mobile01/28/06 02:53 - 44ºF - ID#33632
tonight round' 10 or 11 I'm going to
HEAD OVER TO SQUEAKY WHEEL FOR THE RESOLUTIONS AFTER PARTY (712 Main St.)
Featuring a performance by HEADLESS BABY + 3 and installations by Stephan Apicella-Hitchcock; Gregg Biermann; Brandon Blommaert; Jax DeLuca; Stephanie Maxwell in collaboration with Peter Byrne and Allan Schindler; Mike Olenick; Julie Perini; and Rozi Peters.
Featuring a performance by HEADLESS BABY + 3 and installations by Stephan Apicella-Hitchcock; Gregg Biermann; Brandon Blommaert; Jax DeLuca; Stephanie Maxwell in collaboration with Peter Byrne and Allan Schindler; Mike Olenick; Julie Perini; and Rozi Peters.
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Words: 46
Location: Buffalo, NY
Category: everyday
01/24/06 10:43 - 36ºF - ID#33631
so i thought I could cook
and I burned the stuff, the fucking dried tomatoes. How is one supposed to cook those things? Then the smoke detector in my bedroom went off and in a few moments I will head down to the pink smelling of garlic and onions. At least that should keep the vampires away.
I hear it will snow and be cold. I've really got to sort out this bureaucratic car stuff. I guess I'll be waking up early, watching it's a Different World and the Cosby show then walking my happy ass to the metro station.
Today on the shuttle bus to north campus I was noticing the smell of people on public transport. I could so smell the garlic on my fingers. Then I could smell the waves of musk from the boy new to me. It was unpleasant musk. I hate that. I wish I could love every smell. Let's think of the 5 senses. Ok, It is possible to hear good and bad sounds, smell good and bad smells, taste good and bad taste, see good and bad sites, and touch good and bad materials. It's strange that something that taste good doesn't necessarily smell good and so on. What a deceitful world we live in.
I hear it will snow and be cold. I've really got to sort out this bureaucratic car stuff. I guess I'll be waking up early, watching it's a Different World and the Cosby show then walking my happy ass to the metro station.
Today on the shuttle bus to north campus I was noticing the smell of people on public transport. I could so smell the garlic on my fingers. Then I could smell the waves of musk from the boy new to me. It was unpleasant musk. I hate that. I wish I could love every smell. Let's think of the 5 senses. Ok, It is possible to hear good and bad sounds, smell good and bad smells, taste good and bad taste, see good and bad sites, and touch good and bad materials. It's strange that something that taste good doesn't necessarily smell good and so on. What a deceitful world we live in.
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Words: 206
Location: Buffalo, NY
01/20/06 08:03 - 44ºF - ID#33630
thanks tennille whoever u r
germany has changed the way i eat but for how long? i so had a philly cheesesteak today so i'm already slipping.
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Words: 26
Location: Buffalo, NY
Category: orgasms
01/19/06 01:54 - 36ºF - ID#33629
Masturbation and sex
Orgasms feel like butterflies flying. The convulsions in the vaginal canal, you know?It's like fluttering wings I imagine. I wonder what is the relation between the convulsions of an orgasm and the contractions of labor?
Sadly enough I've never noticed any vaginal spasms while actually having sex with a guy. I rarely have orgasms during sex and when I do they're not so great because I'm so distracted with this other person. It's difficult for me to concentrate on my own body. What is the force of this subtle spasm as compared with the weight of the old in and out? I'm cool with this because the best part of sex with someone is not actually orgasm but getting there, ha-ha, or in my case attempting to get there.
I want to understand guy's orgasms. What man would ever want to have sex without having an orgasm? Hmm... sounds like a man I'd like to meet.
I wonder, does pump pump pump explode get boring for everyone or just me. It's such a predictable cycle; it turns sex into masturbation, kind of... from my view. Masturbation is good but you always know the final result. The intensity of orgasm can vary but it is only degrees of the same thing.
Maybe some of you men can tell be how you feel during an orgasm? I've known a few guys who after their orgasm seem to become full of doubt. Is that common? I usually just feel like having a cigarette.
Sadly enough I've never noticed any vaginal spasms while actually having sex with a guy. I rarely have orgasms during sex and when I do they're not so great because I'm so distracted with this other person. It's difficult for me to concentrate on my own body. What is the force of this subtle spasm as compared with the weight of the old in and out? I'm cool with this because the best part of sex with someone is not actually orgasm but getting there, ha-ha, or in my case attempting to get there.
I want to understand guy's orgasms. What man would ever want to have sex without having an orgasm? Hmm... sounds like a man I'd like to meet.
