really. uh my mom has been gone for almost two weeks...

i am scared of the dark.

finished writing a paper on dyslexia and teaching strategies at 12, and now its 230 and i'm not tired.

note to self: no starbucks after 3pm.

anyway, im so tired of being home but my injury kinda limits what i can do. here's what i can do: sit and do school work with my leg elevated, write papers, eat, watch t.v. and movies, paint my nails, listen to music...

this is all getting old and so am i. i can't wait to work out again... considering that's how i ended up this way. the meds the dr gave me prevent me from drinking at all... and they don't even help with my pain. i've never had a messed up calf and it's beginning to worry me. me calves are probably the strongest muscle i have.

anyway... i'll just surrender and go to bed. and wake up and do more school work.

suma cum laude here i come!

File under: this hurts.


Asu is an unforgiving campus for those who aren't good walks. I usually love walking around campus... This week not so much. Health services is conveniently located as far away from parking as possible and somehow my ankle injury has turned into a calf contusion?

My whole lower left leg hurts... My calf is all bruised. Hopefully this will resolve in a few more days because sitting around is getting old. I need to get to the gym...

I also have 5 hrs to write a 7 page apa format research paper. I heart perrla.

Is exactly what I am currently against...

But I kinda promised to go to this bachelorette party. I'd really rather go home and read or watch TV or stare at the wall.

What do you expect from such a glamorous and stylish lady? Glamour gets you nowhere with love. Down with love and having your heart stomped on repeatedly.

I'm all for love only if I can have a million dollar wedding and that crzy azn man from rhobh to be my wedding planner.

And I want break dancers and a bounce house. K thx.

I forgot to mention there will be food and at the party... Free food will always lure me in. No other way I want to be stuck in a roomful of giddy women unless its for designer swag...

i have so much school work to do... and it's hard to focus. i do however hand in some pretty impressive last minute stuff.

so, this past weekend:

• my sister forgot my birthday for the 3rd year in a row. i was mad but i'm over it because i love her and she was sick. plus my gift is on it's way and it was fun to have her stalking me all day apologizing.

• about 10 other people forgot my birthday, which i am really not happy about. it just hurts when you've reached out to people and it's clear that they soul less users who don't care.

• i went rock climbing and i fell about 12 feet and messed up my foot and possibly my leg... waked on it a bit today and then it kinda blew up and started hurting. walking around campus and sitting in class will be super fun tomorrow.

• a few people remembered my bday who i didn't even know would.... an ex, and my aunt and uncle. i don't have a fb so this is impressive.

• my aunt and uncle sent me an amazon gift card, you can buy a lot for $80 on amazon. i bought batteries, mascara, lipglosses, blush, a dress, lip tint... kinda amazing. it made me feel really special that they did something so nice for me.

i also feel like the most ridiculous person in the world to still be upset that i haven't heard from my father. if you are seeking out a long lost parent, my advice to you is don't do it. it will suck like none other and rip apart your insides. i rote a pretty scathing but classy farewell letter to him which will be mailed off once i procure a stamp. i actually have some stamps with my sister's face on them and i was thinking i could use those as a sort of ironic twist but i don't think she'd appreciate that.

asu and iteach az ha decided to refer to our student teaching as a "residency". so, it's like we are md's or something without the paycheck or any paycheck. i may end up on the streets begging for food/money.

i realized i finally have thanksgiving off, first time in three years. im going to cook for a bunch of people and i'm hoping to feel lots of family love that day. i need it badly.

i miss my brother and sister so much, and i know i say that all the time but i'll keep saying it until i see them next.

my little cousin is turning 21 in a few weeks, and i have a wedding to go to and it should be a good time. i'm more concerned with what my look will be, rather than the whole marriage thing because i barely know the people.

why can't i have my own reality show? i'm dramatic and i like glamour...

see... an example of both. a glamour shot. and then drama shot- from white water rafting in co which i kinda despised the water was cold and you couldn't carry makeup or lipgloss. i'm more into sailboats and pontoon boats or jet skiing.

So in love with this. Welcome to the world little Kyla, if you are anything as amazing as princess Zooey I am the luckiest aunt in the world.