Paul's Journal

11/23/2008 13:18 #46806

Dancing at Ohm again
Category: dancing

After reading (e:djkgunz,46758) I went dancing at Ohm last night with (e:terry), (e:jim) and (e:james). It was so crowded as last week but I still had a good time. I decided I like their dance floor a lot when its not crowded. I also realzied I need to start wearing ear plugs if I want to be able to hear for a couple more years. I tried wearing my gym sneakers to see if they were comfortable to dance in. They seemed okay but I missed my regular shoes which made moving my legs trickier than usual because it felt unnatural.

The first dj, who I think is the guy who wrote on here the other day was fun to dance to as was the second dj. Then the third dj was playing trance, which I generally like, especially when it is live like Dharma Lab

or all the Goa parties I would go to back in Germany but this guy played what always felt like built up and never really hit it for me.

Maybe we didn't stay long enough but at 1:30 we left for Cathode which was packed like I never saw it before. I think it has to do with winter. If you took all the people that usually sit on the patio and put them inside it would always be that crowded. The lack of patio in the winter just about halves the size of the bar.

Saw a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time including (e:chris)

This is an almond fantasy.

fellyconnelly - 11/23/08 18:43
although that does not appear to be my idea of a frosted almond fantasy, it still looks damn 'tastee'

james - 11/23/08 13:43
Thanks for dragging Jim and I out last night. I love going dancing and it is too rare a treat.

11/22/2008 22:11 #46802

The god of tuna

Ortiz brand tuna in the glass jar at wegmans. I could only afford the
$5.00 can but rest assured I will eat the glass jarred on at some point.

If you like tuna fish and you never tried it, I would definstely
suggest it.

jbeatty - 11/24/08 11:45
I have never had the Ortiz tuna but Elizabeth says its really good. Yesterday I found that Premier Gourmet is now stocking the Ortiz brand white anchovies!!! I have never had them because they are really hard to find. At $10 a hit I probably wont eat them often but I can't wait to try them.

james - 11/23/08 13:45
Tuna salad is my favorite snack in the summer. I use avocado instead of mayo and it is so good I lick the bowl. But, because of mercury I mark on my calendar when I last ate it so I don't miss an opportunity.

paul - 11/23/08 10:31
I think that too. Too bad you have to limit you intake because of of mercury;. It is the most polluted fish you can eat, especially Ahi and the albacore large tuna. According tot he Nation Resource defense council you should not eat more than one can every 9 days if you weight 150+lbs. THey have lot sof information about it :::link:::

It makes me sad. You know what has mercury too, those new "environmentally friendly" light bulbs. I refuse to use them any more ebcause of it. That and my house rejects them. Everytime we put one it, it fries in like a day. I probably should check that out.

drew - 11/22/08 22:33
I had sashimi at Kuni's yesterday, and I thought to myself, "Tuna might be the perfect food."

11/22/2008 16:22 #46796

Furnace Filter Sale

These 3m filterete allergen reducing furnace filters are on sale for
$12.96 at Value on hertel and elmwood. Better still all sizes are the
same price.

We paid like $25 for one at home depot a couple weeks ago ;(

lilho - 11/22/08 21:31
i have no idea what that means, but i always like a good deal! congrats.

11/22/2008 12:43 #46795

Paul's Pomeganite Sauce
Category: food

After expirementing with mint and frash raspberry sauce the last two weekends, I decided to try making pomegranite sauce. I like pomegranites and I like making sauces so I decied to try and combine the two together. I totally made this recipe up so I am not promising anything but I like it. I like just making recipes up now.

First cut up and pull the gems out of the pomegranite. Watch out it stains really bad.

It is amazing just how many gems you get from one pomegranite.

Next step is to mash them all up in a big bowl (to catch slashes). It should make a lot of juice and seed mash. Don't worry if there is still some juice in the seeds, you will get it in the next step.

Pour the juice and seed mash through a fine strainer or cheesecloth. The stariner hsould be fine as long as the mesh is small because the seeds themselves are quite large. Then use a tool to smash it more to get out the remaining juice. If you were using a cheese cloth you could just twist it.

Heat in a pan on low. Add a bunch of sugar and cook it down.

When its just about done it will bubble like this and get a bit thicker. If you want it thicker keep adding sugar, but be careful not to go overboard and keep stirring it constantly, nothing is grosr than burnt sugar.

I decided to toss in a couple cloves to complete the flavor. I think it would be good served on poultry or perhaps over ice cream or cake - maybe even with white fish.

gardenmama - 11/22/08 20:26
Wow, looks very tasty.

tinypliny - 11/22/08 18:24
As I read and looked at the pictures, I kept expecting you to use that Almond Breeze Vanilla thing in the sauce at some point... I guess that was just a prop. 30 seconds of suspense! Oh well.

