I am a young woman in a situation that isn't the best she has had...

a women who is in love with animals, especially my 3 babies...

a girl who loves pink and hello kitty

but is not a bimbo by any means (which some may believe me to be on first impression....which of course I despise)

I have a heart of gold....sometimes that isn't a great quality though, because you get set up to be let down at times....

my family is most important to me.

i don't get my eyebrows waxed as often as I should.

sometimes i say things that I shouldn't say about other people. but what most people don't know is that most of the time i regret it.

i love cleaning bathrooms.

my gucci bag is clearly fake. i mean, whoever spends $3000 on a bag is dumb.

2 of my closest friends are men. I think I just get along with dudes better....

I am a democrat. although I hate to say a party affiation, but I guess i am more liberal than anything....

I am tough. and I promise you, if you piss me off enough, i will punch you in the face....

I love to laugh. sometimes uncontrollably. In fact, this is quite embarrasing, but once in 4th grade, I was laughing so hard that I peed on (e:lilho). yes. that is right folks. I peed on her in a cardboard box in my basement.

i have an ever changing hairstyle, although recently it has stayed constant. I am contemplating changing it.

i want to have a great job. but i also want to go back to school for like, everything....including physics. I don't understand it all....then again, who does, but I want to go to school for it.

and i hate school at the same time.

i am a little heavier than i would like to be. but i can manage.

i hate people who talk too much....like, the type who turn a 2 minute story into 70 minutes. i don't give a shit about your life. please give me the condensed version.

I LOVE MAKEUP. it's horrible. don't ever tell me I have too much lipgloss. you never can. and for the record, i wear minimal makeup despite my huge collection. i do not look like a streetwalker. thank you.

i have a dry sense of humor.

i am sometimes sensitive.

i am not too much of a movie person.

music is my life.

i am allergic to everything. the sun. the grass. even tattoo ink. bad news man....

i read books about diseases and economics for fun. i am a total nerd. but so clueless at the same time....

i usually have bad skin, but recently, it has been great due to my new skin care system from the derm.

i like to eat bad food. that's right. i will be the first in line at taco bell and arby's.

i love television. really bad television for that matter. for instance, i love that show on E!: girls next door. I mean, who watches that shit?

i haven't worked out in 2 weeks.


if you don't' like any of these qualities in a person, then don't talk to me. in fact. don't' look at me. don't read this. i don't want you in my life anyway.

the last few days have been wonderful. I have had a low key schedule and have had a chance to rest up. what a wonderful thing sleep is.

my case with the car accident is finally over....today was my last day of treatment....so now my lawyer takes over and hopefully gets me money.

i am obsessed with my steve madden sannibel sandals in white, so I bought another pair....but they were sold out all over las vegas, so I ordered them on ebay. they came in today.

we took the dogs to the dog park this evening. it is always adorable to see my happy little puppies run around and just be babies!

i saw transformers on saturday. it was def enjoyable. surprisingly funny.

i want to say so much more but i can't. my life is boring right now. i guess that is a wonderful thing. no drama!

Last night a man opened fire in New York New York casino and shot 5 people. It's a bit ironic to me for various reasons:

-it just confirms that people in this city are loonie

-why did he choose NYNY? out of all of this shit ass casinos in this city, he had to choose one that ironically embodies where I want to be. Well, anywhere in NY state would be great....(by the way, NY NY is totally NOT cool....go to the real NY if you really want to experience it, duh!)

-where else in the world can you leave NY, after shooting 5 people, and cross the street and be in the lion's cove (the man was on his way to the MGM)? Only las vegas....

so! summer classes are kicking my ass. seriously. i have no life. but they are over as of 10pm tonight...minus the indendant study I am doing till the beginning of august. so I am quite excited about this stuff is coming to a close.

I am trying to get out of LV by october. My advisor told me that if I can get my research done, I can go home! So....we are keeping my fingers crossed.

With that said, I need a job in buffalo. Preferably a great job in the public health field. I think its time to get real....and do someting that I really truely love. Now its just a matter of finding the job. I know they are out there, I just have to tap a source....

Speaking of jobs, I got one here as an assistant manager at Volcom. I am excited about it actually because usually I am not into "those" clothing brands, but the Volcom girls line is actually really cute. And i get to boss people around. I'm all about that. I start next week.

My family is coming out next friday. I am way excited about this. We are taking my brothers to san diego for a weekend. Beach, here I come! and it's not 117 in san diego, that's a plus.

I hope all (e:peeps) are all well!

so, wednesday I took sophia and petey to the vet to get them puppy drugs for the plane, and to get sophia's booster shots for all of those doggy diseases. Danny was in california taking eli to chip's house. I thought, damn, what am I going to do tonight with all of this free time (since finals were over and danny was gone)....so i got ready for a relaxing night. I was going to do a face masks, pedicure, manicure, etc....

but around 8pm, sophia started acting weird. she came up to me on the couch and just stared at me, and then started smashing her face against the back of the couch. I looked at her, and she had all of these swollen bumps around her nose....that's wierd, they have never been there before. But as I stared at her, her face swelled right infront of my eyes....really bad. I started FREAKING OUT. I called the vet. no answer. so i looked online for the closest emergency vet....I called....and they said she was having a severe allergic reaction to her vaccines and I needed to bring her in immediately.

so I freaked out some more. I ran to my closest and through on the clothes that I first touched. bad outfit i might add. I turned around and saw sophia down the hall vomiting uncontrollably! Like 6 times in the matter of a minute. Yea, panic by now had set in. and by this time, her face was so swollen I could barely stare at her.....

