I'm going to my monthly district Buddhist meeting on Friday at 7pm. (Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism) There are some people here that may have some interest so I didn't want to leave them out. Let me know via something.

libertad

p.s. sorry the Dalai Lama (Not sure if I spelled that right) will not be able to attend.

Here is my sarcasm cause so many think that we all follow him. No disrespect to anyone, its just like saying all Christians follow the Pope.

This is a pic I took of the billboard in front of the US Interest section in Cuba.




This is what is there now.

(e:joshua), I'm not sure where your confusion comes from about me calling you a liar. I made references to it here
here
and here

You say I am being vague about why I call you a liar, but I have three links asking you why you did lie. I don't include links unless I feel they are important. Please look at them. How could you possibly think that my reference to you lying is about the billboards along the Malecón in Havana Cuba. I posted the pics in the chatter, not even in a journal. All I remember saying is that I'm glad that they decided to change their billboards. Since I walked past these billboards in front of the US interest section on a continuous basis for four months, I know exactly what the billboards say. You are right, I do know how the people of Cuba live. You have not seen what I have seen. I spent twelve days traveling Cuba and the rest living in Havana (4 months) Don't call me naive. I know exactly how the Cuban people are living. I didn't live in a resort. I lived with the Cuban people.

I don't rememember saying that I love abortion. In fact I don't remember ever saying anything about abortion.

Just remember, I am talking about issues not politics.

As you said "I will NOT be supressed because I'm a loud-mouthed voice of disagreement and dissent here. " That is exactly why you lied. It is because you want to be the dissent. You want to be the opposing view, regardless of the truth.

Please everyone, refer to me as (e:libertad) on the site. If you have my birth name on any of your journals please change it to (e:libertad). That is my pen name here and that is how I would like to be referred to on (e:strip). You can use either one when referring to me in person. This is not directed at anyone in particular, but I hope everyone can respect my wishes. Thank you.

I seriously need to do some digital pic maintaining. Pics everywhere and I'm nervous many could be lost due to a faulty burner...

So I just saw all the messages I have had since the end of July (as in private estrip messages). For some reason I didn't see them. Thanks for all the messages peeps. (e:paul) is requesting I categorize my postings. I'll try and get into that, but I'm not so good at organizing anything.

This post is about how I will soon become one of the many in this country that can't afford to have an internet connection. It is quite an awakening to not be able to afford something that I have prioritized over many things in life especially the cable. I don't give two shits about cable, but I want my high-speed internet.

Since my life at the moment requires I have a cell phone, connection through dial up is not an option. DSL also not an option. Road Runner aka Power Link is not an option. I'm not going to spend $60/mo on this. It can't possibly be budgeted. Here I am, a student trying to finish my education and I am being pushed away from internet access. Why? Because we have no freaking choice anymore. EVERYTHING is becoming larger and larger to the point that just a hand full of companies own all of our sources of information, products and services. The poor of course, are the first to feel these effects, because it hits us the hardest. Yes I am poor. I'm not afraid to say that anymore, cause it is the truth. It is hard to belive that when I graduate, that things will be any different.

I'm including a transcript of the dialogue between Amy Goodman from Democracy Now and the FCC Comissioner Michael Copps. You can watch it here... http://www.democracynow.org/article.pl?sid=06/09/13/1331236

Take notice in the lack of the liberal conservative talk bullshit. The dialogue is about the issue, not about some stupid division that we are supposed to adhere by. Not everything fits into some label as if we were able to categorize everything said into some imaginary filling cabinet. I highlighted things i found particularly important, but I believe the transcript in its entirety deserves to be read.

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AMY GOODMAN: I'm joined now by FCC Commissioner Michael Copps. Welcome to Democracy Now!

MICHAEL COPPS: Thank you for having me here this morning.

AMY GOODMAN: It's good to be with you. Let's talk about this report that is criticizing the FCC and Congress around broadband, saying that the United States is far behind, remains 16th in the world in broadband penetration. 14 other countries saw higher overall net growth in broadband options. The U.S. has the fourth highest level of students who have never used a computer, among these nations, exceeded only by Turkey, Slovakia and Mexico, and that population density is not a significant determinant of broadband penetration. The most important factors explaining the digital divide are household income and poverty.

MICHAEL COPPS: That's a startling indictment, isn't it? It bears a lot of what I have been saying, and it's worse than that, really. The ITU, International Telecommunications Union, is the international body that ranked us as number 16. They now have a newer study out even that's somewhat more nuanced, that goes into cell phones and home computers and everything. And you know where we are on that list? 21, right behind Slovenia and Estonia.

