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02/03/07 06:54 - 15ºF - ID#37990

Old Man Winter

Old man winter is rather pissed off at the moment and the ploughman is at the brink of delerium in the wake of this lake effect storm. I can't even see outside my window as I sit here typing with heavy eyes. I began last night around midnight after getting the call to action while chilling at this joint called Brio in Rochester. There I'd crossed paths with someone from many years ago, or lifetimes as it now seems. As my friend Michele and I walked into the place I noticed the delightful sound of live female vocals covering a Billy Joel tune. As I strolled on by I realized I recognized the rock-n-roll Diva seated by the electronic piano. Jen was looking mighty fine as she always did back in the days at Fredonia State U. where she attended school with my brother Dan. And to think I might have had the opportunity to make a ze sex love with her back in the day only to let it pass me by. Sigh. I've been a damn fool in this life, but alas, that was then and this is now. On her set break I paid a visit to say hello and she remembered my face linking it to a period of time in her life and certain recreational activities. She's of course emerged in recent years as a locally acclaimed performing artist and who am I but a face in the crowd. Yet, separate but equal souls, it was so nice chatting and catching up for a minute. She explained that in her spare time she manages her boyfriend's men's apparel store, expounding on the description in detailing their plans to joint venture with Buffalo Sabres' starting goaltender Ryan Miller for a second location in his home state of Michigan. I asked when she'd be in Buffalo to perform next and interestingly enough she will be headlining a charity event at Ani's church sponsored by the Ryan Miller Foundation. Hmm, maybe I should start the Sean J. Kennedy Foundation? It has a nice ring to it. Anyway, I gave Jen a kiss on the cheek wishing her well until we meet again.

I was fully enjoying the euphoria following my attunement with Michele at her healing sanctuary. I questioned the logic in keeping the appointment with the prospect of plowing on the horizon, but am so glad I followed through. She shared her gifts in channeling energies and Spirit to assist me in releasing minor resistance, or as she called it "fine-tuning" the higher energies at work in my life. I could feel my spine and cranium tingle on several occasions during the 15 minute session. She noted that she too had experienced similar sensations, especially at the end as she concluded the ceremony with laying of her powerful hands upon my shoulders. She was called to apply eagle medicine to various points on my torso, including my shoulders as a gesture of support in helping me shoulder the weight of this profound transformation taking place right down to the re-programming of DNA.

Before meeting up with some of her friends at Brio we enjoyed some delicious Mediterranean cuisine at this cute little joint called Sinbad's in the upscale Park district of Rochester. The hummus is tangy and pungent. Christopher and Julie met up with us shortly after we we're seated as two tables conjoined made possible what had been dinner for two a dinner for four. As per usual custom we laughed heartily with sexual innuendo after innuendo with references to Borat and then more innuendo with original content. Between the four of us there's enough zing potential to re-populate a third world country. I was totally high on life in the spirit of wonderful company. I treated Michele to dinner and drinks in return for her services as we made way departing with hugs for our cohorts who opted to go home rather than continue the evening out on the town.

I also had the pleasure to see a friend I hadn't seen since the summer. Megan was beaming and bright as ever introducing me to her boyfriend Rich, who later shared with me his experience of Buffalo while living there for a period of 9 years, including Bill's season tickets during the Super Bowl years and a love of Ziggy's Taco and Sub on Main. St. A couple more friends arrived to join the circle as we made merry while Jen belted out one cover after another with sheer brilliance. I was getting anxious though and figured I should check my phone. Sure enough Rich had called saying we'd be plowing. I began saying my goodbyes as this chick Amy commented that I have "one of those faces." Megan told me that she was referring to me as Superman. Hmm, if only she knew who I really am.

I noticed of late that I am struggling somewhat with my identity. I know it's coming from ego mainly, but I think my Higher Self is trying to have a say in the matter as well. When people ask what I do I am not particularly excited to tell them that I landscape and snowplow. Often times I will ask people to clarify with the question, "Are you asking what I do to earn money, or what do I do?" It just doesn't seem to do justice to my true nature, but then any defined role will never approach one's Divinity, whether CEO of a Fortune 500 company or janitor makes no difference at the end of the day. However, for the sake of playing the game of life I've been wrestling with new labels, or categories.

