When I die...
I hope that it doesn't take long before anyone notices. Last night (e:mike) and I were at Cathode Ray and witnessed the removal of a body that had gone unnoticed for ~8days. It was in the apartment across the street from the bar right above the grocery store. I always noticed the stained glass window hangings in the windows so I think the person had lived there for a long time. I hope that someone will come and claim their things and remember who this person was.
I also hope that when I die I get buried wrapped in a white sheet without being embalmed. No formaldehyde! I want a quick burial with no autopsy. If I am dead I am dead and it really shouldn't matter why unless of course it was because somebody killed me or it was something suspicious or unknown. I really don't want a coffin unless it is papermaché. I really believe in being returned to the earth naturally. I want to decompose and become become soil so that I can continue to be a part of the cycle.
Also it would be preferable if my body were somewhere beautiful and clean. My memorial would be done at the SGI Buffalo Community Center. I want pictures of me and pictures that I have taken to be displayed. I really don't care for a public viewing of my body but if anybody wanted to view me for whatever reason I think it should be permitted. My parents would decide what is done with my things but would be advised by those closest in my life as to who gets what.
If an organ or two could be used to save somebody's life I wouldn't mind but I don't want a free for all. This isn't a buffet.
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07/11/2009 23:41 #49269
When I die...06/24/2009 18:25 #49067
Just when I thought I was getting aheadI ripped my only (wearable) pair of jeans right up the side. This was right after I whizzed by (e:james) and right in front of (e:lauren) and (e:fellyconnelly)'s place. My pant leg got stuck in my gear sprocket. Funny thing is just yesterday I got a pair of "work dungarees" from Carhart. I like them but they are so stiff and need to be broken in. Also I am worried they are going to shrink but I don't know if they will shrink because they are pre-washed. I think it is good that they are snug around the waste because it will keep me in shape if I want to wear them. I just don't get why sizes are not more universal and why when you order the same size waist they can vary by so much.
I just got two new pairs of kicks from zappos.com. I love that site because they never really seem to f it up and their service is so easy and fast. Maybe bad for my carbon footprint, but if the malls would sell what I want, than maybe I wouldn't have to order online. I have looked for jeans for quite a long time but can't find any at the malls that I am really happy with. I am prepared to spend up to $100 but preferably cheaper than that. Does anyone know of a good place online I can find quality, good fit, non ripped, no faded horizontal striped jeans?
So now things that I need/want for my bike:
Rack- Want
Tires-Need
U lock-Want
Helmet-Want
Camera bag for handle bars-Want
I could probably list other stuff but that is all good for now. I really want the rack and tires first for an upcoming bike trip. They are expensive and now I have to go and buy jeans...
I just got two new pairs of kicks from zappos.com. I love that site because they never really seem to f it up and their service is so easy and fast. Maybe bad for my carbon footprint, but if the malls would sell what I want, than maybe I wouldn't have to order online. I have looked for jeans for quite a long time but can't find any at the malls that I am really happy with. I am prepared to spend up to $100 but preferably cheaper than that. Does anyone know of a good place online I can find quality, good fit, non ripped, no faded horizontal striped jeans?
So now things that I need/want for my bike:
Rack- Want
Tires-Need
U lock-Want
Helmet-Want
Camera bag for handle bars-Want
I could probably list other stuff but that is all good for now. I really want the rack and tires first for an upcoming bike trip. They are expensive and now I have to go and buy jeans...
jenks - 07/12/09 08:21
I'm visiting my parents, and yesterday mom was like "let's go to the jeans store". I thought that sounded good, b/c I hate shopping for jeans, and if these people are really experts that can help me find good ones- great.
But I didn't realize these are all 'designer' jeans (of course I've never heard of any of them), and just about every pair in the store was $175.
seriously? Why pay 200 for jeans. I don't get it.
I'm visiting my parents, and yesterday mom was like "let's go to the jeans store". I thought that sounded good, b/c I hate shopping for jeans, and if these people are really experts that can help me find good ones- great.
But I didn't realize these are all 'designer' jeans (of course I've never heard of any of them), and just about every pair in the store was $175.
seriously? Why pay 200 for jeans. I don't get it.
paul - 06/24/09 23:46
I also recommend levis. Furthermore, I say skip any light colored or thin jeans and go right for dark denim. They last so much longer.
I also recommend levis. Furthermore, I say skip any light colored or thin jeans and go right for dark denim. They last so much longer.
heidi - 06/24/09 22:04
I have an adorable wire mesh basket for the front of my bike that I put my poodle in. I wish I had a picture - she's so freakin' cute.
JCPenney & Sears have really good basic jeans selections (and unusual sizes).
I have an adorable wire mesh basket for the front of my bike that I put my poodle in. I wish I had a picture - she's so freakin' cute.
