When my sister called to tell me the news I was pretty floored. I didn't have a lot to say...
And then I cried for a while because it just made me so sad and every time I think about Josh the tears come back.
Josh you were truly a great guy, someone who I genuinely had respect for and always smiled when I thought about you.
I am not even sure when I saw you last and I find myself really regretting not staying in touch because now there isn't another chance to have a beer or dinner party or run into you on elmwood.
The memories I have of you are all happy so I will hold on to that... I remember having a dinner party for you and Jason at pauls's house and I made gumbo and my sister and I mixed up some champagne cocktails. Its probably one of my favorite buffalo memories. We all had a great time and you were so gracious, you and Jason both. You were always singing praises for my sister and I, and it was nice to know a pair of siblings who shared such a strong connection.
My sister is my best friend, as Jason was yours. My heart goes out to you Jason, and although I'm far away I will always be here for you as a friend. :o)
My mom tells me that it is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all... I will remember Josh and like my sister said, Josh you will hold a special place in my heart.
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for Josh02/23/2011 11:45 #53693
haikuMy sister is
The ultimate Grand Puba
I'm still scared of her
In my writing assessment class we are doing a poetry unit and to be quite honest I'm no fan of poetry.
Anywho... I really have decided to DC my blog because its causing problems and I might start to use figment and write there or not at all.
The main reason I blog is for Paul, so we can keep in touch but ill just skype with him or call him or get him out here! Anyway, I don't care what people think of what I say however things other people say and do here aren't PG and that's what concerns my future career which I refuse to take any chances with. :o(
And I admit I love the drama. But ill keep it to watching and commenting on real housewives from now on since my life is already to full to handle any extra blah.
The ultimate Grand Puba
I'm still scared of her
In my writing assessment class we are doing a poetry unit and to be quite honest I'm no fan of poetry.
Anywho... I really have decided to DC my blog because its causing problems and I might start to use figment and write there or not at all.
The main reason I blog is for Paul, so we can keep in touch but ill just skype with him or call him or get him out here! Anyway, I don't care what people think of what I say however things other people say and do here aren't PG and that's what concerns my future career which I refuse to take any chances with. :o(
And I admit I love the drama. But ill keep it to watching and commenting on real housewives from now on since my life is already to full to handle any extra blah.
02/22/2011 12:04 #53683
end of the blogWas asked why I blog... Don't have a concrete definition.
I knew it had to come to end at some point but I'm a professional program where they have been stressing all semester to be careful with you put online.
Wasn't so careful in the past so I hired a company to clean up my act. It isn't so much my blog but others here I'm concerned about, controversial topics and all that ultimately affect my image as a teacher and while is isn't fair. It is what it is.
My laptop is being Le crap and my car needs $700 of work. Go tax return. No more splurging, just back to work and school and trying to not be a fool.
Assignments and tests galore and my bed beckons but alas I must plow through. Also my internship teacher is kinda not so good with the communication and I think she's upset with me...oh well I always call and can't get ahold of her.
Going to the zoo Friday should be fun!
I knew it had to come to end at some point but I'm a professional program where they have been stressing all semester to be careful with you put online.
Wasn't so careful in the past so I hired a company to clean up my act. It isn't so much my blog but others here I'm concerned about, controversial topics and all that ultimately affect my image as a teacher and while is isn't fair. It is what it is.
My laptop is being Le crap and my car needs $700 of work. Go tax return. No more splurging, just back to work and school and trying to not be a fool.
Assignments and tests galore and my bed beckons but alas I must plow through. Also my internship teacher is kinda not so good with the communication and I think she's upset with me...oh well I always call and can't get ahold of her.
Going to the zoo Friday should be fun!
mike - 02/24/11 23:51
While going through my old photos , I'm thinking wow I'm glad I didn't have a camera/internet phone then, I'm sure so much more inappropriateness of us would be out in the internet world...
While going through my old photos , I'm thinking wow I'm glad I didn't have a camera/internet phone then, I'm sure so much more inappropriateness of us would be out in the internet world...
tinypliny - 02/22/11 15:47
And I don't really see why any responsible employer will trust random online information over an in-person interview and the inherent personality and sincerity-assessments and written recommendations that go along with the interview process. If I were hiring a teacher for my kid, I would trust my instincts and workplace recommendations infinitely more than trawling through the net looking for dirt on people. Think about it - you are who you are, you can't change it. Why not shape your future the way you want to instead of worrying so much about what may or may not be your past and your perception of what other people might or might not think about this past?