Last night I was approached with zest by this woman who was a friend of Jen. She inquired what I do I answered, "I'm a philosopher," to which she immediately responded, "Oh, you're trying to save the world." I was like, "No not really, I keep the focus on Sean," and went on to mention snow removal and being an aspiring writer, etc. But she seemed to have lost interest and shortly thereafter vanished into the masses. I'm glad I tried on the philosopher hat. She showed me what the mainstream interpret such a role to mean, which is not all where I'm coming from. I'd like to say that I am a child of God, or an Instrument of the Light perhaps, but I don't know that it would go over too well in the mainstream. I guess I should just stick with what is for now. I plow snow in the winter and I garden in the summer. Oh yeah, and I write.

On the drive home I chuckled to myself as if I were Clark Kent hurrying to save the day. Negotiating a snow-whipped NYS Thruway at 65 miles per hour while other cars crawled along at 40-50 mph; my white stallion, or pussy magnet as I now call it thanks to Borat, was obviously made precisely with such conditions in mind. The only pickup truck in its class with front-wheel drive proves once again the superior acumen of foreign engineering. My experience driving in adverse weather certainly was a factor, although I give hearty props to Honda, even if they are guilty of messing with odometer readings. I'm quite curious to see what comes of the class action lawsuit. In the meantime, I will continue as an advocate for what I consider to be one of the best designed and best looking automobiles on the road today. And it just so happens to be operated by of the best designed and best looking humans on the planet today.

I made it home lickety-split in spite of hazardous road conditions stopping by the nursery to drop off my ride and acquire Big Red. After stopping home to trade in my snazzy attire for work duds I was off to the task at hand. The commercial lots were not bad at all as wind-blown drifts along the borders made for a quick, efficient clean-up. I finished my route and was happily in bed four hours later only to awaken around daybreak to more heavy lake effect snow fall. I started to get revved up, but wanted to get some more sleep before heading out for round 2. I wasn't able to settle down until I masturbated allowing me another hour or so of sleep.

Rich had called signaling that we need to get a move on as I was already out the door. I was met by a stern complaint at one of my commercial properties. This woman in a Mercedes motioned for my attention so I pulled along side her. She proceeded to comment on how unhappy she is with the timing of the service. She was quite abrupt and clearly below the line. I replied by asking her if she was aware of the timing of the last snowfall, to which she made a rather disgruntled face and scoff before responding, "I don't need to put with up this aggravation, what's your name? I'm going to call Rich. I can't even get into my own building and its already noon!" I felt my heart rate escalate, though I did not allow my emotion to dictate the exchange. In so doing I remained above the line and simply remarked to her, "We're doing the best we can, m'am," before she scurried inside.

It's not at all an unusual circumstance for me as I've attracted many such people in similar circumstances over the years. They are typically female and older, lending credence to the theory it has something to do with unresolved mother stories. In any event, I didn't allow it to sully my day in the least and continued on for several more hours providing a most convenient service for my clients. I noticed not one, but on two occasions the appearance of a red-tail hawk flying right over me. It was a pleasant sign that all is well and I'm in the flow. While snowblowing the walks at one property, my face encrusted by wind-driven plumes of propelled snow, I was holding the vision of tropical beaches. I had an understanding on the creative process, i.e. manifestation. The information wasn't (k)new, but the feeling became Truth in that moment. I was thinking and acting in The Certain Way as offered by Wallace D. Wattles in his landmark treatise on metaphysical principles, The Science of Getting Rich. Indeed, I felt the richness that is my essence, my birthright and in that moment of battling the elements I substituted what is for a vision of what shall be.

It appears the lake effect snow bands are moving south to ski country where it is forecast they will remain for the remainder of the weekend. But the damage is done and I will have to go out for a third round in a 24 hour period. I'm totally wiped out and not sure how I'm going to hold up for another run without a full night's sleep. I can smell the ocean and feel the warmth of the tropical sun. It's calling me. Yet what is for right now in the present moment shall remain the best possible reality within the field of infinite possibilities. I am guided by the intention of that which brings me peace and joy. It is only a matter of time before everything I create in this life is in harmony with this intention. Creator, grant me the strength and endurance to honor my word and carry out the tasks I have agreed to complete. I offer gratitude for the many blessings, seen and unseen, as everything contributes to my Highest Good.

One Love

"Philosophers and ploughman, each must know his part, to sew a new mentality, closer the Heart!" Neil Peart

February 3, 2007
Trusting Your Guardians
Libra Daily Horoscope

You may sense that something akin to luck is on your side today, and you will likely recognize the benevolent hand of your many spirit guardians operating in your experience. Mundane acts that typically constitute a normal part of your daily routine can earn you surprising blessings as others acknowledge your hard work and effort. Should you find yourself in situations that feel negative, you may be pleased to discover that you can respond constructively and without resorting to hostility. The moment of recognition in which you see that you are not alone can be the perfect time to express your gratitude for all the blessings your spirit guides have bestowed upon you today.

