll try Flickr and see how it goes, just for kicks! (woop)
Hmm. I've always used Photobucket and have never had any complaints.... and as such I've never bothered to try any of the others.
I think I'll try Flickr and see how it goes, just for kicks! (woop)
museumchick - 07/30/07 02:54
I liked Flickr, though a lot of people I know swear by photobucket.
I liked Flickr, though a lot of people I know swear by photobucket.
tinypliny - 07/29/07 00:56
I like Photobucket and I like Picasa too. Picasa has additional photo manipulation tools which are really handy and simple to use. I haven't tried Flickr out yet.
I like Photobucket and I like Picasa too. Picasa has additional photo manipulation tools which are really handy and simple to use. I haven't tried Flickr out yet.
ajay - 07/28/07 18:28
FLICKR!!!
Screw Photobucket; it's spammy.
And Picasa is owned by Goo(evil)gle; need I say more?
FLICKR!!!
Screw Photobucket; it's spammy.
And Picasa is owned by Goo(evil)gle; need I say more?
happy de-toxing!
THANK YOU!
My advice that I gave to you previously in your post labled "boo" I said
"Don't be heartbroken. This guy clearly has a disregard for your feelings, and you don't deserve that."
I think it still applies. Maybe that isn't the same advice as Josh? I feel like I said something similar to you like maybe at the beach or something. I don't know.
I think you made the right choice. I hope everything turns out in a way that makes you happy:).
Hallelujah!
I was wondering what you were upto. No posts usually is a bad sign with you... ;-)
Welcome to the single community. You will find many perks to being a member.
Good for you. It's a positive for you in the long run
congrats?!? I'm sure life will be better once you reclaim it for yourself! Pictures of me in my glasses are coming soon...though i don't like them as much now that I have them!