I have this horrible feeling I am going to die soon. Could be the return of the migraine or the non-stomach stomach pain or the shoulder pain or all of it combined. Feeling sick all the time is really, really bad. If this turns out to be some long term I feel like this for the rest of my life thing, I don't know if I can handle it.

It's like all this skeletal pain mixed with intestinal pain.

I can't figure it out. Nothing particular makes me sick when I eat. Actually, the eating part is good, as is after. It is the when I have not eaten part that is really bad. My intestines get all bloated and my stomach starts making crazy noises. Between that and the noise my neck/shouler make now - I sound so broken.

I have finally made a doctors appointment with my cousin who is a gastrointestinal specialist for next week. I wish it was tomorrow, but tomorrow I am busy with the dumbness that is my life. I decided to forgo the primary care physician with the hope he can suggest one. I seriously just can't wait anymore. I am sure that will mean the stupid health insurance will not cover my visit but maybe it will because I went to him before. If it doesn't I am going to switch to another company just out of spite.

What is it going to be? What, and how did I go from feeling relatively fine to totally broken so fast. Could it be a lack of Vitamin D from my almost zero sun exposure this year?

This is interesting . I guess I shoulod be fit considering I walk "30 minutes a day, five days a week" I don't feel fit.

I have all these pictures I want to post but I can't move my head around enough to go get the camera.

Still sitting in java class. I swear this is as procedural as it gets. I followed the instructions exactly.

package lab_04c;

/**
 *
 * @author visco
 */
public class Main {

    /**
     * @param args the command line arguments
     */
    public static void main(String[] args) {
       
        System.out.println("Student Score Grade");
         
        int[] scores = {76,91,80,55,71,98,70,88,69,60};
        String[] names = {
            "Suzie Q",
            "Peggy Forsnacht",
            "Boy George",
            "Flea",
            "Captain Hook",
            "Nelson Mandela",
            "he Might Thor",
            "Oedipa Maas",
            "Uncle Sam",
            "The Tick"};

        String[] grades = new String[scores.length];
        System.out.println("Name	Grade	Score");

        for(int x=0;x<scores.length;x++){
            
            int score = scores[x];
            String grade = "";
            
            if(score < 60){
                grade = "F";
            } else if (score < 70){
                grade = "D";
            } else if (score < 80){
                grade = "C";
            } else if (score < 90){
                grade = "B";
            } else {
                grade = "A";
            }
            grades[x] = grade;
            
            System.out.println(names[x]+"	"+score+"	"+grade);
            
        }
        
        String[] possibleGrades = {"A", "B", "C", "D", "F"};
        int[] frequency = {0,0,0,0,0};
        double total=0;
        
        Student: for(int student=0;student<scores.length;student++){
           Grades: for(int g=0;g<possibleGrades.length;g++){
               if(grades[student] == possibleGrades[g]){
                   frequency[g]++;
               }
           }
           
           total += scores[student];
        }
        
        System.out.println("
Statistics:");
       
        for(int g=0;g<possibleGrades.length;g++){
            System.out.println("Total "+possibleGrades[g]+"s: "+frequency[g]);
        } 

        System.out.println("
The mean score was : "+(total/scores.length));
    }

}

I was really surprised to get this AIM message from Zack Schneider today. I assume it was some auto-generated bullshit from facebook. I extra especially would not be interested in facebook considering the latest developments with privacy issues and it clear involvement in the excesses advertising world, puke -



I am probably never joining another keep track of my friend and keep a journal, picture gallery kind of thing ever again. If there is some feature I really need I will just make it for myself here or I don't really need it.

I made it this far and I really just don't see any reason to spread myself any thinner than I already am. Especially considering that I am not looking to network for a job or lover and there is no one I don't talk have contact with that I really am interested in ever talking to except maybe my friend Yvonne in Germany who I never manage to talk to.

No, bacteria did not eat my phone thank god because I love it. I am able to get 1360kbps on ATT's new HSPDA 3G network in Buffalo. Thats so fast.



I almost killed a bunch of people trackng my driving with the built in GPS. I guess that is why they have the don't use while driving warning.

I bought some bacteria for my stomach. We will see how that goes.


The company that makes my phone it HTC. I found this graphic on some forum. It eplains how I feel about my phone.

I went to Patrick Oneill Chiropractic on Bidwell in order to get my neck fixed as per my previous post. I just did it on a whim. I had never been to a chiropractor before and had no real idea of what it was going to be like. No one recommended him to me. I just saw the sign on his office.



It seems to have fixed my neck. Even the Chiropractor wouldn't believe it. Seriously, it made such a difference.

Here's the hitch. I went back today for a follow up and it didn't do anything new. Then he asked to schedule another appointment for next week but now I am feeling diminishing returns. So I ask myself, is going the first time like getting high the first time when you are a kid and then you always try to go back to that place but never can until you just give up or die. If that is the case then I would just quit now before I have to deal with years of chiropractic costs - not that it is very expensive.

$50 for the first appointment and $35 for follow-ups.