JCPenney & Sears have really good basic jeans selections (and unusual sizes).
james - 06/24/09 20:22
Levis jeans are great. They last forever, they fit really well (sizes from 'take a look at this ass' to relaxed), and they don't break the bank.
At Rick's I bought a rack and bag for $70 total and the damn bag fits a pair of shoes, a lunch box, gym cloths, a towel, and a pile of notebooks and papers easily. I recommend it as well.
Levis jeans are great. They last forever, they fit really well (sizes from 'take a look at this ass' to relaxed), and they don't break the bank.
At Rick's I bought a rack and bag for $70 total and the damn bag fits a pair of shoes, a lunch box, gym cloths, a towel, and a pile of notebooks and papers easily. I recommend it as well.
06/22/2009 22:52 #49033
First hypnosisSo my friend Kathy came today to hypnotize me for smoking cessation. It was pretty awesome. I like the whole process really. I was totally conscious of everything. First she had me close my eyes and then she had me relax all of my muscles in my head one by one. Then I was going deeper and deeper down these stairs and once I got to the bottom she planted the suggestions. I think they had an effect on me but it is still too soon to tell. It did seem that there was an immediate aversion to ever filling my lungs with the cigarette smoke again. She is coming again next week to do another session. She said it doesn't work for long the first try, that it really should be done more than once. Since she is going to do all the sessions for free-- why not?
She also can teach me to do self-hypnosis. I did try hypnosis tapes (I think I was a teen) a while back and I did like doing them. It was weird because a lot of it was the same but I definitely liked it a lot better with Kathy. The next time is supposed to be a deeper hypnosis and generally work better.
I made dinner. Organic chicken thighs with homemade honey mustard dipping sauce. Also served tortellini salad, grilled veggies and salad. Finished with Stony Field Farms after dark chocolate ice cream (thanks S) along with vegan cookie.
She also can teach me to do self-hypnosis. I did try hypnosis tapes (I think I was a teen) a while back and I did like doing them. It was weird because a lot of it was the same but I definitely liked it a lot better with Kathy. The next time is supposed to be a deeper hypnosis and generally work better.
I made dinner. Organic chicken thighs with homemade honey mustard dipping sauce. Also served tortellini salad, grilled veggies and salad. Finished with Stony Field Farms after dark chocolate ice cream (thanks S) along with vegan cookie.
ladycroft - 06/23/09 05:10
coolio. i took a graduate relaxation course where we learned to take ourselves into deeply relaxed states..i was always able to walk away relieved of pain that i came in with (back when i was very sick all the time). it was great!
coolio. i took a graduate relaxation course where we learned to take ourselves into deeply relaxed states..i was always able to walk away relieved of pain that i came in with (back when i was very sick all the time). it was great!
06/21/2009 11:48 #49020
I hate Pottery BarnI just hate everything about them. Their furniture looks cheap but it is not. They also send huge catalogs all the time to people that obviously don't want to order. My roommate ordered one thing from them a year ago and has kept on getting a catalog just about every other week. I finally just took the liberty of removing him from their mailing list.
F U POTTERY BARN. If I ever have money I certainly would not want my house to look like one of your wretched catalogs.
F U POTTERY BARN. If I ever have money I certainly would not want my house to look like one of your wretched catalogs.
jason - 06/22/09 14:26
I hate when orgs spam the catalogs as well. What I hate more are the cold calls (Looking at you, BPO).
I don't know that I've stepped into a Pottery Barn before. I'm not much of a home decorator, totally clueless in that area. From what I've seen, my ignorant ass says it is suburban chic.
I hate when orgs spam the catalogs as well. What I hate more are the cold calls (Looking at you, BPO).
I don't know that I've stepped into a Pottery Barn before. I'm not much of a home decorator, totally clueless in that area. From what I've seen, my ignorant ass says it is suburban chic.
joshua - 06/22/09 14:19
I've never shopped at Pottery Barn before.
I've never shopped at Pottery Barn before.
libertad - 06/22/09 13:52
Sorry to all the Pottery Barn lovers out there. Obviously a lot of people love them as they seem to be very sucessful. My oppinion doesn't really matter much anyways.
Sorry to all the Pottery Barn lovers out there. Obviously a lot of people love them as they seem to be very sucessful. My oppinion doesn't really matter much anyways.
lilho - 06/22/09 00:15
i kinda likey. i agree with the catalog thing, i hate catalogs! hello internet and paperless world! minus books. i like books.
i kinda likey. i agree with the catalog thing, i hate catalogs! hello internet and paperless world! minus books. i like books.
tinypliny - 06/21/09 15:52
Why are they called pottery barn? Are they like a farm based organization?
Why are they called pottery barn? Are they like a farm based organization?
jenks - 06/21/09 13:49
I love Pottery Barn.
I love Pottery Barn.
