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01/20/2009 23:08 #47468

Inauguration
It was unremarkable, except for the fact that we have inaugurated the first black President and the sheer size of the crowd... the pictures on TV were very impressive. His speech was boring - I agree with people who say that he seemed more passionate in Denver. Overall I thought it was a sober speech, which I think was appropriate, but it could have used a bit more of that quasi-ecumenical uplift qualify that has seemed to sucker captivate so many people! I kid, I kid.

This, however, was an atrocity -

Praise song for the day.

Each day we go about our business, walking past each other, catching each others' eyes or not, about to speak or speaking. All about us is noise. All about us is noise and bramble, thorn and din, each one of our ancestors on our tongues. Someone is stitching up a hem, darning a hole in a uniform, patching a tire, repairing the things in need of repair.

Someone is trying to make music somewhere with a pair of wooden spoons on an oil drum with cello, boom box, harmonica, voice.

A woman and her son wait for the bus.

A farmer considers the changing sky; A teacher says, "Take out your pencils. Begin."

We encounter each other in words, words spiny or smooth, whispered or declaimed; words to consider, reconsider.

We cross dirt roads and highways that mark the will of someone and then others who said, "I need to see what's on the other side; I know there's something better down the road."

We need to find a place where we are safe; We walk into that which we cannot yet see.

Say it plain, that many have died for this day. Sing the names of the dead who brought us here, who laid the train tracks, raised the bridges, picked the cotton and the lettuce, built brick by brick the glittering edifices they would then keep clean and work inside of.


WEW WEW - GRAMMAR POLICE - PULL OVER! Anyway -


Praise song for struggle; praise song for the day. Praise song for every hand-lettered sign; The figuring it out at kitchen tables.

Some live by "Love thy neighbor as thy self."

Others by first do no harm, or take no more than you need.

What if the mightiest word is love, love beyond marital, filial, national. Love that casts a widening pool of light. Love with no need to preempt grievance.

In today's sharp sparkle, this winter air, anything can be made, any sentence begun.

On the brink, on the brim, on the cusp -- praise song for walking forward in that light.


WOT?

This is why you should not ever recite poetry at an inauguration unless you are an obvious genius, as Robert Frost and Maya Angelou are/were. (Don't have much of an opinion on Miller Williams). When Robert Frost was selected as the first inaugural poet, the poor guy was 86 years old and didn't have it in him to read the poem he wrote for the occasion, so he recited one he knew by heart, which starts like this:

The land was ours before we were the land's.
She was our land more than a hundred years
Before we were her people.


Ahhh..... that is like a warm comforting blanket compared to the nails on chalkboard of this "praise song," with its forced pretension and utter meaninglessness.

In today's sharp sparkle, this winter air, any poet can be selected (apparently), any sentence passed off as meaningful.
mrmike - 01/21/09 17:41
Funny part, when the poem started people left in serious numbers
james - 01/21/09 14:19
oh yes, I don't recommend cowboy poetry to anyone accept cowboys. And even then, only begrudgingly.
joshua - 01/21/09 13:59
Bleh, if I want Western imagery I'll read Cormac McCarthy!
james - 01/21/09 12:36
cowboy poetry isn't just a Texas thing. It is all over the west and tons of poets get up in cowboy-garb and pretend to be cowboys with deep, hardened souls. There are a bunch of actual cowboys who live the life and write poetry on the side. It is supposed to be simple verse written by hard men who lead hard lives. They hold conventions and everything.

But, I tried to find some poets from Texas and came across a list of Texas Poet Laureates over the years. There isn't much poetry going on in that state, as there has been quite a few dry spells.

:::link:::
joshua - 01/21/09 11:40
I took a look - GWB never had a Poet Laureate as Governor of Texas. Cowboy philosophy expressed via poetry? It probably starts something like this -

Roses are red
violets are blue

Now that I've just disparaged the literary establishment of an entire state, can someone point me to a Texan poet of reknown?
james - 01/21/09 11:33
Poetry is a written art for the most part. When I read her poem I liked it a lot more than when I heard it. There have only been a handful of poets I have seen whose work actually benefited from them reading it.