And I don't really see why any responsible employer will trust random online information over an in-person interview and the inherent personality and sincerity-assessments and written recommendations that go along with the interview process. If I were hiring a teacher for my kid, I would trust my instincts and workplace recommendations infinitely more than trawling through the net looking for dirt on people. Think about it - you are who you are, you can't change it. Why not shape your future the way you want to instead of worrying so much about what may or may not be your past and your perception of what other people might or might not think about this past?
tinypliny - 02/22/11 15:43
I agree with (e:paul). I have very little faith in what these "clean-up" companies can do. Just start writing about what you want to do and define your goals in your new blog - you can achieve a better online presence in 6 months than what these bogus companies can do for you.
I agree with (e:paul). I have very little faith in what these "clean-up" companies can do. Just start writing about what you want to do and define your goals in your new blog - you can achieve a better online presence in 6 months than what these bogus companies can do for you.
paul - 02/22/11 14:33
You are totally wasting your money. All you need to do is start a bunch of wordpress or blogger blogs using your real name. In those blogs talk about topics relevant to your career field. In the end you will have an online presence that helps you get a job instead of just "protecting" you from not getting one.
The company you hired is just going to make spam sites about you to do the same thing. If I had a job applicant with a fake cleaned up spam filled past I would hire them even less.
You are totally wasting your money. All you need to do is start a bunch of wordpress or blogger blogs using your real name. In those blogs talk about topics relevant to your career field. In the end you will have an online presence that helps you get a job instead of just "protecting" you from not getting one.
The company you hired is just going to make spam sites about you to do the same thing. If I had a job applicant with a fake cleaned up spam filled past I would hire them even less.
02/20/2011 14:28 #53657
ok more to sayHiked one of the more challenging mountains in phoenix yesterday and let me just say wow.
First off I didn't feel too well, which is nothing new since my stomach torments me %80 of the time but I just deal with it. However having that and a challenging hike to accomplish is like woah.
My cousin and I we just got down to business and it was windy omg! Then started to sprinkle. Then started to pour and the wind picked up even more, I'd venture to say around 40mph. Then it really started to rain more and the temp dropped at least 10 degrees and that when the hail started pelting us. Then I fell, fell and hurt my ankle and knee and then fell on a rock that jabbed my bum, ow. Especially embarrassing because we had or purple and green hoodies tight around or heard and we looked like the purple and green teletubbies.and there was a handsome man behind us who helped me up and made sure I was ok and why do guys always look great when they are all grungy in sweats? Not fair dude. Then I somehow led us off the trail and down and cliff type area.
We were so cold and soaking wet and I think it was the most fun I've had in a long time. I know I'm a high maintenance girly girl but I like a challenge and since I started working out again I notice little changes and some toning and weight loss and it feels great that no matter how much your day sucks you feel good after working out- like therapy. plus then I just want to eat healthier in general and I'm not sitting around thinking about food all the time like when I had the dreaded mono that almost made me obese.
Its raining again today, will I stay in bed and study or go hiking?
Why am I blogging so much. Taking a bath and blogging is so relaxing, like chillaxing to the maximum.
First off I didn't feel too well, which is nothing new since my stomach torments me %80 of the time but I just deal with it. However having that and a challenging hike to accomplish is like woah.
My cousin and I we just got down to business and it was windy omg! Then started to sprinkle. Then started to pour and the wind picked up even more, I'd venture to say around 40mph. Then it really started to rain more and the temp dropped at least 10 degrees and that when the hail started pelting us. Then I fell, fell and hurt my ankle and knee and then fell on a rock that jabbed my bum, ow. Especially embarrassing because we had or purple and green hoodies tight around or heard and we looked like the purple and green teletubbies.and there was a handsome man behind us who helped me up and made sure I was ok and why do guys always look great when they are all grungy in sweats? Not fair dude. Then I somehow led us off the trail and down and cliff type area.
