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I miss home. i miss my family. i miss my neighborhood. i miss normalcy. i miss frizb's. i miss my friends. i miss ny in general.

i hate school. i hate las vegas. i hate my life here. i hate my program. i hate that i am wasting so much fucking time in this shitty fucking city. fuck.



i bought 3 shirts today. one of which is this cute hello kitty shirt that is pink and super cute and girly. usually i don't wear hello kitty gear... despite how i am a huge hello kitty fan, but i saw the shirt and it was saying "jess, you can do this one....it's cute!" so i bought it.



my sister is here this week. i feel bad because i am just so under the weather....and the weather here is insane may i add. it's only supposed to be around 70, and it is 90. too hot for me. fuck this shit.

i hate heat.

70 is perfect....springtime like. i think that is the general consesus. comfortable weather is key...

....but back to my sister. i am just kinda bummed about where i am in life right now, and i feel bad because she is here and wants to do all the vegas shit, but i just want to puke every time i see a casino or flashing lights or whores walking down the street. for real.

i hate to complain, i am just really home sick. i miss home. not that home is anything special or great; its just home. it's where ma famille is. j'adore ma famille. i am sick of being so far away from the life where i want to be. it's going on 5 years away from home, and i am just sick of having to make so much hoopla to get there....more so now that i am 3000 miles away than when i was only 400.

i need to find a job as close to home as possible. that is what i need to do. anyone hiring a project coordinator for a public health position? anyone need a epidemiologist? anyone need an environmental health specialist? anything! i will take anything....


actually, there is this job that i really want at roswell park. i hate to tease myself, but it would be a great job for me. i hate looking at that site and seeing jobs that i am qualified for. ugh!!!!!!!!!!

maybe i will just fuck school and fly home and get a job and be happy. yay!
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💬 5 comments

  1. carolinian ·

    I can relate. I'm living here in Buffalo for a job, but I miss everyone in North Carolina. I see jobs that I'm technically qualified that sound wonderful, but I know that I'm better off economically here because HR people down there would let me get my foot in the door.

    I've heard people native to Buffalo say "People move away from Buffalo to build a career but find they want to move back when they have families." As my life up here is the twisted inverse of the lives of Buffalonians, I'm sure I'll end up doing the exact same thing eventually, just in reverse.

  2. chico ·

    Hey why not apply for that job at RPCI? From what I hear it's a great place to work. If you can picture yourself working there and being happy, what's the harm in sending in your resume?

  3. imk2 ·

    actually, we are looking for a project coordinator at roswell.

    take a look. :::link:::

  4. paul ·

    You could join the gossip table for lunch, lol.

  5. enknot ·

    Yeah, we need new gossipers! Our old "the devil" is getting stale... (Yvonne, you know I'm kidding... Telly loves ya baby).

    But I have to say, sticking it out in a crumby situation for something that's bigger and better is usually worth it. Still it's not like you don't have options.

    If you could get a sweet job here, hang out with us peeps, be close to home, viva con la familia, meet someone nice, start a band, raise a puppy, have a candy apple, win a game of keno...er scrabble, have a fat pile of chicken wings, and finish your degree in any of the the fine educational institutions in western New York all at once why wouldn't you?

    I'm not saying you should move. I'm just saying..

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