well, as you all may have read, i was supposed to get my root canal on wednesday... but when i got there and all ready to get it done, the secretary informed me that as of right now, i am not covered by dental insurance. I have 2 forms of dental insurance through both of my parents, but the only insurance provider this dude worked with was the one through my mom....and of course, those of you who have been under their parents insurance while being a full time student know what a huge hassle all the paper work can be. i did the right thing.... i submitted my enrollment forms, but someone at my moms human resources office didn't get the in on time. so to make a long story short, i walked out of the office without having my tooth fixed. I have to now wait till i get back into town to do it again. nice.

in other jess news, i have been stressing for some odd reason about my id's. i have a license, and a passport, and a SS card, but i can't seem to find my SS card or my passport, and im freaking about about it. i didn't get any sleep last night due to my stressing.

I leave tomorrow for school. I wish I could stay home. School is really kicking my ass. And to think that this semester is just a waste....but i need to go because i only have 114 credits and you need 120 to graduate. so, im taking bullshit classes. and im still working the same 2 stupid jobs.....i need to get a better job up there.

on the other hand, im really excited to get back to my little apartment and i also get to see danny in a week. he and eli are coming up to see me in plattsburgh....yesterday was his birthday (danny's). thursday is sophia's 1st birthday. im excited. she got a cute little pink black and white tweed blazer. my dog is stylin!

well, there goes another journal of complete nonsense. yes! goodbye.

tomorrow is my root canal. fuck. im not looking forward to it, though i hear its not that bad. i will be the judge of that.

i wish i was in nevada right now and not in buffalo. it would be warm and sunny. that would be wonderful.

i am taking the GRE's on the 28th....that only gives me a week and a half to study. fuck. this is a big deal......so like me to wait till the last minute to study for them.

i leave for school on saturday. fuck. i don't want to go back to that shithole place. although im excited aobut my biostatistics class....it should be cool.

other than that. not much going on. blah.

hello again. not much to say, but im in daniels apartment just wasting time and i thought i would write in my journal. last time i was here in vegas, i hated it. it was so miserably hot and i didn't want to do jack shit. but now that i am here now, i am so loving it. it's beautiful and there is so much to do. I am getting excited about moving here actually. Danny and I are looking into possibly getting a condo.....its the same as rent here at the place he is lving.

i taught in dannys class yesterday. they are all mexican first graders and all are the sweetest little things ever. i taught them about germs and they were so excited. i got tons of hugs and i laughed a lot because they are so adorable. I might go back monday to see them again because they think im the coolest. YES! i still definitely don't want to teach though....no no no.

yo, im watching the first 48 on A&E....i love this channel. they always have the best shows on. i don't have cable at my apartment....so im so spoiled right now. i love tv. really, it's so entertaining. i get sucked in and watch it for hours though. so i guess its good i don't have cable.


alright. im out.

well...i hope everyone had a good holiday. things here have been insane. the holidays are always nuts....but man i am glad christmas is over. I think i need to move across the world to have an excuse not to engage in such a stressful holiday with my family. anyway, i guess all went well.

i leave for vegas tomorrow. i am really excited to get out of town and into a relaxing and warm place for once. I am really going to miss my puppy, but my mom will take good care of her.

o, and my hair is blond. really blond. sarah did it....and i have dyed it lots in the last week, because it was hot orange when we initially did it....but it's alright now. but im still not sure i should be blond. we will see....

i got my girl scout cookies finally. they are wonderful. I want good food. like little horderves and chicken tikka masala and pad thai and a mcdonalds double cheese burger. mmm. im hungry. i want mikes subs. maybe i will order. yummy in my tummy.

i am at work right now. some last minute hours to try and get some cash for my trip. i am in desperate need for mullah. sophia is with me too. i love her.

i got a 3.4 this semester. i am so pissed....i know that sounds really dumb because a 3.4 isn't bad at all....but i got a B on my senior thesis because my professor is a bitch and doesn't know anything about physical anthropology. I am going to take it to the dean because i know i deserve an A on that shit. fuck her.

alright. im out for now. goodbye.

yea...um. i went to the dentist yesterday to get my tooth fixed, when the realized that my tooth is so screwed up that they couldn't just do a quick fix, and since my tooth is a 4-root molar, i need to go see a specialist for my root canal. So after all of that drilling, I am back to square one. boy o boy. i love the dentist.

i am at work...O! I AM BACK IN BUFFALO! its a good thing. so yea, i am at work at good ol' frizb's. today is jeff's birthday. so, i am all alone. I really miss working here all the time. I have been working here sooooooooooo long now, but now i don't' work much since i live 8 hours away, and when im home, there are new employees to work, so i fit in where i can.

