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01/02/2009 14:42 #47253

Today
Today's Events

I think thus far today has been a success. Depending, of course, if you define success by running into (e:lee), Rory and (e:ladycroft)! They caught me looking rough and doing my normal day off routine, which is to stumble over to Spot not too long after I've gotten up and grab a coffee. It was a pleasant surprise indeed.

The part about (e:strip) which I think may be unusual for people being introduced to the site is the concept that even mundane things in your life end up being documented, and thus you find yourself being spoken of in reference or in passing. Or someone reminds you of something you wrote in a journal, thus waking you up to the realization that there are some people that remember aspects of your life that you do not. That can be a bit of an uncomfortable thing, but for me I don't particularly care - there is very little that I wouldn't say in person that I wouldn't share here. Just an observation that crossed my mind during the party. By the way, it was incredible to see so many people from out of town, including those I haven't seen in a few years! There was one in particular that I didn't recognize at first thanks to the stuff in my system at the time, and when someone said her full name I felt so embarrassed. She's an incredibly cool girl that I met at one of the first (e:strip) parties I attended, and had I put two and two together I would have had a thousand questions about San Diego for her. I'm sorry (e:iriesara)! It was nice to see you and to meet your manfriend.

What Is New In Josh's Life


Books, mainly. I'm still working through the stuff I'm reading (mainly Cormac McCarthy and Kerouac). I think I have a problem with buying books - the list of books I want to buy and read is so long that I think I'm making my reading list for the next two years. Anyway, I most recently purchased Kerouac's Old Angel Midnight, which is a collection of unique prose poetry written in small notebooks during 1956-1959. (I'm finishing collecting all of the Kerouac books I want to read). What makes this collection unique, and maybe a little puzzling, is that there is no narrative in the prose, no general sense of movement - it is a huge prose poem that reflects the words flowing through the author's head as he hears the noises coming in off of the street through his window. The result is mystifying and strangely beautiful, if not a little crazy sounding when you read it out loud.




iriesara - 01/07/09 13:53
well I'm obviously behind in reading journals....
it was nice to see you again also Josh, thanks for the sweet compliments! Drop me an email anytime if you've got questions about San Diego, it's a pretty awesome place to live, that is, if incessant sunshine doesn't bother you (to me it gets old quick).

Oh, in regards to your recent post about the ex-chick, I think the fact that you would still be there for her shows that your love was real. Hers may have not been, but you can't do anything about that. It doesn't make you a pussy, it makes you a man. Hiding from your feelings and acting macho makes you a pussy. Having true feelings that aren't necessarily good for you is part of being a grown-up...granted, it's one of the parts that suck (that, and bill-paying).

At the very least you know that you were acting from the heart, which can require a lot of courage. All you can take with you from any relationship is yourself, scarred and changed though it may be. But if you followed what was right in your heart, you can't regret; it's a small consolation, but we gotta take 'em where we can get 'em! take care

12/30/2008 13:00 #47220

Cat Humor
Because this is the sort of mindless thing that makes our culture famous -

Ninja Cat Very famous video from this year, with Hitchcockian sound added. The cat moves... but doesn't move... sneaky little freak!



Idiot Cat Mistakes Himself for Enemy, Dives Headfirst Into Mirror Self-explanatory.




12/28/2008 02:13 #47203

Christmas Update
(e:peeps) -

Here I am, sitting at my father's computer, doing various things I shouldn't while relaying to you my innermost insecurities and most vulgar carnal desires. Well, okay... maybe I'm not relaying to you any insecurities or vulgar thoughts, but I am sitting here at my father's computer writing a paragraph to you that is short on meaning and long on bullshit. So here goes -

We came home for Christmas Eve and had a lovely time, then came back to Buffalo (shopping and cleaning) while (e:jasontheunfuck)inglucky worked for "el hombre." After all that, we came back home to honor a promise to our family to hang out for a bit. Today was mainly errand running for me - I went to the Lakewood Weg three different times, then took (e:grandma) (she has her own screenname now, apparently) to the salon.