We can move through life with a greater degree of confidence when we believe that there are entities watching over us and protecting us from harm. Simply recognizing that we exist under the stewardship of benevolent beings can sustain our spirits during challenging times and lift our mood when life is sweet. We are better equipped to dispel the negative energy we encounter as a normal part of our day-to-day experience because we are able to funnel it into the strong arms of our guides. Yet the confidence we gain knowing that we are safe and loved also inspires us to take a more active approach to our own happiness as these beings will only come to our aid when called upon to help. You will feel secure today as you recognize the important role your spiritual guardians are playing in your life.

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Category: think rich

02/06/07 12:06 - 9ºF - ID#37967

Definite Chief Aim

The sleep deficit lingers, though I'm catching up steadily. I'm here keeping warm by the fire as the coldest air of the season continues to blast us. I am wondering where to go in my life, what is my purpose, or "Definite Chief Aim"? I know it aint to drink all the beer or fuck all the women. I've tried that one and though it was fun I have to admit even that has lost appeal as I've evolved on this path of life. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy a good micro-brew and a sexy woman, but to make it the focus of my life, no thanks. There has to be something greater to which I am called. What is it? This question begs attention and so I will ponder it as I go about my business today. The guys from work called seeking players for a round of hold-em Texas style, but I have plans for lunch with a friend to treat her and her unborn child to some delicious Thai food. I might join another friend as a guest at her gym later this afternoon and then this evening the Sabres will try to get back on the winning track with a big game verses the Thrashers of Atlanta.

I tell ya the Florida Keys are really calling for me right about now. I got an email from NY Times Getaways and the pictures alone sold me. It's not just as an escape from the bitter howling winds, althought that would be a bonus, but it's an an opportunity to bask in the subtropical sun and bathe in crystal blue surf. What a therapeutic treat for a body from which I demand so much. It would be nice to have a companion along with which to partake in the many pleasures as well. How amazing would it be to spontaneously bounce right now even for just 3 days on Key West? I could so handle that action. I can feel it coming too, maybe not in the very near future, but rest assured by this time next winter I will have such options available to me. In the meantime, I will keep pace with my many devotions and proceed in The Certain Way. Life is such a blessing!

Today's Daily Lesson:

One Love

February 6, 2007
An Attitude Of Expansion
Libra Daily Horoscope

Your kindheartedness will likely serve you well today as you interact with people in the various spheres of your existence. You may find yourself responding especially compassionately to those seeking out your guidance, friendship, or authority because you are excited about meeting new people. If you welcome these connections and treat everyone you encounter today with warmth and friendliness, you can cultivate companionship and business contacts easily. The trust you display when communicating with these individuals will likely touch their hearts and inspire them to open up to you more readily. Consider setting a side a part of your day today to reconnect with those individuals who would like to get to know you better.

In adopting a friendly and welcoming attitude, we do our part to ensure that we have created conditions in which we can attract new acquaintances and associates. When we draw people to our side by projecting an aura of warmth and an upbeat demeanor, our social and business networks expand quickly. Surrounded by individuals who can support us and help us further our goals, we feel ever more secure in ourselves and in our prospects. As our circles grow, we become increasingly aware of the important role that others play in our personal and professional lives. There is little we cannot do when our pursuit of our goals rests on a foundation of kindness and caring. Your freely given kindness and compassion will help you attract a wide variety of like-minded individuals into your sphere of influence today.

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Category: celtic sea salt

02/01/07 11:44 - 24ºF - ID#37950


It appears El Nino has made an exit stage left as temps continue below the freezing point and a forecast calling for bone-chilling temps arriving this weekend. I was so grateful that it didn't snow last night. Don Paul was forecasting 3-6" as lake snows began to shift north from the southtowns. In fact, I'd call it a miracle the way it went down. I was on my way over to the parents' house for dinner- Cuban style pulled pork fajitas- as I looked to the sky. It appeared the winds had shifted as pockets of blue emerged from the sullen skies. I tuned into the weather channel after dining with my folks and sure enough the snow advisory had been lifted without a trace of accumulation. The headache I endured for the better part of the day continued into the evening and so the call to action would have been most arduous. Amazing grace, how sweet the sound...

