Sometimes I just don't understand the way the world works....

So I ended a relationship at the end of the summer. Well actually he ended it when he slept with one of my friends....

Anyways...So needless to say I now am faced with major trust isses. I never had them before but after recent events, they have entered my life.

About 3 weeks later I experienced something I never did before....I met a perspective man whom I met entirely on my own, no friends involved, no connections. Of course he seemed perfect in everyway... It was strange not knowing boundries or anything like that. I even waited until the 3rd date to kiss him (which was when he made me a candle lit dinner).

We ended up seeing eachother about every two weeks. It was like we were casually dating...it was a first for me but I was willing to experience it. This went on for over 3 months and we hadn't even gotten further than kissing....

On Christmas Eve we ended up doing everything we wanted to do for the last 3 months......

I havn't herd from him since...Ok I lied he text me a week later at 2am for a bootie call...I was in bed and was not getting out.

I just don't understand it!! I make myself wait for so long, I was SO good with him!! I tried to be as best as possible, wait and make sure it was right. Well after over 3 months I thought I was safe...I guess not!! I don't think it is very unreasonable for me to want more after almost four months! I refuse to be his bootie call every other week!Why do men always seem to never surprise me? I seriously don't think that there are any decent men out there anymore. [

So my name is Christina (AKA Tina). I am 19 years old and loving life, well most of the time. I herd about this site when I was out with a friend tonight. So i decided to check it out because I knew I would be up late tonight. So lets see, maybe I should tell you a little about myself. I grew up most of my life in Amherst, I graduated from Amherst High school in 2004. I am a cosmetologist, or in better terms...I do hair. To tell you the truth, I love it. I love my job and am good at it. I work at Sapphire Salon in E. Amherst.

I am single if anyone was wondering. I am looking for that Mr. Right, but let's face it, who isn't!

I am always down to chill. I love hanging out, burning one down, listen to music or watching movies. Let me know if you ever want to get to know me better.

So for the past couple months I have been writing some what of a journal on my computer and recently decided to edit it more and turn it into a book. I'm not that good of a writer but have had a pretty crazy couple of months so I wrote about them.

I think I may start posting some of it on here and let me know what you think, could it be a good story?