I'm awefully tired....just got back from a friend's birthday party...well, actually, I didn't just get back...got back about 2 hours ago, but whatever....I've been listening to some good music for the past long while... and I've got this line from a song stuck in my head....I've gotta make it into a song, actually....it just keeps playing and playing and I'll have to sing it to Heather so we can put it to music...it's not the most poetic line, like I'm used to writing, but it'd make for a good punk song...
"I'm on the ground
I'm on the ground and bleeding
You shot me down
You shot me down and now you're gonna pay
Yeah, now you're gonna pay
F*** You!"
...and that's all I've got. Maybe I should write more to it....na..don't feel like it. I'm practically falling asleep as I write! I realized these past few months that I'm really a morning person...I canNOT stand getting up early, but once I'm up, I've got too much energy....and when I try to stay up late, I'm just dead! I swear, it was like 7 PM today, and I was falling over half asleep...it's insane.. Of course, it could just be school....cuz we all know what that can do to a person..
Wow, there are so many little icons up there for different things I can do to customize my blog, but I have no idea how to use them, or what they're for...maybe I should take a day and learn, lol. maybe it would do me some good...
I can't feel my right hand. and it's really weird...it's really cold, but my left hand is nice and toasty warm, and I don't know why...they are both like, together or whatever....doing the same thing...typing....
I haven't been able to drink coffee these past few weeks without getting really sick feeling...like, it gets my heart rate up. It never used to do it. Maybe I just drink it at the wrong time or something. I love coffee, so I drink it like an hour or two before bed sometimes, but then I can't sleep cuz my heart is like, going crazy, lol...it's insane. Then last night, I went to bed and hadn't had any coffee all day, and I just feel right to sleep....insane indeed...
I've got a song by Anti-Flag stuck in my head....
"F*** the flag and F*** you!
F*** the flag and F*** you!"
and blah blah blah....it's one insanely great song.
I watched their Death of a Nation dvd last night. It was great fun. I actually wanted to write some new songs with Heather. But she wanted to watch tv. So I grabbed my dad's laptop and the dvd and watched it on my bed.. the entire thing: all the songs, all the special features...took quite a while too. But it was well worth it. Those guys rock.
I need some good chick punk/rock bands to listen to...I've got plenty of guy bands....but I've gotta support the girls, lol..
The Juliet Dagger freaking rock:

They are insanely good. And they are the sweetest people too. I speak with Erin and Josh quite a bit.. Oh, look at that...just went to the site cuz I haven't been there in ages. They are doing a show on Nov. 18th at Nietzsches....of course, it's 18+, so I can't go for two more years...It's at 9PM. So if you're over 18, go see them and tell me how it goes...
Oh yeah...Shira Girl is quite awesome too....I forget the website for that..haven't gone there much. I saw them at Warped Tour. Pretty good. Very different.
Sooooo....I'm running out of things to write...my fingers are becoming slurred, lol...instead of my speech, since I'm not talking... Maybe I should go to BED! I should....But I don't feel like it.
Oooooo, I'm going to the PanCake House tomorrow morning! I can't wait...I haven't been there in ages, and I want some raspberry pancakes! mmmm....
Oh shit..that also reminds me..I've gotta write up a Psychology report for Tuesday...3 to 4 pages long...which really should be nothing, since I always write huge long things....cept this is a school report, not a creative writing piece, or whatever....I freaking hate reports...Oo, and I also have to find someone to print for me, since the printer is still fried....and I still have no freaking idea how it fried...it wasn't on in a lightening storm or anything... Daddy has to get it fixed..or buy a new one...whatever he feels like doing I guess...Sucks though, cuz it's gonna cost a ton of money that we don't have.. But once I get a job I can help pay for things like that.

Good Night.
Bon Soir.
A Bientot.
Tu es dans mes reves.....

Soooo.....Sally Anthony is an amazing singer/songwriter! mwahaha...I got her "Vent" cd for free in the mail one hot and lonely summer day...And I took a listen, and fell in love with the sound....It's a lot different from the stuff I usually listen to, though. It's like...I don't know..Weird chick rock? lol...She's got lots of different influences. And it makes her sound so unique.
But anyways, if anyone reads this, check out her site at
Or find her at MySpace. Cuz she's such a sweetheart :)

And on to the next subject.... Field Trip Tomorrow!! Woot! Field Trips were totally cut out of the Orchard Park school district budget for a few long years...and now they are back! And since I'm so awesome and smart and taking French 4 Honors, I got the opportunity to go on a field trip to Olde Fort Niagara! Yes!! It's like, my favorite place to go!! My family actually just went there a few weeks ago, for the firest time in years...I convinced them to take me, haha. And I had the time of my life! And now, I'm going again! I can't wait! And what's even better, I get to speak French ALL day! mwahaha...and of course, I miss a whole day of school!
I can't wait...
A Bientot!