I wonder, does pump pump pump explode get boring for everyone or just me. It's such a predictable cycle; it turns sex into masturbation, kind of... from my view. Masturbation is good but you always know the final result. The intensity of orgasm can vary but it is only degrees of the same thing.
Maybe some of you men can tell be how you feel during an orgasm? I've known a few guys who after their orgasm seem to become full of doubt. Is that common? I usually just feel like having a cigarette.
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Words: 251
Location: Buffalo, NY
01/18/06 04:30 - 31ºF - ID#33628
sorry hos
i'm so tired, totally jet lagged and drank half a bottle of cold medicine this morning. I've been awake since 5:30. I'm at north campus waiting around for rzoo to finish up so I can try to hitch a ride home. I want to have a long nap and go over to the pink after that. I have some drinking buddies I need to catch up with. I can't wait to have a chicken sandwich from the pink. Come on out y'all!
What an easy day for my students. I kept them here for 30 minutes. That is all. Monday will be serious, ha ha. It's time to animate some shit (not literally). I plan on making some really silly demos. I think this is going to be a fun class. I was happy to force register a girl. I love boys and everything but I have to wonder why my classes are always so predominately male. Don't woman want to make movies, express themselves? It is strange that there are so many female grad students but so few female undergrads, at least in my area. What is up with that?
I feel like I'm back at home, back at my institution. I feel a million miles from weimar and it makes me sad because even though there were less people who cared about me there, I felt as though I had more space to follow my desires, less responsibilities. One thing I realized in weimar is how much I love teaching. I hope these students don't think I'm to much of a flake after the brief performance I gave them today. Well, I told them I'm insane and if they can't deal with it...run.
What an easy day for my students. I kept them here for 30 minutes. That is all. Monday will be serious, ha ha. It's time to animate some shit (not literally). I plan on making some really silly demos. I think this is going to be a fun class. I was happy to force register a girl. I love boys and everything but I have to wonder why my classes are always so predominately male. Don't woman want to make movies, express themselves? It is strange that there are so many female grad students but so few female undergrads, at least in my area. What is up with that?
I feel like I'm back at home, back at my institution. I feel a million miles from weimar and it makes me sad because even though there were less people who cared about me there, I felt as though I had more space to follow my desires, less responsibilities. One thing I realized in weimar is how much I love teaching. I hope these students don't think I'm to much of a flake after the brief performance I gave them today. Well, I told them I'm insane and if they can't deal with it...run.
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Words: 284
Location: Buffalo, NY
01/18/06 06:54 - 43ºF - ID#33627
blah
Definitions of jet lag on the Web:
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* Condition resulting when travel across time zones leaves a person feeling "out of sync" with local time at his or her destination.
www.shuteye.com/glossary.asp
* A temporary disorder that causes fatigue, insomnia, and other symptoms as a result of rapid air travel across time zones.
www.sleepcompliance.com/html/glossary.htm
* A disturbance induced by a major rapid shift in environmental time during travel to a new time zone. Symptoms include fatigue, sleep and impaired alertness.
www.apneaboard.com/definitions.htm
* Definition: The tired, often disorienting way a passenger feels after traveling through many time zones in a short amount of time.
mayfee1.tripod.com/safejurnee/id28.html
* fatigue and sleep disturbance resulting from disruption of the body's normal circadian rhythm as a result of jet travel
wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
* Jet lag (or "jetlag"), also jet syndrome, is a physical condition caused by crossing time zones during flight. The condition is generally believed to be the result of disruption to the circadian rhythms (i.e. the "light/dark" cycle) of the body. It can also be exacerbated by experiencing sudden changes in climate or seasonal conditions, as well as the reduced oxygen, partial pressure, excess noise and low humidity commonly experienced in the cabin of an aircraft.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jet_lag[/size]
Good Morning everybody. I'm a little insane right now. I don't understand how I can have jet jag when I have such a fucked up sleeping pattern but I'm certain that I do. Eastwood says that sometimes it can take 10 days to get over. I didn't notice a problem when I flew into Berlin, or course at that time I went on a week long drinking binge that involved seeing the sun rise a few times. I keep having these dreams about people I met in weimar. Usually I'm in my hometown in GA in the dreams. that's weird.
Well, tonight is wednesday so I reckon I'm going to mosey on down to the pink round midnight. Looks like pink night could be moving to thursday due to the ladies teaching schedules. Speaking of teaching I have a course to teach at 1 today. Today is an easy day though so...