I do think that Bush should have had a cowboy poet at his inauguration. Big grey mustache, a red bandana tied around his neck, and a little camp fire next to the podium. Reading a poem with a title like "Gathering Colts" or "Cow Birth on my Gloves".
hodown - 01/21/09 10:54
Agree about the Poet. Disagree about the speech.

01/13/2009 11:13 #47391

YouTube Comedy, Buffalo Born
This had me in a full-throated cackle that made my co-workers a little concerned...



Check out SorryMcKinley on YouTube -
metalpeter - 01/14/09 20:05
what they tried to do at the Blue Cross building if done the right way could be pretty cool but they didn't really do it the best so it looks silly. That house reminds me of a house on this show called Bleach.
tinypliny - 01/13/09 18:26
I thought CSI:Buffalo was awesome. :D
joshua - 01/13/09 16:22
This isn't as funny to me now as it was in the morning - I suppose it was the faux-PBS 70's motif that guy had going on.

There is something to be said about Buffalonians and their sense of humor - comedy is a good escape when we're best known for tragedy!
hodown - 01/13/09 11:19
And I went to high school with the chick who orders at the drive through. What a small world.
hodown - 01/13/09 11:17
The imposing facade of the Aud has been intergrated into.. Tonys Bait Shop. Awesome!

01/11/2009 02:23 #47362

My Five Favorite Females
Grandma - she replaced my mother when (e:jason) and I were 9 months old. (It's a long story). She's frustrated me to no end over the course of my life, but I'd lay down and die for her if it came down to it. I owe my life to this crazy lady. As long as I've lived, I've dreaded bringing girlfriends home to meet her, since there is absolutely no mouth filter on her. It is her honesty and unconditional love that I value most, and it is hard enough that my grandpa is gone - her husband - when she's gone I'll be lost. Until then my goal is to bring her the most joy possible.

The Ho sisters - you aren't going to find two realer girls than the Ho sisters. I can't think of many other girls I'd bother to be myself around. The first time I met Jessica and Sarah together was at Sarah's house party on Delaware a few years back, and I remember conversating drunkenly with the Ho sisters outside of Sarah's apartment - at some point it struck me that I was talking to two ladies that weren't bullshitters, and wouldn't accept bullshit either. I was basically in love at that point. Do you know how hard it is to find a girl that will tell you the truth? Maybe I'm wrong and am totally misplacing trust, but if I looked either one stone cold in the eye and said "please, please, please, I want to tell you this but I'm desperate for you to keep this a secret" - that it would remain a secret.

Janine - my former neighbor who is an incredible, incredible girl. I miss the times where we drank wine on Fridays when work was done. The single down to earth girl I've ever met from Long Island. She's in Brooklyn now and I miss her. She's beautiful, intelligent, independent - I'm lucky to be her friend. This is another girl I'd pretty much defend to the end.

Timika
- I can't think of another female who has extended herself more to (e:jason) and I. I don't think there is a more generous person with her time and resources than Timika has been to my brother and I. I've missed Timiika's offbeat sense of humor - she understand me and I understand her. I'm a hard guy to understand and over the years I think Timika has gotten the closest. You won't find a more substantial diamond core perfect heart than what is beating within Timika's chest. Damn I love this girl! I owe you for more than what you've given to me. Thank you for being a good friend - Rory is an amazing and cool guy and I wish that you were both a little closer, because you both have depth of character that is hard to find.

So there it is, Mr. Stone Emotion letting certain ladies know where they stand. Thank you all for being generous to a quiet guy like me!


hodown - 01/13/09 09:29
Josh- That is seriously flattering. It really made my day!
jenks - 01/11/09 21:22
nice tribute(s). :)
lilho - 01/11/09 20:53
not sure what to say. i was pretty much amazed when i read this. it pretty much made my day, and could possibly the best compliment i have ever received! thank you.
ladycroft - 01/11/09 07:35
  • seriously blushing*

I'm not sure that 'thank you' are the right words. Just last night as I was finally drifting off to sleep I was thinking about my life and the impact I have, or not, on others'. I won't go on about it here, but I'm very touched and know that what you said means a lot to me. Shukran.

01/07/2009 12:19 #47320

$2.5m iPhone
The gilded age remains?