....we ran down the stairs to the car, and i tripped in the process pulling my hamstring (which is not in serious pain). I drove in hysterics to the vet which thankfully was just down the street. I walked in a freakin wreck. Sophia's face was so swollen that her eyes were pretty much shut. Her entire body was on fire with hives, and everything was itching and swollen....not just her face.

I was such a mess, they had to take her to the back because I was working myself up and in the process making sophia more stressed.

after a few hours, the doctor finally came in and told me she was going to be okay. A pretty penny and a few shots later, she was ready to go home. The poor thing. I hope I never see her like that again....my poor baby.



And tonight we leave for our glorious trip to buffalo. we are so excited! minus the flight of course.

I met tanya harding today. the olympic figure skater gone wild.

I had to ship back my fake hair. i was sad about it. but it just wasn't working out. and for $100, that damn thing should have.

so, the last time I wrote, as I clicked "publish" my computer screen on my brand new macbook started to bubble. and then. i saw a fire. under my screen. it was not cool. so, i ran to the apple store, and was without a cute little macbook till yesterday. they replaced it all, but my hard drive....they saved that, thank god. I am quite happy with apple care.

so today was the ultimate final exam. my transmissions of infectious disease class is OVER. thank god. but that means that the summer is coming, and is usually something that everyone looks forward to, but not me. for numerous reasons. 1. it's too fucking hot here. 115 degrees isn't my idea of a good time. 2. i am taking 4 summer classes. that is insane. I hope i can keep my sanity.

shit went down at work. long story short, my job was taken from me behind my back and offered to the whole campus by my boss. i was really hurt because she told me she didn't have funding to keep me on for the summer. then she offered it to the whole graduate college. cool. we talked, and apparently i am taking it too personal and she thinks i am a great person, but it isn't a job for me...but bottom line: i was hurt. so this job ends june 30th.

but in the process, i got a new job starting july1st. i am super excited. it's working on this great lead project here in clark county. one door shuts, another one opens. thank god.

so, my trip home to buffalo starts next friday. i am way excited. home is wear the heart is. that's for sure. i guess id din't realize that till i wasn't really home anymore.

my favorite professor in the department offered me some work doing lead level lab work. I am so excited....for various reasons.

1. the lead project he is doing is monumental for the UNLV school of public health. He basically uncovered all of these mexican candies that contained toxic levels of lead, and now is working along side the health department to make sure other products we are consuming in clark county do not contain lead....american made products most think don't contain lead, but they do....but the real problem is the amount of foreign made products....because the standards aren't as strict in mexico and beyond.

2. I lack experience in a lab. This would give me that additional point of hiring interest.

3. Dr. G is the coolest professor ever. i think he would be a great boss.

4. obviously, it is a job. and it is a job in my field. i can't complain about that.


So danny puts in the word today at his school that he is quitting as of the end of this school year. He is shitting his pants, but I am sure he will be ok....and once it's over, he can concentrate on what he wants to do next. He is seriously considering law school. quite ambitous, but i know he is a perfect candidate to get in that field...

I have an MRI today. I am so scared. I know there is really nothing to be afraid of, but i work myself up....but hopefully it will show that I can stop treatment (from my neck injury in my car accident), my lawsuit will end, and I will get a settlement to trade in my car. My car is bad karma. funny.. but real.

So, my longing for long hair has gone to new heights. I spent over $100 on a "weave" as danny calls it. It's so pretty and makes my hair really long....and the best part is, it is clip-in. Long hair today, shorter hair tomorrow. Not that my hair is short, it's actually getting really long, but not long enough fast enough.

But my spending needs to stop. As of 4 weeks like today, I don't have a job. I am screwed. I make good money where I am at, but my contract is up on May 31. My boss doesn't know whether she has enough funding to keep me on, but she is still waiting....

....so in the meantime, i have looked for jobs. I am not willing to work 2x's more for less money. Sorry...not happening. I mean, what is the deal? I have 2 bacholor's degrees and i am almost done with my master's. Why are these employers not snapping at me. ugh. I know its the end of the funding year for many non-profit organizations, so it is a bad time to be looking for a job.

I have started work on my thesis. I am very excited about it. I wll eventually give more details on my research project, but I promise, it is wonderful.

And I know i shouldn't complain since most of the readers of this blog live in buffalo, but it's sooooooooooooooooooo hot in vegas. It's always hot. I hate this shit. I was outside for 10 minutes today and my freckles already started to come out. I hate that shit. I can't wait to go home in may and have normal weather for this time of year. Well, I guess "normal" is relative.

And, i have buckled down and am going to back to a dermatologist. Maybe new treatments have came out in the last 2 years I haven't seen one. Maybe this will be the time that will change my skin forever! I need medical assistance with my skin. Murad is not helping me out at all. man o man.

I hope everyone is doing well.