yeah- he was put in rehab as a bond out of jail. after 2 DuIs in 2 months being underage, plus a possible felony charge, there's not much you can do as bond. We have been together for a year now. He cheated on me the entire time with my now best friend, didn't know her then. && no- he's not the biological father of my baby. He's been there from the start though & he was going to be daddy til he went nutso. better to find out then later.

So Charles && I aren't together anymore. He called from the rehab facility & asked me to come up and have a meeting with him. So I did. He straight up asked me if I wanted to marry him. I sat there for a minute- moment of truth. I looked at him and said "Honestly, no. I don't". He then asked if I wanted to be with him. The answer was the same. It was abount a 30 minute conversation, and although it was emotional, it was right. We needed to set everything stright. I miss him, for he was there through out my whole pregnancy and there for the birth of my little girl. But I can't make myself be what he needs. I may be what he wants, but I"m not what he needs. There's a big difference. The only way was to say goodbye. If not forever, for now.

I have also learned not to get attached to 17 year olds. They are still young && fickle && I can't have my heart strings being pulled at this soon. I need to get away. I need a change of scenery, new people. I want to go to Colorado, but I can't make that kind of trip right this second. I need to get into some mountains though. SOON. I am not home here. It's really getting to me right now...

If anyone ever wants to just talk, let me know. I 'm so up to talking to new people right now. Just don't be creepy. lol. I'm tired of those kinds too.

.::peace to you && yours::.