overall, life is good right now. I have a great boyfriend, cool friends, an awesome puggy, an amazing family, and a bright future....these are the things that get me through the day.

Biostatistics though, man, it's hard to get through the day when you have to sit through that class. It's kinda disappointing....I mean, if you have your heart set on a career, and you know that career is what you would love to do and what you know you would be good at....and then you take a class related to the career and it sucks, well, its kind of dicouraging. I like the shit in the class, it's just the way its taught. A good teacher is key in a class such as biostats. which i do not have.

I have come to terms with the fact that I may not get into grad school. At first the thought scared the shit out of me, and honestly, thinking about it sometimes made me cry. It sounds stupid, but when you want something so bad and you know that if you had it you would never take at advantage of it....it just hurts knowing that you may not get it. Being selected into the program would be an honor, but not the end of the world. I mean, I will jsut keep reapplying till I got in.....and in the mean time work at a cool place such as the health department or Urban Outfitters (2 totally different ends of the spectrum, but both cool....). I applied for a manager position at Urban....and it would be great to get it....I would still take it even if I got into school because classes are in the evening. The job pays better than a starting teacher salary, so I mean, why the hell not....and the 40% discount is an added bonus along with health benefits and such.

I just want it all to happen now. But the next couple weeks are going to fly by. I have a lot of school work to do, then I graduate and move home, then I have a million Dr's appointments, then I run frizb's becasue the boss will be out of town, then i go to boston, then I come back for a week and go to vegas, and then i come home and start my summer job watching my brothers....so, as long as time passes fast, im good.

i quit my job at the Y. It was just too much stuff to do...I only have 4 more weeks left anyway, so, it won't be that bad.....


and i got a sub teaching job in vegas...it pays $110 per day...which despite how much teaching will suck, it's my transition job....

....and i applied for an urban outfitters manager job at the new store in las vegas....i hope i get it.


i am excited about the future. Yay!

here are some pics...Las Vegas has a pug society...i know, right? anyway.... every other sunday they have "puggy sunday" in this dog park near daniel's home. So, of course I couldn't pass it up. I packed my two little puggies up and we went to socialize with other puggies....here are some pics of the event.... there are some other random ones here too. i hope you all enjoy.

I have been trying to post a journal for like 2 months now, but for some reason this website would not work on my computer. strange, but it works now. Let's see:

...I went to vegas and got like, the bird flu virus while i was there (not really because if you have bit of intelligence you would know that it has not reached the US yet....but for real, i was deathly sick). I went to my grad school interview and the school district interview sick as hell....it sucked....Flying home only made my sickness worse. And! sophia hyperventilated on the plane. it was awful. I got home and was really sick still for a long time, and then the medications i was put on made me even sicker. So that consumed like 2 and a half weeks and made me fall behind in classes....

.....I went home to buffalo for my birthday week since I needed a root canal and I had an eye appointment....I lost my eye and dental insurance on my birthday (3/31) since I am getting old...so i had to do the stuff before I lost it. I dind't think a root canal would be that big of a deal, but it SUCKED so fucking bad and ruined my entire week home and my birthday. I waas home but didn't see any of my friends, and i couldn't even have birthday cake it hurt so bad to eat. fuck that sucked....

....my car has broken numerous times in the last few months, so danny and I have decided that we are going to start looking for a car once I get home and get one for me. It will be much safter for me to have a reliable car in a high crime city that i don't know....so I am considering getting another malibu....but the maxx....it's cute. but there are just so many out there that i like.....i really want a suburu but they are mad loot and expensive to fix, so i think i might have to wait till i have stability in order to buy one....

....I graduate in 35 days. it's a liberating feeling, but i have so much work to do in the next couple of weeks.

....and i decided that social theory is the most amazing thing I could ever study... so i think i am going to try to double up in grad school if I go to do both public health and social theory. YES! i am turning into one of those weirdos that walks around and analyzes what people do and why....but it's so enriching to the mind. it's wonderful.



.....on a closing note....i hope everyone is doing well.

Sophia after she hurt her leg:



This is a picture of sophia and danny's pug eli....they love eachother:


me and sophia:


sophia and eli again:


sophia wearing her pink hoodie (cute but bad pic, taken on my phone, sorry)


me and my new hat....its so hot!


me and my girls at chug a mug....my head looks huge!


Laura and I wearing the same sweatshirt...and my orange hair.


danny and eli hiking at red rock canyon in nevada

well, it's been a while since i last posted.....i have a few things i need to say:

1: #1 single on E! is just the cutest. Of course, it reinforces my idea of how adorable lisa loeb is....and can you believe she is like 37?!?!?! for real, i hope i look like that when im 37. Her and her new love, her friend michael, are just so cute, and they totally remind me of daniel and I. adorable.

2: Sophia sprained her ankle. I freaked out on saturday and spent the evening babying my little pug....she couldn't walk, and i cried all night because i didn't know what to do. I took her to the vet on monday, and she is fine....just a little sprain. I got puggy pills to manage the pain, and she should be just fine in a few weeks.... it was just a really scary experience.

3: I have officially been robbed of all my ambitions....all i ever want to do is sleep. its awful. I am blowing off biostatistics...which i love....just because. I don't feel like going. I don't really feel like doing anything actually. This weekend I didn't leave my apartment, and it was wonderful. I haven't done laundry in 2 weeks, and I haven't grocery shopped in 2 weeks....and really, i don't give a shit. I know it sounds awful, but I just can't get on top....im totally strained of time....and im so stressed, and it is really starting to wear me out. So, i just don't give a shit....