The reason is that we do not have a national strategy to get broadband out to our people. I think we're probably the only industrialized country on the face of the earth that lacks a coherent national strategy to build this infrastructure, and it's damaging for all Americans. It's damaging for small businesses who are unable to compete, and most of all, it's damaging for minorities and diversity communities, people who live in the inner cities and people who live in rural America, where the market, I don't think, is just going to automatically take all of this infrastructure.

AMY GOODMAN: So what is the FCC doing about this?

MICHAEL COPPS: Not enough. We continue to analyze this in old-fashioned ways. We're still talking about broadband as 200 kilobits. We satisfy ourselves that broadband is being reasonably deployed around the country by looking at a zip code, and if there's one business that subscribes to broadband in that zip code, we say, "Whoopee, everything is fine and dandy. Broadband is being deployed." So we have to start looking at it and learning what other countries are doing, who are cleaning our clock on this.

We have to look what some of our own communities are doing when the market doesn't get there. They're going in and building their own broadband networks to get this out to their people, because they understand in this digital age if the kid living on the farm or the inner city does not have access to high-speed broadband, he's going to be left behind, and we're going to end up with a digital gap in this new century of 21st century technology that's going to be worse than the digital gap we had in the 20th century in the days of plain old telephone service.

AMY GOODMAN: And the corporations that are fighting this and fighting net neutrality, fighting community internet, saying even if they don't wire a community -- this happened in Pennsylvania -- that you can't have the free wireless internet.

MICHAEL COPPS: This is not how we built America. If you look at every infrastructure we've had since the beginning, whether it's getting settlers on the land or getting produce to markets, business and government, with an active role for government, built turnpikes and roads and river and harbor improvements. After the Civil War, when we became a transcontinental country, we built the transcontinental railroad. We had even the highway system under Eisenhower in the 1950s. All of these things, you had a partnership between private sector and public sector and a national strategy and a national goal, and we got it done.

Now, here we are in the 21st century, this is our new infrastructure challenge, getting all the Americans on the information highway. And we're just going into it without a strategy and without that kind of cooperative partnership that built the United States of America.

AMY GOODMAN: What about this issue of net neutrality and corporations -- many people feel the telecoms writing the legislation?

MICHAEL COPPS: We need an explicit principle of nondiscrimination. We made some progress. I pushed very hard last summer to get a statement of internet principles and net neutrality at the FCC. It wasn't everything I would have liked. It's not really enforceable. We need to go beyond that now and make an explicit statement that we're not going to tolerate discrimination on the internet and then make the Federal Communications Commission the honest umpire in all of this, to handle complaints and give it the authority to do so. Some people don't want to do that. They want to just let all of this continue with a happy notion that the marketplace is going to solve everything.

The genius of this internet was its openness. You had the dumb pipes and the intelligence on the edges. What some of the network owners are trying to do now is to put the control and the intelligence in the pipes and make us all dumb at each edge. Basically that's what it comes down to. And that's just a denial of everything that the internet is supposed to be. This is a wonderful dynamic, open, pro-democracy infrastructure that we need to sustain, and we need to nourish it, and we're not getting it done.

AMY GOODMAN: And how do people enter the debate up against these massive extremely well-financed corporate campaigns?

MICHAEL COPPS: I'm convinced that everything that happens, and you know this better than me, is grassroots action on the part of democracy-inclined citizens across this country of ours. That's how we checked the media ownership rules that Chairman Powell tried to foist on us three years ago. That's how the citizens can have input into this debate now. Contact the FCC. Contact your representatives. Talk it up on talk radio. Write op-eds. Talk to your family. Talk to your neighbors. Make it that grassroots issue.

AMY GOODMAN: What is the biennial rule review, Commissioner Copps? And can you talk about media concentration overall?

MICHAEL COPPS: Well, they've changed it now to a quadrennial review so that every four years we're supposed to look at our media ownership rules and see if they are serving the public interest. We did this last in 2003, and Chairman Powell was adamant on pushing through -- and he did this with his majority against my opposition and Commissioner Adelstein's opposition -- to such an extent that one big company could own in some markets in this country three television stations, eight radio stations, the newspaper -- already a monopoly in most cities -- cable channels, cable network and the internet provider. How does that serve localism and diversity and competition? How does that nourish the creative genius of the United States of America? How does it serve the public interest?

The people own the airwaves. There's no broadcaster, no individual, no enterprise in this country that owns an airwave. You own the airwaves. Your listeners and viewers own the airwaves, and when people realize that and are reminded of that, they get very proprietary about them, and they see the localism and the diversity that's been sacrificed. No local entertainment, no creative genius, everything on the playlist and the homogenized entertainment, and more damaging still, what happens to the democratic debate. No political coverage, no teeing up of controversial issues. No clash of really give-and-take and antagonistic opinions. We've lost a lot. Our media are supposed to be serving democracy and encouraging democracy, and they're not.