Unfortunately I ran up a huge library fine in my absence from UB. I've come to the conclusion that libraries are evil capitalist institutions. I should know for sure by tomorrow. It's time for me to take a bath, go have one of those feta spinach omelets at town diner and then off to the train to get to school. Eastwood gave me a car last night but I've got to get the title and inspection shit straight before I drive it.
My god! Ich habe eine gross hunger.
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* Condition resulting when travel across time zones leaves a person feeling "out of sync" with local time at his or her destination.
www.shuteye.com/glossary.asp
* A temporary disorder that causes fatigue, insomnia, and other symptoms as a result of rapid air travel across time zones.
www.sleepcompliance.com/html/glossary.htm
* A disturbance induced by a major rapid shift in environmental time during travel to a new time zone. Symptoms include fatigue, sleep and impaired alertness.
www.apneaboard.com/definitions.htm
* Definition: The tired, often disorienting way a passenger feels after traveling through many time zones in a short amount of time.
mayfee1.tripod.com/safejurnee/id28.html
* fatigue and sleep disturbance resulting from disruption of the body's normal circadian rhythm as a result of jet travel
wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn
* Jet lag (or "jetlag"), also jet syndrome, is a physical condition caused by crossing time zones during flight. The condition is generally believed to be the result of disruption to the circadian rhythms (i.e. the "light/dark" cycle) of the body. It can also be exacerbated by experiencing sudden changes in climate or seasonal conditions, as well as the reduced oxygen, partial pressure, excess noise and low humidity commonly experienced in the cabin of an aircraft.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jet_lag[/size]
Good Morning everybody. I'm a little insane right now. I don't understand how I can have jet jag when I have such a fucked up sleeping pattern but I'm certain that I do. Eastwood says that sometimes it can take 10 days to get over. I didn't notice a problem when I flew into Berlin, or course at that time I went on a week long drinking binge that involved seeing the sun rise a few times. I keep having these dreams about people I met in weimar. Usually I'm in my hometown in GA in the dreams. that's weird.
Well, tonight is wednesday so I reckon I'm going to mosey on down to the pink round midnight. Looks like pink night could be moving to thursday due to the ladies teaching schedules. Speaking of teaching I have a course to teach at 1 today. Today is an easy day though so...
Unfortunately I ran up a huge library fine in my absence from UB. I've come to the conclusion that libraries are evil capitalist institutions. I should know for sure by tomorrow. It's time for me to take a bath, go have one of those feta spinach omelets at town diner and then off to the train to get to school. Eastwood gave me a car last night but I've got to get the title and inspection shit straight before I drive it.
My god! Ich habe eine gross hunger.
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Words: 466
Location: Buffalo, NY
01/16/06 05:47 - 23ºF - ID#33626
i miss weimar
I really am going crazy. I want to see. I want to be there laying around, sleeping, getting drunk, getting in the way, staring at a screen, hearing familiar voices, seeing facial expressions change with the sounds from lips, occasionally making folks talk to me in English, watching vivi and schnigg put together a sink, glaring when something happens I disagree with, smiling when I feel happy.
Fuck
This is a different kind of isolation here on normal ave.. It's just no one is here, to make me smile, to piss me off, or even just to ignore each other. I have to readjust.
Fuck
This is a different kind of isolation here on normal ave.. It's just no one is here, to make me smile, to piss me off, or even just to ignore each other. I have to readjust.
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Words: 104
Location: Buffalo, NY
Category: adairsville
01/16/06 04:55 - 12ºF - ID#33625
mama and daddy's house
I turn on the TV and flip through the 250 channels but nothing is on. I go into the kitchen and look at shelves full of food but I find nothing to eat.
My sister made me burn this song for her. You gotta love dolly's hard candy Christmas.
Hey, maybe I'll dye my hair
Maybe I'll move somewhere
Maybe I'll get a car
Maybe I'll drive so far
They'll all lose track
Me, I'll bounce right back
Maybe I'll sleep real late
Maybe I'll lose some weight
Maybe I'll clear my junk
Maybe I'll just get drunk on apple wine
Me, I'll be just
Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow get me way down
Hey, maybe I'll learn to sew
Maybe I'll just lie low
Maybe I'll hit the bars
Maybe I'll count the stars until dawn
Me, I will go on
Maybe I'll settle down
Maybe I'll just leave town
Maybe I'll have some fun
Maybe I'll meet someone
And make him mine
Me, I'll be just
Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting throung tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
'cause I'll be fine
(I'll be fine)
Oh, I'll be fine
I'll be back in Buffalo at 11 tomorrow. Perhaps I will feel more normal once I get back to my little apartment on Normal. Maybe I'll see some of y'all at the pink this Wednesday!
