hello all,
it has been a very stressful week. There are lots of things going on that I have to work on and I feel overwhelmed. Between leadership, the GA, and school work (mainly the capstone that I have been doing jacksquat on). I feel stretched extremely thin. I need to start prioritizing and scheduling better. Time to put some time in my schedule for things I need to get done. I am worried things are getting over my head and some of the things I am in I feel so frustrated because I want to change them and make them better, but I do not have the power to. The person who does have the power and can change things with the snap of a finger won't and if they do they will change their mind instanteneously. It is frustrating all of the work I put in to feel like it is a bs and will be destroyed soon anyway. I just don't know how to deal with it. I love it but it is soo frustrating. I keep getting the Grandmaster Flash Song "The Message" in my head. "Don't push me. I'm close to the edge. I'm trying not to lose my head. heh heh heh heh. It's like a jungle some times It makes me wonder how I keep from going under."

Speaking of music, I just put the entire Aeroplane Flies High box set into my CD player and am listening to it on random. I love the Mellon Collie era pumpkins. lately one of the songs off of the Jimmy Chamberlin Complex's new CD has grown on me. It is called "Newer Waves." I don't really like the rest of the album but I keep listening to that one song.

I got my job back (at least for events) which is nice. TOday is the first day I have worked since summer. It was nice to be back into the swing of things. I work at AU's gym for facilities. Basically I set up, work, and break down athletic events. Tonight I worked a women's basketball game against Bucknell. We lost. But I really like my job. All my bosses are really nice and relaxed. It is good to be working again.

That is all for now. I need to get my shit in line and figure out when I am going to get all my crap done. Have a good night all.
-Jesse

Hello All,
I first want to apologize to all of those who read my journal. Apparently I have not been putting on the A game as of late and I have recieved some complaint. Well here goes an effort at a real journal entry.

Tonight Siv Jess Matt and I went to the AU vs Army basketball game. It was a lot of fun. AU crushed Army. I never went to any sporting events in high school, if you discount going to my own soccer games freshman year, and I never went to sporting events in college unless I was getting paid (I used to have a work study job with athletics facilities where we would set up basketball courts volleyball nets etc). But these basketball games are a lot of fun. I'm pretty sure I embarrassed Jess by shouting at the other team obnoxiously. Sorry Jess. Sunday is our big game against our rivals Holy Cross. They are currently in first place and we are in second. It will be a tough game. I really hope we win the Patriot League Tournament this year and get into the NCAA bracket. The past three years we have made it to the final game only to lose (twice to Holy Cross and once to Lehigh). It would just be great to go out that way.

Speaking of going out, all of my grad school applications have been turned on. Thank you again (e:Maureen) for editing my personal statement 500 times after I would call and say, "Ummmm can you get it done tonight?" I really appreciate it and could not have done it without you. Speaking of which, Did you go home (e:Maureen)? Your away message says at the movies with mike and the rest. If so, I hope you are having a good time. How did the new car handle the ride home? How is the new car treating you?

I have been quite busy as of late with Leadership. I swear to god I got to no fewer than 3 meetings a day. I am on campus more often this semester and I only have three classes that meet regularly in addition to my capstone. Speaking of things that are a pain in my ass. I don't know how this one is going to turn out. I really have been slacking off and need to get on the ball. My goal is to have all my research done by the end of Feb but I really am lacking direction with this project. I really like my advisor, but the problem is, everytime I visit him in office hours he says the same things and we eventually end up talking buffalo politics for hours. Which, though enjoyable, does not help me make progress on my thesis. I shouldn't really complain though because he is really nice and gave me a good grade last semester. Someone else got a B in the class cause they never met with their advisor. Keep in mind these are all over achieveing honors students in a grade inflation school so that is a shock to the system for sure.

Ah well. I guess that is all for now. Maybe I will read a little and go to bed. Have a good night and I hope this satisfied all you poopooers

P.S. Kid A is an amazing album Here is a little "How to Disappear Completely"

That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Hello All,
I was going to bitch about something/get some peoples opinions on a situtation I am in with an organization that I am heavily involved in, but my rule about not talking smack about things/people in my journal so it doesn't come back to bite me in the ass won out. Sorry I am a cocktease.

Instead I have some pics for your viewing pleasure. These are from when I went bowling the other night with my roommates, Jess, Gordon, Nate and Dan (I hope that is Nate's b/f's name). Because I am a narcissist, I only posted the ones that I am in. The pics are Jess'.

