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12/27/2009 16:19 #50669

lots of thoughts on xmas break
Well, here I am on my 3rd annual trip to Albany to spend time with my "sister-in-law" and her children. These trips always make me think of many things, such as the consequences of having children. I feel like whenever I see parents with young children, they are either 1) stressed 2) tired 3) arguing with their spouse 4) frustrated 5) some or all of the above. It really does not look appealing to me in the slightest...but I know that there are many positives to having children as well...

Being here also makes me focus on my lack of exercise. I've had the same problem since the spring of 2008. I used to LOVE running. Like I was kind of addicted to it for awhile. Then I ran a marathon. For some people, that might inspire them, but not me. It wiped me out. Ever since then, it has been a lot of effort to get me to run for more than half an hour. It's so freakin' sad. I also don't have a friend to run with anymore, and that was a big part of it. Cory's sister and her husband are really active. They do triathalons and stuff. So they get to sit and eat whatever they want, and they talk about their work-outs, and it makes me really depressed. I used to eat whatever I wanted and think about working out, too. But now I dwell on how I don't work out and how I shouldn't eat so much. It's really a sad way of living.

So of course I think to myself, I'm going to change things! I'm going to dedicate more time this winter and spring to myself! I'm going to run again!

Except what's going to happen is, I will probably run 3-4 times next week when I have off. And then BOOM school starts and I will not have time for myself anymore. It seems like I can have running or I can have my job. I can't seem to have both. Because now I have millions of after-school rehearsals, and who the hell wants to go running after putting in an 8-10 hour workday? Plus, I have my Master's Project to start worrying about.

So basically, I need to figure out how to balance everything. After-school rehearsals, Master's Project, and running. It doesn't seem like a lot but it really is. It's times like these I wish that I taught elementary school so I would have fewer after school and evening commitments.

I feel very whiny right now. I guess I just have all these things on my mind. It seems like I'm constantly wondering if I'm doing the right thing with my life. I see my friends who make changes and I get kind of jealous. Do I really want to stay in where I am for my whole career? Let's face it, my district is pretty lame. I love my job but I don't love the district. There's just nothing there. No one seems to care about much of anything, there's no standard for excellence, and it's so small. It's nothing like what I grew up with. I constantly look at people at other districts and wonder what it would be like to be surrounded by more talent, more money, more culture. It's just a lot to think about. What if I left my job, and found that I missed it?

WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF

I think I need to get home, go running, eat some Ben and Jerry's, snuggle with Maximus, and I'll be a little happier.
metalpeter - 12/31/09 19:44
As some one who used to run I have kinda a perspective on this that is like yours, I could never run a marathon. Not sure if this is true or not, but some stuff that the runners (a lot better then I could ever be) in my family have told me or I have heard somewhere. That when you train for a marathon you train for a Half One first, then you get that "Under Your Belt" and you go from there. There is also or at least was a method to doing a Marathon that was a controversy (not sure what the right word is). The idea is that some people can't run 26 Miles so they run a mile then walk a mile. It was something like that.

In terms of the not wanting to run, that happened to me, after a full day you don't want to run that is tiring. What I have heard though is what to do is to wake up early and go running before everything else. That Run will give you energy for the rest of the day. Some people get a runners High and if you do then that would make sense. Not sure what works best for you but I say set the alarm early and start out slow and see what happens.

11/25/2009 21:46 #50383

trotting
I CAN'T BELIEVE THERE WILL BE 12,000 PEOPLE RUNNING THE TURKEY TROT TOMORROW!!! THAT'S INSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANE. I'm planning on spending the first part of the race waiting to actually get started and then getting out of the crowd. Sounds like....fun....
tinypliny - 11/26/09 09:35
Is this on Delaware and Linwood as usual?!

11/22/2009 16:30 #50367

Dear Buffalo Bills...
Go away. I hate you. I am boycotting you for the rest of the season and maybe for the rest of my life. Go to Toronto. Good riddance.

MK
metalpeter - 11/24/09 19:09
Everyone likes to say go to Toronto but that is bad and we don't want that for a couple reasons.
1. Like the Destroyers and some players as soon as they leave they will get much better
2. Original AFL Teams shouldn't be allowed to move
3. I bet that Toronto would be close enough that if the game doesn't sell out it would be blacked out
4. The Bills do bring Pride to the Area, when they are good and bad and that is a Nationally famous tailgating
metalpeter - 11/24/09 19:04
MK should be on The NFL Direct Ticket Ads. They always advertise it as you follow this team but live in this city. It should be more like they show I guy in Detroit Or MK in Buffalo, I used to be a Bills Fan and the when the Bills are at Home there isn't a 2nd game so I got Direct TV, or something like that.
vincent - 11/23/09 13:36
This is why I felt like I got to the most out of my day yesterday as I didn't watch one single down of the game, as I was packing for a trip. The last two games exlcuding the bye week as I watched a Bucs game, I slept through most of them by taking a nap. I'm glad that you're finally ending the abusive relationship that you've had over the last 12 years or so ;-)
mk - 11/22/09 22:54
I know there were good things that happened today, and that maybe there is a bright future. It has just been so long since we've had much to cheer at, and they just keep getting close to winning and then blowing it.
tiburon1724 - 11/22/09 21:48
hey, losses are good. Losses equal higher draft pick! And the future may have a silver lining with Ralph stating he's willing to pay up to $10mill/yr for a Super Bowl coach.

11/11/2009 21:50 #50277

Veterans Day
Happy Veterans Day. I'm proud to be the granddaughter of two great men who served our country.

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11/01/2009 21:33 #50194

i'm addicted to...
Category: food


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metalpeter - 11/02/09 19:42
Being addicted to that based on the price of it isn't a good addiction to have, find a not as costly ice cream like Perry's or something, HA.