as much as i don't like plattsburgh at times, I am going to miss it here..... tomorrow is my last exam/school work I will ever have to do here, and it is a damn good feeling I must say. I have worked my ass off soooooooooooooo much the past 4 years....and it is finally paying off. I AM OUTTA HERE. how wonderful.

Sarah, I got your voicemail, but my phone is fucked. I will call you as soon as I can....but if I don't reach you, I will call monday because I will be home!

but it really makes me sad when I see really overweight people. I mean, REALLY overweight people. I know that some people suffer from genetic problems....but I know that the majority of Americans, including myself (and no, i am not saying i am FAT) are overweight. It is ridiculous to see people who are 300 lbs overweight though. I mean, when do you get to the point where you think to yourself, "i just don't give a fuck about my health anymore"? What is it about our culture that allows us to think that being fat is ok? I mean, there are millions of people that die everyday due to complications with being obese. On top of the people who die everyday, there are millions who are diagnosed with unhealthy diet and lifestyle related diseases. Honestly, I am worried about the direction that most people choose to live their lives. Just recently have become aware of the shit I eat. The last 3 weeks I have made an honest attempt to look at the way I eat, and change itI t. I don't want to be fat, and I worry about my future because the way that I eat. I think that when I get my career going, I really want to promote a healthy lifestyle that reduces fat and increases awareness to diet choices that people make.

This is all brought on by the fact that today I was in the mall, and in the matter of my 20 minutes there, i saw well over 50 people that weren't just overweight, but obese. This, the rate of people who are obese, is unacceptable, and extremely sad.

and I am not saying that we should all go starve ourselves to become skinny mini's....but I am saying that we should not be blind to the choices we make. There a huge difference between being health conscious, and being sickly thin.

That's all i have to say at the moment. thanks.

so, i had this wonderful idea to get trashed last night. I think i am half wasted still and half hung over....the horror. Yea, so today is the anthropology department's picnic...and i hope i don't puke. I have to hand out fuckin t-shirts and shit.....i am so fucked. i hate this. i am never drinking again. ugh. tequila=devil.


my honey sent me a surprise and it is being delivered today. i wonder what it could be!


o my god....i am sooooooooooooooooooo fucked. fuck fuck fuck.

Yea, so, today, my apartment building caught on fire and it was evacuated by screaming firefighters saying "EVERYONE! GET OUT OF THE BUILDING....THERE IS A FIRE!" It was the scariest day of my life may I say.....more details to come.

overall, life is good right now. I have a great boyfriend, cool friends, an awesome puggy, an amazing family, and a bright future....these are the things that get me through the day.

Biostatistics though, man, it's hard to get through the day when you have to sit through that class. It's kinda disappointing....I mean, if you have your heart set on a career, and you know that career is what you would love to do and what you know you would be good at....and then you take a class related to the career and it sucks, well, its kind of dicouraging. I like the shit in the class, it's just the way its taught. A good teacher is key in a class such as biostats. which i do not have.

I have come to terms with the fact that I may not get into grad school. At first the thought scared the shit out of me, and honestly, thinking about it sometimes made me cry. It sounds stupid, but when you want something so bad and you know that if you had it you would never take at advantage of it....it just hurts knowing that you may not get it. Being selected into the program would be an honor, but not the end of the world. I mean, I will jsut keep reapplying till I got in.....and in the mean time work at a cool place such as the health department or Urban Outfitters (2 totally different ends of the spectrum, but both cool....). I applied for a manager position at Urban....and it would be great to get it....I would still take it even if I got into school because classes are in the evening. The job pays better than a starting teacher salary, so I mean, why the hell not....and the 40% discount is an added bonus along with health benefits and such.

I just want it all to happen now. But the next couple weeks are going to fly by. I have a lot of school work to do, then I graduate and move home, then I have a million Dr's appointments, then I run frizb's becasue the boss will be out of town, then i go to boston, then I come back for a week and go to vegas, and then i come home and start my summer job watching my brothers....so, as long as time passes fast, im good.

i quit my job at the Y. It was just too much stuff to do...I only have 4 more weeks left anyway, so, it won't be that bad.....


and i got a sub teaching job in vegas...it pays $110 per day...which despite how much teaching will suck, it's my transition job....

....and i applied for an urban outfitters manager job at the new store in las vegas....i hope i get it.


i am excited about the future. Yay!

here are some pics...Las Vegas has a pug society...i know, right? anyway.... every other sunday they have "puggy sunday" in this dog park near daniel's home. So, of course I couldn't pass it up. I packed my two little puggies up and we went to socialize with other puggies....here are some pics of the event.... there are some other random ones here too. i hope you all enjoy.

