I had a lovely dream last night and in that dream (e:Joshua) visited me again. Still sporting that blazing white suit and shiny blue tie like the first time he came to check in (and each subsequent visit). I love the warmth and instant fuzzy feeling I get. I can never actually hear him but I get a 'knowing' that he's telling me the world looks like a pile of shite right now but keep looking for all the beauty and peace and goodness. It's there.

Just dipping my toe in the water after a 7 year hiatus. I wonder if anyone is still here? What's with all these CPR ads (e:Paul)? Hoping everyone is staying safe.

Cheers for now!

As we say good-bye to 2013 and hello to 2014, I wish you joy that never ends and happiness with all your family and friends.

Reflection:

Where were you and who were you with when 2013 began?
In my bed with Rory, waking up just in time to watch London fireworks on TV. Tobie asleep.

Where will you be and who will you be with when 2013 ends?
Going to watch fireworks at 7pm, then back home for cuddles with Tobie and once again in my bed with Rory, waking up just in time to watch London fireworks on TV - unless Tobie is still awake.

Was 2013 a good year for you?
It was a bit tiring but overall, yes.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Finally getting to take Tobie to the US to meet his grandparents, cousins and Aunties and Uncle.

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
One of the vomit/poo fests Tobie had. Take your pick.

Did you reach your New Year goals for 2013?
Some.

-Continue to lose weight- I did, up until I found out I was pregnant again.

-Travel to the US with Tobie to meet family- Yes!

-Read the 3 books waiting in line to be read- 2 out of 3 ain't bad.

-Buy an awesome bicycle with a basket and bell and take some lovely rides with Tobie- No. But someone gave me a functional bike that I hope to use next year.

-Move house closer to London- No. With the discovery of my second pregnancy this was not in the cards.

-Let people know how much they mean to me even though they've grown distant- I feel I've done my best with this.

-Be the best wifey and mother I can be and never let a day go without telling Rory and Tobie how much I love them- Yes!

What was your favorite month of 2013?
May - finding out number 2 was on the way.

Did you travel in 2013?
Got to go home to the US and while part of the UK (for now at least) we spent Christmas in Scotland, which was a nice change of scenery!

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2013?
No.

What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2013?
The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug

What was your favorite song in 2013?

What was your most exciting moment of 2013?

What was your proudest moment of 2013?
Watching Tobie make developmental leaps.

What are your goals for 2014?

-If possible, have a water birth with 'Squirrel'

-Travel to the US with Tobie, 'Squirrel' and Rory to celebrate our 5 year anniversary.

-Get a chariot for my bike to take Tobie and 'Squirrel' for rides

-Find new ways to express myself to cope with being a mother of 2 little ones.

- Continue to let people know how much they mean to me even though they don't stay in touch much.

- Be the best wifey and mother I can be and never let a day go without telling Rory, Tobie and 'Squirrel' how much I love them.

Cheers to a happy new year!

Home in the UK now. The flight felt super long because Tobie decided the middle of the night was the best time to stay awake despite how tired he was.

Didn't get a chance before I left to say what an epeepaganza Sunday was. Went into town to meet up with (e:Springfaerie) for coffee, popped over to 7 Eleven to grab water and snacks and ran into (e:Drew), met up with (e:Theecarey) and other folks to watch the last show of Hamlet at Shakespeare in the park and while there saw (e:Enknot). Crazy day!

I've got a few pics of my lovely trip home. Had a great time relaxing with family and letting Tobie get to know his grandparents. I didn't like having to come back, it felt too soon.....

I'm coming home for a nice long visit with the little monkey. (Rory will join us for a few weeks). If you'd like to meet up get in touch :)

We're still waiting for Spring to arrive over here, but at least when the sun is out you can pretend! Here is Tobie marveling at the ocean on his first seaside outing.