06/17/05 11:29 - ID#35058

Brutal Honesty Day

Okay, today is both brutal honesty day and extreme funny sarcasm day. Of course, one can be hidden inside of the other, but usually I am not combining the two. Today, I have pretty much told my rather psychologically fragile friend precisely what I believe that she needs to do. I could be wrong. I will admit that, but she's been spiralling in the same god-awful whirlwind of mind for so long and no one will tell her like it is for fear of upsetting her or "setting her off". Basically, everyone coddles her, most especially her mother, or they just avoid her because they cannot take her. She is my friend and I love her dearly but I admit that I can only take her in very small doses. I know that she will be mad at me for what I have said to her but would I be any kind of real friend if I didn't tell her the truth, or rather, my perception of the truth? Siccophants and phonies coddle and tell lies. I cannot do that, not to anyone that I really and truly love enough to call him or her my friend. Now, to go and tell someone else precisely what I think... May God help that person!

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06/16/05 02:19 - ID#35057

Info.

Just so you know, "Batman Begins" rocks! It has an actual plot and storyline and everything!

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06/15/05 12:52 - ID#35056

Huh?

Did you have one of those days where for some unknown reason, a song you haven't heard in literally years pops in your head out of no-where. Today, at work, as I sit in my boring cubicle, Olive Oyl's "He Needs Me" from the "Popeye" movie just started going through my head! Fortunately, I like that song, but it's so like "Huh? Where the hell did that come from ?"

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06/15/05 11:04 - ID#35055

Re-reading my past

I think it was Mike a few weeks back you wrote about how he had gone back and was re-reading all of his old posts and it had reminded him of things he had forgotten and then he urged us all to do the same. The past couple of days, I've sort of been taking his advice. I have always liked re-reading things I've written, whether it be personal or inane or fiction or fact. I enjoy it. I particularly enjoy reading personal things because it reminds me of a state of mind I was in during a particular moment or time of my life. I find old notebooks from highschool and college and smile at what I've written in the margins- song lyrics, quotes, stupid thoughts, doodles- I'm a really big fan of writing in the margins. It just reminds me of things that if they were important enough for me to write down, then they ought not be forgotten. In some cases, it even helps me to not Rose-tint the past, something I think most humans do. Sometimes it's better not to forget what happened and how I felt, in all it's ugly glory.

What also jumps out at me when I read those old posts is all of my spelling errors, usually leaping over words because I'm going so fast. My head said them, but my hands skipped right over them, and that makes me crazy! So, if I have time, I think I would like to back and correct all of those spelling and contextual errors. I guess it's just the teacher in me popping out.

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06/14/05 12:47 - ID#35054

Update

So, as for those goals that I wrote down back in January, those that I was careful to say WERE NOT New Year's Resolutions, which they aren't, I realized that I'm coming along rather nicely on that list. Still working on the weight loss, but that's going to take a long time. Still trying to get Student Loans out of default- I was stupid in my youth, and now I am paying for it. But, I am happy to report that I *AM* actually buying a car! As I will be moving to Colden around the 1st of August, it no longer became a luxury to have a car, but a necessity and so, I bought a Silver Saturn Ion and I will be picking it up tomorrow afternoon! Actually, it seems rather surreal, and I am very glad, but along with that comes with everything else I have been dreading, it's like (God help me for ripping off "Spiderman", but here goes) with Freedom comes great responsibilty. All of the maintanence! But it shall be worth it. At least, it better be! However, I absolutely refuse to complain about the price of gas. In England, it's over $8 to the gallon! They trip you up by selling it in liters so it looks cheaper, but seriously- Eight Dollars! Yay! I finally bought a car!

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06/14/05 11:46 - ID#35053

Devo-lution

Evolution doesn't stop, at least from the Anthropological, Historical, and Biological perspectives. We, in our Extreme arrogance, however, have assumed that we are the pinacle, the masterpiece, that humanity in all it's barbarous forms have reached the top and there's no going no further! (Ouch! That sentence just hurt my grammar, but I think you get the point) I think that educated and/or thinking people know that that isn't the truth, but the question becomes how do we truly leap forward when things that in the animal kingdom would have been rooted out just by being able to smell that something wasn't right, or by (dare I say it!) Darwin's Law of Survival of the Most Fit. If an animal couldn't survive, it wouldn't. If it Shouldn't survive, it wouldn't. In many instances, that is how we have outsmarted ourselves and I'm fairly certain slowed down considerably the process of Evolution. Or maybe we've just changed how we evolve, turning more to the cerebral than the physical need. In a few millenia, if we could travel to the future, would we even recognize ourselves?

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06/10/05 08:56 - ID#35052

Eureka!

I just realized something- that when it comes to relationships and meeting people NO ONE KNOWS WHAT THEY'RE DOING! THEY JUST PRETEND TO! Granted, some people seem disproportionately lucky in that arena but I think it's just because they don't care and go for it. They already know that no one know's what he or she is doing but they do it anyway. I could be wrong about this but I don't think so. From this moment forward, I'm going to try not to give a flying fuck and just go for it! I suspect however that it is easier said than done. Now that I've discovered that small secret of the universe, I just have to get past my reserve. With plenty of alcohol and goading from friends, I think I can even overcome that, which is saying something. My reserve is pretty damn strong. Okay. I'm done now.

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06/10/05 12:37 - ID#35051

Gettin' my Flirt On!

I don't know what happened, but I think it's the power of the dangly chandelier earrings. It's so uncharacteristic of me to buy dangly chandelier earrings but they were just so cute that I had to have them. And now I want more! And I'm wearing them today and I'm just flirting with everyone, particularly my bank crush! :) Fun, fun times!

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06/09/05 10:22 - ID#35050

Generality of mind

I'm tired. I just did that corporate challenge thing. I walked, though, not ran. Still tired. I walked by myself because my co-workers walked way too slowly and I just can't deal with that. I walk fast even when I'm NOT in a hurry! And I've decided I just have way too many passwords to keep track of. Sometimes I can't remember what's for which- work password, e-mail password, e-peeps password, Crate and Barrel password, Amazon password, work e-mail password... you get the picture. At least I'm no longer giving every single one a different, "funny" password that I absolutely can't remember but it seems like a good idea at the time. Thankfully, I've grown out of that stage. Okay. Still tired. Going to drink a glass of wine, read more of Roald Dahl's Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and go to bed. 'Night, all.

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06/08/05 02:52 - ID#35049

Not a high maintanence kind of girl

I have come to that conclusion. Maybe I ought to clarify because I don't think I'm high-maintanence in the traditional definition of the term. I can't be bothered to get my hair done every six weeks. Getting a regular trim is too much like work! I do have fake nails, because I'm an incessant nail biter and I can't grow my own to save my life, however, I cannot stand having to go every two weeks to get them done. I both love and hate it. I feel absolutely decadent and it's really relaxing but I hate having to do it. It makes me crazy. Maybe I'm just like Sally in "When Harry Met Sally" when Harry tells her that she's the worst kind, she's high maintanence but she thinks she's low maintanence. I, however, do not order things on the side. Anyway. There's my thought of the day.

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