Keeps the tears far away. I received my xmas card from (e:mike) which started my day off right!

Then a coworker who saw me sad and crying yesterday brought me hello kitty lotion in an amazingly cute hello kitty shaped bottle and hello kitty stickers.

Then another coworker was called and and brought me soy chai and a cheese danish! My fav!

What a good day and how nice you feel when people love you!

I also brought a present for a coworkers daughter who is super girly just like me... A bunch of hair bows! And cookies and chocolate for the staff!

Spreading the xmas cheer for all the boys and girls to hear!

(E:hodown) just left and I am so sad. Aside from our one showdown fight we had such a nice time and she really is one of my fav people even if she is all bossy and likes to read depressing books.

I am going to be sad for a while now and I just can't stand the fact that most of the people I love are so far away.

America is way too big and I don't like it.

I am trying not to cry and its kinda hard.

I miss the baby she is so cute and I am missing vital parts of her life and it makes no sense that I see the people I could care less about everyday and the people I want to see I only spend time with a few times a year.

Life makes so sense.

i have to plan my schedule at least a week in advance to make sure i am able to manage my time and get everything done. i have been picking up extra hours at the hospital, helping in the business office, and i also took a three session EKG class.

anyway, i was double-booked today, as the mother of the little girl i work with forgot i was coming this morning and then another lady showed up... i said i was going to get things done and come back later.

i don't think i will be going back later... i have a 12 hr day tomorrow and then on wed/thurs. i also have to bake cookies(major task), i am a perfectionist...

clean, shop, wrap, hike, make an xmas music mix, plan out a menu, get ready for sister, and plan out my wardobe.

i feel really guity for not sending out a gift to some people who have been amazing to me, and the stuff is here waiting, but i am so broke from all of the xmas shopping that i need shipping money!!!!!!!!!!

basically the point to this post is, i am kinda going crazy because i tend to take on too much, it's tiring.

i kinda can't wait for school to start again, i aced my math final!!!!! woooooo! i am taking some cool classes, and then for realz to ASU in the fall, to earn the 8 year bachelor degree. and then a master's, but (e:paul) thinks no to the phd...... one day at a time. ;O)

hello kitty just wanted to stop by and say:



happy bday to (e:hodown), a sister, and a friend. of all the ladies i know, she has the best taste, the most bitterness, and the biggest love for tacos. can't wait to give her gifts!!!!!

i came home after a 12 hr day, which seems to be every day these days.

anyway, i open the front door to pick up some packages and a bird flies into the house. i am not an animal loving person, i am allergic or scared of most of them. i also prefer to be separated from them by walls or thick shatter-proof glass.

of course i am once again the only one here, and i chase the bird around with a broom and it runs into every giant window, the ceiling and several walls before it finally flies outside. it also landed on the xmas tree and pooped on one of the kitchen counters. ewww.

last week scorpion, this week bird, next week tarantulas??? my braveness has reached new heights, as i man the frontier alone.