in an effort to undo the harm i managed to do in a month... i am going to blog my daily food intake for a whole 30 days.
not only do i need to get back in shape, but i need to hold myself accountable for eating bad things and make my health a priority. plus if i write it down, i can't deny that it entered my system.
i want to look amaze for vegas in a month, and it's a great motivator and also will encourage me to exercise and eat right!
i also have some digestive issues that seem to flair up when i don't eat right. veggies and whole grains, here i come!
today:
zone fudge graham protein bar
1/4 cup hummus with organic carrots
cup strawberries
organic beef hotdog on slice of whole wheat bread with a bit of organic mayo, mustard, ketchup, pickles
handful pita chips
bowl of roasted red pepper crab bisque- surprisingly not laden with fat
coffee with hazelnut flavoring
1 string cheese
so i probably had too much salt, but i think that's a good start.
tomorrow i start the workout plan... i really think i can lose 10 lbs in 30 days because i tend to lose weight fast if i try but i wouldn't mind if i just toned up a bit and had more energy after 30 days. wish me luck!
i shall report tomorrow evening.
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food diary day 110/26/2011 01:02 #55379
paperless pledgei received an email today about pledging to use less paper @ asu.... which i am totally fine with. however, the instructors need to all get on the same page with this. i think it's so insane that some of my professors won't accept electronic assignments. i actually think some of them just don't know how to use technology all that well and this is their reasoning.
i have a professor who is near 80 and she can use blackboard just fine... people need to git wit it.
i am becoming friends with a lot more people on campus than before but sometimes it's frustrating because all of the women in my program are engaged, looking to get engaged or already married at a young age. this is odd to me... i am not interested in owning a home or having children at this point. as modern women don't owe it to ourselves to have a bit more lofty dreams?!
one of the cool things about being an educator is the ability to teach from so many places... i plan on taking full advantage.
i started my diet today and then the mom's bf bought me a sandwich, soup and cookie. not as bad as fast food but just as many calories.
a friend invited me to sleepover but i don't like going to her house because she has so many pets. i have such difficulty finding friends who don't have/ don't like animals in the home. a fish or turtle here and there is fine, but dogs and cats no way...
i am also picky because i have really nice sheets pillows, and a great mattress. so what then is the point of a sleepover? i'm like a boring grumpy old lady. with the face of a young lady.
i've spent at least 250 this month so far on gas... which is hard earned money gone to such a waste. this valley is too big... too big and too many suvs.
i have a professor who is near 80 and she can use blackboard just fine... people need to git wit it.
i am becoming friends with a lot more people on campus than before but sometimes it's frustrating because all of the women in my program are engaged, looking to get engaged or already married at a young age. this is odd to me... i am not interested in owning a home or having children at this point. as modern women don't owe it to ourselves to have a bit more lofty dreams?!
one of the cool things about being an educator is the ability to teach from so many places... i plan on taking full advantage.
i started my diet today and then the mom's bf bought me a sandwich, soup and cookie. not as bad as fast food but just as many calories.
a friend invited me to sleepover but i don't like going to her house because she has so many pets. i have such difficulty finding friends who don't have/ don't like animals in the home. a fish or turtle here and there is fine, but dogs and cats no way...
i am also picky because i have really nice sheets pillows, and a great mattress. so what then is the point of a sleepover? i'm like a boring grumpy old lady. with the face of a young lady.
i've spent at least 250 this month so far on gas... which is hard earned money gone to such a waste. this valley is too big... too big and too many suvs.
lilho - 11/01/11 22:30
Honeybadger don't care. Actually no one really cares because you are a nonfactor, and you really know nothing about how I live my life and what I value. So, please refrain from commenting where your banter isn't wanted.
Mayyyyybe if more people considered a diet, Americans wouldn't be the most obese nation in the world.
I'm going to workout now, because it actually is important.
Honeybadger don't care. Actually no one really cares because you are a nonfactor, and you really know nothing about how I live my life and what I value. So, please refrain from commenting where your banter isn't wanted.
Mayyyyybe if more people considered a diet, Americans wouldn't be the most obese nation in the world.
I'm going to workout now, because it actually is important.
deeglam - 11/01/11 16:58
who says you can't have an amazing career and all the things you want, along with children and a marriage and a home? I consider myself a modern woman in every sense of the word.
