04/28/05 12:48 - ID#35037

Game On!

Okay, Game On. Bank crush came in today as it still single! Whoo Hoo! I had decided that the crush was over, because, frankly, I was acting like an idiot! He'd walk in and my heart would start to race, my hands would get shakey, I'd get this surge of adrenaline, and turn beat red, and not be able to stop smiling! Basically, I was acting like 12 year old spazz! And then I heard he was getting engaged and I said, "That's it. It's over. I'm myself again. I'm acting like an idiot anyway!" He asked, she said no. He's single! I don't know if I can *not* act like a 12 year old spazz, but I'm going to do my best. Game On!

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04/27/05 11:13 - ID#35036

Blocked

I detest writer's block, and yet mine seems to be an ever constant in any of my work. Even with this, I feel as though I am reaching for ideas (originally, I had typo-ed "Ideals". Hmmm.... perhaps I am reaching for ideals- anyway-) It used to be that I would sit and stare and re-read and eventually- *POW*- I would smash through that seemingly impenetrable wall and begin to write, to create, to flourish. Or, I would begin a new idea and work until I was stuck and then go back to a previous story, or draw, or something- anything, but I could get past it. I have so many projects, so many stories, that are started, but that isn't what's really worrying me. What's worrying me is that there aren't really any New ideas coming, nothing that grabs me enough to sit down and WRITE! This hasn't happened since I first discovered I loved writing in the third grade. Which, ironically, is also when I discovered I loved reading and I haven't been reading very much either, not really. Again, things are started and not finished. I don't like this pattern that is evolving, not at all. Suggestions, e-peeps? I'm starting to feel rather lost.

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04/26/05 10:56 - ID#35035

Who'd've thunk it?

The 20 Happiest Cities

1. Laredo, TX: A+

2. El Paso, TX: A+

3. Jersey City, NJ: A+

4. Corpus Christi, TX: A+

5. Baton Rouge, LA: A

6. Honolulu, HI: A-

7. Fresno, CA: A-

8. San Jose, CA: A-

9. Lincoln, NE: B+

10. Bakersfield, CA: B+

11. Buffalo, NY: B+
12. Anchorage, AK: B+

13. Stockton, CA: B+

14. Shreveport, LA: B+

15. (3-way tie) Madison, WI: B, Montgomery, AL: B, and Des Moines, IA: B

18. Wichita, KS: B

19. (tie) Sacramento, CA: B and Omaha, NE: B

The 20 Most Depressed Cities

1. Philadelphia, PA: F

2. Detroit, MI: F

3. St. Petersburg, FL: F

4. St. Louis, MO: F

5. Tampa, FL: F

6. Indianapolis, IN: F

7. (3-way tie) Mesa, AZ: F, Phoenix, AZ: F, and Scottsdale, AZ: F

10. Cleveland, OH: F

11. New York, NY: D-

12. Salt Lake City, UT: D-

13. Atlanta, GA: D

14. (3-way tie) Yonkers, NY: D, Pittsburgh, PA: D, and Kansas City, MO: D

17. (3-way tie) Long Beach, CA: D, Los Angeles, CA: D, Nashville, TN" D

20. Portland, OR: D

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04/26/05 10:42 - ID#35034

Query

Do you ever feel like your life is one big, perpetual crossroads?

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04/25/05 10:58 - ID#35033

Cat's out of the bag...

Flacidness knows and I know that Flacidness told little Lilho and, let's face it, if Flacidness knows, then everyone knows! Trisha and Paulnotpaul are expecting a little bundle of joy in November. LingLing (as I refer to the sproglet) is the reason that I have been in the throws of Baby Shower planning and knitting like a freak! I'm super excited for my best friend, but at the same time- well, there goes my drinking buddy, and I'll admit, that makes me sad. But there's a new Lehnen on the way! And I cannot to wait to meet little LingLing! I hope she doesn't get pissed for me actually posting the news, but it's been killing me not to tell! I'm so damned excited!

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04/21/05 04:30 - ID#35032

free write

chaos sublime rambling sticky fingers compute ramdomness far away in my world words pictures anger cats dogs houses firefighters madness hollowness fight it all today yesterday comes and goes in a way of peaceful joy climb upward away from today on to tomorrow words jumbled streaming out of my head out of my fingers coming to some sort of form this is fun in a non-thinking kind of way cohesion arrives and one cannot help but wonder where it all comes from.

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04/20/05 01:08 - ID#35031

SOOOO BORED!

I AM SO DAMNEDABLE BORED! I can't help it. Today is the slowest day in the history of slow days. I have checked my e-mail seriously half a dozen times today already and it's only ten to one. I've been on Ebay, Crate and Barrel, MSN, and Google for long, long chunks today, plus written out my resume. I detest being bored, especially when there is very little that one can do about it!

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04/15/05 01:07 - ID#35030

I find this macabre and yet apropos...

I found this article today on bbc news. It seems, well, I think my title says it all.

Crypt used for abortion service

A pregnancy and abortion counselling service has been given permission to set up in a church crypt.
The Cedar Tree Trust is preparing to move in to the former St Nicholas Church on The Cross in Worcester. The space is currently used as a nightclub.

A Church of England committee, which decides what to do with redundant church buildings, approved the change.

But some local ProLife Party members have said a church building should only be used for anti-abortion counselling.

Spokesperson Tatiana Johnson said: "My main concern would be, and I probably speak for many Christians, would be the concern of possibly the wrong message being given out from the church to the public regarding abortion.

"My question would really be why can't we have a pro-life information and pregnancy advice centre within the church?"

The Cedar Tree Trust offers assistance to women facing difficulties in pregnancy, as well as those who have had a miscarriage or an abortion.

Spokesman Rick Thomas said the Church sanctioned the move because the trust gives impartial advice.

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04/15/05 10:05 - ID#35029

Confidant's tale

There are many times in my job when I do so much more than meets the eye. I actually get involved in my customers' lives, and I know that I am not unusual. We all do it here. You know every little detail, who's sick, who's having a baby, who's moving, who's getting divorced, a new job, a new car, a new house, allergies, etc..., the list truly is endless. I become a friend, a confidant, an advice-giver. Yesterday, one of my favourite customers actually invited me to her house for religious women's group meeting that is held there. That bespeaks of amazing trust and how some people almost look on me and my colleagues as extensions of their families. I find it somewhat sad, but also profoundly beautiful. Hmmm. It's early and ridiculously slow for a Friday. I may be posting somewhat regularly today, if only to aleviate the boredom.

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04/13/05 01:17 - ID#35028

Musings from a cubicle

I feel like I've missed my Window. Like all of the good one really ARE gay or taken, as I've been espousing for years. What if I sat on the fence for too long- getting over that one, lingering in love over this one- and what if one night when I ought to have gone out with my friends and I decided to home instead (one of the many), I missed Him- the One. Or what if I'm working on Him- and all of my patience ISN'T for naught. I'm torturing myself today and I know it. I am torturing myself because my bank crush is getting engaged and he's going to propose to his girlfriend (that incidentally, I have never once heard him mention) exactly how I would want to be proposed to. What makes someone want to spend (if he or she is lucky) the rest of his or her life with someone else? Does is come in a blinding flash, or does it grow gradually? How does anyone ever really KNOW?

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Location: Sunny LA, NY

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