01/23/07 09:19 - ID#37831

Holy

It didn't help that I kept laughing my ass off when I went to bed last night. I kept thinking about what I had posted in my blog and also a couple of email exchanges with some myspacers on the subject of irrational fear vs rational fear. In my opinion there is no such distinction. Fear is fear and carries with it a vibration that attracts people and events to match the beholder's vibrational resonance. I think I finally got to sleep around midnight perhaps and when the alarm on my cell phone went off at 3 AM I was like, "Fuck!" So I took my probiotic/ wheatgrass cocktail, gathered a few items to prepare myself to head out and instead plunked down in my soul chair. When I got up over an hour had passed, no kidding. Fortunately, I only needed a little better than 3 hours to clean up and detail the 6 commercial properties on my route. They're calling for lake effect snow with another 2-4 inches today and by the looks of it out my window the bands have already organized with winds out of the WSW. As I've stated in previous blogs I am completely diurnal in nature and can not sleep during daylight hours. Hopefully the snow comes and goes by sunset so I can get an early start on my route this evening. I heard on the radio that meteorologists are predicting the advance of a Siberian air mass beginning next week that will put is in a deep freeze through February on into March. Seems El Nino has retired. Better batten down the hatches.

So I've scared off another prospect in the lady department. I got a message from this girl I had met at a local business networking group a couple weeks ago. She asked if I was single and expressed an interest. I replied that I do not have a girlfriend, although it would appear otherwise with my profile status set to "in a relationship." We made plans to meet for coffee today, however this morning there was a message saying, "Glad I read this...ha, ha...wrong impression lol...nevermind...maybe we'll meet again..." Obviously she read my blog. For the record, I've established "in a relationship" status to indicate that I am in a relationship with myself. So if you're reading this ladies, don't hesitate to inquire. I'm a hot commodity these days looking eventually to settle down with my Queen of Queens. You think you got what it takes to match your King of Kings then holla. Otherwise, don't hate!

I've had nearly 400 hits to my blog in less than 3 days. My previous record for a one week period is a little over 500 hits. Hmm, I have to wonder if recent content is stirring up a ruckus? I wonder if peeps are promoting my blog all like, "You gotta read what this kat is writing, 'slipped a finger in my ass' lmao!" Let's face it, sex sells and I love it, sex that is. And I'm not even selling anything, at least not ostensibly. I am sort of promoting a belief system, in short, "Life is what you make of it so why not make it effortless?" I'd probably be quite a Casanova had I the inclination to pursue a piece of ass at the exclusion of other passions. But I know it's just a phase I'm going through as I continue to raise my vibration and self-actualize. I really do want to be in a long-term monogamous relationship and I have a feeling this recent sexual frenzy is a last hoorah of sorts. So to all my female fans out there if you want some of this now's ur chance, hit me up at yahoo IM "inspiraysean." Speak now or forever hold ur peace!

One LOve
Sean

"The people who mind don't matter and the people who matter won't mind."
Dr. Suess

OK, can you keep a secret, SEAN?

Let me tell you what happens...

There'll be trumpets, fanfare, and parades. Happy tears, giggles, and hugs. Shrieks of joy, fits of laughter, and reunions with best friends.

There will be quiet, reflection, and revelations. Ah-ha's! No-way's! And, of course, You-have-to-be-kidding's!

Eventually followed by a deep, often surprising, longing for what will by then be viewed as the dream-life you led.

You could plot it on a chart.

The point, SEAN, of course, is that you are now living that dream-life.

The Universe

mrmike writes at 07:40:54 01/25/07 - Comment #14937: Despite the enlightenment offered to you by the Universe, the one thing that stuck with me from this post is that I should never cut off a plow driver in traffic. :)

I admire your outlook

jenks writes at 02:45:37 01/24/07 - Comment #14918: Josh, I agree with you, to a point. People should feel free to post whatever they want. Of course they should. And if we are scaring off new users, yes, that is a bad thing. But they/we need to realize not everyone will love everything they/we say. (except my journal of course, which is ALWAYS fascinating. haha.) And they/we need to be willing to accept criticism. Just as we can ignore/not read posts we don't like, we can ignore comments we don't like too.

Is saying "no negative comments" any less stifling than saying "no stupid posts"?

And how is calling someone a hater (for not liking a post) any better than saying 'that post was boring'? I'd argue that calling someone a hater is worse.