AMY GOODMAN: Public comment period is open now for what? It's about to close.

MICHAEL COPPS: It's about to close on the media ownership on September 22nd, which is very close. And there's another 60 days for reply comments, but until we vote, we are open to receiving communications, emails, letters.

AMY GOODMAN: And how do people communicate with you?

MICHAEL COPPS: You can go to fcc.gov, to the home page of the FCC. It will tell you how to do it, but just write to the FCC or email fcc.gov or --

AMY GOODMAN: Matthew Lasar has an interesting website, lasarletter.com, where he posted that Clear Channel is asking for a lifting of the limits on what a radio -- what a communications company can own. They have now over 1,200 radio stations. How does that work? They appeal to you? They petition?

MICHAEL COPPS: Yes. If we change now, if we go through this new ownership proceeding that's up for grabs, and all these rules could be changed and we could lift the caps, and there will be another great wave of consolidation. I don't think anybody really anticipated in Congress in 1996 when they changed the law that we would go from a situation where the biggest -- the most stations that weren't company-owned was maybe 75 at that time, to where you've got 1,200 now. But there could be a lot more.

So we're getting into this situation, where we have distribution controlled by a very few companies, and now, very different from what it was 30 or 40 years ago, they own the content, too. And when you combine content and distribution, I believe John D. Rockefeller told us what that was, it was monopoly.

AMY GOODMAN: We have only ten seconds. I wanted to ask you about VNRs, when they're going to be identified as that, video news releases instead of news pieces and the paying off of journalists, governments paying journalists.

MICHAEL COPPS: Well, we have a proceeding going. I hope we put it on the front burner. We're struggling to get it on the front burner. When the American people see something that's not produced by a station, they ought to have full disclosure and it ought to be apparent to them that they know that this is being produced by somebody else. And if there's consideration being received for it, they certainly have to talk about that.

AMY GOODMAN: Big public hearing in Los Angeles, when?

MICHAEL COPPS: On October the 3rd in Los Angeles, media ownership, very important. It's going to be the first of a very few, probably half a dozen hearings that the chairman has agreed to hold on media ownership.

AMY GOODMAN: FCC Commissioner Michael Copps, thanks so much for being with us.

Blah. I feel like my brain is so full that I can't even think straight. I stopped having coherent thoughts at about 4pm then I had to go to one more class and think in another language. I was so lost. I tried to speak and it just couldn't get what I wanted to say out. I need more brain power. I'm so out of it right now. Tonight I have to write a two page composition about my classmates "en buen español". Not sure I can do it considering I can barely write this.

I'm still working on the "railing". (e:mk) and (e:mike) came to see me working. Mk said she thought it would be smaller. Do you know how long I have been removing all of the paint I had put on? I don't know either, but a long time! I hate the railing, I hate the railing, I hate the....

Today my fish died. It was sad to say goodbye. He was a Bolivian Ram and was a little over two years old. I have beautiful pictures of him on my phone, but can't get them onto the site. Here is a pic of what they look like. I lifted it off this site



The female is now left alone with the 3 Sunburst Platy fish and the dwarf frog. I'm not sure how she feels. They must feel something right? They tried multiple times having babies, but each time it was a devastating disaster. I think she may have even hated him for eating her babies all the time. They almost made it once. Now she is alone. When I first got them they were very happy together. Always swimming in unison. It was amazing that I even managed to get a pair. They are very hard to sex as adults, let alone as juveniles and the male female ratio is unbalanced.

It's hard not to want to blame yourself when you are the one in control of their environment. I always felt bad that I didn't have a larger tank. I have a 20 gallon tall, when I at least should have gotten the 20 gallon wide tank. They swim along the bottom and like to roam around. Having fish is sort of sad, you always wonder if they are happy. I mean unless you have some humungo tank. The other fish seem healthy, maybe it was just time to go.

I wish I could show you his pic. He was so beautiful at times. There colors change a lot. Sometimes they have the most beautiful colors other times they look completely washed out. He hasn't shown his colors in a long time. They have these different color bands in their dorsal fins. Red white and blue...so beautiful.

I'm not getting anymore fish. Since I don't know where my life will be in the future, I don't want to acquire anymore.

OK, I know it is strange to name your fish after such a disgusting person, but for some reason it seemed to fit. I kind of like the name and decided not to let some jerk own it.

Today was crazy. Not that I don't have close relationships with my gradparents, but it is extremely rare to get a phone call from any of them, let alone two on the same day. My parents had children very young and luckily I still have all four of my grandparents. While I was attending the first Sunday of every month Kosen-rufu (loosely translated=world peace) Buddhist meeting, my mother called 2x's and then her father called and then my father's mother called. My phone was vibrating nonstop!