We were so cold and soaking wet and I think it was the most fun I've had in a long time. I know I'm a high maintenance girly girl but I like a challenge and since I started working out again I notice little changes and some toning and weight loss and it feels great that no matter how much your day sucks you feel good after working out- like therapy. plus then I just want to eat healthier in general and I'm not sitting around thinking about food all the time like when I had the dreaded mono that almost made me obese.
Its raining again today, will I stay in bed and study or go hiking?
Why am I blogging so much. Taking a bath and blogging is so relaxing, like chillaxing to the maximum.
flacidness - 02/20/11 16:38
That's really petty, the bathing part you could have left out though ;) JK
That's really petty, the bathing part you could have left out though ;) JK
02/20/2011 12:57 #53655
why gay guys are a girls bfMy mom had a surprise for me the other night and it was a book with that title. She cracks me up.
She always asking how the gays are. Its cute she used to be weird about it but she really sees they are my boys for life and they really helped me get through the worst times. I forced (e:terry) to stay up with me as I cried and played Nintendo for about two months back in the day. And (e:paul), well he's my food buddy and always up for eating something interesting and delish. (e:) Matthew is the shy artist who appreciates beauty like me and (e:mike) is just the super fun witty socialite!
Is it odd most of my friends are guys and gay? I don't care because they are awesome and although they live so far now when I see them its always just the same...
went out dancing with my girls last night and the club became so crowded with so many nonclassy creepy people. I love going out dancing but some people should not participate in the dancing and just watch. Men also should not be making gross faces and grabbing when they don't even know you. what ever happened to a handshake and hello? I don't go out to meet dudes I just love being dressed up and dancing and being fun...
So much hw today and I'm thirsty and dying for gingerale and if you're reading and if live in scottsdale will you please bring me some? I want a concierge service.
One last thing... People still calling me khloe, as in the kardashian girl. I cut my hair... I thought that would help. Nope. Gotta start wearing my glasses out again. My friends boyfriend had a friend who liked me and was calling me khloe, what the heck?!
She always asking how the gays are. Its cute she used to be weird about it but she really sees they are my boys for life and they really helped me get through the worst times. I forced (e:terry) to stay up with me as I cried and played Nintendo for about two months back in the day. And (e:paul), well he's my food buddy and always up for eating something interesting and delish. (e:) Matthew is the shy artist who appreciates beauty like me and (e:mike) is just the super fun witty socialite!
Is it odd most of my friends are guys and gay? I don't care because they are awesome and although they live so far now when I see them its always just the same...
went out dancing with my girls last night and the club became so crowded with so many nonclassy creepy people. I love going out dancing but some people should not participate in the dancing and just watch. Men also should not be making gross faces and grabbing when they don't even know you. what ever happened to a handshake and hello? I don't go out to meet dudes I just love being dressed up and dancing and being fun...
So much hw today and I'm thirsty and dying for gingerale and if you're reading and if live in scottsdale will you please bring me some? I want a concierge service.
One last thing... People still calling me khloe, as in the kardashian girl. I cut my hair... I thought that would help. Nope. Gotta start wearing my glasses out again. My friends boyfriend had a friend who liked me and was calling me khloe, what the heck?!
matthew - 02/22/11 12:09
This post sure warms the cockles of the heart. We love you too! :)
This post sure warms the cockles of the heart. We love you too! :)
flacidness - 02/20/11 14:12
Haaaay for gays!!!!
Haaaay for gays!!!!
paul - 02/20/11 14:06
There is nothing wrong with khlie. She is my favorite kardashian. Honestly, she is not bad looking and only looks huge compared to her mini size sisters.
There is nothing wrong with khlie. She is my favorite kardashian. Honestly, she is not bad looking and only looks huge compared to her mini size sisters.
Have you checked recently, nothing even comes up under your name anymore since jess's journals went away. You were effectively erase from the internet anyways.
well that's just cruel, and i don't recall you having photos of me creeper!
can you get the bunny suite? zooey loves it....
and the haiku isn't even right format. again the dislike of poetry.
I like your journal. Just because you leave it doesn't mean we all can't post your name and scandalous photos of you in our own journals. I wouldn't do it, I'm just sayin we could. Aren't your problems mostly coming from other people's journals anyways? At least with your own journal you can control the content.