i think i have had a huge issue with this for a long time. i think since i was able to understand what saying goodbye means.
being back in blo made me realize what amazing people i left behind, and while i think i made the right choice my coming here, i know this week is gonna be really rough.
what will i do without my (e:PMT)? seriously, its amazing how good of friends we are, and i always have a good time with them.
i also realized i am a huge asshole, and have definitely taken advantage of someone who i thin has always really cared about me. turns out, they are a pretty thoughtful person, and they know me better than most people. but, now i am here, and i will just leave that one up to fate, because its just such a long, long tale with many twists and turns.
so, i am back here, and sunny az, and i will be working my ass off. however, we have already planned a fun winter camping thing, and when i come back it will be for at least a week this time around. three days is not enough time. plus, im sure ill be missing the snow? ok, maybe not, but it will be nice to see!
ill post pics tomorrow, its been a very long day.
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post-trip sadness10/13/2007 17:56 #41629
let me borrow that top!Category: youtube
10/10/2007 17:18 #41578
i am missing brain cells, lotsCategory: transport
what happens when your emergency brake is not fully engaged?
you go to check your mail, and you car rolls backwards down the hills into another car.
like screaming out, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!", was going to stop it.
collision, nope. fucked up car? very.
do not want to go home. must move out/run away to mexico.
my car is sick, and i think i have brain issues.
and im really really scared of what is ging to go down tonight. do not move back in with your parents and develop shopping addictions. word to the wise.
and i just bombed my midterm. lucky me!
on the upside, im really glad there was a large truck there. if not, my car would have sailed through some lucky persons living room!
you go to check your mail, and you car rolls backwards down the hills into another car.
like screaming out, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!", was going to stop it.
collision, nope. fucked up car? very.
do not want to go home. must move out/run away to mexico.
my car is sick, and i think i have brain issues.
and im really really scared of what is ging to go down tonight. do not move back in with your parents and develop shopping addictions. word to the wise.
and i just bombed my midterm. lucky me!
on the upside, im really glad there was a large truck there. if not, my car would have sailed through some lucky persons living room!
jenks - 10/11/07 09:39
what do you mean standards have to be in neutral with the e-brake on? Was the car running? I park my car in gear with the brake on all the time...
anyway. sorry. that super sucks.
Aren't you back in b-lo one of these days? (like, today?)
what do you mean standards have to be in neutral with the e-brake on? Was the car running? I park my car in gear with the brake on all the time...
anyway. sorry. that super sucks.
Aren't you back in b-lo one of these days? (like, today?)
tinypliny - 10/10/07 23:41
That's so awful! :(
That's so awful! :(
lilho - 10/10/07 19:40
wasnt even in the car. standards have to be in neutral with the e-brake on, and mine was engaged, but not fully... our mail is in this little enclave, and it has to be unlocked and such... and yes (e:paul), my luck here is about the same. thnax for pointing it out!
wasnt even in the car. standards have to be in neutral with the e-brake on, and mine was engaged, but not fully... our mail is in this little enclave, and it has to be unlocked and such... and yes (e:paul), my luck here is about the same. thnax for pointing it out!
ladycroft - 10/10/07 18:02
oh my. was it the ass end or front?
oh my. was it the ass end or front?
mike - 10/10/07 17:42
OMG! That's all i can say! OMG
OMG! That's all i can say! OMG
paul - 10/10/07 17:28
Wow, so your luck in Arizona is as good as your luck in Buffalo.
Wow, so your luck in Arizona is as good as your luck in Buffalo.
mrmike - 10/10/07 17:21
You checked your mail while driving?? Not sure that was the best first step.
You checked your mail while driving?? Not sure that was the best first step.
10/08/2007 21:03 #41554
life never turns out the way you plannedso, im talking to my friend in blo. he's saying, "life's crazy right now, blah, blah, blah." i thinking, alright the usual.
then...
he says, "im gonna be a daddy."
WHAT? WHAT?????
ok, this is too weird for me. we used to date, or something like that, and we still keep in touch, but what??? um. you idiot. you got your ex pregnant, because you didn't use a condom, and she said she was on the pill. ok. you are only 21. good luck with that.
i want to be supportive, but i was almost in tears. he is just going to become a stereotype, and end up having to drop out of school to support this baby, for his crazy gf, who he isn't even in love with. it just seems shitty.
how sad. im so glad im not preg. if i was, i would say, "bye,bye, baby!"
seriously, i am not in the right place for chlid rearing. not for at least three years, no way.
anyway, now i don't know if i should see him when i come this week, it would be weird. why do people have to go and do stupid shit???
on the upside, (e:hodown) and i are planning to go on a vaca this spring. i wanna go someplace super fun, and super not in this country! because, now that i work like a mofo, i can afford trips. woot.
also good news, i see the (e:peeps) so soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then...
he says, "im gonna be a daddy."
