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Category: anxiety

01/14/09 10:29 - 5ºF - ID#47406

Perhaps this is why...

...I'm so socially reserved.



I spent 17-18 years of my life only a few blocks away from this place on the same street. My mother was always scared of the outside world, even before we moved here. I'm sure this place didn't help that much. *mutters*
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Category: muse

01/13/09 02:19 - 32ºF - ID#47394

Different culture, different rules,

different sense of morality.



But arranged marriages in general are a shitty way to run a society. Sometimes cultural quirks and traditions really are just plain inferior.
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Category: geek

01/08/09 10:36 - 25ºF - ID#47331

Something worthwhile...

http://www.pledgebank.com/AdaLovelaceDay

Yeah, women put up with a good amount of shit...

I do think at least some of it is exaggerated. And men have their own set of unique problems. But it's easier for us in a lot of areas. So this makes for a very worthwhile gesture.

  • Pledged*
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Category: random

01/06/09 04:48 - 30ºF - ID#47310

Andnowforsomethingcompletelydifferent...

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Category: muse

01/03/09 02:37 - 27ºF - ID#47263

Heheheh



Good stuff.


Hee, haiku! *Read in a singsong voice*

"Be the dumb fuck that
you want to be. That's okay
with me. I don't care."

Just thought I'd share. I'm a lot happier than this makes me sound. Honest! :} (Woo, another one!)

Hmm, are contractions cheating? I've never really understood the value of haiku in languages other than japanese... It just seems to be uniquely suited to that language structure.
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Category: anxiety

12/24/08 10:46 - ID#47167

Social Anxiety

(Another comment that turned into a post...)

Re: (e:vincent) ...


Social anxiety is a bitch. Yeah.


I meet women...through online dating sites. There. I said it.

I find that those sites get just as bad a rep as bars do when considered for the purposes of meeting people.

So it is said that you should instead go about the task of meeting people while in the pursuit of other hobbies and learning experiences.

So, what if you go ahead take up a couple such hobbies, making your best effort to be social. But then come up with nothing. What do you do now?

Do you just stick with whatever hobbies you liked and just not worry about it? Do you move to other hobbies and activities, and drop the ones you were doing because there's just not enough time?

There is a reason people go to bars and clubs, and its not just to get drunk. Drink makes a baseline excuse for an excursion among the company of strangers. There is the potential there for meeting lots of different people very quickly.

That's not to say that drink is a vital component of all social activities. In fact, apparently AA actually makes for a decent place to meet people. (Or so I've heard.) People just need an excuse to get together. And that's all the nightlife is.

I'm not saying that other activities, or just an attempt at being friendly or social during the day, would make a lousy way to meet people. But I also don't think that the nightlife is just a meaningless self-destructive spiral. There is opportunity everywhere.

As for me... I'm pretty much giving those online sites a break. Yeah, it has been good to me... But I'm tired of being incapable of meeting new people in person. I feel the need to move past that and (at least try to) learn a different way.
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Category: work

12/23/08 11:50 - 14ºF - ID#47149

Hardware failures suck.

So I get called up both saturday and sunday because the company's servers were going haywire. Something effed up happened to the hard drives...

Now there are these random issues. Corrupted files all over the place. Ugh.

Of course, I have to fix it... *mutters*
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Category: holidays

12/18/08 10:48 - 26ºF - ID#47106

Holiday Party

Nice to meet some of you at the party this evening. Cheers.
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Category: random

12/01/08 09:48 - 39ºF - ID#46900

I have learned a new word today...

...

Callipygian

...

That is all.
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Category: frustration

11/25/08 11:27 - 37ºF - ID#46839

When it rains...

Roommate hanging out with wannabe boyfriend. Mutual friend (who introduced us) stuck in rochester with a boyfriend and a car with not enough gas. Various other friends with no cars or no gas. Recent strife with last girlfriend, so feeling lonely. Working 10 hour days, and it still seems to not be enough. Still ruminating over love lost from time to time. 2nd anniversary of mother's death coming up this saturday.

Well, at least I have House... I guess... Very good episode today anyway.

And I'm not as depressed as I could be. (Especially compared to my friend jim...psychotic depression...oof! At least he's being taken care of well. We should all be so lucky to have a significant other like that...)

Seriously, I promise not to whine too much here. Sometimes it's gonna slip though. Everybody has ups and downs. And I don't believe in filtering myself too much... At least online anyway.
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