(E:hodown) just left and I am so sad. Aside from our one showdown fight we had such a nice time and she really is one of my fav people even if she is all bossy and likes to read depressing books.
I am going to be sad for a while now and I just can't stand the fact that most of the people I love are so far away.
America is way too big and I don't like it.
I am trying not to cry and its kinda hard.
I miss the baby she is so cute and I am missing vital parts of her life and it makes no sense that I see the people I could care less about everyday and the people I want to see I only spend time with a few times a year.
Life makes so sense.
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i hate saying goodbye12/21/2009 14:30 #50616
mild irritationi have to plan my schedule at least a week in advance to make sure i am able to manage my time and get everything done. i have been picking up extra hours at the hospital, helping in the business office, and i also took a three session EKG class.
anyway, i was double-booked today, as the mother of the little girl i work with forgot i was coming this morning and then another lady showed up... i said i was going to get things done and come back later.
i don't think i will be going back later... i have a 12 hr day tomorrow and then on wed/thurs. i also have to bake cookies(major task), i am a perfectionist...
clean, shop, wrap, hike, make an xmas music mix, plan out a menu, get ready for sister, and plan out my wardobe.
i feel really guity for not sending out a gift to some people who have been amazing to me, and the stuff is here waiting, but i am so broke from all of the xmas shopping that i need shipping money!!!!!!!!!!
basically the point to this post is, i am kinda going crazy because i tend to take on too much, it's tiring.
i kinda can't wait for school to start again, i aced my math final!!!!! woooooo! i am taking some cool classes, and then for realz to ASU in the fall, to earn the 8 year bachelor degree. and then a master's, but (e:paul) thinks no to the phd...... one day at a time. ;O)
anyway, i was double-booked today, as the mother of the little girl i work with forgot i was coming this morning and then another lady showed up... i said i was going to get things done and come back later.
i don't think i will be going back later... i have a 12 hr day tomorrow and then on wed/thurs. i also have to bake cookies(major task), i am a perfectionist...
clean, shop, wrap, hike, make an xmas music mix, plan out a menu, get ready for sister, and plan out my wardobe.
i feel really guity for not sending out a gift to some people who have been amazing to me, and the stuff is here waiting, but i am so broke from all of the xmas shopping that i need shipping money!!!!!!!!!!
basically the point to this post is, i am kinda going crazy because i tend to take on too much, it's tiring.
i kinda can't wait for school to start again, i aced my math final!!!!! woooooo! i am taking some cool classes, and then for realz to ASU in the fall, to earn the 8 year bachelor degree. and then a master's, but (e:paul) thinks no to the phd...... one day at a time. ;O)
tinypliny - 12/21/09 18:40
8 year bachelor degree? Am I reading this right? Why, you could get a PhD and finish a post-doc in that time?!
And wow, you are organized. I need to pick up some tips from you on how to manage time.
8 year bachelor degree? Am I reading this right? Why, you could get a PhD and finish a post-doc in that time?!
And wow, you are organized. I need to pick up some tips from you on how to manage time.
12/18/2009 12:27 #50591
hello kitty says happy bday jessica!hello kitty just wanted to stop by and say:
happy bday to (e:hodown), a sister, and a friend. of all the ladies i know, she has the best taste, the most bitterness, and the biggest love for tacos. can't wait to give her gifts!!!!!
happy bday to (e:hodown), a sister, and a friend. of all the ladies i know, she has the best taste, the most bitterness, and the biggest love for tacos. can't wait to give her gifts!!!!!
hodown - 12/22/09 12:11
Thanks Jess!
Also yes Mike. I love tacos the most. Pork tacos to be more specific. Although in a pinch a fish or shrimp taco will do.
Thanks Jess!
