ok so i know this post may be a tad boring because I don't have any illustrations for it.... but i just thought everyone would be happy to know that I have made some progress in figuring out which area i would like to specialize in for my masters and for my research at Roswell that both start at the end of august.

I couldn't decide for the longest time and had to have a tentative course plan for the next year and a half submitted by aug 5th -so the pressure was on. Finally a few days ago after spending countless hours researching the different areas, i decided to go back to one of the classes i found the most interesting...immunology.

i love it and all the classes about it! so how can i go wrong? right? its just so hard to decide because pharmacology as well as molecular biology are both good as well. Ok well i do feel a lot better now that i have that half figured out. Now i just need to decide which lab i want to do the research in...and hopefully there will be a part time job involved with that as well. :) starting new stuff is always a little scary.

oh and i also love how i always seem to be posting at like 3am....i guess i just am usually getting home then or just get broed then haha

Ok, so i've been meaning to get these pictures up for a while but didn't get around to it. For my graduation present (e:julie) sewed me pajama pants. Its a long story i guess how she picked that as my grad present...but i did pick out the fabric and as soon as i saw those big dog noses all over the place i loved em -as everyone who knows me knows i love dog noses! haha. so cute! But yeah they turned out better than i ever expected. They are a little big so sometimes they fall down, but i think i have finally been able to tie the string tight enough to prevent that. Only sad part is i sat kinda funny in them and sorta tore a small hole...so they are currently being repaired by (e:julie). ah, but boy do i miss my pants!

Here is a close up pic of the fabric and those beautiful noses!




And here I am after waking up after a fun night out at my favorite Monday bar haha
(e:julie) crashed on my floor and was able to take the pic right when i got up. stunning, i know ;-)




Oh and the (e:strip) party sat night was very cool. i'm sure the videotape (e:mike), (e:maureen), (e:julie) and i took is sure to be very amusing. It was also cool to see some people from the site...although i must admit i am terrible with matching user pics up with real people, so most likely i failed to make the connection between the people at the party and which journal they are...oh well there's always next time right? maybe some name tags would help with ur journal names haha.

Also, i'm a little stressed out right now because i have to plan out the next two years of my grad school as well as which laboratory i will be doing my masters degree research in. the form has to get to them by aug 5th so that means i only have like another day left to plan everything out. hopefully ill decide soon and be happy with the choices.

ok im off to sleep.
have a good night/day!

Ok so now that i have this picture situation figured out i guess i can start putting in some pics. It makes these journal entries so much more interesting if there are pictures and not just random rambling....like my previous entry... haha thanks (e:julie) for making me sound completely crazy. i should learn not to let people write me entries...haha but it was funny...and mostly semi true.

ok now onto some pics... so what better time to post Christmas pictures than July... right? well, i guess it really can be a sort of Christmas in July...

here is my baby crinkles sleeping by the presents and waiting for us to wake up to open them. she absolutely loooves Christmas and gets so excited when she even sees the box of decorations being brought up from downstairs.




and here is a picture of me and my brother Andrew in our house on Christmas...




In other news:
-my birthday was great. thanks to all those who came out to celebrate with me... esp. the people on this website (e:mike) and (e:julie).
(e:julie) thanks for sneeking out and braving the buffalo dangers as well as some angry parents.
(e:mike) thanks for the cake, beer and card. it was really nice of you :-) and im glad as ,least one of us has parts of the night that you can't remember...including how u got into ur pajamas haha oops

-on a sadder note, my manager/ friend at work is leaving. I've been really sad about this for a week now. its hard when you have become pretty close and have worked together for 3 years. he got promoted to be the general manager...but the store is in rochester. hopefully we will still talk but its hard because while we are close at work and basically talk about everything, we are at completely different points in our lives and i worry that this is it.

-oh but i got this awesome smoothie maker from katrina for my b-day. yesterday we went rowing on the man made lake by her house and made some amazing mango rum and strawberry smoothies!

- and i'm going to the taste of buffalo on sunday with (e:julie) and maybe (e:mike) if he is able to digest all the food he ate there from sat. I just wish all those samples weren't so expensive...but i guess there isn't that much out there that i can eat since im a vegetarian but still i always seem to run out of tickets! haha

ok, have a fun day everyone!

Florence is sleeping right now, but i can't wait for her to wake up tomorrow morning because i just got these new plastic underwater plants for her tank. I know she is going to love them!

and crinkles smells so good right now. She had been a bit stinky for a while, but she got a bath this morning and now she is soo fluffy and cute. In fact, i was at a certain store this evening (store to be left unnamed) but there was a pillow there that that felt just like her. there werent any in white, but there was a beige one that looked a little like her. it was so soft. it would have been like i was sleeping, all cuddled up with her. oh, I Loooooove Crinkles!

and tonight i got my pants sized. (e:julie) is sewing me a pair of pajama pants as a graduation present. she's a little late, but better late than never. the pants are going to have all these noses all over them. the best kind of noses, Big Wet Dog Noses! I Looove Noses.

