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09/24/04 09:53 - ID#27653

Long Rant...Sorry

Okay so it’s time for a bit of a rant. The other day I went to meet with woman because my sorority is running a fundraiser for the charity she heads. I could tell right away that this woman was kind of brash but she was friendly enough to me so I didn’t really think anything of it. However, as we were making small talk she hit on one of my biggest pet peeves ever. She asked me what my major was and when I replied psychology she said that it was great that I was going to be a therapist (she is a social worker). When I explained to her that I was actually interested in becoming a researcher her reply was “Don’t you want to help people?!� I held back my annoyance because I decided that it wasn’t the right situation to let myself get carried away but then she continued, “I don’t understand why people like you, who are educated and given so much, do not want to help your fellow human being.� AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I seriously could have leapt across the table and strangled her right there.

First of all, I am there because I am trying to organize a ridiculous fundraiser for 350 people for her charity. I mean I don’t get paid to do this and she has the gall to tell me that I don’t want to help people! Second, what does she think researchers do?! I mean where does medicine come from? How does she think that therapist know how to help people? Does some magical genius just write out how what therapists should do with a golden pen and then poof! it’s learned and utilized?!

I know that I would not be a good counselor. I am not really built to help people in that way, so there would be no use in me trying that. I want to contribute in a different way. Why don’t people understand that there are lots of ways to make a difference? Besides, although I give all due credit to therapists, they are solving problems one person at a time (if they are able to solve anything). Researchers work on a large scale. They figure out how problems form and what is the best way to fix them. I don’t understand why someone can’t see that.

Finally I could not help but be pissed off at her assumption that I have everything given to me. I am the first to admit that I am very fortunate, but she doesn’t even know me. She thinks that just because I come from a school where most of the people have a lot of money that I am like everyone else. Well, not everyone is like that Union. Yes, lots of people here are rich, but there are a lot of people who aren’t. I work hard in school and I am not rich, so her assumptions about me are far more annoying than they will ever be accurate.

I guess I should be able to take these comments and attribute them to ignorance but they really did make me mad. It’s not the first time someone has thought that my disinterest in therapy equated to me ambivalence towards helping mankind. Whatever. I know that I am going to make things better…even if it’s in a small way. I don’t need that woman’s approval to feel like my goals are worthwhile. Anyway, I am still the sole organizer of her little shindig. Although I could get bitter at her and lose interest in this fundraiser, that is not the kind of person I am. I want to help people…even if it means helping her.

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09/14/04 07:14 - ID#27652

September 10th and 11th, 2003

Okay so I got really behind on my plan to write about each day of my travelling last year. I am going to try to catch up now.

[size=l]Sept 10th 2003-[/size]
On this day we toured Brussels. It was an amazing city. We saw the Manneken Pis, a not very impressive but quite funny statue of a pissing boy, the Grand' Place, the central market square of Brussels, which is said to be the most beautiful in the world, and the Atomium, which was built for the 1958 World's Fair.

Manneken Pis

Grand' Place


[size=l]Sept 11th, 2003-[/size]
On this day last year we woke up and got on the train to go to Brugge. I wrote in my journal that the people in Belgium were so friendly. We almost missed our train because basically we were lost, and this nice man with two small children came up to us and asked us if we needed help and directed us on where to kind of him. Anyway, Brugge was beautiful. It an old gorgeous town with buildings you would expect to see Germany and canals like in Venice. We took a boat ride and the weather was beautiful. We at frites (like french fries) and really waffles, which had major chunks of sugar in them! The highlight of the day was going to the top of Belfort, an old church in the middle of Brugge. It was exhausting to climb up to the top, but the view was amazing.

View from Boat Ride in Brugge

Heidi and Shannon in front of Belfort

View of Brugge from the top of Belfort

After an exciting day in Brugge we got on a night train to Munich. Sleeping on the train was not so much fun and neither was arriving at 5am to have no place to stay because we couldn't get into our hostel until 2pm!

More on this trip later...I know I am still not up to date, but I am working on it!

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09/11/04 09:47 - ID#27651

Happy B-Day Di!

Happy 21st Birthday Diana!! Now no more need to sneak into bars...hehe. Have a great day!

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09/10/04 01:31 - ID#27650

September 9th, 2003

[size=l]September 9th, 2003[/size]

On this day last year we woke up at Heidi's brother's apartment in London and prepared to go to Belgium. I saw Jesse in the morning which was unexpected because he was supposed to have his internship but he got fired and exciting because it was the first time we had seen each other since he left home for England.

