This dinner and (e:strip) discussion is cutting into my favorite television night of the week. I will be missing both Gossip Girl AND Dirty, Sexy Money my only 2 must see shows of the week. We don't have a VCR that tapes thing I am not watching and do not have TIVO. What is a poor tv addicted boy to do?

I can't handle it. I am not like a huge Bills fan or anything and i started watching this game and I get pulled in (if i start watching a game I will always get pulled in). And seriuosly the game was amazing and super exciting and then.....we lose at the very end. Like i am totally dejected and sad now for something I don't really in reality care about but it just i get so into it when i do wathc it. I can't handle the post-loss depression, I can't imagine what it would be like if i really really got into it everyweek. I tihnk I would be really depressed a lot!

Seriously these young newbie kids out there on the bills team totally desrved this game so bad! 5 freaking interceptions, a run back touchdown, LIKE WHO THE HECK GETS AN ONSIDE KICK!!!?! ugh

I love casinos as some of you know. Not in a bad way, like i don't lose a lot of money but I don't win a lot either. Like today I went and won 15 dollars on my first like penny spin and was winnign up a storm and got up to like 22 dollars (from an origianl 5 dollar bet) but of course I played it down to only coming home 3 dollars ahead. So like I still "won" but I oculd have went home with way more. I just can never walk away. And since I only really play penny machines I will never get higher than like 20 or 30 dollar win and so if i always plya it down I will never win> i don't know. I still look at it as what other activity could I do for a while and walk away with mor emoney than I walked in with. NONE!

P.S. Ollie's the new Big Lots like store near the Galleria is stupid. It is dirty and has crap> I love crap! And i was excited about it but relaly it was a let down. Big Lots is way better!!!The stuff was not even that cheap and it was all like dented and crap, I did not buy one tihng whe nI never walk out of Big Lots wihtout like two huge bags of stuff. I say maybe it has a chance in the future but righ tnwo it is el horible!

We went to see Feast Of Love last night. Like I just have not loved the movies I went to recently and it is sad. I thought it was kinda like a quirky sorta romanitc comedy from the previews but no IT IS a sad, drama filled porno. It was really crazy how much nudity and sex was in it. Like really unnecesary, noone ever had a bra or udnerwear on and even if they had a shirt on , the nipples were clearly shown half the time. Like I didn't hate the movie, it just wasn't what I was expecting. You know what I mean. Very strange. Morgan Freeman and Greg Kinnear were in it. I don't know it had good parts but overall just I don't know.

By the by I am kinda proud of myself when we all went out the other night I carried a tray of seven cosmos and wlaked them outside to the table without spilling any , and that included a step and a door! And i had already had a cosmo or two before this feat de excellence!

I am the ultimate procrastinator. My only actual homeowkr that has to be handed in each week is my lab and I have all week and I always put it off until wednesday night and then I wait and do anything possible (like read years worth of random estrip journals) and then cleaning the shelf and organizing my backpack and what not in order to not do my lab. And then I just am forced to do it at like midnight and do it and think next week I will just do it early and not worry and be able to go out on wednesday but i never do. And so here I am again, and gossip girl starts in an hour and I refuse to miss it!