Is the sauce very syrupy in the end? Could you make the sauce without sugar?

metalpeter - 11/22/08 17:19
Looks good. I have no idea what to use that on. I have had things with pomegranate flavor in them like some teas and other drinks but never tried them or the flavor by itself.

paul - 11/22/08 13:01
I considered the blender but I didn't want to get the bitter from the seeds in the sauce.

james - 11/22/08 12:59
I made a pomegranate salad dressing once. After I popped the gems out I put them in a food processor, whirled them around for a minutes, and then strained it. The result was similar and probably easier.

However, your recipe looks way more delicious. Perhaps you should serve it over baby chicken, as everything tastes better when it is baby.

11/21/2008 21:14 #46791

I will never be satisfied
Category: body

So I went to the gym this evening to work out and post-workout visited the sauna where there were a bunch of super hot guys, a couple of which had similar body types but were totally ripped. I don't mean like sort of hot, they were so freakin' super hot - like the gardener guys from Desperate Housewives. Instead of feeling better after working out, I just felt crappy. Normally I would be turned on by such a beautiful view but instead I was nauseous with jealousy.

I kept telling myself maybe they were all shorter in stature as short people tend to look way more muscular. Its hard to tell when everyone is sitting down.

I am so not jealous of the dudes with 10 inch penises, or the super buff body builder types, both things I know I cannot be - but when it is someone of a similar body type but the target weight / muscle bulk I want to be, I just feel defeated - like that could be me.

It seems the crux for me is that I cannot seem to eat enough - that and the whole crohn's battle. Also from the sounds of what they were talking about they had jobs that involved physical labor. If only mental exercise could produce physical beauty the same way that physical exercise does - I would be so freakin "ripped" lol.

Its crazy. I remember thinking I would die to be 150, now I am 150 and I feel like I am even more unhappy than when I was 130. I feel like 175 would be better but then will 175 feel like 150. Is there no end to the cycle.

(e:Terry) says I just need to give it up.

theli - 11/24/08 10:04
^^^^^ jealous of being 6'0. Heh. 20 pounds is no small feat if your meta is really that high... Grats.

iriesara - 11/22/08 20:53
welcome to my world (or former world, and that of most girls). I've felt like that from the time I was 12 til I realized it didn't fucking matter. let that shit go. you can only be the best you that you can be, and that's more than good enough. that's the lesson I learned, anyway. I'm proud of you. can't wait to see you.

gardenmama - 11/22/08 19:44
I knew a beautiful young man once who developed an addiction to working out. His distorted view of his own physique(which was pretty steamy) as he compared himself to others, sadly led him into developing a serious addiction to physical training. He ended up doing his body, and his life, way more harm than good. As a side note, it is my understanding that he had also developed difficulty with getting and/or maintaining an erection, which, I have heard is the casse with many extreme body builders. Better to not be quite so ripped, I'd guess. By the way, there are probably guys looking at you the same way thinking, "man, I wish I looked that fit."

tinypliny - 11/22/08 18:30
You rock, Paul - ripped or not. :)

(Pssst: You don't need those crazy muscles. You need a moustache. ;-))

metalpeter - 11/22/08 17:13
First of all I will admit I'm a little jealous of the 10 inch guys out there, or maybe it is just that if that was me there would be a sex act that I could then perform well ok more then just one if that was me, I'm not saying what. But I think that is a natural thing for some people other then (e:Paul). That is to wish we where one way when we can't be (I don't think any of those pills really work anyways). Short people want to be tall and play basketball, and be able to reach things on shelves and tall people wish they didn't have to bend down to walk through doorways and could drive that nice small sports car, but there legs are to long.

I think that our society (or at least the famous people) put a lot of weight on how people look, and not only being pretty. It used to be that being what we would call fat now a days was thought as beauty. It meant that you where able to eat food and had money and that you weren't the poor and sickly it was a sign of good health.

(e:Paul) the thing is I think a lot of what (e:dragonlady7) says is true. Yes if you work out and run and exercise you can get stronger or bigger or both or more toned. You can make your workouts to develop what ever you want to. That being said you are a certain size naturaly and have limits (DNA) of how big you can get. I think the way those weight gaining powders work is that they give you a lot of fat and or calories that your body will turn into fat then with lifting lots of heavy weight it turns the fat into muscle or maybe fat builds up under the muscle and that makes you look bigger, not sure really. The thing to remember is are you going to the gym to Look like a body builder, Triple H (prowrestler) or are you going to get into better shape. If the answer is to be buff go get some steriods and go hit the heavy weight, as much as you can lift a few times and get big or at least try to. I think you want to get in shape. It is nice to look strong but I think cardo is just as important. For example I might be as Big and strong as Chuck Ledell or Brock Lesner but when two guys have pipes I'm screwed and it is time to run, and I can't I'm done.