Of course I begin to wonder if something is wrong. I'm always a worrier. For example, yesterday I was terrified that my Dad's parents would get flooded out from the cottage. It was in 1972 that hurricane Agnes flooded and the water level reached the top of the 2nd floor of our cottage. The Farmers Almanac predicted flooding in September of this year as it predicted flooding in June when the Susquehanna flooded Binghampton.

Of course, nothing was wrong. My mother's father called just to talk. I can't remeber him ever calling me before. We had a great time when he was 14 and he was 57 and we rode our bikes from Rochester to Binghampton. He just turned 70 last week.

My father's mother called because she had heard I was worried of flooding. The water level is high she says, but they will not have to evacuate. I believe she is 80 now. I'll have to confirm. Anyways, we had a great conversation. I told her I couldn't answer the phone because I was at the Buddhist meeting. My grandmother is Catholic, as I was raised, and we had a wonderful conversation about religion. She told me how she tells her friends that her oldest grandson is a Buddhist. It really made me happy, because I have always worried that they wouldn't accept me for who I am. I think Catholicism gets that rap because of certain people, but she has always accepted me for who I am. I told her that I haven't forgotten my Catholic background and that I still hold a high regard for their faith. She in turn told me that she is happy that I have found something and thinks it is important. My grandparents have always lived a life worth admiring. I'm not sure if they have any regrets, but as far as I see it, they have lived a model life up to this point. They have truly used the Catholic faith to their benefit. We both agreed on the phone, that all of the religions are susceptible to abuse.

I was soo terrified when I was younger that I was gay, because I thought my Grandparents would reject me. I was wrong. They have never once made me feel as if I were going to hell and they are the best Christians I know. How fortunate I am in this regard.

I almost forgot. My mother called because she booked my tickets to see her in Florida for the holidays. I'll be leaving Dec. 28th and coming back on the 4th of the new year.

Slowly I am getting my life back on track. As of like 2 minutes ago, I have reached full-time status and got into the Art History course that I needed for my degree in History. Registration closes tonight at 8pm, so this new development is a great relief. Money will be coming shortly which is most welcome.

As for a dual degree, the other being Spanish, I will have to wait and see. I need to meet with the Chair of Modern and Classical Languages to discuss my options.

In a health scare, I have learned that I do not have testicular cancer. The ultra-sound showed that I have a cyst (quite normal), and it does not have to be removed. I am advised to wear tighty whities. My health insurance was reinstated just in time to go to my appointment.

And lastly, with my job from hell, I have made some progress. I'm working on removing all of what I have allready painted from the metal railings with a paint stripper attached to my dad's drill. It is the most grueling process I could imagine. After it is to be removed I need to clean the railing with paint thinner and let it dry overnight. After that I have a mini roller, which will apply the paint at the correct thickness. I have bought a new paint to use; black satin from Rustoleum (Spelling?). Getting the time in to complete the job from hell is going to be difficult, but not impossible.

Just taking it all one step at a time. I am looking forward to my studies which include:

Art History (beginning with the Stone Age)

Advanced grammar and compostion (SPA)

The Civilization of Spain

Survey of Spanish American Literature

I love my courses being taught in Spanish. It is rapidly making me think in Spanish again. Art History is in english, but my professor's accent keeps me on my toes.

Bueno. Esta canción de Ricky Martin, me parece a mí, la una más apropriada para mi vida en este momento. No I did not change my user sound.

La Copa de la Vida


La vida es
Pura pasion
Hay que llenar
Copa de amor
Para vivir hay
Que luchar
Un Corazon
Para ganar

Como Cain Y Abel
Es un partido cruel
Tienes que pelear por una estrella
Consigue Con Honor
La Copa Del Amor
Para Sobrevivir Y Luchar Por Ella
Luchar Por Ella (SI!)
Luchar Por Ella (SI!)

Tu Y Yo!! Ale, Ale, Ale
Go, Go, Gol! Ale, Ale, Allez
Ariba va!! El Mundo Esta De pie
Go, Go, Gol!! Ale, Ale, Ale

La vida es competicion
Hay que Sonar ser campeon
La copa es la bendicion
La ganaras Go, Go, Go!

Tu instincto natural
Vencer a tu rival
Tienes que pelear por una estrella
Consigue con honor
La copa del amor
Para sobrevivir y luchar por ella
Luchar por ella (SI!)
Luchar por ella (SI!)

Tu Y Yo!! Ale, Ale, Ale
Go, Go, Gol! Ale, Ale, Allez
Ariba va!! El Mundo Esta De pie
Go, Go, Gol!! Ale, Ale, Ale