I am highly educated, have a great career, enjoy the finer things in life, enjoy taking care of myself in terms of beauty regime and such to the fullest extent, but I am also a wife and a mother and take care of 2 small dogs and a home. THAT to me, is a successful modern woman. My child is the MOST important and rewarding thing that I have in my life, and the things that you worry about are so minuscule in the grand scheme of things- we, at some point, grow up and learn that there is more to life then parties, diets and lipgloss. There is nothing wrong with a woman who wants more in life.
If it is your choice to not want those things, thats fine. But others do. That doesn't mean you can't be friends with them or relate to them, and I hope that you don't close the door on those woman who you are learning more and more about....that would be a complete shame.
So before you put down what others live for (such as the women at your school who want to get married and have children) with dumb comments such as that, maybe you should consider all that it entails- a true modern woman can do all that YOU do, and then some.
Mind you, being a mother and a wife is a much more involved role than any you can imagine- it takes time and effort and more patience then you think you have. I personally am proud of the 'modern' and 'lofty' woman I am- and I have pushed my personal limits to be a stronger woman than I ever thought I could be.
Just and FYI. Not that my opinion matters or anything...
who says you can't have an amazing career and all the things you want, along with children and a marriage and a home? I consider myself a modern woman in every sense of the word.
I am highly educated, have a great career, enjoy the finer things in life, enjoy taking care of myself in terms of beauty regime and such to the fullest extent, but I am also a wife and a mother and take care of 2 small dogs and a home. THAT to me, is a successful modern woman. My child is the MOST important and rewarding thing that I have in my life, and the things that you worry about are so minuscule in the grand scheme of things- we, at some point, grow up and learn that there is more to life then parties, diets and lipgloss. There is nothing wrong with a woman who wants more in life.
If it is your choice to not want those things, thats fine. But others do. That doesn't mean you can't be friends with them or relate to them, and I hope that you don't close the door on those woman who you are learning more and more about....that would be a complete shame.
So before you put down what others live for (such as the women at your school who want to get married and have children) with dumb comments such as that, maybe you should consider all that it entails- a true modern woman can do all that YOU do, and then some.
Mind you, being a mother and a wife is a much more involved role than any you can imagine- it takes time and effort and more patience then you think you have. I personally am proud of the 'modern' and 'lofty' woman I am- and I have pushed my personal limits to be a stronger woman than I ever thought I could be.
Just and FYI. Not that my opinion matters or anything...
metalpeter - 10/26/11 17:41
Yeah going paperless is a nice Idea but not really great in some ways... I'm sure teachers hear horror stories all the time here it is on the flash drive... Empty Flash drive... Or oh it crashed when I was saving it... No way to prove this true or not.... With a written paper how ever much you wrote or typed is typed... This also cuts down on cheating.... Way back when I was in school you could pay someone to research a paper for you (legit not sure)... Now you could also pay someone to type some thing for you... Can the two be combined not sure... But I've heard of teachers who have got papers and just reading it as they eat dinner or watch TV or what ever at home have noticed a pattern yes of someone else's paper I bet with it on a screen you don't notice that.... Yes all people should have computer skills but if someone (both teachers and students) is going to have a Tech problem (real or fake) then Paper is the way to go.... Also with a thing like a sylibis (how ever you spell it) any change to that has to be documented... If it is say online somewhere it could be changed and what if the student can't find it.... Some teachers use that and if you don't know what it says you can wind up lost....
Yeah going paperless is a nice Idea but not really great in some ways... I'm sure teachers hear horror stories all the time here it is on the flash drive... Empty Flash drive... Or oh it crashed when I was saving it... No way to prove this true or not.... With a written paper how ever much you wrote or typed is typed... This also cuts down on cheating.... Way back when I was in school you could pay someone to research a paper for you (legit not sure)... Now you could also pay someone to type some thing for you... Can the two be combined not sure... But I've heard of teachers who have got papers and just reading it as they eat dinner or watch TV or what ever at home have noticed a pattern yes of someone else's paper I bet with it on a screen you don't notice that.... Yes all people should have computer skills but if someone (both teachers and students) is going to have a Tech problem (real or fake) then Paper is the way to go.... Also with a thing like a sylibis (how ever you spell it) any change to that has to be documented... If it is say online somewhere it could be changed and what if the student can't find it.... Some teachers use that and if you don't know what it says you can wind up lost....
tinypliny - 10/26/11 14:10
In response to point-break-downs
0. Hmm.. it can be annoying. But going paperless is a worthy cause that everyone can participate in. Re-purposing scrap sheets, recycling/re-using whenever possible, avoiding unnecessary wasteful printing. Trying to read on reading-friendly big screens all contribute towards the basic cause.