06/16/2009 00:22 #48986
Hypnotize me!~ To become realityI wanted to be hypnotized over two years ago to help with my lingering cravings to smoke cigarettes. This is the journal I wrote about it in. Basically, I was having a really hard time not smoking but glad that I had quit nonetheless. So, now on Monday a woman that I work with is going to hypnotize me with the hopes that it will help with my lingering cravings. Clearly at this point it is all mental. At least I will be able to tell if it helps; whereas, if I were still smoking it would be harder to tell if it really works or if I just really wanted to quit.
Because hypnotism for smoking cessation is not evidence based, I can't really advocate it at work even if it does end up helping me. I'm really hoping it works because even now a good two years after that post I still struggle with not smoking. It still isn't an option for me to have a puff and so far that strategy has worked but I still have this basic tension from not smoking.
Today I talked to a woman who was completely addicted to the nicotine gum. It was kind of sad because she seemed a little desperate to get off of it. Of course that was touchy ground for me to give advice to get off of nicotine replacement. I think I did good. She wanted to know if she could use the patch to wean herself off. I told her it made sense logically but that she would have to consult a MD as it was off label use of the medicine. Anyways, I went off on this tangent about her because she really seemed OK off of the cigarettes but just couldn't really deal with not having nicotine in her blood. Actually she had a lot more nicotine in her blood using the gum than if she were still smoking what she had been when she quit. It seems that it really does have an effect on your body physiologically long after the physical addiction has stopped. I sometimes wonder what Chantix could do for me but quickly put that out of my mind each and every time I hear of it causing awful side effects. It seems to me that I would rather smoke than use that drug.
I'll let you guys know how the hypnotism works out. At this point I think I might need an exorcism. The woman who is going to do it does know what she is doing and also says that she doesn't want to smoke anymore. She hasn't said that was from the hypnotism or not. I have heard her tell people that it was hard to quit smoking so I would assume that hypnotism doesn't make it easy. Nothing makes it easy.
Because hypnotism for smoking cessation is not evidence based, I can't really advocate it at work even if it does end up helping me. I'm really hoping it works because even now a good two years after that post I still struggle with not smoking. It still isn't an option for me to have a puff and so far that strategy has worked but I still have this basic tension from not smoking.
Today I talked to a woman who was completely addicted to the nicotine gum. It was kind of sad because she seemed a little desperate to get off of it. Of course that was touchy ground for me to give advice to get off of nicotine replacement. I think I did good. She wanted to know if she could use the patch to wean herself off. I told her it made sense logically but that she would have to consult a MD as it was off label use of the medicine. Anyways, I went off on this tangent about her because she really seemed OK off of the cigarettes but just couldn't really deal with not having nicotine in her blood. Actually she had a lot more nicotine in her blood using the gum than if she were still smoking what she had been when she quit. It seems that it really does have an effect on your body physiologically long after the physical addiction has stopped. I sometimes wonder what Chantix could do for me but quickly put that out of my mind each and every time I hear of it causing awful side effects. It seems to me that I would rather smoke than use that drug.
I'll let you guys know how the hypnotism works out. At this point I think I might need an exorcism. The woman who is going to do it does know what she is doing and also says that she doesn't want to smoke anymore. She hasn't said that was from the hypnotism or not. I have heard her tell people that it was hard to quit smoking so I would assume that hypnotism doesn't make it easy. Nothing makes it easy.
I just lol'd at my desk Mike!
its unfortunate then that i am gonna embalm you , encrust you with diamonds and then keep you on permanent display on my mantle!
The thought of worms and other bugs crawling through and eating my body freaks me out and makes me want to go the cremation route.
I agree. I have always said I wanted to take my whole family and made an orchard of fruit trees out of them. I would definately like to be a cherry tree.
The thing with the 8 days is at first very scary. But then as you start to think some people don't see anyone where not seeing them for 8 days would make them worried. Unless someone is in like a dangerous life style or something I think most people might think oh this person is sick or something (I mean work wise) and often a lot of families the same thing happens people don't see each other that often. That being said it would still really bother me to see what you saw.
In terms of your wishes when you die. It is a good idea to tell or even write them out to more then one person and date it also. Then if your wishes change. For some people they do through things they see and things that happen in there life. It is then important to update those wishes and pass that along in updated versions to the people you told before. That way if something should happen then they know what you want. Also that way you don't get one person saying "he wanted this" and the other people go "No He told us this".
(e:lib), I believe that all our souls and what we are in this life are set free when we die.
Your best memories and your rich experiences will always be a part of you and your friends' and relatives' consciousness. I don't think anyone really ever "dies". They continue in the consciousness of life till generations have passed. They then become part of everyone.
Our bodies are not really "us" after we die. They are beautifully engineered vessels but they are really not worth worrying about in this life. I say, enjoy them to their capacity when you are in them! Don't worry about what will happen when you leave them. They will become part of where they came from sooner or later. :)