So, last night, I had these crazy dreams/nightmares. I am not a very crazy dreamer, but last nights mind movies were very vivid. I wonder how these thoughts got in my head. CRAZY.

(e:lilho), I will call you this weekend. we have some things to discuss!

I hope all is well back on the buffalo scene. take care all!

school starts today. booooooo.


i got up mad early (4am) to go to urban outfitters to help with inventory this morning. I was so pissed that danny forgot to put the sweatshirt I wanted to wear in the dryer that I just didn't go and got back in bed. I slept ever since. now that class starts in 2 and a half hours (at 4), i wonder where this day has gone. this sucks. I hate being a waste.

I start work back up tomorrow. crunch time. there will be a few trips to Reno and Carson City in the next few weeks with the boss. I am quite excited about it.


but the real question is: where is my refund check?!?!

well, I finally got my luggage back. good thing. but they had it delivered by an old man that could barely lift them, so I had to carry them up the stairs, and I threw my back out. lovely. but i am happy i got my stuff back in one piece. that's a great thing.

I also got my new ring. it's beautiful.

things otherwise are good. danny and I got in a few scuffles when i got home, but it's all water under the bridge now.

I start school back up tomorrow. I am so not ready to go back....and I still didn't get my refund check which means that I can't buy my books till they decide to fix my residency. i hate all of this administration shit. just do your fucking job and everyone will be happy. is that too much to ask?!?!

Danny and I figured out who will be in the wedding. It's exciting...but we are going to have a HUGE wedding party. not including the bride and groom we will have 12 attendants...that is, if all of them accept our wishes for them to be in our wedding.

Danny's dad is coming out on thursday, and danny's birthday is friday. I am really excited. His dad hasn't taken a vacation in like 15 years, and has never been on the west coast. I am glad he is coming to visit danny and I. I think we are going to the bellagio buffet for dinner on friday. scrumptious....

I wish (e:paul) a very happy 30th coming up....I wish I could be home to come celebrate!

I hope all is well with everyone! take care.

jetblue lost my luggage. im screwed.

this is dumb. everyone get over it. not cute anymore.

so, my mom didn't end up taking me to the bridal show....EVEN WORSE!!!!!!!!! she took me to start looking at bridal gowns. I almost puked when we walked in the boutique. shit man...what an experience.


After 4 hours of trying on crazy bridal undergarmets and dresses, i have an idea what I want. My mom is nuts though....i found a dress that I love. It was $1200. She wanted to buy it for me on the spot....i was like, are you crazy!?!? There are a billion other dresses out there that we can get a lot cheaper, and also....there are 2 and a half years till our wedding....I think it would be a little unlucky to buy the dress now, don't you think???

The experience was nuts. my bridal consultant (yea, she is now my bridal consultant) made me walk through the store with the gown on and it was soooooooo packed....there were tons of people. Everyone was starring at me and were like, "move out of the way for the bride!" I turned around and was like, where is she??? and then it hit me, yea, i am the bride. EWWWWWWWWWW.

Its exciting....and I know that danny will love the dress I pick, so either way, it's fun....but a bit too soon to be buying a dress!



I also got a haircut today. Just a trim and shaping. the stylist told me I have beautiful and healthy hair, and I was like, uhhhhhhhhhh, my hair is nasty. I really thought I had gross hair....hey, I will take what I can get. She also said it should be at my ideal length by summer. YAY! long hair=wonderful!



im babysitting my brothers right now. They are fighting over their nintendo ds's. ANNOYING!

here are some pics of the puggy costume party. Sophia is a ladybug and elias is a dinosaur. He also won 3rd place for longest pug tongue in Las Vegas! That's my pug!

just so you are all prepared, this may be my main stressor over the next few months (alright, 3 years). It's not like I want it to be, but I am sure you can all relate one way or another!


So, even though danny and I are not going to get married till 2009, people are already annoying the fuck out of me about the plans of the wedding day, my engagement ring and the type of dress i want to wear and the people in my wedding party, etc. So, I am going on record to say that: the way americans think about a new marriage in the works is really fucked up. Everyone is so fixated on the things that should matter the least....monetary things that don't really mean much in the grand scheme of things.

Don't get me wrong, I love the thought of having a beautiful wedding day to celebrate danny and I beginning the marriage, but I just don't get what it is about people and being obsessed with the wedding. Shouldn't it be more about what the day represents opposed to what the colors are or how huge the diamond is? It's so superficial and a bit upsetting.

I guess my ideal response from others when they here we are getting married would be along the lines of this: "Wow, congrats! That is so wonderful...you and danny are great for eachother....I wish you the best in the future....and despite trying times that may come...I know you guys will work things out."

Instead of an engagement solely being dependant on one day (the wedding) it should represent the meaning behind why people get engaged.This may seem like a basic concept, but people don't think about the grand scheme of things when an engagement happens. PEOPLE! IT IS NOT ABOUT ONE DAY.....So, with that in mind, i am excited about the day and want it to be perfect (I mean, don't we all)....but we are all way too wrapped up on this whole wedding day concept.

Yea, so I think my mom is "surprising" me by taking me to the wedding expo this weekend. I am not sure, but she keeps dropping little hints about it....I mean, it's a cute gesture, but it's a little overwhelming. 2009 is still a ways away, and I don't want to get wrapped up in the plans too soon.

For those that care....All I have for the moment is:
-I would rather elope than have to deal with this whole mumble jumble
-fall or early winter wedding
-pink (any shade) must be one of my colors (i would like 3 colors)
-I would like to have my wedding here in buffalo
-if I want everyone I want in my wedding party, my wedding party would be about 100 people (obviously not possible)
-wedding is going to be huge thanks to our lovely large families
-danny's mom may be too much for me to handle at times (but i am sure it will work out)
-and my diamond ring is already broken (2 prongs broke off).... which bums me out big time....so I am sending it back to the jewelers and we are going to just get a whole new ring....


so don't ask anymore questions. it is just too much. thanks...



In other news: I hate to say it, but I kinda miss home (las vegas)....I am ready to be back in my own bed in my apartment with my puggies and danny. It's a good thing.

sophia is the most amazing puggy in the world. i love her sooooo much.

And i went to the doctor today....i have a sinus infection. cool.

so, thank you paul matt and terry! I love your new home, and I had a lot of fun with oregami and getting drunk with fun people....what a great night.

it was also night to meet some of the people who I have been reading about for years now....yay!

Well, its 2007. That's nuts. really. HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE...


(e:lilho) : I had so much fun! I am glad we got to spend new years with eachother....im glad we are still such good friends after all we have been through....FRIENDS FOR LIFE MF'ER.

life has a really funny of working out....as shitty as things may become...what goes around goes around. it's such a lovely thing. hence the reason why you should always be trustful, loyal and truthful....because it will come back and bite you in the ass....

....in other news, im currently working at frizb's. good ol' frizb's! It has been a relatively slow day. I am outta here in less than an hour.

I am looking forward to the party tonight. I have been pretty sick so I am not sure how long I will last....but I certainly am excited to go!!!!!!!!!

but new years is a weird holiday....it is kind of depressing....and happiness all rolled into one state of mind. One more year down the tubes...and one more year to add to the number....but it is also a matter of new and exciting things to come.... i mean, it's 2007....that is kind of exciting. I remember as a kid thinking about living into the 2000's....and how futuristic it would be....but i guess it's not that different. I just have a lot more lipgloss now. which is a wonderful thing.