My mom had a surprise for me the other night and it was a book with that title. She cracks me up.

She always asking how the gays are. Its cute she used to be weird about it but she really sees they are my boys for life and they really helped me get through the worst times. I forced (e:terry) to stay up with me as I cried and played Nintendo for about two months back in the day. And (e:paul), well he's my food buddy and always up for eating something interesting and delish. (e:) Matthew is the shy artist who appreciates beauty like me and (e:mike) is just the super fun witty socialite!


Is it odd most of my friends are guys and gay? I don't care because they are awesome and although they live so far now when I see them its always just the same...



went out dancing with my girls last night and the club became so crowded with so many nonclassy creepy people. I love going out dancing but some people should not participate in the dancing and just watch. Men also should not be making gross faces and grabbing when they don't even know you. what ever happened to a handshake and hello? I don't go out to meet dudes I just love being dressed up and dancing and being fun...


So much hw today and I'm thirsty and dying for gingerale and if you're reading and if live in scottsdale will you please bring me some? I want a concierge service.



One last thing... People still calling me khloe, as in the kardashian girl. I cut my hair... I thought that would help. Nope. Gotta start wearing my glasses out again. My friends boyfriend had a friend who liked me and was calling me khloe, what the heck?!

its not hard to see I'm a pretty whiny spoiled person. I complain, I can be lazy and selfish and I often have a pessimistic view of things that should be fun.

But everybody has their faults and its never to late to strive to be better.


After numerous comments from numerous people about my attitude I suppose its time to work on that. I should be grateful for what I have and not expect other people to supplement what I don't have because I'm capable of doing this myself.


As for blogging about others and my feelings I have zero regrets about what I say. I'm honest and this is my way of getting things out.


Anyway I'm dead tired. Just hiked a tough mountain in the rain wind and hail. It was frezzing and I feel and hurt myself a few times but I just kept going. No tears and no complaining. That's who I want to be, not G.I. Jane but just a stronger me who uses my strength as an asset instead of making excuses.


I lost some friends this week, but from that I learned I should keep some things sacred. I also learned that true friends are willing to forgive. So with two lost friendships I was able to learn from it and repair one which I ignored for sometime.


I do think life is mysterious and odd and painful but at the same time if we can find joy in the tiniest things that's what keeps us human.

So I'm working on being more tough... Was first told by my mother I need to toughen up and now it seems to be resonating in my ears still from her and others time. As my late grandmother would say, "its time, its time."


Gonna nap before a girls night out. Maybe ill hike the grand canyon this summer...

Basically I'm not allowed to live in my mother's house anymore because I'm messy. I NEVER leave a spec of mess around the house, its just my room and bathroom. I have so many of the following: shoes, clothes, jewelry, books, scarves, makeup, beauty products and treatments, hair products... Art supplies, and I'm sure there's more.


I shouldn't live with my mother anyway so I'm moving out this summer. She's tired of telling me to be clean and neat and honestly that aint gonna change til I settle dopwn and have someone to clean for. Ill be neat and clean if I'm taking care of someone but for just me? I honestly don't even know how I have time to sleep I am so busy so things like laundry and dusting barely enter my mind.


So this adult child must move out.



On another note I'm pretty sure I have all As in my classes and that's amazing and its so much work I get stressed and can't sleep. I'm actually losing weight because I'm stressed and get nauseous or plain forget to eat or don't have time like yesterday. I don't condone this but I have tons of energy and then when I do eat its usually super healthy like a protein bar or banana or yogurt.



Anyway, my addiction to socializing and fun needs to be toned down so I make more time to do laundry and just relax because at this pace I'm gonna lose my mind soon.


Can't wait for blo! The whole fam is gonna be there for st pattys day!

I miss my mom and we live in the same house.

The last time I saw her for anything more than a hi and bye was last Saturday. We went hiking with my cousin and the whole time we fought and she drove me crazy.

Anyway, the great thing about us is our arguments last about 10 minutes.

I do really miss her though and she's like my bff and the top VIP in my life so I have decided next weekend we are going to have a special adventure day.


:o) spa tomorrow...ahhhh! I need this so badly.

Like woah! Just went in to pick up my hearings aids and its loud!

I mean seriously its loud and I want to jump for joy.


To all of you who think you can say and do things because I am deaf, think again... My senses are in check.


The best part? I purchased them for the bargain price of 25 bucks. Insurance pays!



Um most joyful moment in a while.