4: I have a job interview in Las Vegas when I am there in a week....I also am meeting with the Department Chair of the school I am trying to get into while i am there. super nervous. what should i wear?!?!?! o god...real life is setting in, and frankly, it's scary...i mean, this is my career here....ugh.

5: lastly, I was thinking about my childhood the other night, and one memory popped into mind that made me laugh....(e:lilho) and I were having a sleep over at her house when she used to live on Mang (RIP ho house). This was when her bedroom was in the office in the back of the house....We decided it would be awesome if we went through the most recent year book and punch everyone that we did not like. We thought it was the most hilarious thing ever. Actually, thinking back, it was.....we didn't like that April girl....was that her name??? so anyway, apparently we were being really annoying, and (e:hodown) came in and straightened us up.....she was PISSED! she stole our yearbook and yelled at us! hahahahaha. awesome! anyway, i thought i would share some Pollinger-Ho history. more to come in later journal responses......

Well, as usual, plattsburgh sucks so bad. It is 4 degrees here. awesome. with the windchill it is -15. i have to go grocery shopping and pick up my scripts today. i have to bundle up big time. only 21 more days till I go to vegas. I really can't wait.... skirts, flip flops, t shirts, o boy, the thought just makes me smile! And, my birthday is the week after I go, so I get to celebrate my birthday with my man while im there. Thanks to his nice discount at Urban Outfitters, I will be finding nice little things! And, we can't forget sephora. and juicy. shopping in vegas is amazing.

so, i love my water aerobics class. Its awesome. I am the youngest chick there by like 25 years, but it's cute. all the old ladies are like, "whoa, you are really in shape"....but little do they know that I haven't worked out in like 6 months. I just want tone, nothing outrageous, but really, my love handles....or chichos as they would say in spanish, are getting out of hand.

i am going to dye my hair today. My roots are getting gross....and that's gross when you have dark hair and you dyed it blond. I am going to dye it a slightly darker color. My hair looks orange at the moment. gross.

Last night I watched couples figure skating and I witnessed the epitome of what the olympics are all about. I know it's cheesy and all, but it was awesome. Ok, so there was this chinese couple, and they were attempting a new trick never been done in olympics history. It was right at the beginning of their routine. He had to throw her up and she had to do numerous rotations and all this shit....and then land it of course. Well, it didn't happen. And she actually injured herself pretty bad and then hit the side board rail thingy. They stopped the music and she was in so much pain. Every one was like, "O FUCK!" No one could believe that it happened......and then! after moments of waiting to see what was going to happen next, she decided that she didn't work her entire fucking life to get to the olympics.... i mean...ITS THE FUCKING OLYMPICS. ok, so they get back on the ice....and did the rest of the routine so perfectly it was so beautiful. THEY ENDED UP WINNING SILVER! it was so amazing. I was really happy for them.....

i don't know, maybe this is amazing to just me, but i thought it was awesome. I called daniel and told him about it, and he was like, the most amazing thing about it is how excited you are about it. ok, well, i can appreciate the art of figure skating and the intesity and pressure of the olympics.


on another note.....danny had 40 daffodils delivered to my apartment today. haha. it's so cute. I hate roses. fucking cheesy. hydragea's and daffodils are my favorite....and he said that the lady told him that hydrageas would be astronomical because they are out of season. yea yea. But Thanks for the flowers hun. They are beautiful!

Lastly, I finally got my fucking juicy couture suit in the mail yesterday after a fucking month of waiting....and it's huge. Awesome. I think i might take it to the tailor. yea, im taking a sweat suit to the tailor, but hello, it's worth $300. You are damn right im takin it to the tailor. Im wearing this shit if its the last thing I do.

Well, another weekend went by, but only this time, I did absolutely nothing. It was so nice to just lay in bed and chill out with my pooch. I didn't have to get up for anything....I didn't have anyone making me be anywhere....it was nice. But tomorrow is the start to another week. ooooooooooooooooo boy. I have to go to the YMCA tomorrow to get a pool schedule. I decided that I am going to start working out and getting in shape. I want to take a water aerobics class.....and considering that I have a free membership at the Y because I am a councilor, I figure why the hell not. I really have packed on the pounds the last few years, and I think that I need to start being conscious of my body.....because I don't want years to go by and suddenly be obese. That would suck.

not to get mushy or anything, but I really miss daniel. We have been doing the long distance thing for 8 months now....and we are still going strong, but I am sick of waiting for the day that I don't have to get on an airplane, which cost me $400 to do, and only get to see him for a week out of 2 months. fuck that shit.

As for valentines day....it has always sucked for me. It will be the 15 year anniversary of my near death car accident. Despite how it may have changed my life in exponential ways, it still hurts to remember the way things happened. It's nuts to even think about it being that long ago. I was 8 years old, but remember it like it was just yesterday. So, Valentines day has always been a real nostalgic day for me....in a very strange way.

at least I have sophia.

Well, I haven't updated in forever because I have been sooooooooooo busy recently. I am so tired and run down....but with the start of the semester, the GRE's, danny being in town, driving to syracuse and then albany the next weekend, and now all my application stuff for grad school, my life has been a whirl wind......

by next weekend though, my life should be in order....ya know?????????

i ordered a juicy couture suit on ebay....and i have been waiting for it to arrive at my apartment, but my mom called and said it arrived at my home in buffalo. that does not help me when i am 8 hours away. im pissed. i want my suit now. i hope my mom ships it to me. yay mom.

bye.