1. I admire pets but from a BIG distance. In fact I share your feeling about cats and dogs in the house. They somehow feel like they really belong outside. And I have some issues with the very concept of a "pet".
2. Move to a city where you can take public transport or walk/bike.
3. I don't know. Renting in big cities is a more ecologically sound/time-efficient decision than settling down in suburban and urban houses that need constant renovation/repairs. I don't know if I am a modern woman (for all purposes, I sometimes think like I am from the dark ages where people just murdered everyone willy nilly without care) but yeah, I don't know if I am happy with the concept of owning a house.... a small flat in the middle of the city, maybe, but not a house. I also am coming to an internal consensus that I will adopt if I want kids. I am giving up looking for significant others. Taking a fatalist view here and assuming that if it's meant to be, it will be otherwise, I am just going to enjoy my life as it is. It's way less stress without relationship drama.
In response to point-break-downs
0. Hmm.. it can be annoying. But going paperless is a worthy cause that everyone can participate in. Re-purposing scrap sheets, recycling/re-using whenever possible, avoiding unnecessary wasteful printing. Trying to read on reading-friendly big screens all contribute towards the basic cause.
1. I admire pets but from a BIG distance. In fact I share your feeling about cats and dogs in the house. They somehow feel like they really belong outside. And I have some issues with the very concept of a "pet".
2. Move to a city where you can take public transport or walk/bike.
3. I don't know. Renting in big cities is a more ecologically sound/time-efficient decision than settling down in suburban and urban houses that need constant renovation/repairs. I don't know if I am a modern woman (for all purposes, I sometimes think like I am from the dark ages where people just murdered everyone willy nilly without care) but yeah, I don't know if I am happy with the concept of owning a house.... a small flat in the middle of the city, maybe, but not a house. I also am coming to an internal consensus that I will adopt if I want kids. I am giving up looking for significant others. Taking a fatalist view here and assuming that if it's meant to be, it will be otherwise, I am just going to enjoy my life as it is. It's way less stress without relationship drama.
paul - 10/26/11 13:25
0. I am so tired of people lacking basic computer skills.
1. I wish all cats would spontaneously die.
2. That hard earned money is not being wasted. Its funding global war.
3. I think you could be a modern woman and still own your own house. Its kind of a liberating action to not be dependent.
0. I am so tired of people lacking basic computer skills.
1. I wish all cats would spontaneously die.
2. That hard earned money is not being wasted. Its funding global war.
3. I think you could be a modern woman and still own your own house. Its kind of a liberating action to not be dependent.
10/23/2011 04:05 #55365
this house makes noisesevery once in a while this house i'm nannying at makes random noises. i think someone is home, and then it's just this creaking noise.
i hate being scared.
i also hate that paranormal activity commercial with the little girl who is standing in the room looking creepy. i am so scared of it that when it comes on tv and i don't have time to grab the remote i run out of the room or close my eyes and cover my ears.
i want a filter on my t.v. that will bypass all things scary and only allow me to watch bravo programs and the kardashians. and abc, because they have the best shows.
i hate being scared.
i also hate that paranormal activity commercial with the little girl who is standing in the room looking creepy. i am so scared of it that when it comes on tv and i don't have time to grab the remote i run out of the room or close my eyes and cover my ears.
i want a filter on my t.v. that will bypass all things scary and only allow me to watch bravo programs and the kardashians. and abc, because they have the best shows.
tinypliny - 10/23/11 12:26
My former flat was in an old house which made noises all the time. It was the wood and the framework responding to temperature changes. I was taken aback at first because houses are not made of wood back home.
My former flat was in an old house which made noises all the time. It was the wood and the framework responding to temperature changes. I was taken aback at first because houses are not made of wood back home.
10/22/2011 05:23 #55347
scared of the darkreally. uh my mom has been gone for almost two weeks...
i am scared of the dark.
finished writing a paper on dyslexia and teaching strategies at 12, and now its 230 and i'm not tired.
note to self: no starbucks after 3pm.
anyway, im so tired of being home but my injury kinda limits what i can do. here's what i can do: sit and do school work with my leg elevated, write papers, eat, watch t.v. and movies, paint my nails, listen to music...
this is all getting old and so am i. i can't wait to work out again... considering that's how i ended up this way. the meds the dr gave me prevent me from drinking at all... and they don't even help with my pain. i've never had a messed up calf and it's beginning to worry me. me calves are probably the strongest muscle i have.
anyway... i'll just surrender and go to bed. and wake up and do more school work.
suma cum laude here i come!
