every time I try to post on here, my internet gets messed up....I am going to attempt to do so again....

I am leaving for home (buffalo) coming a week today.....I leave las vegas and start my journey across the US to end ultimately in buffalo.....which should be sometime around sunday night or monday morning.....

things fell apart here, and I just need to get home.

anyone know of any good jobs? or any job for that matter....I need a job. ANYTHING will do as long as I can make money and keep my clothing on.

I am getting my hair trimmed tomorrow.....I am excited.

Im exhausted. i need to go to bed.....gonight.

My prospectus went awesome. I couldn't have imagined it any better.... I am so happy about this! My committee was very impressed with my research project, my organization, and my ability to explain it....thank god.


So, to celebrate, danny and I went to the BMI urban music awards. it was insane. i hung out with fellows like sean combs, three 6 mafia, lil wayne, T-Pain, Lil Mama, etc. Yes. it was insane. entertaining to say the least.

what else? I got a pedicure today. hot pink toes! love it.

my dogs are sooooooo annoying. they are wrestling.

Oh! I got a new phone. the new palm treo. it's so intense. there is so much to learn on this thing, i don't even know where to begin.

so, recently i have been feeling very spiritual....I want something to find me peace and a place of content-ness....I have bought jade and buddist jewelry to keep my mind on the things that I value the most, and to bring me good luck of course....

I really want some indian food. that would be fabulous....we will see what I can scrounge up!

tonight I am going to see built to spill. excited. this weekend is modest mouse. wonderful!

ok. so I have less than 2 hours before I have my thesis prospectus. I am FREAKING out man....I am totally prepared, but am terrified of the whole experience. Ugh! I can't wait till its over. I am going to need a few cold ones after this....


...in other news, I am going to the BMI urban music awards here in las vegas tomorrow. I get to go on the red carpet and watch celebrities and watch the whole awards show. It's hilarious. I am going to be the only white girl there....run DMC, rhianna, lil jon etc are all going to be there. HAHAHAHAHA. entertainment at its finest.

and the MTV video music awards is this weekend here too. I am sure the whole city is going to be a zoo. awesome. NOT.


hmm. what else? I threw my back out big time. it is horrendous. I went to the chiropracter yesterday to get it fixed. I feel a bit better...but it doesn't help that I am wearing t-strap mary jane heels...I mean, how practical is that?

The countdown is on. home is less than a month. yes!

So, a long while since I last posted....nothing too exciting going on.

I got back from buffalo last wednesday at 1am, and started my new job at 8am that day. My boss is a dick, like super sexist, and it really pisses me off. yea, i may be tiny and a woman, but that doesn't mean i can't move 40 lb boxes in the back, so don't belittle me and tell me I shouldn't bother because they are heavy.

he makes stupid comments like, "we only hire hot chicks" and "women really sucks bad". I think he tries to be funny, but he isn't. at all. He is the type that drives a crotch rocket, wears all black, listens to bands like slipknot, and thinks he is such hot shit that it is disgusting.

but apparently i am not the only who thinks this way. my entire staff does. and they want to fire him. and the owner of volcom wants to put me as store manager. but i don't want to because i am leaving in a month and a half (which they don't know about).... being a store manager would make me mucho dollars, but I certainly don't want to deal with the shit and responsibility. Everything is on your shoulders...and you put in way more hours than just 40 a week.

I havent worked on my thesis is over a month. this is a serious probem because my goal is to have it done by the time i leave. is this possible? I really have to bust into high gear.

So, I went to saks 5th avenue over the weekend and bought a juicy couture denim skirt with heart pockets (and I already have the same jeans). Its adorable, but cost me a small fortune. I can't spend for the next week and half thanks to that damn skirt....

and when I get paid next week, my first thing I am going to do is get my hair cut. A post or so ago, I stated that I was duct taped to a chair and had my hair chopped off. It's about hsoulder length now, but I think I want to get a chin length bob...kinda like Irulan from the real world las vegas (reunited hair style of course). So....my theory is, if my hair is gone, which it is, might as well get it cut the way I want it.

I have been working so much, I am so out of touch with what is going on in the world recently. I feel like a bad citizen of society. I know someone shot people at the caesers palace parking garage over the weekend....does that count for something? jesus.

Anyway, I hope all (e:peeps) are doing well....take care!

so, i have always thought that having a cute one length sleek and straight bob would be amazing...but I could never chalk up enough balls to get it done....i am super attached to my hair.

so, i was talking wishful thinking tonight to my mom's friend who is a hair dresser. they decided that i needed to get my hair cut and hilighted, but i said NO! So, they took it upon themselves to duct tape me to a chair and cut my hair. I am currently freaking out. my hair is short!!! not that short. but not as long as it was. omg.

I can honestly say that I love this town. Buffalo is my home. and i love it. this morning was magical....i drove my mom to work in the wee hours of the AM, and when I got home, it started to rain. Rain does not happen in vegas. more or less the ability to keep your windows open to feel the amazingness of the early, dewy and refreshing morning summer breeze. I laid in bed, listening to the rain and feeling the wind, and thought, "my god, this is the best morning I have had in a long time".

I am really looking forward to my return to the queen city.

