I turn on the TV and flip through the 250 channels but nothing is on. I go into the kitchen and look at shelves full of food but I find nothing to eat.
My sister made me burn this song for her. You gotta love dolly's hard candy Christmas.

Hey, maybe I'll dye my hair
Maybe I'll move somewhere
Maybe I'll get a car
Maybe I'll drive so far
They'll all lose track
Me, I'll bounce right back
Maybe I'll sleep real late
Maybe I'll lose some weight
Maybe I'll clear my junk
Maybe I'll just get drunk on apple wine
Me, I'll be just

Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow get me way down

Hey, maybe I'll learn to sew
Maybe I'll just lie low
Maybe I'll hit the bars
Maybe I'll count the stars until dawn
Me, I will go on

Maybe I'll settle down
Maybe I'll just leave town
Maybe I'll have some fun
Maybe I'll meet someone
And make him mine
Me, I'll be just

Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting throung tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down

'cause I'll be fine
(I'll be fine)
Oh, I'll be fine

I'll be back in Buffalo at 11 tomorrow. Perhaps I will feel more normal once I get back to my little apartment on Normal. Maybe I'll see some of y'all at the pink this Wednesday!

Kiah is really into drawing pictures these days. She drew my friend Courtney with her boyfriend Keith and said "Look this is Courtney with her big hair blowing in the wind." I can't find that drawing though. Here are some photo's.

Me, Courtney and Kiah


Courtney and her boy


Courtney and her boy on Daddy's bush hog


little miss Kiah fixing her own ice cream because she is a big girl about to start school so she can do it herself.


So France is in my Buffalo apartment and I'll be flying to Germany on Monday. I've been fixing my car up for Mawmaw. I have 6 books to read and some of them are huge. One is a linguistic history of the world.
I asked Kiah to draw a picture of us holding hands but she says she keeps messing up. I'm ready to go. I need to pack my shit. I'm ready for a change, being at home seeing my childhood friends is nice but there are some things you just can't go back to because they'll never be the same. Kiah is still working on the drawing. If she'll get it done I'll scan it and post it. I walked down the trail to my brother's hose a little while ago. little Lea is such a sweetie, whenI don't scare her anyway.

Here is Kiah's drawing of us. I think she's good.