i am scared of the dark.
finished writing a paper on dyslexia and teaching strategies at 12, and now its 230 and i'm not tired.
note to self: no starbucks after 3pm.
anyway, im so tired of being home but my injury kinda limits what i can do. here's what i can do: sit and do school work with my leg elevated, write papers, eat, watch t.v. and movies, paint my nails, listen to music...
this is all getting old and so am i. i can't wait to work out again... considering that's how i ended up this way. the meds the dr gave me prevent me from drinking at all... and they don't even help with my pain. i've never had a messed up calf and it's beginning to worry me. me calves are probably the strongest muscle i have.
anyway... i'll just surrender and go to bed. and wake up and do more school work.
suma cum laude here i come!
metalpeter - 10/22/11 11:01
Well on the Wiki you need to look up the South Park Episode...... I thought it was something they made up and then just saw it was there twisted view on it... It is gross and funny and won't say anything else....
Well on the Wiki you need to look up the South Park Episode...... I thought it was something they made up and then just saw it was there twisted view on it... It is gross and funny and won't say anything else....
metalpeter - 10/22/11 10:55
To Funny Paul....
To Funny Paul....
paul - 10/22/11 10:40
There are always shake weights.
There are always shake weights.
10/23/2011 03:43 #55364
a defectthis is seriously what i am beginning to think i have. i have had more falling outs with friends and family in the past year than ever before.
it's making me think that i am either a) a bad friend or b) i choose the wrong people to trust
i honestly think its the latter... i'll give in any relationship until i am pushed away.
anyway, i can get over most of it because i realize on a daily basis there are tons of loyal and caring people in my life. i'll have people randomly reach out to me and it's touching to know people care about you. for instance, these people i nanny for found out it was my bday last week and gave me a visa gift card. i think that's pretty nice... they pay me well already and feed me.
my cousin is avoiding me and i have no clue why. she's turning 21 soon, and i thought she would want me to take her out. she also lives a few minutes from me, and we never see each other. oh well, i tired to make plans and she brushes me off so i feel like it pointless to push someone to want to be around you when they obviously don't.
maybe i am just to honest for most people. i say the truth, and people say i'm being mean. but is the truth really mean or just something people hide from? i'll be the first to admit my flaws... i'm over-sensitive, picky, bratty at times, and no good at saving money....
i let a friend of a friend borrow money a few months ago. she is a single mother and she needed help. big mistake. now, i am out my money and won't ever get it back. annnd no longer have that friendship because i was honest and told my friend i didn't think it was cool she was letting her still married with a kid bf move in with her and her friend who has a child.
why do people bring children into this world and not care for them and give them the best??? if i had a child, i would change my lifestyle completely and want to make sure they had the best life possible... i wouldn't leave them in another city and state to go live with a person when i was still married to my supposed ex.
i guess i have too many opinions... but i am not changing that anytime soon. i just think people should be less afraid of holding the mirror up because then maybe we could all have normal loving relationships instead of hiding behind our behind and pasts that we don't deal with.
just saying.
i'm well on my way to getting all a's this semester and while i am knee deep in work, it feels goods to be accomplished. that and graduating magna cum laude well look good for grad school.
almost two days of staying off my feet has done wonders for my leg. maybe i should start doing the jillian micheals ab video to prep for vegas while i wait for my leg to completely heal? (e:paul) and (e:terry) will be there in a month and im going out to meet them. words can't express the excitement i have... almost like my heart will burst from having too much love for them!!!!!!!! i get so excited when people come out here because the only who ever does is my sis.
if you are still reading, you're a fool because at this point i am just blabbing. i have to work until 3am and staying awake is super hard because i am usually in bed by 10.
i just watched suckerpunch and i really liked it. the makeup and costumes are so cool. i want to be one of the girls from the movie... they are all so pretty and they do awesome stunts. i love this makeup... i want to do mine like this in vegas.
she really has the prettiest face.
it's making me think that i am either a) a bad friend or b) i choose the wrong people to trust
i honestly think its the latter... i'll give in any relationship until i am pushed away.
anyway, i can get over most of it because i realize on a daily basis there are tons of loyal and caring people in my life. i'll have people randomly reach out to me and it's touching to know people care about you. for instance, these people i nanny for found out it was my bday last week and gave me a visa gift card. i think that's pretty nice... they pay me well already and feed me.
my cousin is avoiding me and i have no clue why. she's turning 21 soon, and i thought she would want me to take her out. she also lives a few minutes from me, and we never see each other. oh well, i tired to make plans and she brushes me off so i feel like it pointless to push someone to want to be around you when they obviously don't.