I have been trying to post a journal for like 2 months now, but for some reason this website would not work on my computer. strange, but it works now. Let's see:

...I went to vegas and got like, the bird flu virus while i was there (not really because if you have bit of intelligence you would know that it has not reached the US yet....but for real, i was deathly sick). I went to my grad school interview and the school district interview sick as hell....it sucked....Flying home only made my sickness worse. And! sophia hyperventilated on the plane. it was awful. I got home and was really sick still for a long time, and then the medications i was put on made me even sicker. So that consumed like 2 and a half weeks and made me fall behind in classes....

.....I went home to buffalo for my birthday week since I needed a root canal and I had an eye appointment....I lost my eye and dental insurance on my birthday (3/31) since I am getting old...so i had to do the stuff before I lost it. I dind't think a root canal would be that big of a deal, but it SUCKED so fucking bad and ruined my entire week home and my birthday. I waas home but didn't see any of my friends, and i couldn't even have birthday cake it hurt so bad to eat. fuck that sucked....

....my car has broken numerous times in the last few months, so danny and I have decided that we are going to start looking for a car once I get home and get one for me. It will be much safter for me to have a reliable car in a high crime city that i don't know....so I am considering getting another malibu....but the maxx....it's cute. but there are just so many out there that i like.....i really want a suburu but they are mad loot and expensive to fix, so i think i might have to wait till i have stability in order to buy one....

....I graduate in 35 days. it's a liberating feeling, but i have so much work to do in the next couple of weeks.

....and i decided that social theory is the most amazing thing I could ever study... so i think i am going to try to double up in grad school if I go to do both public health and social theory. YES! i am turning into one of those weirdos that walks around and analyzes what people do and why....but it's so enriching to the mind. it's wonderful.



.....on a closing note....i hope everyone is doing well.

Sophia after she hurt her leg:



This is a picture of sophia and danny's pug eli....they love eachother:


me and sophia:


sophia and eli again:


sophia wearing her pink hoodie (cute but bad pic, taken on my phone, sorry)


me and my new hat....its so hot!


me and my girls at chug a mug....my head looks huge!


Laura and I wearing the same sweatshirt...and my orange hair.


danny and eli hiking at red rock canyon in nevada

well, it's been a while since i last posted.....i have a few things i need to say:

1: #1 single on E! is just the cutest. Of course, it reinforces my idea of how adorable lisa loeb is....and can you believe she is like 37?!?!?! for real, i hope i look like that when im 37. Her and her new love, her friend michael, are just so cute, and they totally remind me of daniel and I. adorable.

2: Sophia sprained her ankle. I freaked out on saturday and spent the evening babying my little pug....she couldn't walk, and i cried all night because i didn't know what to do. I took her to the vet on monday, and she is fine....just a little sprain. I got puggy pills to manage the pain, and she should be just fine in a few weeks.... it was just a really scary experience.

3: I have officially been robbed of all my ambitions....all i ever want to do is sleep. its awful. I am blowing off biostatistics...which i love....just because. I don't feel like going. I don't really feel like doing anything actually. This weekend I didn't leave my apartment, and it was wonderful. I haven't done laundry in 2 weeks, and I haven't grocery shopped in 2 weeks....and really, i don't give a shit. I know it sounds awful, but I just can't get on top....im totally strained of time....and im so stressed, and it is really starting to wear me out. So, i just don't give a shit....

4: I have a job interview in Las Vegas when I am there in a week....I also am meeting with the Department Chair of the school I am trying to get into while i am there. super nervous. what should i wear?!?!?! o god...real life is setting in, and frankly, it's scary...i mean, this is my career here....ugh.

5: lastly, I was thinking about my childhood the other night, and one memory popped into mind that made me laugh....(e:lilho) and I were having a sleep over at her house when she used to live on Mang (RIP ho house). This was when her bedroom was in the office in the back of the house....We decided it would be awesome if we went through the most recent year book and punch everyone that we did not like. We thought it was the most hilarious thing ever. Actually, thinking back, it was.....we didn't like that April girl....was that her name??? so anyway, apparently we were being really annoying, and (e:hodown) came in and straightened us up.....she was PISSED! she stole our yearbook and yelled at us! hahahahaha. awesome! anyway, i thought i would share some Pollinger-Ho history. more to come in later journal responses......