04/28/08 09:54 - 41ºF - ID#44175

bee momma

like any new mother, i am nervous and scared kinda shitless, for soon 18,000 odd stingly flying honeymakin insects will be my charges. also i am nervous because this DEMANDS that i not just dabble in a renaissancelike knowledge of things, like all "lah-tee-dah, that's cool to know, i could totally ace that jeopardy category," as i am wont to say to myself. if i want honey (uh, YES) and if i want the bees to thrive and go forth and multiply (yeah!), i probably should know what i'm doing a little. and i just....DON't. right now, anyway. books can only take you so far, and to be honest i've been damned lazy about the reading in any case.

i am hoping it IS sort of like parenting, and you quickly get the basic hang of it or just suffer. they will for the most part take care of themselves (i hope the queen kicks ass).... and for the most part i will learn this year and not get any honey for meself. some pro at the meetings said after 25+ years you still realize how much you don't know. so that's ok. that's good.

i'm just feeling sort of like "what the hell did i get myself into??" ---all based on some romantic view i had of dancing insects, flower juice, and hexagons. god.

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04/07/08 09:26 - 60ºF - ID#43942

i love houses

paul once asked me what i love about buffalo, and it was during an i hate buffalo ebb. after thinking real hard, i answered "the houses." you could walk for hours, and spot hundreds of nifty little details you wouldn't find repeated elsewhere. there are some gems here too, but i really miss that about buffalo. god i could never live in the south, where so much is new.
for fun, i sometimes browse e-house plans but have been having some disturbing realizations come out of it. it's almost impossible to find one without the palatial master suite, which says a lot about homeowner/mom/dad/queen/king type stuff, and entitlement. then the outsides just look like monstrosities. it is the kind of "luxury" that is so barf-o-rama, new money & tasteless. i don't really get the whole "let's have an open floor plan downstairs" mentality when your bedrooms are compartmentalized and often, the "master suite" is set so so far away from the kids' rooms. if they cried in the night, they would have to mop up their own tears in their own bathroom, or run about 2K to the parents' room. that is so so sad.

i love this house, it's feeling more and more like ours (it's beginning to absorb us now)--- but i do not think it is the last house i will live in. i do not know where life will take us, maybe we will stay or go...if we stay eventually i would love to build a house, one i laid out a floor plan for myself, maybe partially dug into the earth. it would be so odd to live in a house no one else ever lived in.

metalpeter writes at 08:19:12 04/08/08 - Comment #33708: I just wanted to add that you are thinking about right now that you want the kids bedroom near yours so you can hear them. But see in the future you want it the other way around. You don't want to hear there music and if when they are older you or one of them is having sex you don't want either you or them to hear the others. My point is that what is good for now will change at a latter date. I don't own a house but I like pocket doors because they give the option of things being open or you can close off rooms. What is kinda annoying is when you have to go through one room to get to the kitchen and the kitchen doens't lead any where else, or when there are two bedrooms and only one of them leads to the bathroom, I did see that someplace but not sure where.

libertad writes at 07:52:40 04/08/08 - Comment #33684: That is one of the two things I like about Buffalo. The other would be the people. Really the houses are so great though. It can be tough watching some of them be neglected.

tinypliny writes at 03:12:49 04/08/08 - Comment #33682: I am with Paul and also with the rest of you. I like open floor plans a lot. It just feels natural to be able to walk through from niche to niche without missing a beat. BUT I hate getting foodie smells all over my bed or my clothes. So I would love to have some limiting doors to the kitchen or to places with furnitures/objects which would take the smell on.

jenks writes at 01:06:27 04/08/08 - Comment #33670: i'm with you. hate the stupid mcmansions.

drew writes at 10:35:33 04/07/08 - Comment #33654: but an open floor plan helps the party flow from the kitchen!

paul writes at 10:02:57 04/07/08 - Comment #33653: I hate open floor plans. I get all agoraphobic without pocket doors keeping everything separate. No seriously though, I really do like having a kitchen with doors that close because then when something burns in the kitchen or you are frying bacon, it ends up smelling everything up.

drew writes at 09:41:37 04/07/08 - Comment #33651: I, too, am trying to open up the floor plan of my home. I like it when everything is accessible to the kitchen.

james writes at 09:39:43 04/07/08 - Comment #33650: Buffalo has some amazing houses, and I am totally with you on the giant suite/false sense of entitlement thing.

But I love open floor plans. I love them so much. These cramped victorian quarters make me claustrophobic sometimes and there is no novelty like riding a bike in your own home.