Diamond encrusted (including a 6.6 carot diamond for the home button), cased in a few different types of gold.

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It isn't tacky looking, considering how easy it is to make accessories look tacky by adding a trillion diamonds to the item. Still though, who in their right mind would regularly carry and use a $2.5m iPhone?
jason - 01/08/09 16:56
iPhone. I meant iPhone. The sentiment however stays.
jason - 01/08/09 16:55
The bitch of it is that in another month when iPod version 15 comes out the owner will have to splash another 2 and a half Mill to stay elite.
mike - 01/07/09 15:53
I WANT IT!
hodown - 01/07/09 14:23
Paul and Sarah. That's who.
lilho - 01/07/09 14:05
i want. just because...
james - 01/07/09 13:44
I can't wait for Damien Hirst to sue.
libertad - 01/07/09 13:39
That is the most ridiculous thing I have ever seen!They are probably blood diamonds too!
mrmike - 01/07/09 13:15
Damn, and it was going to be a bonus for AIG execs at christmas
theli - 01/07/09 12:24
Somebody with something to prove?

I recall that those that come from families that have all the "old money" tend to NEVER show off.

It's only the "new money" that does. For the most extreme examples, see almost every gangster rap vid in existence.

01/05/2009 15:02 #47287

Grlz R Stoopid - A Larson Tragedy
Today I found out that my ex-girlfriend got married, which is something that shouldn't bother me in the least, but for some reason I still feel sad about it. This is the girl that I've documented in the past in my journal, the one who pretty much ripped my heart out, cheated on me, etc. - really there should be no love lost but the news reminds me of how much of a colossal failure I really have been with ladies. Back then I was just "too nice" if that makes any sense. I let her walk all over me to an extent. Why I'm sharing one of the things I'm most ashamed of with you, I don't know, but I suppose this whole thing is an illustration of how mad at myself I am for letting someone get that far into me. This girl twisted me in knots! I'd rather jump out of a window than go through that again, but living is kind of sweet too, so what is a boy to do? This is the last girl I called my girlfriend and it's been about five years since I did anything other than "casual relations" so I suppose I've adjusted by just not letting anyone in at all.

If I'm being 100% stone cold honest with myself, despite all the stuff she put me through, I'd still be her friend and give her an ear if she needed it. I wish it weren't true and I hate myself for even having this sentiment, gotta tell you. The person singly responsible for the most pain I've ever dealt with, and I don't have it in me to hate her or never speak to her again. What the hell? I know that if I were listening to myself talk from the outside, I'd be saying "YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE FOR FEELING THAT WAY JOSH!" The guy she left me for was a real piece of work - locked her out of the house in the middle of winter, "allegedly" used his hands on her, etc. My spiteful side says that she deserves what she has - if that is what she wants then that is what she'll get. But I'm not living my life with spite - life is short and spite is poisonous.

In the end I think the reason why this news took me aback was because the whole episode reminds me of how for the first time in my life my judgment failed me, how I failed myself, that sometimes being wrong has deep personal consequences that aren't easily dealt with. At least I stopped asking myself silly introspective questions a few years ago. I accept part of the blame for the predicament I was in - I know both Ho sisters, had they been there, might have told me I was a pussy - and the bright side is that I learned what I don't want in a girl!
mrmike - 01/07/09 14:07
With I had this network when my divorce imploded. Pain would have still been huge but at least pretty women would have brought me cookies
hodown - 01/06/09 15:55
Correction: We *might* have told you that you were being a pussy but then we would have given you a hug, made you cookies and gotten you drunk.

I feel really bad that this happened to you, you clearly didn't deserve any of that. Not that this helps but I think that some of the most heart wrenching situations are the same situations that help you grow the most as a person.

Ok enough Doctor Phil for today..
jenks - 01/06/09 15:49
Oh joshy.... I feel ya... on many levels.

But for what it's worth, I think the fact that you'd still be there for her in a pinch makes you a stand-up guy, not a pussy.

At least, I hope that's what it makes you, because I know I'd do the same.
theli - 01/06/09 09:27
Ahh, yes... Been there. Done that. Valuable lessons learned.

:::link:::