My apartment is really cute. Despite its lack of bedroom furniture, it's coming along....pink and hello kitty style. damn right.

my little brother got this kitten a few weeks back. i thought, great, just what my family needs, another fucking animal. but honestly, i am in love. This cat is like no other cat....those of you who know me know that I am a dog person, but this cat is fucking awesome. she cuddles and loves like no other! and she licks your toes! If i could guarentee a cat like this, i would for sure get one.....but unfortunately, cats are so hit and miss, most likely to be a miss....i want this cat.

i hope all you (e:peeps) are doing well! goodnight!

me, my mom and my bros at hoover dam

mom with blue man group band

sophia being cool....glasses and shark tooth necklace

my brothers

Jack and tyler at the giant piano at FAO Schwartz

them at a tiny piano

picnic at ocean beach in california

san diego zoo

giraffes

tyler and jack

me and my bros

jack and tyler with blue man group band

boys at chuckie cheeses

san diego was amazing. but that is not what i need to discuss....

I took my bros to the pool today. other than being burnt to crisp, i experienced an interesting pimp- ho fight. for real. ok. so I was chillin in the pool on my pink noodle (hahahahaha), and in walks this dude with a 40 in a brown bag. he was gross. and he sat on this chair and just watched us swim. i was really freaked out, but whatever....so we were all in the pool have a good time, then all of a sudden, this crazy asian bitch who look like an anorexic whore (a real las vegas whore) comes in the pool area slamming the pool gate wide open...

she starts screaming "you fucking asshole dick!" at the top of her lungs in her almost incoherant babble....and she is whalling her arms all over the place. I was like, holy shit! this is great!, but then realized my lttle brothers were witnessing this....so, I was like, okay, maybe they will go away.

she walked over to the gross dude and is like, punching and kicking him! she is screaming, "give me the keys, you fucking dick!" and he replied with "bitch, you are a ho. and anyway, you are drunk. where the fuck are you going to go? another john's house? you can't go anywhere." They were screaming this. yea. insane.

so, after my fix of entertainment for the day, i went into the office....and as I was walking, the dude was like, look btich, see that girl across the way, she is going to tell on you, get your shit together.

oddly enough, the manager at the office knew who i was talking about before he even went out to kick them out. apparently they are here quite often. he said he might have to evict the dude. he has no idea who the woman is, but she is always fucked up.

yea. so they left screaming and eachother....and it was insane.

it was better than watching cops or cheaters. for sure.

we leave for san diego tomorrow. i am taking my brothers to the zoo. I can't wait....we are staying for the weekend so we can also go to the beach!

I can't wait to sit on the beach and hear the sounds of the ocean. san diego is wonderful!

Only a few more days till I am home for a breif visit. I can't wait to be in buffalo....it's only for 4 days, but I will take it!

I am a young woman in a situation that isn't the best she has had...

a women who is in love with animals, especially my 3 babies...

a girl who loves pink and hello kitty

but is not a bimbo by any means (which some may believe me to be on first impression....which of course I despise)

I have a heart of gold....sometimes that isn't a great quality though, because you get set up to be let down at times....

my family is most important to me.

i don't get my eyebrows waxed as often as I should.

sometimes i say things that I shouldn't say about other people. but what most people don't know is that most of the time i regret it.

i love cleaning bathrooms.

my gucci bag is clearly fake. i mean, whoever spends $3000 on a bag is dumb.

2 of my closest friends are men. I think I just get along with dudes better....

I am a democrat. although I hate to say a party affiation, but I guess i am more liberal than anything....

I am tough. and I promise you, if you piss me off enough, i will punch you in the face....

I love to laugh. sometimes uncontrollably. In fact, this is quite embarrasing, but once in 4th grade, I was laughing so hard that I peed on (e:lilho). yes. that is right folks. I peed on her in a cardboard box in my basement.

i have an ever changing hairstyle, although recently it has stayed constant. I am contemplating changing it.

i want to have a great job. but i also want to go back to school for like, everything....including physics. I don't understand it all....then again, who does, but I want to go to school for it.

and i hate school at the same time.

i am a little heavier than i would like to be. but i can manage.

i hate people who talk too much....like, the type who turn a 2 minute story into 70 minutes. i don't give a shit about your life. please give me the condensed version.

I LOVE MAKEUP. it's horrible. don't ever tell me I have too much lipgloss. you never can. and for the record, i wear minimal makeup despite my huge collection. i do not look like a streetwalker. thank you.

i have a dry sense of humor.

i am sometimes sensitive.

i am not too much of a movie person.

music is my life.

i am allergic to everything. the sun. the grass. even tattoo ink. bad news man....

i read books about diseases and economics for fun. i am a total nerd. but so clueless at the same time....

i usually have bad skin, but recently, it has been great due to my new skin care system from the derm.

i like to eat bad food. that's right. i will be the first in line at taco bell and arby's.

i love television. really bad television for that matter. for instance, i love that show on E!: girls next door. I mean, who watches that shit?

i haven't worked out in 2 weeks.


if you don't' like any of these qualities in a person, then don't talk to me. in fact. don't' look at me. don't read this. i don't want you in my life anyway.