hello all,
it has been a very stressful week. There are lots of things going on that I have to work on and I feel overwhelmed. Between leadership, the GA, and school work (mainly the capstone that I have been doing jacksquat on). I feel stretched extremely thin. I need to start prioritizing and scheduling better. Time to put some time in my schedule for things I need to get done. I am worried things are getting over my head and some of the things I am in I feel so frustrated because I want to change them and make them better, but I do not have the power to. The person who does have the power and can change things with the snap of a finger won't and if they do they will change their mind instanteneously. It is frustrating all of the work I put in to feel like it is a bs and will be destroyed soon anyway. I just don't know how to deal with it. I love it but it is soo frustrating. I keep getting the Grandmaster Flash Song "The Message" in my head. "Don't push me. I'm close to the edge. I'm trying not to lose my head. heh heh heh heh. It's like a jungle some times It makes me wonder how I keep from going under."

Speaking of music, I just put the entire Aeroplane Flies High box set into my CD player and am listening to it on random. I love the Mellon Collie era pumpkins. lately one of the songs off of the Jimmy Chamberlin Complex's new CD has grown on me. It is called "Newer Waves." I don't really like the rest of the album but I keep listening to that one song.

I got my job back (at least for events) which is nice. TOday is the first day I have worked since summer. It was nice to be back into the swing of things. I work at AU's gym for facilities. Basically I set up, work, and break down athletic events. Tonight I worked a women's basketball game against Bucknell. We lost. But I really like my job. All my bosses are really nice and relaxed. It is good to be working again.

That is all for now. I need to get my shit in line and figure out when I am going to get all my crap done. Have a good night all.
-Jesse

Hello All,
I first want to apologize to all of those who read my journal. Apparently I have not been putting on the A game as of late and I have recieved some complaint. Well here goes an effort at a real journal entry.

Tonight Siv Jess Matt and I went to the AU vs Army basketball game. It was a lot of fun. AU crushed Army. I never went to any sporting events in high school, if you discount going to my own soccer games freshman year, and I never went to sporting events in college unless I was getting paid (I used to have a work study job with athletics facilities where we would set up basketball courts volleyball nets etc). But these basketball games are a lot of fun. I'm pretty sure I embarrassed Jess by shouting at the other team obnoxiously. Sorry Jess. Sunday is our big game against our rivals Holy Cross. They are currently in first place and we are in second. It will be a tough game. I really hope we win the Patriot League Tournament this year and get into the NCAA bracket. The past three years we have made it to the final game only to lose (twice to Holy Cross and once to Lehigh). It would just be great to go out that way.

Speaking of going out, all of my grad school applications have been turned on. Thank you again (e:Maureen) for editing my personal statement 500 times after I would call and say, "Ummmm can you get it done tonight?" I really appreciate it and could not have done it without you. Speaking of which, Did you go home (e:Maureen)? Your away message says at the movies with mike and the rest. If so, I hope you are having a good time. How did the new car handle the ride home? How is the new car treating you?

I have been quite busy as of late with Leadership. I swear to god I got to no fewer than 3 meetings a day. I am on campus more often this semester and I only have three classes that meet regularly in addition to my capstone. Speaking of things that are a pain in my ass. I don't know how this one is going to turn out. I really have been slacking off and need to get on the ball. My goal is to have all my research done by the end of Feb but I really am lacking direction with this project. I really like my advisor, but the problem is, everytime I visit him in office hours he says the same things and we eventually end up talking buffalo politics for hours. Which, though enjoyable, does not help me make progress on my thesis. I shouldn't really complain though because he is really nice and gave me a good grade last semester. Someone else got a B in the class cause they never met with their advisor. Keep in mind these are all over achieveing honors students in a grade inflation school so that is a shock to the system for sure.

Ah well. I guess that is all for now. Maybe I will read a little and go to bed. Have a good night and I hope this satisfied all you poopooers

P.S. Kid A is an amazing album Here is a little "How to Disappear Completely"

That there
That's not me
I go
Where I please
I walk through walls
I float down the Liffey
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

In a little while
I'll be gone
The moment's already passed
Yeah it's gone
And I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Strobe lights and blown speakers
Fireworks and hurricanes
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here

Hello All,
I was going to bitch about something/get some peoples opinions on a situtation I am in with an organization that I am heavily involved in, but my rule about not talking smack about things/people in my journal so it doesn't come back to bite me in the ass won out. Sorry I am a cocktease.

Instead I have some pics for your viewing pleasure. These are from when I went bowling the other night with my roommates, Jess, Gordon, Nate and Dan (I hope that is Nate's b/f's name). Because I am a narcissist, I only posted the ones that I am in. The pics are Jess'.

Missing Image ;(

Another hot pic with my roommate and I

Missing Image ;(

My hot self and Jess tolerating my hot self

P.S. If you didn't notice, the Chestur A Arthur look is back.

Maybe I will use one of these for my user pic but I am too lazy to trim it down now.

That is all.
-Jesse