05/02/04 11:47 - ID#33309
no one cares
When I was three I went to an amusement park with my Mom and a lot of people from church. A tornado went through the park that night. I remember wondering where my brother was and being scared that he would be crushed by a tree but I thought the storm was exciting. We went into a souvenir shop to wait out the storm a bit. I was standing by a sunglasses rack. My cousin, Josh, who was two years old at the time, saved me from kidnappers there. OK, that part has to be bullshit, you know? So I think that's my oldest fantasy.
Josh joined the air force a few years ago. I wrote him a letter telling him how crazy and stupid I think that is and he never wrote me back. He does mechanical work on planes. He recently married a girl from Louisiana and she'll be having a baby if a few months I reckon.
I had scary dreams last night or actually today. It's tidy in here. I wish I had a little money and I would invite people over for food and drinks. I've never done much entertaining in this apartment. I feel like I should do a little this summer because pretty soon I'll move in with Soyeon and that will be different. It'll be our space then, not just my space. I've had my own space for a long time but I think Soyeon will be a good roommate for me. We'll help each other keep our heads on straight.
The job hunt, yes, I'll start up again tomorrow. I hate that the weather is so cold. It's fucking May, for christ sake!
Ah well, at least music is beautiful no matter the temperature.
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05/02/04 11:38 - ID#33308
7 hours
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05/01/04 11:45 - ID#33307
but i love lil kitty
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05/01/04 03:47 - ID#33305
I Idiot
My big sister refuses to talk to me. I wonder if its because I offered to do an act of violence for her but then chickened out? I just get scared of big guys sometimes. I made the offer to sporadically. I needed to form a posse to get my back first but by the time I did that Soyeon had disappeared. A little slap wouldn't hurt a big jerk like that anyway, I guess if I had done it in the crowd he might have had a momentary loss of pride.
I love my oldest sister. I reckon she needs a break from me. I get worries. Human beings are so delicate. I'm one of the lest delicate humans that I know. Then I pair up with people and I get afraid that I can destroy them by being insensitive and stupid. Damn it, I'm a little kid.
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04/30/04 08:30 - ID#33304
fetish baby
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/30/04 02:47 - ID#33303
Hurrary!
That saves my belly for the day. I still need to clean up in here so bad. Jesse keeps telling me to hire Ragly but I can't. I'm to poor now. This mess has to go though. Oh, it's so bad. I'm so sick of it. Where to start?
1. take out all current trash
2. Start a new trash
3. put all dirty clothes in the closet across from the bathroom
4. put all cans and empty cigarette packs in the trash
5. put the bricks back on my shelf the put the top shelf back on
6. put VHS tapes and DVDs inside the end table under the monitor
7. put change in change jar
8. gather and wash all dishes
9. put sugar and stuff in cabinets
10. throw away old food
11. hang up hats and jackets
12. fold laundry on bed
13. put shoes in closet
14. clean out bags and purses
15. stack cassette tapes and mini DV tapes
16. find a good spot for my make-up throw out what I don't use
17. find a storage unit for collage materials
18. wash off counter tops and stove
19. take out trash again
20. Clean out sinks, toilet, and bathtub.
21. dust desk, computer, monitor, tables, and windows
22. sweep and mop floors
23. fold blankets
24. vacuum rug, loveseat, and chair.
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04/30/04 02:10 - ID#33302
o beautiful day!
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Location: Buffalo, NY
04/30/04 01:40 - ID#33301
strange days
I feel like I'm on welfare when I'm waiting for my dad to send me a check in the mail. It's the end of the week and I think my dear daddy forgot me, as well he should.
but the question is, how the hell will I get by? I guess I can scrape together all my change and buy my smokes. Haha, I can dress up real nice and go count out my pennies to an unfortunate cashier. I think on Sunday I might help Tony get started with the organization of his jail space.
I went to the mall yesterday and pretended to be on a day time TV make over show.Soyeon is funny. The first thing she did was turn me into a pink blob. I'm still not sure how I feel about people directing me, well, actually I know it makes me pretty damn uncomfortable but I ended up with some nice things. I exercised my right to agree all the day long.
Now I have barbie shoes.
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04/29/04 05:28 - ID#33300
Hateful Babe
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Location: Buffalo, NY
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