I haven't blogged anything of substance in a while. I have my whole amazing DC trip to blog (side tangent: thank you to everyone who gave me tips/suggestions I used all of them and ended up falling in love with America all over again). I think this is partly because I'm having a touch of depression. I had such a wonderful amazing introspective time in DC I actually shed a tear when I had to leave. Then I came back to the shitty/city. I'm now considering moving.
Just one reason why I may have had it with the uncivilized assholes who live in NYC. So back story first. When I was in DC I was on the train during rush hour (5:30pm) the train was crowded. There was a young women (20 something) holding a grocery bag. Next to her sitting down were two kids. I automatically thought "oh these kids are punks, they are so rowdy, fuck kids, etc". Then I was proven what an asshole I am for judging people. The one kid said to the other "what's wrong with you give up your seat for the girl". And he did!
Fast forward to me on the train at 6 pm this evening. Packed F train. Lots of douchy business types, myself included. On walks a young women carrying a diaper bag and a clearly very young baby. The train starts andshe struggles to get on the train. She walks by 3 men no older than 35, sitting reading papers, spread out taking up more than one seat. As soon as I see this woman I right away motion to her to take my seat. She looked so tired and grateful. Turns out the baby was 2 months old and she had just been at the doctors all day getting the baby shots. I gave every man near by a shameful look. What kind of "man" sits and watches a young women with a baby struggle and doesn't jump up and offer his seat? I live in a city of douchy assholes and sometimes I fear I'm becoming one of them.
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New York Shitty05/07/2008 19:05 #44266
Dee CeeeI'm ready for my night out on the tiz-own. I wish it was a sister night out. I remember how much fun it is to get ready with the little ho. Who else is going to keep my fashion up to date? I'm off the the beer place with 100s of beer (thanks to (e:jenks)!). Here is me all dolled up!
PS Im not stoned. My allergies are just mega out of control. I'm allergic to Bush.
PS Im not stoned. My allergies are just mega out of control. I'm allergic to Bush.
vincent - 05/08/08 00:02
I only drink that beer [Red Stripe] just for the "Stubbie" bottle. I guess it's a way of me reconnecting to my childhood when I would see all of my Canadian relatives drinking out of those type of bottles. Ah, fond memories of seeing Labatt 50 Stubbies :-D
I only drink that beer [Red Stripe] just for the "Stubbie" bottle. I guess it's a way of me reconnecting to my childhood when I would see all of my Canadian relatives drinking out of those type of bottles. Ah, fond memories of seeing Labatt 50 Stubbies :-D
05/07/2008 13:10 #44263
SegwayI made it to DC. I navigated my way through the metro and to my lovely hotel. I'm about to go on a Segway Safari and I'm so excited I may pee my pants. Below is my excited look:
PS I'm wearing my unicorn and rainbow necklace for good luck.
PS I'm wearing my unicorn and rainbow necklace for good luck.
tinypliny - 05/07/08 23:25
You are awesome. I really want to say something original here but that line is stuck in my head forever. Gaaah. (e:jon), you are going to.. not feel so awesome when I come after you!
You are awesome. I really want to say something original here but that line is stuck in my head forever. Gaaah. (e:jon), you are going to.. not feel so awesome when I come after you!
lilho - 05/07/08 19:58
i thought it was steal my sunshine, let's duke it out on "say what", karaoke!
i thought it was steal my sunshine, let's duke it out on "say what", karaoke!
lilho - 05/07/08 18:10
plus you kinda look like vitamin c. just saying.
plus you kinda look like vitamin c. just saying.
lilho - 05/07/08 18:09
you are a huge dork, but insanely cute. and i love you. and i am jealous of the whole segway thing.
you are a huge dork, but insanely cute. and i love you. and i am jealous of the whole segway thing.
05/05/2008 21:21 #44248
Random Google SearchNow that I have my laptop all I do is play on it. I'm sitting here thinking "what can I look up?". I decide to google Sarah. Number #2 & #3 on google turned up this:
(e:strip) blah blah Sarah Ann Ho loves getting her spank on
and
"Get your spank on ho style"
It's very appropriate.
(e:strip) blah blah Sarah Ann Ho loves getting her spank on
and
"Get your spank on ho style"
It's very appropriate.
lilho - 05/06/08 17:46
ok, this is not appropriate. at all. i think that me being a teacher, that i better get married or change my name, because who is going to want a teacher who likes to get her spank on.
as for the other link, i have zero clue what that is all about. crazzzzzzzzy.
oh dear.
ok, this is not appropriate. at all. i think that me being a teacher, that i better get married or change my name, because who is going to want a teacher who likes to get her spank on.
as for the other link, i have zero clue what that is all about. crazzzzzzzzy.
oh dear.
ajay - 05/06/08 13:46
On Y! Search, you get this link: :::link:::
Quote: "... when comes to ladies..i'm done looking cause i already have the one that will be there, through thick and through thin. So, sorry ladies... i'm interested in ms. sarah ann ho. ..."
So is (e:lilho) not telling us something?
On Y! Search, you get this link: :::link:::
Quote: "... when comes to ladies..i'm done looking cause i already have the one that will be there, through thick and through thin. So, sorry ladies... i'm interested in ms. sarah ann ho. ..."
So is (e:lilho) not telling us something?