Also yes Mike. I love tacos the most. Pork tacos to be more specific. Although in a pinch a fish or shrimp taco will do.
deeglam - 12/22/09 11:02
Happy birthday jessica!!!! Much love from HK and JP
Happy birthday jessica!!!! Much love from HK and JP
tinypliny - 12/21/09 18:38
Man, how did I miss this???? Wish you an awesome awesome year ahead, (e:hodown)! Hope there is tonnes of fun in store for you! \m/
Man, how did I miss this???? Wish you an awesome awesome year ahead, (e:hodown)! Hope there is tonnes of fun in store for you! \m/
mike - 12/20/09 12:33
the most love for tacos? quite an accomplishment!
the most love for tacos? quite an accomplishment!
jenks - 12/18/09 16:08
Happy bday! May it be full of fun and gossip, and free of drama and douchebags!
Happy bday! May it be full of fun and gossip, and free of drama and douchebags!
terry - 12/18/09 14:54
happy bday lady.
happy bday lady.
mrmike - 12/18/09 14:37
Happy Birthday, Jessica!
Happy Birthday, Jessica!
paul - 12/18/09 13:58
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday!
matthew - 12/18/09 13:43
Happy Birthday Jessica! Hope you have great day.
Happy Birthday Jessica! Hope you have great day.
12/17/2009 23:25 #50588
xmas is coming der's a bird in my housi came home after a 12 hr day, which seems to be every day these days.
anyway, i open the front door to pick up some packages and a bird flies into the house. i am not an animal loving person, i am allergic or scared of most of them. i also prefer to be separated from them by walls or thick shatter-proof glass.
of course i am once again the only one here, and i chase the bird around with a broom and it runs into every giant window, the ceiling and several walls before it finally flies outside. it also landed on the xmas tree and pooped on one of the kitchen counters. ewww.
last week scorpion, this week bird, next week tarantulas??? my braveness has reached new heights, as i man the frontier alone.
anyway, i open the front door to pick up some packages and a bird flies into the house. i am not an animal loving person, i am allergic or scared of most of them. i also prefer to be separated from them by walls or thick shatter-proof glass.
of course i am once again the only one here, and i chase the bird around with a broom and it runs into every giant window, the ceiling and several walls before it finally flies outside. it also landed on the xmas tree and pooped on one of the kitchen counters. ewww.
last week scorpion, this week bird, next week tarantulas??? my braveness has reached new heights, as i man the frontier alone.
12/15/2009 23:03 #50573
the testi often "test" people by randomly calling them to see if they will pick up. most times people fail this test.
also, i "test" people by being kind of really annoying and loud and saying rude things.
people think from the way i look that i would be not as smart or just a goody-goody. they have it all wrong.
anyway, it's all really a test to see if you can handle me, which most people cannot. (e:pmt) def can the best of most, and (e:hodown) i would say can, but in much smaller doses.
(e:tina) was prob the best, but she is so far away, it's like i've lost a major part of me.
and then the (e:twinsies) i think, and (e:mike), and (e:deeglam), but she is more out of control than me.
i think i am about to enjoy the best xmas of my life, and i i'm pretty sure i have conquered my math final.
the reason for this post was because my ego was minorly insulted by the fact someone called me, "the most immature 26 yr old girl i know". but this is coming from someone who favor the song "Low" by Flo Rida. that song had it's time almost three years ago, and i do not consider it a great, mmmk?
anyway, i suppose i was rude, but it happens????
i feel bad for people with bad music taste, it equals non quality person i think, somewhat.
also, i "test" people by being kind of really annoying and loud and saying rude things.
people think from the way i look that i would be not as smart or just a goody-goody. they have it all wrong.
anyway, it's all really a test to see if you can handle me, which most people cannot. (e:pmt) def can the best of most, and (e:hodown) i would say can, but in much smaller doses.
(e:tina) was prob the best, but she is so far away, it's like i've lost a major part of me.
and then the (e:twinsies) i think, and (e:mike), and (e:deeglam), but she is more out of control than me.
i think i am about to enjoy the best xmas of my life, and i i'm pretty sure i have conquered my math final.
the reason for this post was because my ego was minorly insulted by the fact someone called me, "the most immature 26 yr old girl i know". but this is coming from someone who favor the song "Low" by Flo Rida. that song had it's time almost three years ago, and i do not consider it a great, mmmk?
anyway, i suppose i was rude, but it happens????
i feel bad for people with bad music taste, it equals non quality person i think, somewhat.
hodown - 12/18/09 11:28
Same goes for me. Most people I pick up the phone zero percent of the time. For you its more around 30% of the time.
