i am currently being watched very closely by officer julie(aka my mother). she criticizes everything i eat. last night she said, "you have gained weight and you need to watch it."

ok, pretty sure i am the the same size i was two months ago... when i was working out daily and watching what i ate. for some odd reason, i have been super hungry all the time recently and have been eating whatever. i haven't gained weight. i have lost a little muscle tone. i think it's because i work so much and eat lots of veggies and fruits in addition to the bad stuff.

(e:hodown) and i are so annoyed with this. my mother has been trying to control my diet and exercise since i was a teen. i have never been overweight. i actually enjoy eating food. being stick thin like my mother is not a priority to me, i have a womanly body and it suits me. also, i'm pretty strong and i have a lot of muscle.

i just don't get why other people tell me how great i look, but my own mother is so critical.

i just finished eating a whole pizza. yea, i did. and i don't care what she or anyone else thinks.

glorious 1st day off in two weeks, pool time!!!!!! nap first!

1.5% raise like woah! i'm a baller now. i have 4 jobs, i have a problem.

anyway. why can't people understand the difference between their, and they're????? and then there as well...

i'm here. waiting for my cuz to pick me up and take me to le gas station taco place, best ever!

i miss my niece so much, i just want to cry. i'm always so happy when she's around. i really don't like babies much... but i love her sooooooooooo. she's such a crazy, funny, goofy girl, and just so adorable. i'm finally posting some pics of her fiirst bday. i would like to have you know i shelled out a ton of cash for that, and (e:hodown) helped of course. that little girl is going to leave me strapped for cash, because i have many grand plans for us...


she had two cupcake cakes. one hello kitty. one paul frank monkey.


petting zoo. there was also a pony.


the fam, and a little boy i babysit. he's in the fam now too...


the baby goat would not stop eating my dress.


zozo loved the animals! she was laughing and smiling, it was so precious!


too lazy to get back and rotate it. who dat?


now, who dat?


excellent form.


proud grammy, with her most prized possession. well, she doesn't own her, but she would like to steal her...

first of all, i finally watched avatar and omg, i loved that movie!!!! by far the best i've seen in a long time. it must have been so cool in 3d. i really want to live in that world and be blue and beautiful and connect my long braided ponytail to other creatures...

it's friday, and i'll probably be asleep by 9pm. was invited out by several people, but recently i just like being at home much more. i feel like i spent the past few months being super social, and i'm ready to really just relax when i have free time. i know in my last blog i said i was bored when i'm not working, but then i discovered the national geographic channel, which is basically the most amazing tv channel ever. i don't even like tv, but national geographic is so great. we used to have a million around the house when i was little, i think someone had a subscription and i remember how much i loved the beautiful photos and the articles were always so interesting... i think i am going to buy a subscription tomorrow.

i'm supposed to go out tomorrow night, and i really don't want to. i have to spend most of sunday with various children at 2 different jobs and being super tired and watching children does not mix at all.

i think i should feel like a loser, but i have been trying to save money and help my mom out more. this recession really hit the housing market hard here. if there is one person who deserves anything from me, it's my mother. she drives me nuts sometimes, but it has actually been amazing having her around the past three years. i have some big shoes to fill...

i am dreaming of having all of my family in the same place for xmas this year, including that baby. i miss her so much.

night peeps!

I have been wanting Indian food for so long!!! It is my most favorite in the whole world!!!

My next day off is Tuesday and I am determined to stuff myself full of delish naan and curries. Currently searching yelp for the best in the valley.

I will drag my lil cuz along and even drive and pay for her if I have to...

Samosa... I love you so!