10/22/04 02:04 - ID#34961
Gameplan
Some of my friends swear it's because I'm too picky. I don't think I'm too picky. Once, when I was younger and stupid, I dropped my standards and that was a disaster! So, naturally, I vowed to never do that again, and I haven't really dated anyone since, which makes the question, Is it really worth the grief and aggravation of dropping my standards just to date again, or do I keep them exactly where they are and, possibly, risk staying alone, which I know and am very, very good at, but frankly, stinks on a Friday or Saturday night?
But I digress... The crux of the matter is this... I really like a boy and I have no idea on how to go about this whole thing. I gave him my number, but I knew he wasn't going to call when I gave it to him. In fact, I absolutely expected him not to, which I know makes no sense, but there it is. And it gets further complicated because I never see him, not like in "the Boy who lives in Boston"way, just as in the,"we don't travel in the same circles" way. Hmmmm.... It's very vexing! And that's why I need a game plan. Do I get his number from our one commonality, or do I just let it alone? Another friend of mine said "Be Aggressive", and although I am an aggressive person, I'm just not when it comes to, well, men. It goes against everything that I've been taught. (Who said your parents can't screw you up?)
I need a gameplan. Dilemmas, dilemmas. How do I go about this?
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10/20/04 03:37 - ID#34960
Getting Down to Me
I have a very hard time not being "Perfect"! I know that I'm not and it irritates me. I'm not thin enough, pretty enough, blah, blah, blah. But I'm finally realizing that it's all bullshit. So, I'm not a size 6! Yes, I do need to lose weight, but what really is spurring me on, nagging at me is more my concern for my future health. Diabetes, High Blood pressure, heart disease, strokes, cancer, arthritis, circulation problems, and lung problems run rampant in my family. I'm like a ticking health time bomb! And I know it so I must be responsible. If I don't do something now, something healthy for myself, it isn't going to get any easier.
I'm not perfect but I'm pretty okay.
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10/18/04 04:45 - ID#34959
DANCING ON FRIDAY! 10/22/04
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10/15/04 06:01 - ID#34958
Sooo.... What's Going on tonight?
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10/14/04 11:53 - ID#34957
General E- peepness
Chamille, your party was *oh-so-fabulous*! on Tuesday evening. It was the first time that I had actually gone out on a "School Night" in forever, well, at least since NYC last summer. It was so great to see everyone. And Stickboy, it was nice to actually meet you, in person.
I have to say that I love the idea of the E-peeps Alter-egos. It's fun to actually introduce one's self as their E- strip name. I think it's great to say, "I'm SpringFaerie!" and then follow that up with my real name. It's almost like which is my real name? The name I've had since birth, or the name that I've chosen for myself in cyberspace? Serious and Silly. I suppose that's me. In fact, yes, I would definitely say that that's me. Hmmm...
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10/13/04 09:02 - ID#34956
the kid stays in the picture!
Yay! I'm not inept afterall!
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10/13/04 08:55 - ID#34955
Okay?
All right I just uploaded my favourite picture of the Wedding that was off of my camera and something just isn't right! Matthew made it look so damn easy at midnight on Saturday/Sunday! Damn my ineptitude!
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10/11/04 10:49 - ID#34954
the One versus the Other
They're both kind in their own way and brilliant in their own way. The one is a deep, sensitive soul and the other is deep but he keeps me at bay. The one is here, physically, in town while the other is away, lives in another city another state, but has family here so he comes home when he can. They're both enigmas but the one I think will let me get close enough to figure out the answer, the other, definitely not. But will the one call, that is the question? With the other, I know that if I need advice or someone to vent to, he is there, in his own way, and he gives me feed back when he can.
And the other, well, I've loved him for ages, despite that fact that he's a conservative Republican (GASP!). He is true to himself and is so intelligent that there are times when I feel completely inadequate around him. That is not his doing. It is my own inferiority complex that I try very hard to repress, but sometimes cannot.
And the one, well, I know that if he let's me in, I could love him, very much. There's just something there. I don't know- a kind of connection. Or maybe I'm crazy and there's no connection but when we kissed- it was electric. I don't ever remember feeling like that from just a very quick, but nice, kiss on the lips. But it was there.
I think that I would like to be very good friends with the other and see where it could lead to with the one. I just hope they let me!
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10/10/04 05:52 - ID#34953
What can be said? (apparently plenty!)
Terry, Paul, and Matthew, thank you ever so much for letting me tag along with you. It actually was the perfect way to end the night and it kept me out of trouble.
Chamille, that was one hell of a conversation, and I feel very sad that I have just gotten to know such a fabulous woman and you're leaving! Frankly, that sucks, but I do wish you the absolute best of luck!
I woke up this morning and remembered Trisha sauntering down the aisle to Beethoven and I started to cry. A very real pain seared through my heart and I can't explain it. I think it was the beauty of the moment, coupled with something else, but I was crying nonetheless. She will not change, I know that, for she is and always will be Trisha, but I can't help but feeling that with her marriage, something HAS changed. I'm probably being stupid but one can't help how one feels. I love that girl with all of my heart. I have to go before I become a blubbering idiot.
Mrs. Lehnen. It sounds so weird. Probably about as weird as I said to her, "Your husband...". I was the first one to say that to her- "Your husband..." That's pretty cool!
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10/08/04 10:11 - ID#34952
Hit me baby one more time!
Ciao!
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