I laughed my fuckin ass off last night for a solid 90 minutes thanks to Borat. In spite of my headache I figured laughter would be excellent medicine and I was correct. So I acquired a pass at the bargain cinema for $1.50 on a cold, quiet hump day evening. As per custom I attended the movie in solitaire. I had thought to call my friend Beth who expressed interest in hanging out, but I opted instead to keep myself company with a hilarious "documentary" featuring Sasha Cohen. I suppose it would have added a humorous element to the evening had I invited Beth along. Raised in the Jewish tradition I would have been curious to see how she handled the anti-Semitic current throughout the film. But knowing her she would have enjoyed the humor, as grotesque and uncivilized as it may be. Anyone who got their buttons pushed by Borat has some work to do. If you can't laugh at the judgments and stereotypes we hold so dear in this culture you're missing out on the opportunity to experience life more fully. And isn't that why we're here after all, to experience more life? I should hope so.

I'm not quite feeling up to play hockey this morning as my skates remain unsharpened and ready for action. Speaking of action I received in the mail a notice for a class action lawsuit representing all owners of Honda makes and models from 2002-2006 for fraudulent odometer readings. Hmm, not sure what to make of it, but if it results in some sort of windfall in my part I am most open to receive. I have big plans this evening for a fundraiser at Ani's church followed by a visit to take in some live music featuring my boy Stu and his band Babik, including a Valentine's lingerie show. I'm always down for some of that!

I received guidance to compose a poem today, but before I do so I'd like to comment on one more item. The more I grow on this path of unconditional love, peace, joy and prosperity the less I find I am in "touch" with the mainstream. I do my part to remain abreast of the major political developments locally, regionally and internationally; however, I do nothing more than skim the daily news to do so. Most of humanity lives in an extreme climate of fear. It never ceases to amaze me how "below the line" people choose to think, feel and ultimately live. In the paper today a woman complains of the statute of limitations on non-homicide prosecution in the wake of the infamous bike path rapist. Apparently she was the victim of rape 20 some years ago and says she still wakes up "screaming" on occasion. Somehow she thinks that if this man in custody can be tried for one more count on rape that it will vindicate her. In reality, it is up to her to release this pain that she is holding onto, which has nothing to do with the accused. Yet, she has received a great deal of attention over the years following her victimization and her spirit knows that such tribulation brings with it this gift. And she has every right to continue holding onto this fear, even though it robs her of precious life. There is a gift in allowing on this path of life that I continue to practice and master. It matters not what others choose. My only business is my own. Yet I can not help but to desire for others what I desire for myself. So I continue to keep the focus on Sean, and if peeps are so inclined to inquire I am delighted to impart the wisdom I've gathered over the years. In the meantime, let it be...

Ode To Imbolc

Be not fooled by the cold wind blows,
hark, lest we in our folly fables,
fail to heed great utterings
upon bustling boughs in frozen forests!

The incandescence illumines the darkest of nights,
so shall we wander guided by the inner solstice,
when days of dancing gayly around bonfires have faded,
only to return in a toast with friends aside the flames!

Be not afraid during these quiet times,
tis a gift immense in value we behold,
for within each Heart is the glow of Gold,
whilst enchanted dreams arouse the Soul!

One Love

Looking for the gift in a situation, SEAN, typically means there's a belief that the situation's outcome could have been better.

And thinking that an outcome could have been better, only happens when there's a belief that one's joy could have been greater had there been a different outcome.

And thinking that one's joy hinges on the outcome of any time-space occurrence, almost always means that some cool cat somewhere, has ever so briefly forgotten not to interpret events with their physical senses alone, that all the elements, then and now, are lining up in their favor, and that their own happy feet needn't have missed a beat.
Bust a move -
The Universe

February 1, 2007
Doing What It Takes
Libra Daily Horoscope

Your expectations can become the inspiration that keeps you motivated today if you regard success as something that is inevitable. The optimism that develops naturally as you visualize the triumphant realization of the dreams you wish to achieve will likely bolster your spirits as you face the difficulties that are an unavoidable element of the goal-realization process. Should you find yourself up against a seemingly insurmountable obstacle today, you can call upon your anticipation for encouragement and comfort. The sustenance you glean from your positive vision of the future will likely become the strong foundation from which you reach upward toward the brilliant light of your ambition.

