mobile02/18/08 12:27 - 33ºF - ID#43378
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So I've been going through a lot of screwy crap.
I went back to the doctor Friday. My atypia ( the cancerous cells) are dormant right now, thank green grass. The dysplasia cells are active but should go away by themselves in a year. So good news in that department.
Other then that I am having doubts about being engaged. I mean, I love Charles. I do. But we are just so different. The biggest thing right now, though, is that I have realized that I have feelings for a girl. I have been bi since I was about 15, but once I got with Charles all those thoughts and wants towards girls had gone away. That is until this girl got a hold of me. I don't know what to do....I'm a romantic dreamer. I don't know whether to go with my heart or my promise with a ring. ....
So my dog had her puppies. 4 alive 4 dead. Pretty normal for a first litter. I'm proud of her.
Callie is getting huge. She's only 3 months old & wearing 6-9 month clothing. She's so fat, but still such a cute kid. I did good. lol.
I went back to the doctor Friday. My atypia ( the cancerous cells) are dormant right now, thank green grass. The dysplasia cells are active but should go away by themselves in a year. So good news in that department.
Other then that I am having doubts about being engaged. I mean, I love Charles. I do. But we are just so different. The biggest thing right now, though, is that I have realized that I have feelings for a girl. I have been bi since I was about 15, but once I got with Charles all those thoughts and wants towards girls had gone away. That is until this girl got a hold of me. I don't know what to do....I'm a romantic dreamer. I don't know whether to go with my heart or my promise with a ring. ....
So my dog had her puppies. 4 alive 4 dead. Pretty normal for a first litter. I'm proud of her.
Callie is getting huge. She's only 3 months old & wearing 6-9 month clothing. She's so fat, but still such a cute kid. I did good. lol.
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Obviously, you don't want to break the promise after you've gone down the aisle. You must also remember that the consequences of it will probably not be in your control, and so things may not end up being 100% on terms you will be happy with, if at all.
Being married doesn't mean being dead, does it? I don't think you stop being human. You simply draw lines for yourself. Some things are fleeting, some things are not, and I suppose you have to decide which is which. I certainly won't try to tell you what to do about it. Good luck.
Seeing as I'm not a Bi Girl I can't give you any advice really. I can make a couple suggestions or things to think about. You are not sure if you want to Make him your husband, those doubts could be helping push you towards this girl. It could also be that you "think" that if you get attached to him you won't be able to have a girl ever again and that might scare you. I think the question you have to ask your self first is if you left him and was with her would it last if you might say no then you should stay with your man. The 2nd question you need to ask your self is are and he willing to share your sex life with a women also. I don't have the answers and can't really give you any advice but those are things to think about. Some people do have "Open Marriages" and that might be an option and it might not be.