05/05/06 10:23 - 55ºF - ID#33690

tha flo of tha stank

here is a link

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/05/06 08:01 - 48ºF - ID#33689

nobody knows the way i feel this mornin'

at the pink last night...

around 2 in the mornin' i was so drunk i left my bag in the bathroom. I quickly realized and went back to fetch it. As soon as I found it in the bathroom, i checked inside and realized my camera was missing so i sat on the floor and started crying. 2 women were in there. they went into a stall and one by one returned my things to me, first my keys, then my camera, then my tape, all in the guise of "we just found this". I have some footage from sitting on the floor. More women came in and joined me on the floor, started bitching about romantic relationships. needless to say i left shortly thereafter.
thanks for coming y'all who showed up. silly night there, can't wait till Saturday.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/04/06 03:43 - 69ºF - ID#33688

get my nerves on

I'm getting nervous now. Maybe I'll throw up right on the floor at Hallwalls.
Hope to see y'all at 8.
beware the bloody hernias.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/03/06 06:07 - 67ºF - ID#33687

going insane

I'm going around the clock. I have 3 hours to get this reel together. Then I head to soyeon's house. She is having a party lil b-day thing for some art grads and I'm going to dub my shit out to mini-dv while I'm there. Then there is a possibility that I could get drunk. Considering the fact I've been awake for over 24 hours, again... I'm not sure if that would be wise. I'll be so happy when this is over an done and I'm sitting in some weird art place in Greensboro, NC, sweating my vulva off, thinking "what now?"
I've been making audio today. It's insane. My throat hurts. Y'all ever heard my preachin' voice? I'm up to 2 or 3 packs of Marlboro reds a day. This I blame on Courtney. She brought back all my teenage angst. Damn I should go live on her couch in Portland. Ok, enough rant I'm going back to editing. Time to fuck with Schopenhauer, hehe. I enjoy making fun of the dead.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/03/06 03:33 - 49ºF - ID#33686

haircut day

tom just sent me a few pics from when Arzu cut my hair(she beat you to it Lil ho), last Easter Sunday. It's the middle of the afternoon for me. I'm going to be editing video all night. You (e:peeps) had best come out to Hallwalls on Thursday to see my screening... or else, yeah.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/30/06 11:47 - 59ºF - ID#33685

research

my serious academic research lead me to this

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/30/06 07:40 - 46ºF - ID#33684

men are scary

I walk alone at night. Usually a few blocks down to the 24 hour Walgreens to get smokes. At least once or twice a month I get hit on by some man from his car. What is creepy is that the last two times it happened, at first I thought the guy was someone I knew so I slowed down to look.
Tonight, or this morning, when it happened I was only a few steps from my house. This man did a U turn and pulled up beside me. I thought it was Chris, my neighbor, so I slowed down. Then I saw it was a complete stranger. He asked me "Where are you going" and I told him "home." Then he asked "where do you live" so I turned away and said "see ya."
Am I a paranoid freak for thinking that this man was insane if he thought I would get into the car with him?
Do any of you men have this problem with unwanted attention from drivers when you are a pedestrian?
Do any of you try to give strange women rides in the middle of the night?
I've been thinking about women's fear of men and wondering about the logic of it.
In the video class I teach it's not uncommon to encounter misogynistic videos made by young men. The last one made me think. Why do young men want to make films that depict violence towards women?
and now...
Why am I afraid to get a ride with a strange man?

kookcity2000 writes at 10:14:30 04/30/06 - Comment #7275: I guess it doesn't really matter if all men are creeps. The only thing that counted was if the one guy that did a u-turn was.

Yer feelins were saying big-time he was a creep.
Thinking about it long enough, our big brains can fool themselves (was he a creep, was I wrong to be creeped out, etc.)

jason writes at 04:08:42 04/30/06 - Comment #7254: I'm sure your teachers are trying to get you to think "Oh, well, this is how men think, they are all nasty and violent." And so you think about this in your everyday life.

I will inject some reality - The vast majority of men wouldn't dream of being violent toward a female. The others....stay away. Always good to be cautious.

mrdt writes at 02:47:00 04/30/06 - Comment #7251: actually when I was in Florida I rented a brand new convertible Ford Mustang. On my last night in Ft Lauderdale I was driving along the A1A with the top down and tunes blasting and passed some girls who started screaming and throwing their arms around to get me to pull over. I thought what the hell so I pulled over and the asked me for a ride to the hotel we were both staying in. They seemed friendly and really drunk. and really young.

metalpeter writes at 11:39:15 04/30/06 - Comment #7246: I can Honestly say that a female has never asked me to get into her car, and no one problably ever will. I have herd that hookers used to patrol Niagara and that part of elmwood right around Walgreens and that Hotel can be kinda sketchy sometimes and I have heard some crazy things go on at the Lenox. So I'm guessing that is what that guy was up to but who knows. Maybe he was just a nice guy or maybe a serial killer who knows.

libertad writes at 10:43:46 04/30/06 - Comment #7244: Come here little girl. I got some candy for you.

zobar writes at 09:10:51 04/30/06 - Comment #7241: Do any of you men have this problem with unwanted attention from drivers when you are a pedestrian?

Yeah. Cab drivers.

- Z

mrmike writes at 08:59:51 04/30/06 - Comment #7239: That's good caution tempered with a little fear. There is no way to tell what folks are truly thinking in those situations nor what makes those folks think the way they do. Lord knows that Walgreens has some characters. You're wise to avoid em

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04/28/06 11:41 - 44ºF - ID#33683

Stills

Here is a link to a corny still image I made form all the stills I gathered to include in my thesis. I wonder.... I'm I too fucking self absorbed? Should I throw in other people's work? nah

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: focus on the negativ

04/28/06 07:45 - 53ºF - ID#33682

bummed out

I feel bummed out. I'll be here in my apartment all weekend working and I'm not even sure if that work will be enough to get me out. My Mom wrote to say that it is just her and my Dad coming for commencement, no Kiah. Tony writes to say he probably can't make it to my show Thursday. Arzu and Liz are off getting tattoos abut I'm to scared of permanence and needles to join them. I feel tired. I'm almost flat broke and will be late with my rent this month. There are things going on at Squeaky Wheel tonight but I can't go because I need to edit and write. I'm about to walk to the store for some smokes. I wrote my old flatmate in Weimar an e-mail and he wrote back, making me sad for some reason. My kitchen is still covered in white dust.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/27/06 08:41 - 53ºF - ID#33681

burning down the house

Tuesday night I decided to make myself a pot of coffee. Simple enough but I turned on the wrong oven eye. The eye that I did turn on had a pizza pan with a bag of nachos and an over mitt on top of it. I went into the living room and started watching Top Model (trying to get a glimpse into the lives of beautiful women.) When I looked over into the kitchen I could see a sparkly orange color flashing. I ran into the kitchen grabbed the fire extinguisher (something I've always wanted to do) and sprayed that shit down. It smoked up the house
Now it's two days later and my kitchen is covered in white dust and I don't have any nachos. I just made a microwave meal, thinking that I at least wiped off the microwave, but when i took the tray out it got white stuff all over my lap. I ate the food anyway. I wonder if that'll make me sick.
The thesis shit is going. I'll be working all weekend but I'm thinking to go to Hallwalls Sat night and watch some films about hysteric women. Anybody want to go wit me?.

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