This is basically stating how try Marmizo's journal "fantasy" is. To sum it up he stated that all chick flicks are fake and stupid. I am one that will agree on this. I'm not going to dis them all cause even I like to watch them here and there. But like i stated in my journal before these fantasy movies can never happen in the real world. In case you didn't read the one before its cause their looking for the bad guy. In these movies you have this guy obsessing over a girl for an hour and a half but in movie land its like months. Then the girl your watching this with says something like "i can't believe she isn't with this guy. Look at everything he does for her." That makes me laugh to myself. Then in my head I'm like "hello!" And of course by the end of the movie the girl goes with this guy. Basically like Marmizo said how come we can't have one of these movies where the guy just gets so fucked over he ends up killing himself. Well, at least this would be a little more real.

I've been investigating a theory I've had about bad guys do better at getting girls than good guys. I've never really understood why this is. I've always considered myself as a good guy but i could be wrong. But if i was i would get more girls attention wouldn't you think. I realized that girls 28 and above are the ones that are looking for some kind of serious relationship. There is one problem with this and that's that these girls are in a relationship or married. So that leaves us with 27 and under and their looking for the so called "Bad Boy." I guess what bothers me most about this scenario is that these girls want a guy to treat them like shit. So since the new year I've turned over my new leave to be a "Bad Guy." It makes me sad and sick to say its been working. I've talked and have gotten the numbers of two girls since. Mind you its been what three weeks if that. Its so fucking retarded if you ask me.

I don't know about you but i hate getting sick. I've been sick for about four days now and it feels like my world is coming to an end. I normally only get sick about twice a year but that could be my problem. Since, i don't get sick a lot i can't handle the situation. I guess it could be worse my friend (Erin) found out today she has no heat or hot water. That sucks a whole of a lot more. I hate feeling like i can't do anything but sleep. The worst part is waking up at four in the morning everyday. I can't help it ill wake up in sweating like I've had a bad dream. I think I'm getting worse by stressing myself out. I go day in and out worrying that I'm going to fail as being a business owner. I want nothing but to succeed but i have my doubts. I guess i can blame a lot of that on the failed relationships I've had. You ask how i can compare the two? Let me tell you. If i can't keep a relationship together how am i going to keep a business going. I see myself better at the boyfriend girlfriend thing than anything. I guess that doesn't say much since another horrible valentine's day is approaching us. OOOOOO YEah another year to celebrate with nobody. O before i forget thats my buddies wedding anniversary CONGRATES on one year well done.

Is it me or is it the more you drink the more memories you seem to lose. Its not like i've lost them its more like its harder to remember them. What is the point to drinking? Sometimes I like to think it brings out the true sides of people. My reasoning for that theory is cause when you drink your more relaxed and don't have any reason to hold back. So next question is that really me what comes out when im drunk or is that who i want to be.
Have you ever gotten to that point where you go out with friends to drink cause you don't have anything else to do. Or even better you go drink with them cause you can't really talk to them so you have to find another way to do it. Its weird cause Its really hard for me to talk to my friends now. I used to never have a problem. I think its just come to the point where most of them are married and don't understand anymore. Times are changing and things are getting weirder when i feel more comfortable talking to a stranger than anyone else.

How was every ones New Year? Mine was fuckin awesome. Went out to kissing bridge and got really retarded with hundreds of people at the bar. It was pretty cool getting really stupid knowing your sleeping at a house across the street. I was hangin with my brother and some friends and we all got pretty sloppy. I ended up getting a nickname (the diceman) don't ask. I can't really remember how that happened but after they were calling me that i was quoting a lot of Andrew Dice Clay. "This girl comes up to me and asks me where i come from and i tells her I came from my dads penis." Lets just say i said that a lot. Fuck that i blame it all on the Yuengling. That stuff can be very dangerous. Just remember you have been warned. I also remember calling my friend Jay a leprechaun cause of his patty's day looking shirt. I recall telling him i stole his lucky charms. The conclusion of my night at KB resulted in a 33 dollar bet which i wish i could take back. My brother bet me to run up the main hill at KB and touch the first chair lift pole. Ok so most of you are like thats not that difficult. You kno what you might be right but now imagine yourself drunk, with sneakers, and the hill is all ice, did i mention im a smoker to. By the way there were some stipulations like i was only allowed to fall three times and i had to do it in a full sprint. Of course i did it i mean come on 33 dollars. What i didn't kno is that there were like a hundred people watching this. After doing all this i was pretty winded and will just say i was the first to throw up in 2005. I almost forgot it was only 1:30. Don't worry i rebounded and got re drunk but that story is another entry.