05/04/2008 20:24 #44233
Work OutAs I'm sure you've gathered I've started working out regularly and with a trainer. When I turned 30 I was the heaviest I'd ever been. I was terribly unhappy with my self. I had wanted to turn 30 and be fab, but it didn't really happen that way. Then I turned 31 and I was in the same place as when I turned 30. Finally I decided to do something about it. I joined a gym 3 blocks from my house and started pouring all my expendable income into training sessions. I wasn't buying clothes or going out, so I might as well spend the money on improving myself.
Here I am 4 months later and a totally different person. Or maybe the old me has returned, I'm not sure. Either way what I can tell you is I actually like me again. I started buying clothes in a size smaller than I previously was. I try things on and I actually feel like I look ok. Beyond the self esteem boost, I just feel better. I sleep better. My back never hurts. I'm happier. I feel stronger.
I still hate the gym and I'm no where near where I want to be, but I'm well on my way. Its just been a really long time since I've accomplished something and I'm really proud of me!
Here I am 4 months later and a totally different person. Or maybe the old me has returned, I'm not sure. Either way what I can tell you is I actually like me again. I started buying clothes in a size smaller than I previously was. I try things on and I actually feel like I look ok. Beyond the self esteem boost, I just feel better. I sleep better. My back never hurts. I'm happier. I feel stronger.
I still hate the gym and I'm no where near where I want to be, but I'm well on my way. Its just been a really long time since I've accomplished something and I'm really proud of me!
travisp - 05/07/08 15:15
Really? Proud of THAT? Maybe you need an updated picture.
Really? Proud of THAT? Maybe you need an updated picture.
tinypliny - 05/05/08 17:51
Thanks! This is such an inspiring post. Though I am not going to be hopping on the gym boat, I am certainly going to be hopping on the pursue-your-goals-vigorously-and-with-a-passion boat. Starting today, Starting NOW!
Thanks! This is such an inspiring post. Though I am not going to be hopping on the gym boat, I am certainly going to be hopping on the pursue-your-goals-vigorously-and-with-a-passion boat. Starting today, Starting NOW!
ladycroft - 05/05/08 15:34
way to go!!!
way to go!!!
libertad - 05/05/08 13:46
I'm glad you are feeling so good about yourself. Can't wait to work out again myself. Just hope I stick with it myself and don't let myself get too busy or too lazy.
I'm glad you are feeling so good about yourself. Can't wait to work out again myself. Just hope I stick with it myself and don't let myself get too busy or too lazy.
joshua - 05/05/08 11:37
Congrats :)
Who is the old you? I like who you are anyway Jessica. I hope the old you isn't much different than the you I do know. I know what you mean though - I struggle with the same thoughts sometimes and its hard to build confidence when people have negative thoughts about themselves.
You are a great girl... NOBODY I know keeps it real like you do. Nobody gets weirder gifts from the opposite sex then you do either. I hope someday this improves - I will never forget the cheese assortment. Once I was given a rock from the Grand Canyon from a girl, and this may be debatable, but if I had to choose between the rock and the cheese I'd choose the rock. What kind of freaky bastard thinks up a gift like that to give a girl?
I hate the gym too. The difference is that you are doing something about it! If you stick with it I think you'll have an explosion of inner and outer confidence. I wonder which will be worth more to you - the better health or the feeling you get when you realize you set out to conquer an aspect of yourself you wanted to improve... and actually did it!
Congrats :)
Who is the old you? I like who you are anyway Jessica. I hope the old you isn't much different than the you I do know. I know what you mean though - I struggle with the same thoughts sometimes and its hard to build confidence when people have negative thoughts about themselves.
You are a great girl... NOBODY I know keeps it real like you do. Nobody gets weirder gifts from the opposite sex then you do either. I hope someday this improves - I will never forget the cheese assortment. Once I was given a rock from the Grand Canyon from a girl, and this may be debatable, but if I had to choose between the rock and the cheese I'd choose the rock. What kind of freaky bastard thinks up a gift like that to give a girl?
I hate the gym too. The difference is that you are doing something about it! If you stick with it I think you'll have an explosion of inner and outer confidence. I wonder which will be worth more to you - the better health or the feeling you get when you realize you set out to conquer an aspect of yourself you wanted to improve... and actually did it!
jon - 05/05/08 09:12
Keep it up! You're inspiring me to get my butt moving.
Keep it up! You're inspiring me to get my butt moving.
james - 05/04/08 22:59
Personal trainers are totally worth the money. Congrats.
Personal trainers are totally worth the money. Congrats.
leetee - 05/04/08 22:08
Congrats on the restored self confidence and self image! You SHOULD be proud of yourself. :O)
Congrats on the restored self confidence and self image! You SHOULD be proud of yourself. :O)
paul - 05/04/08 21:43
Thats awesome. I am going to join the gym again soon and try sand stick with it this time.
Thats awesome. I am going to join the gym again soon and try sand stick with it this time.
mrmike - 05/04/08 20:52
Good for you.
Good for you.
i love ny. but i think you should move to a more friendly city like dc, and get married and, have babies!!!!!!!!!!!
(e:joshua) I have never been to NYC but and I can't speak for the girl. But if someone does what they are supposed to do and you say thank you in can imply like what they did was a big deal when it is in fact what they do and that can be insulting. In fact what my other guess is that no one ever says that so when someone does she doesn't know how to react.
Oh - once in Penn Station I thanked a cashier for hooking me up with a fork so I could eat my food. She actually looked offended by my thanks... what kind of place breeds this sort of hostility?
Your reasoning is exactly why I'd never live in NYC. IMO people act like caged animals there. Besides, in consideration of how expensive it is to live there, I can think of at least 3 cities I'd rather be than NYC if I have to splash tons of cash on living expenses.