Sometimes I just don't understand the way the world works....

So I ended a relationship at the end of the summer. Well actually he ended it when he slept with one of my friends....

Anyways...So needless to say I now am faced with major trust isses. I never had them before but after recent events, they have entered my life.

About 3 weeks later I experienced something I never did before....I met a perspective man whom I met entirely on my own, no friends involved, no connections. Of course he seemed perfect in everyway... It was strange not knowing boundries or anything like that. I even waited until the 3rd date to kiss him (which was when he made me a candle lit dinner).

We ended up seeing eachother about every two weeks. It was like we were casually dating...it was a first for me but I was willing to experience it. This went on for over 3 months and we hadn't even gotten further than kissing....

On Christmas Eve we ended up doing everything we wanted to do for the last 3 months......

I havn't herd from him since...Ok I lied he text me a week later at 2am for a bootie call...I was in bed and was not getting out.

I just don't understand it!! I make myself wait for so long, I was SO good with him!! I tried to be as best as possible, wait and make sure it was right. Well after over 3 months I thought I was safe...I guess not!! I don't think it is very unreasonable for me to want more after almost four months! I refuse to be his bootie call every other week!Why do men always seem to never surprise me? I seriously don't think that there are any decent men out there anymore. [