When we think of our eventual success in terms of when we will reach it, rather than if, we are more apt to recognize and take advantage of those opportunities that have the potential to help us achieve our ambitions. We are willing to do whatever it takes-not because we fear failure, but because we are looking forward to the day we will realize the dreams we hold dear. As a result, our minds are filled with positive, happy thoughts regardless of the nature of the events unfolding around us. When we face challenges, we choose to think constructively about the roadblocks before us rather than to become mired in the temporarily distressing and demoralizing aspects of the paths we have chosen. The anticipation you harbor in your thoughts today will empower you to stay optimistic while facing the ups and downs of the goal-realization process.

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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Ego vs. Excellence
Category: Travel and Places

There is no daily lesson today as it is the 31st of the month and there are only 30 lessons in the Effortless Prosperity practice. However, it does instruct those following the program to "do something special for themselves" on this day. I've been wondering what I might do with ideas ranging from a walk outdoors somewhere I've never been before to a trip to the happy ending spa to see Wendy and enjoy her gifted hands upon my body. It's already noon as I slept in til 9 and been a slow start. I have this sharp, piercing pain in my upper abdomen, perhaps a strained ribcage muscle while out plowing? I don't know, but it hurts to take a deep breath. I wanted to participate in the skate and shoot over at the local rec center, but I think it best to rest and repair. If it feels better tomorrow maybe I'll go play. I tried on a pair of Reebok ice skates yesterday at Great Skate and they felt awesome. The sales clerk said the 2007 line will be coming out in a couple of months so I might hold off. We're already rounding the turn in this winter season (Imbolc) so perhaps I'll upgrade my gear in time for next season. In the meantime, I'm gathering information about organizing a team for an in-line hockey league starting at the end of February.

When I awoke this morning I had this revelation about ego, specifically discerning what voice is that of ego and what is that of our Higher Self. Most people have it backwards in this consciousness. For instance, we think the voice telling us how great, talented, beautiful, amazing and absolutely magnificent we are is that of ego. This couldn't be further from the Truth! This is our Higher Self speaking and here we let ego allow us to believe to the contrary with notions such as, "I'm not worthy," or "I have to earn it," or "Nobody's perfect," hogwash! We are excellent by virtue of our existence! To the degree we can manage our ego, honor it with a simple response such as, "Thanks for sharing," and go about the business of living effortlessly is a measure of success. Do you have any friggin clue how special, fantastic and utterly beautiful you are? I thought so!

So here I am on this "special" day, as if everyday were not special. My mother invited me to dinner and following that I will be gathering with friends to continue our vision boarding project. Oprah will be featuring people from the movie The Secret later today. The Law of Attraction continues to gain notoriety as it penetrates mainstream consciousness. It is such an exciting time to be in the world. A few years ago when I started out on this path of self-discovery awakening to who I truly am I wasn't so sure I made the best choice. Well, if my life now is any indication I made a most wise and brilliant choice. More and more people are getting on board and it is only a matter of when, not if, that we co-create a culture of peace, harmony and prosperity for all! I'm honored and thrilled to be fulfilling my role at this most amazing juncture in human evolution. This is the age of mind over matter as duality fades steadfast into the anals of outdated philosophical doctrine. I am both the cause and effect in my reality. There is nothing so liberating as knowing this to be true. I can't wait to see what miracle is coming into my life next!

One Love

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January 31, 2007
No Mountain Too High
Libra Daily Horoscope

You may feel cleverer than usual today, and primed to utilize your creativity in the completion of your everyday duties. This unexpected bout of resourcefulness can lead you to apply your imaginative talents in unexpected ways throughout the day. Whether you choose to beautify a professional report or to devise a more efficient system of organization in your home, you will likely find yourself taking on more ambitious projects as you are encouraged by each new creative success. Should you find yourself facing obstacles today, you can quell your initial fears by recalling all that you have accomplished thus far. You can derive encouragement from the strong feelings of self-confidence already established in your soul.

We can surmount almost any obstacle the universe chooses to put in our paths when we believe in our ability to cope with and adapt to changing circumstances. Because we have faith in the value of our innate cleverness, we are more apt to make use of our intellectual resources when faced with challenges that seem impossibly difficult. Situations in which there is no chance of traversing a straight path energize us because we relish the opportunity to make use of our creativity in the discovery of offbeat solutions. Every resource available to us, whether physical or cerebral, is put into play as we explore the possibilities open to us, no matter how oblique or fantastic they may seem at first. No single challenge will interfere with your resolve today because you know that you are capable of besting anything.

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