Today we once again visited the Southern Tier pub with (e:dad), got some stuff, drank, then went to get some fried food at the Puzzle Lounge. Their wings and fingers are as good as I've had anywhere and I probably shouldn't have been so obviously savoring it while pretty girls were in the house.

On Friday I went to the mall. Whoa... I hate that place. I really dislike shopping there... every time I found something I would wear I thought "Oh wow, isn't that nice, now I can officially look like every other dude in Buffalo." I'm happier at the Army/Navy surplus, I swear. I found a light jacket to wear that would be cool with collared shirt and jeans then thought, "once again, now I can look like every other dude in Buffalo, but only when they try to dress up and hang out on my street." What I really wanted was an indigo colored, long sleeve shirt with epaulets and some pockets and instead I got an dark blue colored designer shirt made of material that felt vaguely like a parachute or a tent. I am easily bored with clothes and dislike shopping because I never am happy with the outcome. The only thing I can pull off spectacularly is a suit and generally I am emblematic of a boho/military/slacker motif centered around jeans, birks (weather appropriate), long sleeve shirts, earth tones, cargo shorts and sunglasses to hide my prying eyes that do pry.

I wonder if Michael Jackson just dresses up weirdly because he's bored like I am.

My dad's friend has a cool little chihuahua named Spooky, who was ironically spooked out at (e:jay) and I. Poor thing was shaking like a leaf and tried to bite me, so I gave him a Beggin' Strip (dad, well prepared) and he was my homie4lyfe thereafter. I stared in his eyes and I think he raised his eyebrow at me, like "fancy a go? Want to square a go mate?"
fellyconnelly - 12/29/08 06:35
chihuahuas can be super mean! but then they say that about dachshunds too...
hodown - 12/28/08 12:24
Wait you forgot about the puffy vest. You pull that off better than anyone I know. And I'm being serious.

And I'm done commenting re: the vest forever (probably).

12/24/2008 12:54 #47171

Xmas Eve at Work
What I'm doing at work today -

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Is it better to be a star on a losing team or a backup on a winning team? I like to think that I'm a star whether or not I win or lose - after all, that is what the public school system taught me!

Merry Christmas everybody -

Your friend Josh
ladycroft - 12/25/08 10:13
Happy Christmas Josh!
hodown - 12/25/08 08:45
A man after my own heart, drinking at work. And Tiny- let's not get crazy we'll be seeing enough of the puffy vest on New Year's..
metalpeter - 12/24/08 20:36
Some of those (only read a few) Molson questions are awesome. On a side note it doesn't feel like Christmas Eve.
janelle - 12/24/08 18:13
Merry Christmas to you!
mrmike - 12/24/08 14:52
Nice office motif
tinypliny - 12/24/08 13:24
We demand a view of the puffy vest.

12/29/2008 15:53 #47212

Dangerous American Cities
Today I was thinking about some of the cities where I felt were the most dangerous I've visited... a perception vs. reality study, if you will. Count Buffalo in the mix, by the way. This data comes off of Wiki's crime stats page - it should be noted that the crime stats are voluntarily reported, which is to say that they are likely higher than what is reported.

Based on federal data from calendar year 2007, per 100,000 residents:

Buffalo, NY - Population 273,832 (66th among large US cities)

Violent Crime - 15th (comparable to DC - Chicago didn't report data on violent crime!)
Property Crime - 20th (comparable city of disrepute - Oakland, CA)
Murder/Negligent Manslaughter - 10th (higher than Miami, Chicago, Memphis)
Forcible Rape - 17th
Robbery - 15th (in between Dallas and Chicago)
20th - Aggravated Assault (higher than Chicago, DC)
14th - Burglary
11th - Larceny-theft
32nd - Motor Vehicle Theft (more profitable in better weather)
26th - Arson

Buffalo outranked Boston, Newark, NYC, Chicago, Houston and Los Angeles in every crime category except for the following: Boston (aggravated assault, 13th), Newark (murder and auto theft, both 4th), Houston (auto theft 24th, arson 21st).