I'm thin but not as much as I used to be so I get that part. I think I used to be like a 30 waist and now I'm kinda a 34. I think I'm more like 33 but often pants go in 2's so maybe back then I was really a 29. So even though I'm slim not as slim as I used to be.

dragonlady7 - 11/22/08 16:35
There's some pretty strong evidence out there that everyone has a natural set point that their metabolism revolves around. It's possible, with some work, for a person to move from one end of their set point to another-- usually a range of 20-50 pounds-- but beyond that, it's so difficult as to be nearly impossible for a person to change their body size/type. There are case studies on record of people eating in excess of 13,000 calories a day in order to move above their set point weight-- any fewer, and their metabolism revved into overdrive to maintain their weight within their set range. Plenty of studies exist in the opposite direction, as well, of people subsisting on 800 calories a day for years at a time with little change in their weight. (These case studies are called "Weight Watchers", incidentally. For reference, the U.N. refers to anything under 1500 calories a day as "starvation".)

So the fact that you've made the changes you have speaks volumes about your determination-- but the limit you've hit, particularly given that you have a digestive illness, suggests that you've hit the edge of your set point. You were designed to be a slender person. You are certainly to be commended for the amount you've taken charge of your own health, but to keep striving for yet more change is unlikely to pay off. It's best to be happy with the work you've done.

But I hear you on the physical labor thing. I have moved from the lower end of my set point (175) to the upper end (205) since I stopped waitressing, and while my knees are overjoyed, I'm really not having an easy time loving this new extra-flabby belly I've got. I've got way more muscle development than I did, but it's all hidden under these heaving mounds of fat.

Well, the only person I know who isn't at all self-conscious about his body is (e:zobar), who's 6'3", 135, and I can count his vertebrae. He knows it's futile for him to try to look like anything else. All he can do is make a reasonable effort to eat a varied diet and move his ass off the couch once in a while. We'll see which of us lives longer. ;)

jason - 11/22/08 10:12
Paul, just like with the 10 inch dicks and the body builders, everyone has different circumstances. Wanting more is natural, I think we all do, James and Libertad are so right.

For what it's worth, you deserve a lot of credit for putting in the work and gaining that 20 pounds. You look strong and healthy. If not for genetics (presumably) the way I take care of myself I should be 400 pounds.

Give yourself some credit, be happy with what you've done so far and the nature of the cycle has to change. I've been terrified to death of going to the gym and being judged, you've done something most people don't do.

The saddest part of the story for me is that it ruined your enjoyment of the view. In my pre-Elmwood days I would go to BAC Amherst now and again during lunches and seeing hot people is one of THE reasons to go!!

libertad - 11/21/08 22:06
That's funny james. So it is my theory that the more you work out and take care of your body the more self conscious about it you become. I have been working out 3-4 times a week lately and a lot of times will look in the mirror and be disgusted. I see a lot of results and everything but I get unhappy at the fat accumulation around my mid section. No, I don't think I am fat, but still I think that for my frame the fat I have accumulated there is unhealthy and unflattering. So now I am trying to work on it but it is definitely harder to lose fat than it is to gain muscle.

I cut out cream and sugar from my coffee and recently stopped drinking soda. I wish I didn't have to eat dinner so late sometimes but that is what I end up doing since sometimes I am gone from 8:00am to 9:00pm. I'm stepping up on my cardio too so I'm hopeful that it will help in getting the fat off of my stomach and sides. I'm not trying to lose weight just fat.

Really, I think I will just become more and more obsessed the more I am working out. It is a vicious cycle. I gotta be careful not to get too much muscle because then what would happen if I stopped working out?

BTW, maybe you should go at different times because usually I don't see these desperate housewife boy toys that you seem to work out with. Not that there aren't any hot people just not an abundance.

lilho - 11/21/08 21:37
(e:terry) is a mean terry. i think you always look hot. how about people like me who envy the "waif" look, and you have it, and i have all this curviness and whatnot... just own what you have!

james - 11/21/08 21:36
I have been at this pretty hardcore for two yeas now and I see people at that gym with perfect bodies all the time. It is a little discouraging, but then I see with gross letch in the sauna with a pot belly and a comb over and I think to myself "I may be a filthy human being, but I will never get that disgusting."