one of my bestest friends since sixth grade , (e:beast) is moving to scottland to be with her b/f (well they are gettin gmarried but only for the visa, not "for real" as she says) ! This means she will be there a minimum of two years. I don't know what I am going to do! I am a wreck! A full fledged crying mass of a wreck right now! I really thought I would be fine, she travels a lot and isn't in b-lo at months at a time but the tihng was she always was coming home! I had a date I knoew she would be back for a while! This time it could be forever, this could be the end! I am not handling it well at all! I have been crying since last night when I dropped her off after her goodbye dinner, we are going to lunch now. I hope to compose myself. I seriosly I had no idea I would be so distraught, I thought I would be fine but thinking about it is really making me carzy. I AM GONNA MISS HER LIKE WHOAA! I just can't imagine her not being here, and at the same time her starting tihs whole new life really, with new firends, a new husband and new everything and I won't be a part of it! I hate the tought! We've done eveyrthing together since like 6th grade! I don't like tihs, I don't like it one bit.

Her mom always refereed to me as teres's wifey. She said I would call all the time and be naggy and what not and we would get in arguments like we were married ( i was clearly the wife though haha) Maybe it is that thought of losing my "spouse" to someone else. Whose wifey will I be? I need my (e:beast)! I don't want her to go! It is completly selfish and jealous but I really just don't want her to go! She cna't ! Maybe I shall sabotage her plane!

Ok i'm just kidding about that, I don't want to be arrested as a terrorist or something. I wouldn't really sabotage her plane! (e:beast) I am gonna moiss YOU!

Had a great weekend with (e:southernyankee) and (e:lilho) in town and (e:beast)'s going away party on saturday. Too much fun for one little boy. I actually have some pics from saturday at least because I rmeembered I have a camera for the first time. Since I just got it I always forget to bring it. Lots of good times and incriminating photo'/vidoes esepcially from Thrusday which luckily will not make it on (e:strip) , for the most part at least....

Two random crazy things though...
...driving home thrusday night/friday morning, at the corner of Elmwood and Hertel I am stopped at a red light and there is a car next to me and the driver gets out of his car AND STARTS PEEING IN THE MIDDLE OF ELMWOOD. and then proceeds to get back in his car and drive through the red light and the next one...i'm sure the rest of that ride ended up in a lamp post.... it was seriuolsy crazy

then friday night I am leaving the (e:pmt) house when I open the door (it is like 4am ish, there is this man just standing there at the bottom of the stairs looksing at the door. I freak out run inside and (e:libertad) locks the door. I call everyone to the door and noone knows him. SUPER SCARY/FREAKY but then he eventually walks away and gets in his car and takes a good 20 minutes to pull out of a sapce even though he had no one behind him. I think he was relaly just a drunk man who maybe thought it was his house he was at and was confused why people were coming out of it?

Interesting weekend altogether and I am missing chammy cakes and sarbear already> Maybe I will have to write a song about it....and sing in in my underwear while playing the organ.....OH WAIT, i've already done that!

This dinner and (e:strip) discussion is cutting into my favorite television night of the week. I will be missing both Gossip Girl AND Dirty, Sexy Money my only 2 must see shows of the week. We don't have a VCR that tapes thing I am not watching and do not have TIVO. What is a poor tv addicted boy to do?

I can't handle it. I am not like a huge Bills fan or anything and i started watching this game and I get pulled in (if i start watching a game I will always get pulled in). And seriuosly the game was amazing and super exciting and then.....we lose at the very end. Like i am totally dejected and sad now for something I don't really in reality care about but it just i get so into it when i do wathc it. I can't handle the post-loss depression, I can't imagine what it would be like if i really really got into it everyweek. I tihnk I would be really depressed a lot!

Seriously these young newbie kids out there on the bills team totally desrved this game so bad! 5 freaking interceptions, a run back touchdown, LIKE WHO THE HECK GETS AN ONSIDE KICK!!!?! ugh

I love casinos as some of you know. Not in a bad way, like i don't lose a lot of money but I don't win a lot either. Like today I went and won 15 dollars on my first like penny spin and was winnign up a storm and got up to like 22 dollars (from an origianl 5 dollar bet) but of course I played it down to only coming home 3 dollars ahead. So like I still "won" but I oculd have went home with way more. I just can never walk away. And since I only really play penny machines I will never get higher than like 20 or 30 dollar win and so if i always plya it down I will never win> i don't know. I still look at it as what other activity could I do for a while and walk away with mor emoney than I walked in with. NONE!

P.S. Ollie's the new Big Lots like store near the Galleria is stupid. It is dirty and has crap> I love crap! And i was excited about it but relaly it was a let down. Big Lots is way better!!!The stuff was not even that cheap and it was all like dented and crap, I did not buy one tihng whe nI never walk out of Big Lots wihtout like two huge bags of stuff. I say maybe it has a chance in the future but righ tnwo it is el horible!