maybe i am just to honest for most people. i say the truth, and people say i'm being mean. but is the truth really mean or just something people hide from? i'll be the first to admit my flaws... i'm over-sensitive, picky, bratty at times, and no good at saving money....
i let a friend of a friend borrow money a few months ago. she is a single mother and she needed help. big mistake. now, i am out my money and won't ever get it back. annnd no longer have that friendship because i was honest and told my friend i didn't think it was cool she was letting her still married with a kid bf move in with her and her friend who has a child.
why do people bring children into this world and not care for them and give them the best??? if i had a child, i would change my lifestyle completely and want to make sure they had the best life possible... i wouldn't leave them in another city and state to go live with a person when i was still married to my supposed ex.
i guess i have too many opinions... but i am not changing that anytime soon. i just think people should be less afraid of holding the mirror up because then maybe we could all have normal loving relationships instead of hiding behind our behind and pasts that we don't deal with.
just saying.
i'm well on my way to getting all a's this semester and while i am knee deep in work, it feels goods to be accomplished. that and graduating magna cum laude well look good for grad school.
almost two days of staying off my feet has done wonders for my leg. maybe i should start doing the jillian micheals ab video to prep for vegas while i wait for my leg to completely heal? (e:paul) and (e:terry) will be there in a month and im going out to meet them. words can't express the excitement i have... almost like my heart will burst from having too much love for them!!!!!!!! i get so excited when people come out here because the only who ever does is my sis.
if you are still reading, you're a fool because at this point i am just blabbing. i have to work until 3am and staying awake is super hard because i am usually in bed by 10.
i just watched suckerpunch and i really liked it. the makeup and costumes are so cool. i want to be one of the girls from the movie... they are all so pretty and they do awesome stunts. i love this makeup... i want to do mine like this in vegas.
she really has the prettiest face.
metalpeter - 10/23/11 14:20
All the friend stuff I have no idea about really... But what I will say is that Sucker Punch is a great movie and yes that blonde sure is pretty....
All the friend stuff I have no idea about really... But what I will say is that Sucker Punch is a great movie and yes that blonde sure is pretty....
tinypliny - 10/23/11 12:49
Just curious. How do you define a bad friend?
Just curious. How do you define a bad friend?
tinypliny - 10/23/11 12:41
\Expectations are a SURE way to paint any relationship in a bad light because they often fall short. The best relationships and friendships are ones where there are no expectations and when you do encounter little gifts of spirit, thoughtfulness and kindness (I certainly don't mean gifts with a monetary value), you are grateful that you have those people in your life.
\Expectations are a SURE way to paint any relationship in a bad light because they often fall short. The best relationships and friendships are ones where there are no expectations and when you do encounter little gifts of spirit, thoughtfulness and kindness (I certainly don't mean gifts with a monetary value), you are grateful that you have those people in your life.
tinypliny - 10/23/11 12:34
In fact, I am sometimes obnoxious and super weird on purpose to people who I don't want to waste time on. It usually has a 100% success rate. The more annoying ones are those who think you owe them your time after you have decided you have had enough of their drama. I just stop caring about them.
In fact, I am sometimes obnoxious and super weird on purpose to people who I don't want to waste time on. It usually has a 100% success rate. The more annoying ones are those who think you owe them your time after you have decided you have had enough of their drama. I just stop caring about them.
tinypliny - 10/23/11 12:23
Hmm... why do you want idiotic friends who will annoy you? I seldom repent not having more friends because seriously, at some point, most are not worth your time and effort. Call me a snob, but I am grateful that I don't have more yucky people in my life who bore me to death or make me cry or hate myself (or all the above).
I know it feels good to receive material things but sometimes, friendship is just about being on the same frequency.
Hmm... why do you want idiotic friends who will annoy you? I seldom repent not having more friends because seriously, at some point, most are not worth your time and effort. Call me a snob, but I am grateful that I don't have more yucky people in my life who bore me to death or make me cry or hate myself (or all the above).
I know it feels good to receive material things but sometimes, friendship is just about being on the same frequency.
paul - 10/23/11 11:35
I barely have any friends either. I must also have the defect. I am excited about Vegas too. Will it be warm there at Thanksgiving?
I barely have any friends either. I must also have the defect. I am excited about Vegas too. Will it be warm there at Thanksgiving?
water. making sure you're drinking a minimum intake will make a big difference!
VEry cool. I am going to be watching your diary with a keen interest. :)