When I was with Jesse we walked around Russell Square and the British Museum. The British Museum was so amazing and huge. We saw the Rosetta Stone and an exhibit on mummies. We also went into the Reading Room which is like a big library with a huge list in the front of all of the famous people who have had "tickets" (library cards) to the room. I wrote down that I was particulary impressed that Karl Marx and Virginia Wolf were on the list.

After seeing Jesse we got on the train and went to Stansted Airport outside of London. There we flew Ryanair to Brussels and took an autocar to our hostel. Our hostel was unbelievably loud and busy. It was like staying in a huge club where they played overdubbed Eminem all night long. I remember that I did not sleep well that night. We stayed in a room with 6 other girls and by the time we woke up the next morning I was ready to get out of there and do some sightseeing.
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09/08/04 09:05 - ID#27649

September 8th 2004 & 2003

Hi Everyone! It's been a while since the last time I posted. I have been busy moving in to my apartment at school and starting classes. Now that the first day is over I have some time to update. First of all, I love the first day of classes. I know that is a really dorky thing to say, but it's true. I get really excited to get my syllabi and see what's in store for me. In any event, today was fun because I had my first classes. However a big let down was that neither professor gave out a syllabus! Very disappointing. I am taking Hebrew this term...don't ask me why. I thought it would be fun, but with the first day of class all we did was listen to her speak in Hebrew and then try to get us to answer her in Hebrew. I had no idea what was going on. She wouldn't even let us write anything down (not that I know how to write in Hebrew yet). I felt like I was testing my memory far too much! Anyway, I am still motivated. I already made an appointment to go for extra help. I blame my mother for not sending me to Hebrew school like all my classmates (there are 7 other kids and they can all read and write, just not speak).

In other news, I have decided to do a series of posts for the next 10 or so days because they were very special to me a year ago. On this day last year I travelled to England for the first time. It was the beginning of a 10 day trip I took with two friends before we each spent a term abroad. After the 10 days and 5 countries, I went to York England for the next four months. I kept a journal the whole's the short version:

[size=xl]Sept 08th 2003[/size]
Okay so on Sept 8 I got on the plane in NYC with Heidi and Shannon to go to London, Heathrow. This was so scary for me as I knew I wasn't going to be seeing my family for so long (I am a big baby). That's pretty much all for today...I mean the flight was 6 hours.

My little drawing of the seating arrangement...

The monitor that showed Heathrow...

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09/05/04 12:56 - ID#27648

Mike and Mrs. Heller Sitting in a Tree

This is Mike on his birthday with his idol Mrs. Heller:


I love his face!!


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09/01/04 06:16 - ID#27647

Last Night and More...

Last night was a lot of fun. Mike, I hope you had a great birthday because I know I had a good time. Mr Goodbar was an interesting time. Diana, who is not 21, was not allowed to go in to the bar. So Teres asked the at the door if they would let her in anyway, but the guy was really mean and said no. Not to be discouraged, we slyly devised a plan where Mike and I would go in the front door while Teres and Di walked away (in order to look like Di gave up). Then, Di would jump over the bar in the front and get in through the patio and Teres would follow. The planned worked without any problem. However, outsmarting the stupid Mr. Goodbar doormen was not satisfying enough. We needed to add insult to injury. Later that night there was a contest for all the women. The girl at the bar who could come up with the "most creative" way to use a press on tattoo would win an adirondack chair. We thought it was really sleazy, but then Di came up with the idea to cut the tattoo in half and put one side on each of her breasts. That way when she squeezed her boobs together the tattoo would be whole. SHe and Jill ran into the bathroom and applied the tattoo. Lo and behold, Di won the contest and the chair...AFTER sneaking in when the jerks told her she couldn't. Very funny night.

So anyway, my friend Jeremy from school is coming up to Buffalo to drive back to Schenectady with me this weekend. On the one hand I am excited, it will be nice to have someone to share the long drive with. However, I am also a little nervous. I have so much to get done and I am not sure if I can do it all with someone else around. Plus these are my last couple days at home. I won't see my mom for a long time, although I will see my friends for Andrea's wedding in like two weeks. Anyway, I guess I don't have much of a choice about it. Just have to get stuff done whether I want to or not.