You guys know I love you. And I love estrip. I love the free and open exchange of opinions, even when we disagree. I love that we can and do disagree, and (generally) keep it civil. We're not all going to get along 100% and be best friends. Which is ok. That would be boring anyway. I love when people get all riled up about this or that post or this or that writer.

So don't hate on the haters, ok?

xoxo

joshua writes at 02:40:18 01/24/07 - Comment #14917: Ha - please don't be offended - I insulted everybody's blog, including my own!

People think you are a dreamer. So what? Go ahead and dream.

Have a good week.

inspiraysean writes at 02:29:01 01/24/07 - Comment #14916: hey (e:joshua) not sure if I should thank you for helping a brotha out or be upset that you think my blog is boring LOL

joshua writes at 02:24:15 01/24/07 - Comment #14915: Most content on blogs are incredibly, incredibly boring at times. Sean's blog is no different than ALL of the journals on (e:strip) in this regard, so could somebody explain to me why it is that a handful of people have felt the need to single Sean out? There are a litany of things that people write about here that I don't give a fuck about. That doesn't mean that I feel the need or feel duty bound to let someone know about it. Who are you, who am I, who are we to be judge and jury? Its inappropriate.

The point is to have a place to vent. People do not need to do it here but choose to out of the fact that this is supposedly a community site.

The worst and saddest part of all of this is the habitual beratement of new users to the site. Its trashy and its going to ensure that hardly any additional users will be encouraged to participate in any meaningful way. (e:paul) always asks for ideas on how to expand the user base - a good start would be for the users around here to stop treating the site as if its a massive clique that must be safeguarded from outsiders.

Had I joined now instead of when I did, I likely would never participate because every few months people here irrationally decide, "Hey, I don't like this guy or what he says" and then proceed to alienate and personally attack the new person. In all seriousness, periodically the e-behavior around here is utterly shocking... which is a shame because I think everybody here has great qualities that end up getting stifled because of stupidity. Who really are being the assholes around here, Sean or the user base that attack him?

(e:lilho) - I like you a lot and I am really disappointed right now - I know for a fact that you're a better person than that.

jenks writes at 01:40:36 01/24/07 - Comment #14914: Whoa jason... Gotta say I'm with sarah on this one.

jason writes at 01:05:15 01/24/07 - Comment #14913: Sarah, why are you such a fucking hater?

lilho writes at 10:58:19 01/23/07 - Comment #14909: did you ever feel like you just talk forever about nothing? if sex sells, then sells us sex, not long boring posts. pictures would be nice...

theecarey writes at 02:01:36 01/23/07 - Comment #14896: Very few traits/characteristics of "virgo" apply to me anymore. 15 years ago, maybe. I am everybody. You will be greatly surprised if you hold to this categorization. Just 'warning' you ;)

inspiraysean writes at 01:37:49 01/23/07 - Comment #14894: such a virgo (e:theecarey) will analyze a grain of sand for hours with enough time to kill LOL
yeah, feeling that I might be on the other side of the frenzy, got word of an old friend passing away early this morning...symbolic of my journey on this side of the veil, dying to my old self and ways to be reborn to experience more Life:)

theecarey writes at 01:07:24 01/23/07 - Comment #14892

thinking out loud*

Debating whether all fear is the same or if there is a qualitative difference in rational vs irrational (fear) has merit. The distinction in rational vs irrational is that one is based in "reason" and the other is not. "reason" by its own accord depicts 'sound judgment'- which has its own level of interpretation based on our individual differences. Our minds are powerful in that we attract (or deflect) outcomes based on our thinking. Some manifest immediately, some do not. If in contemplating emotion, our ideation breaks the "whole" (emotion) down into its "parts" (fear,love,etc) which those can be further broken down into classifications and effects (irrational, rational, unconditional, conditional), and each subsequent classification from there is yet another 'part' of the 'whole'. And in this example, "emotion" is just a part of the greater "whole" (which can be whatever anyone thinks it is). Everything relates and interelates. Does rational and irrational fear exist? In the form of helping people to understand what fear is, yes. Does it exist separately from "all fear is fear", no not at all. Everything is one (One). But to know that, some of us need to break it down to begin to understand it; to build it back up.
I have said enough for a comment (yet not enough for the topic). However, I have a penchant for Systems thinking, Chaos theory, and inductive/deductive/transductive logic.
In short, I get you :)

Really..a deep freeze? Well, I will make excellent use of my fire place. Time to chop more wood!. Before all that, with the snow and milder temperatures, I'll be out there XC skiing!