for those of you who know of vogue/anna wintour, the documentary 'the september issue' is most definitely a must see!

pretty sure (e:hodown) has been on me to watch this forever, but i forgot and then it was on netflix streaming last night...

the world of vogue and fashion is so intense, they make putting out an issue seem the world's most challenging task.

i recommend (e:matthew) watch this, he will be able to appreciate the beauty and madness.

anna wintour, insists she is not an ice woman, but the only person in the fillm i see her show a softer side to is her daughter. is an hour plus of her simply saying yes or no to the who's who of the fashion world and seeing her wishes put into action.

fashion really is wearable art, and to see the amount of effort these people put into their craft is inspiring, makes me think i need to find something i am passionate about.

i want to find something that i love so much it makes me feel alive... not that i don't feel alive, but that feeling when you first get off the ski lift and you head down the hill...

off to watch the rest of anna and her crew. then to get a massage, i love this sunday!

i need a trip, some inspiration, and escape, something.

(e:hodown) is coming along...

was thinking guatemala, but i think my final decision is jamaica. we can go relatively inexpensively...

there's a local culture there, and it's a jungle environment. the beaches are beautiful and the water is clear and powder blue. plus you can drink rum drinks out of a coconut. it's just what i need!

this summer basically sucked for me, and i have a feeling that now i am down things can only improve.

i'm very focused on saving money, work and school.

i guess maybe i am homesick, i miss blo, and the baby and my brother, and sister, and my boys. i'm going to come home and visit soon, maybe for my birthday... but soon for sure because i need that baby to give me hugs and kisses!

momma ho made cupcakes. omg so good! the daughter of a patient at the hospital made them and i begged for the recipe and the moms made them and now we have cupcakes galore and i am going to have tummy ache!

ok, and i would also like to say, i like anything with rainbow sprinkles, them make all things prettier and better tasting. if you ever have some num nums that aren't quite right, you need to load it up with those rainbow sprinkles.

since i always lose my little pieces of paper with lists, i decided to put my to do list here. that way it cannot be lost!

1. actually get up when alarm goes off loser!

2. work out

3. drink copious amounts of coffee, and eat yogurt and berries

4. print reports and timesheets for work

5. print fedex label for (e:hodown)

6. one load laundry before work, esp. scrubs

7. fold laundry you did four days ago, lazy.

8. go to kinko's to mail fedex package to (e:hodown) or be placed on sista probation

9. work

10. do not respond to texts from people who are on probation, even if they don't know they are on probation. you are still not liking very many people.

11. buy toilet paper and healthy lunch supplies for work friday on way home from work!

that should cover it. if i have time between jobs, i may treat myself to a manicure.

ok yea, wait there's something else

12. start twitter account because (e:hodown) has told you that you must. this to do comes with much spite. i really don't want to. i am so anti twitter and anti facebook.... poo.

i am currently being watched very closely by officer julie(aka my mother). she criticizes everything i eat. last night she said, "you have gained weight and you need to watch it."

ok, pretty sure i am the the same size i was two months ago... when i was working out daily and watching what i ate. for some odd reason, i have been super hungry all the time recently and have been eating whatever. i haven't gained weight. i have lost a little muscle tone. i think it's because i work so much and eat lots of veggies and fruits in addition to the bad stuff.

(e:hodown) and i are so annoyed with this. my mother has been trying to control my diet and exercise since i was a teen. i have never been overweight. i actually enjoy eating food. being stick thin like my mother is not a priority to me, i have a womanly body and it suits me. also, i'm pretty strong and i have a lot of muscle.

i just don't get why other people tell me how great i look, but my own mother is so critical.

i just finished eating a whole pizza. yea, i did. and i don't care what she or anyone else thinks.

glorious 1st day off in two weeks, pool time!!!!!! nap first!