School kinda sucked...it wasn't really that bad tho..just one of those days where you're sleepy, but you aren't dying to get out of class... Only aweful thing was that I had some work to make up, cuz I was sick yesterday. I got to stay home. Which was very fun, actually. I went a wee bit on the net, I took a really nice long shower, I backcombed my dreadies cuz they were starting to loosen *gahhhhhh* And then I played my bass and practiced my band's new song. Since I'm the one who's gonna be stuck singing it. But lol, that's fine with me.
I have to make up a Psychology test tomorrow after school. which will kinda suck, since I hate staying after on thursdays, cuz that's when I have drum lessons...But Ray isn't here this week anyways, so it's ok. If I feel like staying home, I can. But I love going and sitting at Kepplers. lol, I socialize with everyone! I'm such a non-talkative person at school...but then you get me to music lessons, and I'm buddies avec everyone....
But anyways.. Rina was just over for a little while. She stayed after and such. And then she came over and hung out. We've got band practice on friday!! woot! I'm excited. Extremely excited. We haven't had a band practice in a few weeks! Heather and I wrote up a list of things to discuss with Adam and Rina about the band. Like, when we meet and stuff. We want to get in at least one practice a week...and if we can't have one during one week, we'll have two the next week or something... Cuz we seriously need to get working. We've gotta get some more new songs down, too. Cuz besides the one I'm singing, we don't have any more. Cuz Heather wants to reform Boy in Band, and rewrite the guitar and stuff.....
I can't wait for Friday! woot! mwahaha

~kelly

Yes!!!!! So, I finally got my surprise from AlexMaxBand.com!!!! Woot!! It's the site's 1 year birthday....and the wonderful woman who runs it is friends with Alex Band (The Calling) and he sent her a wonderful little song that he wrote for Doll Graveyard, one of his father's cute little horror movies! tehehe...I freaking love it!!!!!!! I've been listening to it for hours now... can't ever get sick of it! So..if anyone happens to strole upon this journal, go to and listen to the song!!!!!!

On another note...it's the weekend!!!!!!! And Halloween is on Monday!! And I have to teach religion tomorrow...but that's fine. Mwahaha, I can't wait to watch all those stupid bad "horror" movies on tv this weekend!! I love them...I wonder if any of Alex's dad's movies will be on? One can always hope...

"100 years of waiting, 36 thousand days....." What a great song...

Hmm...what else to say...
Louis, our French exchange student, left today. It's really sad. He was very nice! And very cute, lol...and he speaks french!! lol.. dreamy....

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Soo...Homecoming was last night. It was fun. I look my little cousin Robin. It was funner than last year, cuz the dj actually played some good stuff...Like Bon Jovi...and some other cool rock songs. Last year, all they played was rap, and it was annoying...I wore Heather's pretty pink dress from last year. And she wore an old Easter dress...It rocks being a twin! We get to share dresses, lol.. Maybe I'll post pictures of me in my dress. Oh my, Mommy was giving me a ton of shit before we left about my hair. Cuz it's all knotty, and in the dreading process...and we kept saying "brush it!" But i couldn't anyways. Cuz it's too knotted.
We went to Mighty Taco afterwards, which was fun. My feet kill from those freaking aweful shoes.
I just cut up my old camo pants. I got them from the Army Navy Store wayyyy back when... and they are bagging and big and wonderful! But they are too ripped to wear much. So I told Daddy to take me to the store sometime whenever he feels like it, so i can buy a new pair. And I made a skirt out of my old pair..And it looks sweet!! mwahaha...I usually hate wearing skirts..but when they look cool, then I wear 'em.
School tomorrow, bleh! Rina came over on Friday and we were supposed to have a band practice. But her mother had to get her just a little after she got here, so we didn't even get to practice...which kinda sucked. But she's coming over tomorrow cuz we've got girl scouts and she needs a ride. So she gets to spend all day with me, haha.
And speaking of band practice, I've gotta go practice singing Conformist Nation..

i had to go to school....and I probably should not be complaining, lol, cuz there are so many people out there that have it a lot worse than me....but I feel like complaining about how awful school is.
It's boring, and i have to do homework, and i'm stuck with the worst teachers on the planet...Ok. Maybe they aren't the worst..but they are pretty bad, lol..