I know the death cab for cutie cd has been out for like 5 months, but if you don't have it, i think you should. It's good. that's what i have to say about that.

today, i bought a present for (e:hodown) because (e:lilho) said (e:hodown) wanted it.... so i found it and bought it....so (e:hodown), (e:lilho) will be bearing a gift from me to you....although, i think (e:lilho) thinks its from her, but it's not. its from me.

so i am babysitting my boyfriends black pug. He is the cutest little thing. all he wants to do is cuddle....and sophia is not liking it at all. she is so hatin on him its hilarious! she is not used to other dogs up on her mom, so she is a bit jealous, but i have been giving her extra attention just because i feel bad. I ordered her this pink hooded sweatshirt last night. its so cute. i hope it gets here for christmas. and my mom bought her a down pink jacket with a fur hood. not real fur, but faux. it's so cute too! my dog is the most styling dog out there.

im going to see (e:lilho) in about an hour....she is doing my hair. im no longer going to be a darkie. im going light! im kinda nervous, but i am sure it will be wonderful. I need a change.

did i mention it is freezing outside? fuck.

and i am sick of these Bush speeches interrupting my normal shows. i mean, no one wants to watch him speak, more or less hear what he has to say. i mean, come on.

im out.

alright. well. i was planning on leaving today after my last exam, but plattsburgh has decided that it was way cool to get dumped on with like 49587340985 feet of snow. Yea, it took me a half an hour to get out of the parking lot today to go to my exam....so, I have decided that to be on the safe side, not to leave until tomorrow. ugh....which means i have to get up at the crack of dawn because i have to be in Syracuse by 2 tomorrow. boooooooooooo.

but my exams are done. so, i guess this gives me a night to celebrate in plattsburgh!


well, im still hatin on the snow.

here are some more pics of sophia. i hope you all enjoy.

well....for some reason, i was sitting here on my computer and I got this overwhelming feeling....of total uncontrol. I guess what I mean to say is that I am afraid of the future because it is still so unknown. I really want to go to graduate school....and I am planning on going to UNLV, but now that I think about it, maybe UB isn't that bad....but the problem is that the applications are due on the first of february. I haven't even taken my GRE's yet...and they only take new students in the fall...so if i don't apply now, i can't start till next year....o my gosh, i am just so stressed. what the fuck am i going to do when i graduate? I am going to have $30,000 in student loans....and no health insurance (which i need because i have $400 worth of prescriptions a month). And the chances of me getting a job in buffalo with a BA in Anthropology and Sociology is slim to none. This is why I did the CJ minor....as a back up, but now that I have finished my minor, i realize how much I fucking hate the criminal justice system and how corrupt it is. I want nothing to do with it. I want to be an epidemiologist. I just need to keep going to school in order to do that....and in order to keep going to school, I need to get all A's this semester and I have to take my GRE's in the next month. This is impossible! fuck fuck fuck.

and to top it off, my tummy hurts because of this new medicine i am on for my skin makes me so sick. It's like...i am 23....and have been dealing with acne my entire life. I have been going to a dermatologist since i was 10. My parents and I have spent hundreds of dollars to try to make my skin look nice...and it just wont' happen. I take better care of my skin than any single person I have ever met. So what the fuck is going on here? So...it's either be on the verge of puking every second and have nice skin eventually (i hope) or just keep doing the same thing that has given me shitty skin anyway. Ugh.

im in a really bitchy mood if you couldn't tell....its rare this happens, but when it happens, it all flies in my face at once and i can't get a grasp of anything. I just feel so lost sometimes.

and....im worried about sophia. I found a little lump under her mouth...and it might be a little tumor. great. I have to take her to the vet when we get home next week. All i need is the love of my life to be diagnosed with cancer. fuck.

I FINISHED MY SENIOR THESIS LAST NIGHT! IT IS FINALLY DONE. THIS PIECE OF SHIT THAT HAS BEEN MY LIFE FOR MONTHS IS FINALLY DONE! well....at least for the class. I guess I still have some work to do according to my mentor if i am going to use it as my writing sample for graduate school....but I can do that in a few weeks. ANYWAY...I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!

and the finals begin....good luck everyone!

O yes....does anyone remember that wonderful show? it was my favorite when i was a kid...it was great!


anyway....the start of the long finals week is on. Tomorrow i have to do my final draft of my million i have written for my senior thesis. I wrote my paper on Understanding the Epidemiological Research of MS. It's a great topic, and im proud of the work i have done with it....but come on, i have been doing this paper for 5 months now. I have put my heart and soul into it....and really, im ready for it to be done. So, a huge celebration is on once im done.

I have 4 finals. all on thursday and friday. awesome. They are going to suck my penis so bad. If i only had one.

im going out to this club tonight. its not really my scene, but i have to get out of my apartment.

and...for the record...i stll think my dog is the best thing that has ever happened to me....and once this week is over, everything will be wonderful.


i hope everyone that has finals has a good smooth week with no suicides or anything....remember: its not worth it. ok...with that said....goodbye.

yea...i know my dog is cute.....see below: