well, i went to a wedding yesterday and the reception was at this amazing steakhouse, capitol grill and i totally cheated. at least i got my cardio in yesterday morning.
then i felt so sick all day, pretty much until now. that's what happens when you eat mostly veggies for a couple weeks and then gorge on steak, wine, bread, cake, crabcakes, .... so yum.
i was just offered a serving job, and i start next weekend. this scares me, but it will be good for me. no more anti-socialness. plus i will make decent money on the weekends and i won't have to worry about having a job during my student teaching year!
the restaurant has really yummy tapas food, and it's super close to my house which is awesome. i have a good feeling about it, and it's kinda perfect the way things work out sometimes.
i am headed there now for some training...
what to wear?
i'm nervous.
the wedding yesterday only had about 20 people in attendance, do these people not have friends? anyway, i missed the memo to wear black and wore a mustard yellow flowered mini-dress. i felt so awkward.... but i thought i was going to get to flirt with lots of young single guys! that's what you do at wedding, right?! leave it to my friend craig to expose me to the most awkward situations ever.
i have some correspondence in the last with week with some friends turned enemies or something like that... i think sometime you just have to accept that all friendships don't last forever. if you made a mistake, apologize and move on.
then there are other relationships that just go bad, and it's hard to let go... those are the ones you lose sleep over, cry about...
i want so badly to be the kind of person who sees good in everyone, and doesn't harbor anger. i think maybe that is the hardest thing to accomplish in life... to let anger go and forgive people. that is the key to happiness, i think. i could be wrong.
not sure i am gonna workout today... does training for a new job count? this week is going to be so insanely busy... in a good way.
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11/06/2011 17:49 #55458
day 1011/04/2011 11:36 #55437
days 8 and 9day 8:
protein bar
turkey chili
hummus
carrots
grapes
banana
coffee with hazelnut creamer
triscuit crackers
i really can't remember what else...
day 9:
protein bar
banana
apple
hummus with pretzel chips
lobster spring rolls
at sushi bar: yellowtail and tuna, both raw...mmmmmm
saki martini
vodka soda
tiny bit of hummus and carrots
spoonful ben and jerry's
(e:enknot), i spent 3 months eating burgers and not working out. i think i can take a break from that for a while. i also find that eating better has better for me digestively, since i have lots of problems. i don't feel bloated or sick to my stomach as much. it also feels like such a waste if i workout and then eat crap... kinda pointless
it has really been a rough year for me, getting fired for retaliation and fighting that, meeting my father and dealing with those issues, and struggling to stay on task with school. i also have had many friendships that ended, and that's always hard. however, forcing myself to work through all of this and the depression i am pretty proud of myself. it isn't to accept certain things in life, especially mourning the absence of a parent. the point i am trying to make is, it is really rewarding to not give up. i finally feel like i am on the other side of things and my hard work is paying off... i am so close to graduation and i can't wait!
i never thought i would want to teach high school, but the teacher i work with is so amazing and inspirational. the students know she really cares and they respond to the way she treats them with respect. the students are also so respectful of me, and they get excited to see me. i think this is probably the best feeling in the world. i know a lot of my peers having really bad placements and don't want to teach high school, or maybe teach at all. i think working with a great teacher makes all the difference, because teaching is truly a talent not all people possess.
hopefully, i'll make a good teacher. i really love building relationships with students and getting to know them. it's so different than any other job i've had.
i was invite to the honors society, but i am too busy now... maybe next semester. it's cool to be invited either way.
i found out that some student are being investigated for academic dishonesty. apparently they took a test online and submitted the same written responses. the teacher said was an open exam, so why would you even consider completing it with someone else? if they have to appear in front of the dean, they will be kicked out and who knows if they can attend university again... all of that work wasted when they are so close to graduation.
i have my tickets for vegas and blo!!!!! i'll being spensing lots of time with those cute little baby nieces of mine, and my brother and (e:tina).... and the boys.... so excited!!!! bl- dec 27-jan 2, woot!
protein bar
turkey chili
hummus
carrots
grapes
banana
coffee with hazelnut creamer
triscuit crackers
i really can't remember what else...
day 9:
protein bar
banana
apple
hummus with pretzel chips
lobster spring rolls
at sushi bar: yellowtail and tuna, both raw...mmmmmm
saki martini
vodka soda
tiny bit of hummus and carrots
spoonful ben and jerry's
- this was a cheat day because i forgot that spring rolls are fried... oh well, and alcohol is loaded with calories.
(e:enknot), i spent 3 months eating burgers and not working out. i think i can take a break from that for a while. i also find that eating better has better for me digestively, since i have lots of problems. i don't feel bloated or sick to my stomach as much. it also feels like such a waste if i workout and then eat crap... kinda pointless
it has really been a rough year for me, getting fired for retaliation and fighting that, meeting my father and dealing with those issues, and struggling to stay on task with school. i also have had many friendships that ended, and that's always hard. however, forcing myself to work through all of this and the depression i am pretty proud of myself. it isn't to accept certain things in life, especially mourning the absence of a parent. the point i am trying to make is, it is really rewarding to not give up. i finally feel like i am on the other side of things and my hard work is paying off... i am so close to graduation and i can't wait!
i never thought i would want to teach high school, but the teacher i work with is so amazing and inspirational. the students know she really cares and they respond to the way she treats them with respect. the students are also so respectful of me, and they get excited to see me. i think this is probably the best feeling in the world. i know a lot of my peers having really bad placements and don't want to teach high school, or maybe teach at all. i think working with a great teacher makes all the difference, because teaching is truly a talent not all people possess.
hopefully, i'll make a good teacher. i really love building relationships with students and getting to know them. it's so different than any other job i've had.
i was invite to the honors society, but i am too busy now... maybe next semester. it's cool to be invited either way.
i found out that some student are being investigated for academic dishonesty. apparently they took a test online and submitted the same written responses. the teacher said was an open exam, so why would you even consider completing it with someone else? if they have to appear in front of the dean, they will be kicked out and who knows if they can attend university again... all of that work wasted when they are so close to graduation.
i have my tickets for vegas and blo!!!!! i'll being spensing lots of time with those cute little baby nieces of mine, and my brother and (e:tina).... and the boys.... so excited!!!! bl- dec 27-jan 2, woot!
heidi - 11/04/11 20:28
I think you should join the honor society. None of the ones I belonged to in college required any time or commitment and it's great resume filler.
I think you should join the honor society. None of the ones I belonged to in college required any time or commitment and it's great resume filler.
lilho - 11/04/11 19:32
Peter is right...
Peter is right...
metalpeter - 11/04/11 19:27
Most of these studies I don't think prove anything really.... The thing is Drinking or smoking or things like that are really about general Health. If you take care of your self and Have the Alcohol every so often not that much harm. The way that maybe they should look at things is ok these people have this and they do this that and the other and then maybe there is a link... But the other factor is that people don't tell the truth I bet a lot of people who say they have 2 drinks or a couple drinks think it is that (I mean in studies) but really have more then that... Does anyone really keep track and if they do after 3 whom knows....
Most of these studies I don't think prove anything really.... The thing is Drinking or smoking or things like that are really about general Health. If you take care of your self and Have the Alcohol every so often not that much harm. The way that maybe they should look at things is ok these people have this and they do this that and the other and then maybe there is a link... But the other factor is that people don't tell the truth I bet a lot of people who say they have 2 drinks or a couple drinks think it is that (I mean in studies) but really have more then that... Does anyone really keep track and if they do after 3 whom knows....
lilho - 11/04/11 19:08
Being someone who worked in a hospital for so long I think obesity is the real killer, that an just a complete ignorance of any sort of commitment to health.
I also don't enjoy being preached to...
Being someone who worked in a hospital for so long I think obesity is the real killer, that an just a complete ignorance of any sort of commitment to health.
I also don't enjoy being preached to...
tinypliny - 11/04/11 19:05
Could be an excellent way to go out in chocolate style. :) Rock on!
Could be an excellent way to go out in chocolate style. :) Rock on!
tinypliny - 11/04/11 19:04
That is true though. I am going to die of chocolate overdose.
That is true though. I am going to die of chocolate overdose.
tinypliny - 11/04/11 19:03
That came off as very preachy. But I am certainly of the opinion that alcohol is even more harmful than smoking because its effects are so insidious and pervasive. It's almost like a slow silent painful killer that you don't even realize is killing you by low assimilative effects.
That came off as very preachy. But I am certainly of the opinion that alcohol is even more harmful than smoking because its effects are so insidious and pervasive. It's almost like a slow silent painful killer that you don't even realize is killing you by low assimilative effects.
lilho - 11/04/11 19:02
We are all going to die of something, and I barely drink so all of that seems like nonsense to me.
We are all going to die of something, and I barely drink so all of that seems like nonsense to me.
tinypliny - 11/04/11 19:00
I don't know about that... Very recent research from the Nurses health study classifies as little as 3 glasses of wine a week as moderate drinking and it has a definite effect on increasing breast cancer risk.
News Report: :::link:::
Original Article: :::link:::
This puts a BIG question mark on all those studies in cardiovascular health that have been advocating a few glasses of wine. I think the take home message for everyone is alcohol == definite risk. If you really want the benefits of wine, grapes are an excellent and more beneficial alternative.
I don't know about that... Very recent research from the Nurses health study classifies as little as 3 glasses of wine a week as moderate drinking and it has a definite effect on increasing breast cancer risk.
News Report: :::link:::
Original Article: :::link:::
This puts a BIG question mark on all those studies in cardiovascular health that have been advocating a few glasses of wine. I think the take home message for everyone is alcohol == definite risk. If you really want the benefits of wine, grapes are an excellent and more beneficial alternative.
lilho - 11/04/11 18:51
Its called happy hour, and 2 drinks a week is hardly a lot.
Its called happy hour, and 2 drinks a week is hardly a lot.
tinypliny - 11/04/11 18:43
What's with the weekday alcohol?
What's with the weekday alcohol?
11/01/2011 17:05 #55422
hatersGet a life.
10/31/2011 22:57 #55419
day 6today i ate:
1 egg
toast lightly buttered
tortilla soup
carrots
half a korean pear
protein bar
whole grain pita chips, about 10
hummus, 3 table spoons
1 tomato
string cheese
prosciutto
other than some things being too salty, this is my best day yet. i feel good, and i am nooooooot tempted to eat crap or candy. plus it's also saving me money to plan out all my meals and only eat at home or bring my lunch to school, internship, work.
i kant believe kim k.... krazy. if she kant find love, who kan? i want to know so badly, who was the krook in this case.... her for wanting publicity? him for using her? or both of them????
1 egg
toast lightly buttered
tortilla soup
carrots
half a korean pear
protein bar
whole grain pita chips, about 10
hummus, 3 table spoons
1 tomato
string cheese
prosciutto
other than some things being too salty, this is my best day yet. i feel good, and i am nooooooot tempted to eat crap or candy. plus it's also saving me money to plan out all my meals and only eat at home or bring my lunch to school, internship, work.
i kant believe kim k.... krazy. if she kant find love, who kan? i want to know so badly, who was the krook in this case.... her for wanting publicity? him for using her? or both of them????
enknot - 11/03/11 22:50
who needs charity when the world can have glamour instead. i think her's is a quicker and more to the point telling of a lot of stories. OH, and have a fuggin' burger and enjoy your life for a day will ya! 3 table spoons of hummus....pfft!
who needs charity when the world can have glamour instead. i think her's is a quicker and more to the point telling of a lot of stories. OH, and have a fuggin' burger and enjoy your life for a day will ya! 3 table spoons of hummus....pfft!
lilho - 11/01/11 12:30
the thing that makes me so mad is that wedding that cost so much... not that i wouldn't love to have that. i just feel like so many people are suffering and some of the money could have gone to charity.
the thing that makes me so mad is that wedding that cost so much... not that i wouldn't love to have that. i just feel like so many people are suffering and some of the money could have gone to charity.
paul - 11/01/11 00:00
I can't believe it either. It seems so crazy. Now that both her and J-Lo are available, I don't know who I love more.
I can't believe it either. It seems so crazy. Now that both her and J-Lo are available, I don't know who I love more.
11/02/2011 10:30 #55426
day 7apparently this was the day that people i used to be friends with blasted me with annoying emails. uh, there's a reason we don't speak anymore so let's keep it that way.
i sent (e:tina) a sephora gift card last night. i love giving gifts and i can't wait until christmas because i know little zooey is going to be so spoiled and go mad over all of the gifts we give her. christmas with little kids is so much more fun!!!!
so here's what i ate:
protein bar
half a korean pear(they are huge)
cheese crisp crackers
hummus
carrots
string cheese
pepperoni
two organic chicken tenders
bit of ranch
i did some circuit training yesterday morning and then went for a 2.5 mile walk/run last night. i'm proud of myself for actually sticking to this healthy plan for more than 2 days. i also actually feel better all around too... it's amazing what happens when i don't gorge myself full of crappy food.
i sent (e:tina) a sephora gift card last night. i love giving gifts and i can't wait until christmas because i know little zooey is going to be so spoiled and go mad over all of the gifts we give her. christmas with little kids is so much more fun!!!!
so here's what i ate:
protein bar
half a korean pear(they are huge)
cheese crisp crackers
hummus
carrots
string cheese
pepperoni
two organic chicken tenders
bit of ranch
i did some circuit training yesterday morning and then went for a 2.5 mile walk/run last night. i'm proud of myself for actually sticking to this healthy plan for more than 2 days. i also actually feel better all around too... it's amazing what happens when i don't gorge myself full of crappy food.
My gods...the portion regarding the acceptance of a friendship's course hit me right in the cigarettes! I've been losing some sleep also, but I think that's a testament to the capacity to actually 'feel' something, instead of giving in to the desensitization campaign currently being waged in our respective corners o' real estate.
Good Luck! I was thinking of maybe trying to waitress someday, considering EVERYONE I know has done it at some point and has fond memories. Apparently, my advisor decided to go back to grad school while she was waitressing. Sounds like moments of inspiration hit you when you are being quizzed on the soup of the day.