Same goes for me. Most people I pick up the phone zero percent of the time. For you its more around 30% of the time.
paul - 12/18/09 02:27
I answer the phone for you more than anyone else if that's any consolation.
I answer the phone for you more than anyone else if that's any consolation.
lilho - 12/17/09 23:27
most people who don't pick up have to be stalked down or they will never call back. like (e:paul), (e:mike), (e:terry). (e:hodown), and (e:deeglam). pretty much everyone i am friends with.
most people who don't pick up have to be stalked down or they will never call back. like (e:paul), (e:mike), (e:terry). (e:hodown), and (e:deeglam). pretty much everyone i am friends with.
metalpeter - 12/17/09 18:51
So You are the person who all ways calls me and Hangs up when they get the Machine, Yes I have solved IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, HA. That is why I kinda wish I had Caller ID.
In terms of musical taste some Songs are good for some things. That Song you mention if you are dancing at a club or maybe at home then that is a good song. Not what I like. Heavy and Agnst and angry music is great for a pit of some kind at a concert and even at home can be a great release but you can't only listen to that and unless you are having a dinner party where you then smash everything it doesn't really work. Then there is a lot of R&B that is really made to make love to or set the mood. Then there is dance music/fucking groups like 2 live crew. Oh yeah pop and all kinds. I don't like music by the kind I like it by the artist. That being said what you said is often true about people who only like one kind of music. They like it because it fits there current life style.
Yes I have known you to be loud but only in a good way, haven't seen if there is a bad side to that.
In Terms of seeing someone who looks Just like you but isn't you lets see what I would assume. Lets see Cute, Tan, and Curvy would make me assume that because of your look you can and do get away with a lot of stuff that people wouldn't put up with if you didn't look like that. I would also assume you where either from the west side or like a rich suburb based on how you where dressed and where I saw yeah. This would be backed up if you where real loud of the west side thing.
Hope you have a great holiday.
So You are the person who all ways calls me and Hangs up when they get the Machine, Yes I have solved IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, HA. That is why I kinda wish I had Caller ID.
In terms of musical taste some Songs are good for some things. That Song you mention if you are dancing at a club or maybe at home then that is a good song. Not what I like. Heavy and Agnst and angry music is great for a pit of some kind at a concert and even at home can be a great release but you can't only listen to that and unless you are having a dinner party where you then smash everything it doesn't really work. Then there is a lot of R&B that is really made to make love to or set the mood. Then there is dance music/fucking groups like 2 live crew. Oh yeah pop and all kinds. I don't like music by the kind I like it by the artist. That being said what you said is often true about people who only like one kind of music. They like it because it fits there current life style.
Yes I have known you to be loud but only in a good way, haven't seen if there is a bad side to that.
In Terms of seeing someone who looks Just like you but isn't you lets see what I would assume. Lets see Cute, Tan, and Curvy would make me assume that because of your look you can and do get away with a lot of stuff that people wouldn't put up with if you didn't look like that. I would also assume you where either from the west side or like a rich suburb based on how you where dressed and where I saw yeah. This would be backed up if you where real loud of the west side thing.
Hope you have a great holiday.
libertad - 12/16/09 23:27
So if someone doesn't answer the phone when you call they are not a friend and failed your test? What if they are busy but they call you back later?
So if someone doesn't answer the phone when you call they are not a friend and failed your test? What if they are busy but they call you back later?
hodown - 12/16/09 12:28
Why is this the best xmas?
Why is this the best xmas?
It is hard not to have all of your loved ones near by. And seeing them is awesome, until you have to say good bye again. :(
come home.