That's right - Newark, NJ - regularly considered the armpit of the east and one of the most latently dangerous cities in America, is reported to have 30% less violent crime, 60% less rapes, 25% less robberies, 30% less aggravated assaults, 30% less property crime, almost 3x less burglaries and half the larceny than what we have in Buffalo. Don't worry though - you are "only" twice as likely to get murdered in Newark, and are twice as likely to have your ride "borrowed" for a while. So, in my final estimation, either Buffalo is significantly more dangerous than Newark, NJ and the biggest cities in America (per 100,000) or the stats volunteered by the cities are downplayed to a criminal degree.

Don't forget - as a policy our city doesn't inform its citizens on a regular basis when crimes occur in your area unless they feel like it. And by your area I mean down the block. Cheers! *clink* (and no, the clink might not have been your window being cut by a glass cutter)

Remember all this the next time the city spends your tax dollars on stuff like $50,000 cameras, which have yielded no tangible improvement on your safety, but make you "feel better" depending on the neighborhood you are in. And I'll be the last guy to complain about pay for cops, but in the past year we've had a cop "allegedly" try to defraud our car insurer, and looking at the crime statistics you are DAMN RIGHT that they should be held to scrutiny. If you want to cry about what you're being paid, then you are god damn right that I want to see what it is that you're doing to justify those tears.

Here is the question - based on the crime stats (and stats aren't everything until its you that gets hurt) is the tax money you are shelling out for often grandiose police salaries and benefits worth what it is that you are getting back in terms of public safety? The answer is no. In the end is all proportional but when New York and LA's proportional crime rate is lower than yours in Buffalo, something is wrong and it isn't the way the stats are being tabulated.
hodown - 12/30/08 11:52
I would have never thought that. People in my neighborhood refer to Newark as "the war zone" and a general rule of thumb is don't go there unless necessary.
drew - 12/30/08 00:20
I believe police should be well paid. I don't know what Buffalo cops make though, to I can't comment on it.

That being said, I think that our tax dollars are better spent preventing crime in ways other than police/cameras--things like smart planning (thanks (e:james)).

I've read the stats. I've heard the stories, but I still feel safe. I guess I'm naive.
heidi - 12/29/08 23:08
I checked it out a little - there's no one easy-to-access, up-to-date source for that data.

Here's some 2000 data that allows you to search by state & agency with >100 sworn officers:
:::link:::

Buffalo has 32 sworn officers per 10,000
Rochester ditto
Syracuse 33
Newark, NJ 54
DC 63



Here's an old report on the # of cops per 10,000 in the 25 largest cities:
:::link::: (1996 data)

james - 12/29/08 21:48
Crime is indelibly linked to poverty. Shitty ass city planning has left half the city a sprawling slum and is where, I am willing to bet, the lion's share of crimes are committed. But, UB is in Amherst, we can't get a fucking box store to move in downtown after ten years of negotiations, and highways segregate the safe white neighborhoods from the bad black neighborhoods.

We shit on our dinner plate and they cringe when we have to eat it.
joshua - 12/29/08 18:34
lol @ Ajay... too true. I haven't been to the MojaveExperiment site yet, although by my own admission I don't know if/when I'd ever switch personally. I'm most inclined to get a Mac next, but even then I know I'd want Windoze/Mac OS dual boot. I think I've been conditioned, possibly.

(e:heidi) - I wish I knew that. It would be most relevant.
ajay - 12/29/08 17:30
I call shenanigans!
Redmond, WA is listed near the bottom; that can't be right! It's the headquarters of the world's biggest criminal empire.

Plus, every time you buy a Windows box, you get raped.
heidi - 12/29/08 16:28
Just curious - are there stats about # of police officers per 100,000 residents?