WHAT? WHAT?????
ok, this is too weird for me. we used to date, or something like that, and we still keep in touch, but what??? um. you idiot. you got your ex pregnant, because you didn't use a condom, and she said she was on the pill. ok. you are only 21. good luck with that.
i want to be supportive, but i was almost in tears. he is just going to become a stereotype, and end up having to drop out of school to support this baby, for his crazy gf, who he isn't even in love with. it just seems shitty.
how sad. im so glad im not preg. if i was, i would say, "bye,bye, baby!"
seriously, i am not in the right place for chlid rearing. not for at least three years, no way.
anyway, now i don't know if i should see him when i come this week, it would be weird. why do people have to go and do stupid shit???
on the upside, (e:hodown) and i are planning to go on a vaca this spring. i wanna go someplace super fun, and super not in this country! because, now that i work like a mofo, i can afford trips. woot.
also good news, i see the (e:peeps) so soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jenks - 10/09/07 16:47
sigh... jason....
(and that's all I will say on that)
Thank god for the pill is all I can say, since guys piss and moan so much when you ask them to wear a condom.
[see, I can make sweeping generalizations too- ha!]
(just teasing, j.)
sigh... jason....
(and that's all I will say on that)
Thank god for the pill is all I can say, since guys piss and moan so much when you ask them to wear a condom.
[see, I can make sweeping generalizations too- ha!]
(just teasing, j.)
jason - 10/09/07 10:33
I think it depends on the person. One of my best friends from back home got a girl preg at 19. Never ever trust her when she says she's on the pill, especially when she's desperate to keep you (not that I know what that's like).
Anyway, he stayed in school (in Buffalo), and he was my roommate one year. He had to stay in contact with his pregnant girlfriend, and eventually his baby, long distance, and with weekend trips back to Jamestown. Now, they're married, have more kids, and are doing pretty well for themselves.
So it depends on the person, and whether or not they believe in rolling with the punches, versus hitting the easy button. In general you're right, it's not a recipe for success. Also, some people are not really fit to be parents, regardless of their age. I know plenty of 20-something chicks who I think would be appalling mothers.
I think it depends on the person. One of my best friends from back home got a girl preg at 19. Never ever trust her when she says she's on the pill, especially when she's desperate to keep you (not that I know what that's like).
Anyway, he stayed in school (in Buffalo), and he was my roommate one year. He had to stay in contact with his pregnant girlfriend, and eventually his baby, long distance, and with weekend trips back to Jamestown. Now, they're married, have more kids, and are doing pretty well for themselves.
So it depends on the person, and whether or not they believe in rolling with the punches, versus hitting the easy button. In general you're right, it's not a recipe for success. Also, some people are not really fit to be parents, regardless of their age. I know plenty of 20-something chicks who I think would be appalling mothers.
brit - 10/09/07 09:39
does it begin with A or S? I can't wait to see you either...
does it begin with A or S? I can't wait to see you either...
mike - 10/08/07 22:53
who si this baby daddy? CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU!
who si this baby daddy? CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU!
10/07/2007 03:11 #41525
night 2Category: party time
i was supposed to stay home and sleep. didn't happen. i am tired.
people get all sorts of crazy when drunk, and start fights. best time to start a fight. when your brain is mush, and you are being silly.
drunk people, chill the eff out, ok? thanx.
work sat + sun = no fun. night!
people get all sorts of crazy when drunk, and start fights. best time to start a fight. when your brain is mush, and you are being silly.
drunk people, chill the eff out, ok? thanx.
work sat + sun = no fun. night!
dont' be sad! Be happy! And think birthday hookup!
Haaaaaaaaapppppy Birrrrrtttthday!!!
(((**Things will get better very very soon****)))
Cheers,
-j
Happy birthday, Sarah. I hope it was a terrific day for you and a lot of fun.
And I definitely understand how you feel about having to say goodbye.
Happy Birthday!! I'm sad I missed you!!
Happy Birthday, (e:lilho)! :)
I felt the same way when I moved here from Albany.
Ya, I did leave behind a bunch of friends I really liked and who really liked me, and dozens of others I would have liked to have known better (some with cloths, some without)
But, this new city is chock full of awesome people. Moving to a new town is always stressful, but there are some cool people lurking around in there. Just give it a little time.
And happy ho-birthday. It was damn fun shaking my ass next to yours on Friday.
Happy< Happy< Birthday Miss Ho! I hope your wishes come true!
Happy Ho-Birth-Day!!! Glad you made it back safe and sound. Now go rock that desert like you rocked our winter-wasteland.
Happy B-Day!!!
bye bye ho ho..it was crazy but fun!