Missing Image ;(

Another hot pic with my roommate and I

Missing Image ;(

My hot self and Jess tolerating my hot self

P.S. If you didn't notice, the Chestur A Arthur look is back.

Maybe I will use one of these for my user pic but I am too lazy to trim it down now.

That is all.
-Jesse

Happy Birthday Paul.

Went to inauguration. Quite interesting. Too lazy to expand.

Lazy day unfortunately

that is all

-Jesse

Today and Tomorrow will be my days of organization for the next semester. Up to this point I have been just doing things as they came up. This will not work for the entire semester because I have a lot I want to get done. THis lack of organization has caused me to forget 2 meetings in the past 2 days. Luckily I was able to have the meetings inspite of my forgetfulness. Time to get the ass in gear

Speaking of getting things done. I sent away my first application on Saturday to NYU. Thank you so much to (e:maureen) for turning my personal statement from a huge, rambling, piece of albatross crap to a personal statement that is a changing force. Also a big thank you to everyone else who read it. You all were a great help. Just three more applications to go and then I get to wait. Fun Fun.

Well, I have to go get organized. Talk to you later.

-Jesse

Finally finished my two weeks of insanity in the Campaign Management institute. In those two weeks our 6 person group produced a 160+ page campaign plan for the democrat running for governor in Virginia. I really like the candidate and would volunteer for him etc because a lot of his views are similar to mine. Unfortunately that is a big no no in politics. I think that is ridiculous and will comment on it later as well as tell you more about CMI. It was a great class, but I am still recovering.

Now I have one more week of madness. Classes start. I have to complete two applications for grad school that I have not started yet, and I have to plan a retreat for this friday and get together a vision for my upcoming semester as student director of the leadership program. I just have to get through next Saturday and I will be fine. Until then, bye.
-Jesse

So if you are really bored and/or want to see me on TV, tune into Cspan and/or CSPAN2 these next two weeks. I am taking part in a 2 week intensive course on running a campaign called the campaign management institute. For more info, here is the website It is a pretty neat course and well respected. Because there is absolutely nothing happening in the world of politics right now, cspan broadcasts it. The times vary but it has been on pretty frequently on cspan 2. Here is the link to the schedule . Look for programs from American University, Campaign Management Institute. Sometimes they don't decide that they are going to broadcast it at a particular time until that time so check the sschedule frequently if you want to see it. Or just flip to cspan 2 and see if the speaker is standing in front of a big blue background that says AU. It is a great course for all you political junkies and for those who aren't you can look for me in the audience. I am the scraggly hippie looking one with the long hair and beard.

-Jesse

maybe I'm too optimistic and/or naive

there is something very calming about snow falling late at night
peaceful
listening to all is full of love and adore

You'll be given love
you'll be taken care of
you'll be given love
you have to trust it

Maybe not from the sources
you have poured yours

Maybe not from the directions
you are staring at

Trust your head around
it's all around you
all is full of love
all around you

All is full of love : you just ain't receiving
All is full of love : your phone is off the hook
All is full of love : your doors are all shut

All is full of love

-Jesse

Wow, I knew I haven't posted in a while but I had no idea it has been this long. I have been busy lately. Papers, Studying for the GREs, Leadership, and GA bs. Oh, I did get to meet Billy Corgan. It was really cool. All I managed to sputter out while I was shaking his hand was "It's an honor." He said thank you. I brought a camera and took good pictures of the people before and after me, but when the person behind me too the picture of me, one of the book store assistants at the table got in the way of the picture DAMMIT. At least I have a picture of him signing my book even if the view is obscured.

These GREs may kill me. I have been trying to study 2 hours a day. That is not going so well. I am taking the test on the 21st. Not looking forward to that one.

The past two saturdays have been fun. We went to playoff games for the DC United . They are Washington's professional soccer team. It was a lot of fun. They won both of them. The one we went to this saturday was REALLY EXCITING. It was the eastern conference championship. At the end of regulation and through overtime, the score was tied 3-3. They then went to a shoot out. It took each team 6 shots before DC finally won. It was AWESOME. The crowd went crazy, the team went crazy. It was a great experience and we had great seats. How many times in your life can you say you went to a championship game, saw one of the most exciting games in Major League Soccer history, sat in the sixth row, and paid only $18?

That is all for now. Hopefully I will update more often, but no promises. And I want to apologize if I got that awful staind song in your head because of the title. Later.