And i had a "first" a few weeks ago. I was at a graduation party out in hamburg when it happened. I was in a DWI accident! it was a hit and run. I was in a car when the drunken driver backed into an innocent parked car. luckily there was no damage to the other car, but there were scratches on the guilty party's car. (no names have been named to protect the guilty)

and there is a new flotation device in my pool, and it's filled with water! how weird is that? so instead of the wings (arm floaties) we can use this. so if anyone is going to come over to go swimming, you better do it within the next two weeks because i'm not going to insert "things" any more just to swim. it's too stressful just for a little pool fun.

and in my search to find a boyfriend, i came to the conclusion that if i got the following pickup line in a grocery store, i would definitely accept and probably even marry the guy who said it.
guy to me: "hey, would you mind helping me find something?"
me to him: "sure, i guess, what do you need help with?"
him to me: "well i'm looking for a girlfriend?"
me to him: <chuckle> "right here, baby!"
<then we run off into the sunset and live happily ever after>

so if you see me in the supermarket, now you know what to do!

ok so i have the hardest time getting pictures in this thing because they always used to come up so small. the only picutres i have been able to post are from my cell phone and those ones are terrible because i don't have a flash and it just never works....but now i tried resizing them in powerpoint, and i think it finally worked... woohoo!


katrina and me at graduation



walaboo (e:mike), katina and me at graduation


me, walaboo and katrina at our honors banquet


my baby crinkles on her b-day

Ok so there are a few things in particular that I have really strong thoughts/beliefs on. I take what I believe and think about stuff really seriously, which includes like reading a ton and not just jumping to conclusions until i've properly researched what it is exactly I believe and feel about different things...as well as alternative forms of thoughts. Specifics here really aren't necessary...but to make a long ramble short, I just sometimes feel like maybe if someone doesn't agree you should just leave it alone and not keep bringing it up. Like you never know what experiences or stuff has happened to a person to make them a certain way, so with that said, if you don't agree, know that there are certain times to discuss and other times to just leave it alone.

These past few months the timing of everything just seems off.
Even when I try to plan something differently, it somehow still backfires.

But is it really bad timing or do some events truly happen for a reason, making it not bad timing but a necessary occurance in order for a future event to take place?

Put simply, things probably happen for a reason...but why does it always seem like my timing is off??

Ok so Monday I officialy finished college. My last exam was handed in (it was a take home databases exam from my independent study). Exams finished up that friday before. I think i was one of the last seniors to finish everything up. But it feels sooooo good to be done. Even though grade wise this wasn't the best semester for me at least i was already accepted to grad school so it wasn't that stressful.

This week is senior week. Its been pretty good so far. Monday was a happy hour at Flappy's. Tuesday was wine tasting but they sold out of tickets by the time I bought them so i didn't get to go. Instead I went to the biology senior lunch at school. I almost didn't go but am so glad i did. The effort that the chair and the department put into it was honesly very touching. The halls in the biology building were all decorated with streamers and balloons. They had tons and tons of food including make your own sandwiches, like 5 different kinda of pasta salads and regular salads and shells and cheese. It was impressive. Then at the end all the teachers like were hiding these party poper things and all shot them off together at the end. The chair of the dept also gave me a big hug and told everyone that even though it didn't always seem like it they really were going to miss us all and to keep in touch. I honestly never loved the bio dept at canisius but this really was a nice ending.

Thurs is the senior ball. I wanted to go before and like I still do. I mean it will be fun to have like a last formal dance ever type thing. I admit I am a little sad I do not have a date and I could of brought someone but I just don't feel like brining someone who isn't my boyfriend. Plus the stress of like working all day and trying to fit in time to buy a dress and shoes and stuff for graduation and the ball is taking its toll. BUT...me, katrina, and walaboo (e:mike) and my other canisius friends will be sure to have a blast :-)

Then Fri is the mass and Sat is graduation. These next few days are sure to fly by...

Ok so as everyone who knows me knows, I've been having a really bad past few weeks. There is one main reason...but so many other things have gone wrong as well. I guess when stuff happens in your life that is bad you sometimes rely on other people. But then when the person leaves, it makes it ten times harder to handle than normally. I guess you learn a lesson from everything, but honestly I don't want this lesson. I don't want to believe that this what happens when you begin to put faith in other people..begin to believe that something finally could be real and good. It ruins things.

I know that probably makes no sense to all of you but to some it will. So i will take probably the best statement I've heard all week from walaboo (e:mike) to heart...it was something like: even if nothing more, im glad we met and for the time spent together. maybe someday i will believe that and think that way...

So, i guess this is what i will remember about the end of my college undergrad. A really crappy ending, but I guess its something. I am looking forward to finishing this semester up...even though its really hard to concentrate on school...and finally graduating and being able to begin to figure the rest of my life out.

Anyways, id like to believe that there are no bad beginnings, so here's to a good beginning of my post undergrad life!

Ok so many of you maybe already know of this website www.thefacebook.com that is taking college campus' by storm...but Canisius has just been allowed to register for it.... and let me tell you it is insane. People are already so obsessed with the site and its not uncommon to hear people asking other people in the halls if they are on the facebook yet. Plus the school library has actually blocked the site.

Now i must admitt i did join the site quite reluctantly at first... but thanks to (e:julie) i was one of the first to become part of this online cult of sorts from Canisius. At first I did not understand why it would be fun to look at other peoples pictures and profiles from canisius and other schools, but it has this feature where you list other people on the facebook that are your friends. So then you can see if you have friends in common with people or you can search for random groups of people. Its all very confusing at first but once you get the hang of it, it actually does become amusing. Now i'm not saying i'm as hooked on it at (e:mike)...buuut, i do enjoy clicking around and adding new friends.

So while im not sure how long my amusement ...or anyone elses for that matter...with the site will last, it does hold my attention now.

So if you go to college or i think even if you are an alumni...as long as you still have a school email address...check out www.thefacebook.com. its worth looking at even if it doesn't take over you life...as i know it already has for most of Canisius.