My sister made me burn this song for her. You gotta love dolly's hard candy Christmas.
Hey, maybe I'll dye my hair
Maybe I'll move somewhere
Maybe I'll get a car
Maybe I'll drive so far
They'll all lose track
Me, I'll bounce right back
Maybe I'll sleep real late
Maybe I'll lose some weight
Maybe I'll clear my junk
Maybe I'll just get drunk on apple wine
Me, I'll be just
Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow get me way down
Hey, maybe I'll learn to sew
Maybe I'll just lie low
Maybe I'll hit the bars
Maybe I'll count the stars until dawn
Me, I will go on
Maybe I'll settle down
Maybe I'll just leave town
Maybe I'll have some fun
Maybe I'll meet someone
And make him mine
Me, I'll be just
Fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting throung tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
I'll be fine and dandy
Lord it's like a hard candy christmas
I'm barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won't let
Sorrow bring me way down
'cause I'll be fine
(I'll be fine)
Oh, I'll be fine
I'll be back in Buffalo at 11 tomorrow. Perhaps I will feel more normal once I get back to my little apartment on Normal. Maybe I'll see some of y'all at the pink this Wednesday!
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Words: 334
Location: Buffalo, NY
Category: last in weimar entry
01/09/06 11:04 - 35ºF - ID#33624
an hour of procrastination
Ok
So here
the famous,
The sleep of reason produces monsters
1797-98
Here is a further description of this plate.
Perhaps isolation has caused a slight alternation of my reason currently. I'm not so isolated in physical space as I am in mental. Soon that will be switched around. I will once again be able to comprehend the signs that signify mundane dinner conversation.
and here is a link to Goya's Black Painting series
I'm not a huge fan of old paintings but Goya is where I make an exception. When I was a child flipping through my daddy's art history book, "Art Throughout the Ages" a 1960's version; the one painting that always stood out to me was "Saturn Devouring His Children." I misread the title in my youth at thought it was titled "Satan Devouring His Children" and it frightened me so much because I was a child and I couldn't think of why anyone would want to eat me. I wonder why I didn't identify myself as a child of Jesus? I was saved and baptised after all. I knew. I already knew. God Damn
So here
the famous,
The sleep of reason produces monsters
1797-98
Here is a further description of this plate.
Perhaps isolation has caused a slight alternation of my reason currently. I'm not so isolated in physical space as I am in mental. Soon that will be switched around. I will once again be able to comprehend the signs that signify mundane dinner conversation.
and here is a link to Goya's Black Painting series
I'm not a huge fan of old paintings but Goya is where I make an exception. When I was a child flipping through my daddy's art history book, "Art Throughout the Ages" a 1960's version; the one painting that always stood out to me was "Saturn Devouring His Children." I misread the title in my youth at thought it was titled "Satan Devouring His Children" and it frightened me so much because I was a child and I couldn't think of why anyone would want to eat me. I wonder why I didn't identify myself as a child of Jesus? I was saved and baptised after all. I knew. I already knew. God Damn
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Words: 208
Location: Buffalo, NY
Category: in weimar
01/09/06 09:58 - 35ºF - ID#33623
sleeping and dreaming
I have a more strange than usual sleeping pattern at the moment. last night I slept from 1am to 5am then from 3pm to 9pm then from midnight to 3am. Every sleep I've had a mediocre dream about everyday life. Here is the one I just had. I had taken my flatmate, Albrecht to Adairsville (my hometown) and we were walking through st. elmo (getto but nice) on our way back from the store. It was night time. The moon was a projection. It was really pissing me off, that moon. I was so angry that some person had the nerve to fuck with my moon, your moon, every body's moon, ya know? Even what they were projecting wasn't complete. It was only random titles that said things like "sample text."
Ok, Other than that I have a presentation in 7 hours. Another informal presentation at the local watering hole on Wednesday night. I need to get a train ticket for berlin on thursday and I have a flight to atlanta friday(13th hahaha) morning. Then after a night or two of coddling Kiah and incessant nagging from my dear mama I will once again be in Buffalo. Oh Buffalo.
Ok, Other than that I have a presentation in 7 hours. Another informal presentation at the local watering hole on Wednesday night. I need to get a train ticket for berlin on thursday and I have a flight to atlanta friday(13th hahaha) morning. Then after a night or two of coddling Kiah and incessant nagging from my dear mama I will once again be in Buffalo. Oh Buffalo.
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Words: 199
Location: Buffalo, NY
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