Happy New Year's Elmstrip. So whats every ones new years resolution? Does anyone have any creative ones or are they just the same old normal ones. Gotta love hearing people saying the old ones. EX. I'm going to quit smoking, or I'm going to drink less (that's one of my personal fav's), i also like hearing I'm going to lose weight. That ones funny because your thinking its coming from a fat person but that's not always the case. The ones that are skinny and don't need to lose weight end up losing more, while the bigger ones find it easier to spend 40 mins in burger king than a gym.
I was going to do one of my favorites which is quit smoking but I've come to realize that would be a lost cause. I've tried that the last couple of years and it only lasts for about a couple months before someone pisses me off enough for me to start again. Yea and i can't do the drink less one since my friends and i are a bunch of fuckin boozers. I could do the lose weight one but i would need to change it to gain weight. I might do that cause it gets very irritating hearing people say your to skinny or you should eat. Some say they wish they were skinny and could hear that, well trust me it gets very annoying hearing it on a regular basis.
I think I'm going to do two new years resolutions this year. The first will to make my Subway i bought more successful than it already is. I think i might be able to do that since I'll be working there 40 to 60 hours a week. I think I'll just sleep there and dream of making subs and using our new toaster. MMMM toasted subs so goooood. My second resolution is more personal but come on when haven't i said anything personal on this site. That's right i always do. I'm going to find a girl that's interested in me. I figured that's my problem i need them to be interested in me back and for them not be just settling. I think i have a lot to offer. If they can't see that then fuckum. I'm a good guy and I think i deserve someone. Well, that's if i have tI'me with all those hours at subway ill be putting in.
Peace Happy New Year and good luck

Well, in case no one knows what SU stands for its Subway University. That's where I've spent my last two weeks. I was in Milford, Conn. for subway owner training. I've bought my first Subway franchise in West Seneca on the corner of Southwestern and Angle road. The training was the worst two weeks of my life. It was like taking a college course but instead of having two and a half months to learn the material I only had two weeks. It was an AWFUL lot of material to take in two short weeks. The worst part was that you had to take four quiz's and a two part final and get a 80 or higher. I'm one of those nervous test takers. If you don't no what that is its someone that gets very paranoid, sick to there stomach, and starts to panic. I ended up getting an overall average of 93 so i slaughtered my average. So I'm very stoked to get this ball rolling.

Its good to be home tho. I was starting to get homesick specially when i saw on the news we were getting snow.

What do you do when you want the unattainable? Most people would give up. That's what i like about myself I'm not like most people. I like to think anyone has a shot at what they want given time. I guess the way i see it is that things aren't supposed to come easy. Nothing as ever come easy for me and i think i like it that way. In a way, it makes me stronger to overcome my next obstacle. It sucks not getting what you want but i think time will tell over any situation. I'm a fighter (not in the violent way) and don't give up on battle worth fighting for. I hate making all my entries dramatic but its a great stress reliever for me. Plus, i always write these when i get home so that's when all my thoughts settle. I know someday i will win my battle and it will be my finest accomplishment. To all the underdogs out there whatever you do don't ever give up and someday it will all pay off in the end.

Im a dedicated watcher of the show One Tree Hill but its getting super dramatic.

"I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 26
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine..."Jimmy Eat World

Today was my last day at Circuit City and it felt great. Kind of had mixed feelings going on. Basically, i probably got as close as i could to feeling like it was that tI'me of the month. I don't have to hear anymore dumbass customers ask if we have any playstations or xboxs (except if i hear it from Poch and Erin. dammit). Some would say im on to greater things. I hope their right. Who would have thought the air would smell better and food would taste better. I'm excited that its all over.

p.s.- when you look at old baby books and photos of yourself be careful it can be very emotional. I also learned that when i do have kids to always write things down.