Okay, one more gripe. I have to write this 8-10 page paper about my research this summer and the TAing I will be doing this year before I get back to school. This was totally sprung on me at the last second and now I have to rush to get it done. How frustrating! I guess I shouldn't complain. I know it only a paper and really I don't have to do any research. I just hate not having ample time to prepare work. I hate having to rush!
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08/30/04 01:30 - ID#27646

Various A Sundries

Ahhhhh. So I just spent a while writing a fairly lengthy journal and then I lost it. Oh well, maybe the forces of the universe are telling me something.

Well I am glad this week is over. It was pretty stressful and I am ready to start anew, even if the new start is only on the calendar and not really in my heart. I took the GREs and then went ok. Basically, the most important thing is that they went. Now that I don't have to study anymore I feel like summer has really started. It's funny because everyone else is starting school and I feel like I am finally on vacation. I'm glad that I don't have to go back for another week. It's nice to have a little longer then everyone else for once. I suppose the trimester system does have its rare moments of benefit.

Anyway, going back to school is bittersweet this year. I am excited to get out of my house, although I really have nothing to complain about. It will also be nice to see all of my school friends again. However, it is hard to go back to the high-stress lifestyle. I will be TAing for three classes and doing my thesis ontop of the normal course load so it should be a busy year. Andrew and I decided, after a lot of discussion and pro/con listmaking, that we are going to be crazier this year, hehe. But seriously, I do need to try to balance work and fun better this year. If I don't try to relax more and hang out instead of work I will probably explode.

Well before I end this journal I just want to resond to two other friends journals quickly.
Jesse: I have the pics of your nipple piercing. Do you want me to send them to you or even possibly post them? They came out pretty good, especially the group photo!
Teres: In response to your journal I just want to say a big I LOVE YOU! That's really all. I know you get upset and those boys are great at treating you like crap, but you deserve better. They may be nice sometimes, but sometimes isn't really good enough. I know you like to be challenged so go for whatever makes you happy...just remember, this is not making you happy. I think you are totally right for cutting them off if they are making you this upset. No matter what we all love you. I'd love to see Justin and/or Jeff and give them both a swift kick in the groin for making you feel like this.

P.S. I saw De-Lovely today and I really liked it. Although it got bad reviews I thought it was definitely worth seeing. I never agree with the critics anyway!

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08/25/04 03:41 - ID#27645

Big Klutz, Worst Timing

I am such a klutz. Yesterday (Tuesday) I was in the kitchen grabbing a handful of peas (mmm) from the fridge. Of course I dropped some on the floor and when I went to pick them up I smashed my head on the counter. Like not just bumped a little, smashed so hard that I was bleeding. I was so annoyed and in pain that I almost cried. If you have never walked around your house bleeding because of something stupid or klutzy you've done, then you prob don't know what I am talking about. Anyway, I grabbed an ice pack and a glass of water after examining my cracked head in the mirror and walked into the living room. On my way I began to feel a little dizzy. My foot reached the carpet and that is the last thing I remember until my mother was shaking me on the floor after coming home from work. Basically, I must have blacked out and fallen because there was water all over the carpet from the drink I was carrying and my face had a rug imprint on it. Not pretty. I felt really bad for my mom because I know she almost had a heart attack finding me passed out on the floor.

The worst part about all of this is that I have a terrible headache today and a big gouge in skull. I have to take my GREs TOMORROW so that is possibly the worst timing ever for one of my klutzy episodes. I feel so stupid because this all happened due to my complete lack of depth perception and grace. Hello assisted living. I mean seriously how will I ever function alone!? This is the sad truth about my life. On the up side this whole thing has preoccupied my mind so that I haven't been worrying that much about my exam. I guess there could be a good side.

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08/23/04 06:35 - ID#27644

Mia's Wedding

My sorority sister (actaully my Big) got marriend this weekend. Her wedding was beautiful. I was neat because so many of my friends from school were not only there, but in the bridal party. Everyone looked amazing and it was truly an occassion of joy. Here are some pics from Mia's (and Grant's) big day.

Mia and Grant at the altar

They're offically married!!!

Maria was such a beautiful bride.

I can't believe she's married...

Basically it was a great day. Although every hour or so all of my friends and I looked at each other in disbelief that Mia was actually married. It just seems unreal. I hope they are happy. They are in Disney World now for their honeymoon. I think that is the perfect place for them...Grant is totally a big kid. I have to say that I am really going to miss Mia. :(
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