So anyways, I got to go home with Lindsey yesterday! woot! It was great fun. I got to watch Chasing Liberty. Such a cute movie.....

Homecoming is on Saturday night. My little cousin Robin is coming with me and Heather. So I'm really excited. She's one of my bestest pals... I feel bad for her, cuz she's a cheerleader (lol, need i say more?) and she was really really upset cuz her homecoming was a complete disaster. So, I'm taking her avec moi so that she has a fun time! And then we're probably going out to Mighty Taco afterwards, lol....
Ooo, I can't sleep in very late on Saturday. I've gotta teach relgion! lol, yes, that's right! I'm a Relgious Ed. teacher! I can't believe it myself...Actually, Tory kept begging me and Heather to teach with her. So we were like, yeah, sure, whatever.. And then we had this meeting with the woman in charge...and she hates us, lol. Me and Heather are awful at Religion. We get in trouble, we put bullcrap answers on tests..it's funny. But we somehow suckered the poor woman into thinking that we were trying to find God... I'm still kinda upset that we had to lie, but we would never have been able to teach otherwise. And we're good teachers. We tell them Jesus loves them just like we're sposed to...we teach them their prayers.... Only ucky thing is getting up early. And, we have an autistic girl in our class, so it's kind of hard to keep her in line...
But whatever...I'm starving, I've gotta find some food.

lol, it was so funny. I was supposed to be in a group far away from Heather. And Heather is my twin sis. And we're never apart at that stupid class...so I went up to the lady in charge and practically got down on my hands and knees and begged her to let me sit in Heather's group. And it took me ages.... But she agreed finally, mwahaha.
I hate going to these stupid classes, but I must say, this one was pretty fun. This really cute little guy named Denis was in my group sitting next to me. And....my hair's kinda tangly cuz I'm growing dreads...and my pen somehow got stuck in it. Heather started dying of laughter cuz I couldn't get it out. And then Denis started laughing with her. Let me tell ya, it was a riot.....
But...I'm totally not looking forward to school tomorrow. I've gotta get to bed, Mommy is yelling at me to hurry on up to bed. How old does she think I am anyways, lol..

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I just deleted my whole freaking entry. I had the whole thing written, and I was just about to publish it. And then I turned around to look at my sisters and I look back and the whole freaking thing is deleted. Why?! It was so long too!!!! I'm not retyping it. I'll just sit here and rant and be mad at my stupid computer. Musta been a ghosty. Maybe he/she didn't like what I was writing about. But whatever....I'll have to play around with my Ouija Board later, mwahaha.

I throw myself into the rain as we run down these old train tracks again
The moon is naked in the sky, so maybe you and I could fly
Or pretend
As the stars fall from grace, and light your glowing face

I'm teachin myself to dream
I'm holding my breath to scream
I'm teachin myself to
Believe in the things I don't understand
I don't even know if they're true
That's what's dreamers do

I can't say what day it is or year
But thou shalt have no fear, for I know your name
You can't believe what I did and maybe I'm just a kid
But then we're both the same
I watch the hours through the glass
And know that time will finally pass

I'm teachin myself to dream
I'm learning what love can be
I'm teachin myself to
Believe in the things I don't understand
I don't even know if they're true
That's what dreamers do

Stapled eyes can't open until waking
And all your lies will be your undertaking

I'll let my mind dance and flow
We'll make magic and I'll know
As the lilacs slowly grow
All my dreams are true

Teachin myself to dream
I'm holding my breath to scream
I'm teachin myself to
Believe in the things I don't understand
I don't even know if they're true
That's what dreamers do...

Teachin' Myself to Dream
By: Katy Rose

Oh boy. Those were fun. lol.... I got up at 7, and then I got dressed and stuff.. And then I went and took those stupid PSATs. Pointless! I did amazing on the reading/writing stuff. That has always come easily to me. But the math stuff? Oh my gosh...I left like, 5 problems blank, and I wrote random answers for some of them.. it was insane.
I am not looking forward to the actual SATs. hmmm..